erotically codependent

graphic by the lovely bilosan ♥

I am not crying. So, Season 15 happened, and I still can't believe it's over. But I can't say I would have it any other way. This is the final current season fic rec. These usually include codas and missing scenes, touching on anything between God, heaven, life after your brother dying and the general bunker era. I had a great time putting this list together, and I hope you enjoy these super good fics (in my opinion at least)! Lengths, chapters, ratings, and horniness vary. They're all about gay brothers.

Here is the bro playlist I listened to while making this. Good luck.

the thirty-third yard (NC-17, 11703 words) - deadlybride Nothing complicated.

one thousand and one mornings (and one eternal day) (T+, 5536 words) - phoenixflight “I guess we make our peace with it. Or die trying.”

the nuclear option (M, 1039 words) - themegalosaurus It's not enough.

The Operative Word (NC-17, 33802 words) - road_rhythm Sam doesn't doubt the fuck or die part.

Any Witch Way (T+, 6801 words) - merle_p  Dean spends the entire time trying not to think too hard about the absurdist soap opera his life has become.

no one thing is everything (T+, 6837 words) - Canon_Is_Relative When she finally asks her question it leaves Sam wondering how he could ever have thought this was about anything else.

the blurriness of being alive (M, 3532 words) - hathfrozen There are four promises Sam wanted him to keep.

there will be better days (NC-17, 9430 words) - deadlybride Anything they want.

Afterimage (Gen, 9123 words) - formalizing It helps make today a little easier.

One Good Birthday (T+, 3773 words) - brokenlittleboy Dean nodded like it was nothing.

Where the Bodies Are Buried (M, 8426 words) - road_rhythm You expect me to wash all this blood off?

There will always be a first time (NC-17, 5860 words) - redmyeyes The first time it happens…

Highway to Heaven (NC-17, 24769 words) - cherie_morte  You have no idea how much I would have given to see this.

As You Are (T+, 1794 words) - phoenixflight There were times in his life that Sam thought that loving his brother would kill him

Untitled Ficlet (Gen, 655 words) - deadlybride  Feels like days past, in the best kind of way.

room to breathe (NC-17, 3426 words) - whiskeycherrypie God, that hypothetical therapist would have a field day with him.

PREVIOUS SEASONS: (S10) (S11) (S13/12) (S14)

Thanks to everyone who sent in recommendations! This is a crowdsourced reclist of episode-specific first-time wincest fics that were not written for the FTWF. Enjoy!

