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Planets in the 4th house and influences from your early life environment 🐣🧬 Part I
The sun: you may have received considerable attention during your childhood, or been around people who drew attention. I'm picturing a possibly lively household, where even little accomplishments were treated as milestones (picture family celebrating you losing a tooth). You may view your childhood as the most dynamic or important part of your life. Your "childhood" or "childishness" could have seemed to be protected by others around you and much importance is given to the life you were exposed to early on. Subsequently, I can picture an adult who seems to maintain their 'whimsy' or 'youthfulness'. One who may seem childish or even a little naive to others.
The moon: Similar to the Sun, there is a feeling of utmost safety and importance concerning your childhood/early life. At home, you may have been surrounded by 'homebodies' or people who were more reserved so you may also feel used to staying where you feel safe and sure. If negative aspects are made, you may have witnessed a lot of mood swings around people in your childhood or the home may have been dependent on the unpredictable moods of someone. It makes a person feel unsafe with emotional support once grown up. You may perpetually find yourself not letting go of your defences easily and waiting for the other metaphorical shoe to drop in relationships.
Mercury: A lot of random changes may have been present (not necessarily emotional changes, as is more likely with the moon). Constant changes of location, of school, a parent who worked far from home or who you never really knew when they were going to show up. You may be used to taking care of yourself, making your own decisions and embracing fleeting but fun experiences in your adulthood and probably would not be fond of people who try to box you in, or create unwanted structures in your lifestyle.
Venus: The topic of beauty or keeping up appearances may have been a common one in your early environment. This could, as all placements, manifest in a number of ways. It may have been vain, and harmful comparisons may have constantly been made between you and others to judge the way you look. Or people around you scolded or disdained you for not holding yourself "presentable" or "desirable". This placement could also have just made you someone who appreciates aesthetics and pleasing things. You may have grown up on the finer things in life, enjoying good food, good clothes, good perfume maybe? The grown up you would still have high standards in your material life, especially in relationships. And you would probably have a hard time compromising physical or even romantic ideals.
Mars: There may have been quite some high energy and maybe tension—of course that depends on sign and aspects. In a more obvious interpretation you may have seen violence growing up or been used to explosive reactions (not necessarily physical). This placement could also just mean there was a great deal of defensiveness and protectiveness around your home life, maybe by figures older than you and you ended up adapting that attitude. Your family may have been very physical with you, like playing sports or giving physical affection as well. They may have also been direct and encouraged you to be as well.
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Planets in the 4th house and influences from your early life environment 🐣🧬 Part I
The sun: you may have received considerable attention during your childhood, or been around people who drew attention. I'm picturing a possibly lively household, where even little accomplishments were treated as milestones (picture family celebrating you losing a tooth). You may view your childhood as the most dynamic or important part of your life. Your "childhood" or "childishness" could have seemed to be protected by others around you and much importance is given to the life you were exposed to early on. Subsequently, I can picture an adult who seems to maintain their 'whimsy' or 'youthfulness'. One who may seem childish or even a little naive to others.
The moon: Similar to the Sun, there is a feeling of utmost safety and importance concerning your childhood/early life. At home, you may have been surrounded by 'homebodies' or people who were more reserved so you may also feel used to staying where you feel safe and sure. If negative aspects are made, you may have witnessed a lot of mood swings around people in your childhood or the home may have been dependent on the unpredictable moods of someone. It makes a person feel unsafe with emotional support once grown up. You may perpetually find yourself not letting go of your defences easily and waiting for the other metaphorical shoe to drop in relationships.
Mercury: A lot of random changes may have been present (not necessarily emotional changes, as is more likely with the moon). Constant changes of location, of school, a parent who worked far from home or who you never really knew when they were going to show up. You may be used to taking care of yourself, making your own decisions and embracing fleeting but fun experiences in your adulthood and probably would not be fond of people who try to box you in, or create unwanted structures in your lifestyle.
Venus: The topic of beauty or keeping up appearances may have been a common one in your early environment. This could, as all placements, manifest in a number of ways. It may have been vain, and harmful comparisons may have constantly been made between you and others to judge the way you look. Or people around you scolded or disdained you for not holding yourself "presentable" or "desirable". This placement could also have just made you someone who appreciates aesthetics and pleasing things. You may have grown up on the finer things in life, enjoying good food, good clothes, good perfume maybe? The grown up you would still have high standards in your material life, especially in relationships. And you would probably have a hard time compromising physical or even romantic ideals.
Mars: There may have been quite some high energy and maybe tension—of course that depends on sign and aspects. In a more obvious interpretation you may have seen violence growing up or been used to explosive reactions (not necessarily physical). This placement could also just mean there was a great deal of defensiveness and protectiveness around your home life, maybe by figures older than you and you ended up adapting that attitude. Your family may have been very physical with you, like playing sports or giving physical affection as well. They may have also been direct and encouraged you to be as well.
at some point in your life you will be boiling fruit, water, sugar, and lemon juice in a pot to make a syrup or jam. the instructions will tell you to simmer for a certain amt of time. your timer will go off and you will look at the pot and go, "hm, this doesn't look thick enough. maybe i'll let it go for another 10 minutes." this is the devil speaking. it's only so liquid right now because it is at boiling point. it will thicken when it cools down. learn from the follies of my youth and do not let this happen to you
at some point in your life you will be making a sauce or a stew in which you need to add cornstarch to thicken it. and you will prepare a slurry of starch in cold water and think "this looks like way too little starch to thicken this amount of liquid." this is the devil speaking. cornstarch instantly polymerizes at 95°C and if you add too much it will turn into an impossibly thick goop.
at some point in your life you will be making some sort of cream based dessert that requires gelatin to thicken it. and you will soak some gelatin sheets in water and think "this is too few gelatin sheets for this amount of cream." this is the devil speaking. it will thicken in the fridge and if you add too much you will end up with milk jelly
at some point in your life you will be baking cookies. you will take the sheet out after twelve minutes as the recipe instructs and the cookies will still be glistening and soft. "these don't seem cooked enough," you will think to yourself, "i should place them back into the oven until their edges are nice and golden." this is the devil talking. this is how you get dry, overdone cookies. the cookies will continue to bake on the warm sheet for several more minutes and then harden up after sitting on a rack for a while. trust the process. trust the process.
at some point in your life you will be adding a small pasta to a soup and you will think "that is not enough small pasta." this is the devil talking. the pasta will absorb the stock and expand. this is how you end up with a soup that is a solid mass of soggy ditalini.
At some point in your life you will be adding garlic to a dish and you will think "that is not enough garlic." These are angels speaking. They are correct. Add more garlic.
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A very mini set of Astrology Observations for the end of the year 💕
🎀 ✴ Your moon being the same as someone