1.01: You Will Be, by genevra1676

1.07: Rearview, by toomuchplor

1.08: To Blow Against the Wind, by dreamlittleyo

1.14: Absolution, by j2annon

1.21: Looking for Salvation with Dad in Another State, by merepersiflage

2.08: Carry Me Over the Sky, by killabeez

2.10: Birds on a Wire, by killabeez

2.10: the ivory of tooth and eye, by deadlybride

2.12: Practical Men of the World, by nigeltde

3.01: the silent storm, by missroserose

3.08: Make the Yuletide Gay, by nomelon

3.08: Take Anything, by DarkCaustic

3.11: North of Wednesday, by Mollyamory

3.11: Hammer to Fall, by killabeez

3.11: This Fortress Made of Us, by mickeym

3.11: Wolves at the Door, by Nutkin

4.10: I’m No Angel, by dreamlittleyo

4.17: oh so good, oh so fine, by deadlybride

5.08: The Outlaw Torn, by LaughableLament

5.10: I’m Just the Devil with Love to Spare, by dreamlittleyo

5.16: From the Ashes Rising, by imonlyobsessed

6.06: No Brother Of Mine, by angelcult

7.12: Monumentally Stupid, by strive2bhappy

8.23: The Talking Cure, by Mollyamory

9.05: Good Boy, by babybrotherdean

10.03: You Ignite My Soul, by kaelyx67

10.03: remorse; correction, by deadlybride

10.03: Blood and Bone, by AxeMeAboutAxinomancy

11.11: All Thanks to the Golden Girl, by smalltrolven

11.13: Love Scars, Love Wounds, by RiverSongTam

11.17: gods of chance, by puckity

12.01 & 12.02: The Nature of Reality, by Ferrera

12.02: Good Clean Fun, by nigeltde

12.09: As a Stone, by AlulaSpeaks

12.11: Overdue, by LaughableLament

12.18: You’ve Got Mail, by purewanderlust

13.22: What They Can Never Have, by Durinsbride

14.03: This is gospel, by cherryvanilla

14.08: Grieving Jack, by alwaysthrowsscissors

14.12: unholy bones, by whiskeycherrypie

14.13: side two, track one, by deadlybride

14.20: Last stop at the end of the world, by ber_g

15.04: room to breathe, by whiskeycherrypie

15.14: Already Taken, by smalltrolven

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(read on AO3)

The second hunt, after, is when things start to feel real again.

First job was the shapeshifter and even after just a few weeks of post-almost-apocalypse vacation they were rusty, as much as they ever got rusty. Sam broke his damn finger, which Dean made fun of him for, and Dean limped around on a half-busted shin that Sam can just stop smirking about, any time now, but they felt—like what? Hard to pin down. Like they were stepping out into a strange world. Like they’d fire a gun and didn’t know if it’d recoil the same way it always would, because the world was different. New. At least, Dean kept feeling that way, and he thinks he’s known Sam long enough to guess Sam was feeling about the same. Every part of that job was—feeling for a step down in the dark, and then being surprised when it was there. Sam flicking through the local paper checking obits, cautious when he pointed out a possible connection, like he hadn’t done the same thing a hundred, thousand, times before. Dean going through the trunk and pulling out their supplies and holding a fistful of silver bullets in his hand and thinking—is this it? Sam, getting the motel room after, when they’d been to the Urgent Care to check out Dean’s stupid shin that it turns out, okay, wasn’t broken after all, and the woman at the counter asking what kind of room, and Sam hesitating, and glancing back at where Dean was propped up in the office doorway.

But it was right, in the end. They did right. They saved most of a day and killed the bad thing and it turned out that after everything they were still the same guys they always were. After the world ended it was supposed to be maybe something else, but, shit, the world didn’t quite end after all, and it turned out… Sam gave his stupid shin a few more days to rest up and kept his finger splinted and then after a week there was Sam, laptop open on the table when Dean came in for breakfast, and he said, “Hey, you want to work?” with every expectation that Dean would, and that—that was new, kind of, in the way that Sam wasn’t trying to distract himself or Dean, and it wasn’t to patch up some broken thing that couldn’t be fixed, and it wasn’t because they owed anything to anyone. It was because it turned out that after all this was who they were, and Dean looked at Sam over the island while he whipped up some eggs semi-capably (although he never used enough salt) and Sam glanced over his shoulder when the toaster popped and saw Dean looking, and raised his eyebrows like—what?—like this wasn’t just the best hope of Dean’s life being realized, finally, right here in a hole in the ground at eight in the morning, on the wrong side of forty. “What’s the job?” was all Dean said, then, and then—that was it. That was that.

supernatural rewatch: 1.22 devil's trap

"Killing this demon comes first – before me, before everything."

2. James Cameron reads said manga

3. Cameron, hot off a successful movie run, is inspired while at the same time wanting to create a show

4. Creates and writes show Dark Angel, casting Jensen Ackles in a reoccurring supporting role

5. Show about genetically enhanced characters features “heat” as something characters go through

6. Show gets canceled after 2 seasons. Jensen Ackles is now unemployed.

7. Supernatural airs 3 years later, with Jensen Ackles as the main character

8. RPF becomes massively popular for the show to avoid the main incest pairing with canon characters

9. Fanfic AU inspired by Ackle’s stint on Dark Angel morphs multiple existing tropes, creating first official ABO (omegaverse) story for Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki

10. Omegaverse becomes wildly popular, spreading across multiple fandoms and variations

11. Omegaverse novels begin to get published, including by Addison Cain and Zoey Ellis who both wrote het omegaverse novels

12. Cain files DMCA against Ellis, with Cain claiming to have invented het omegaverse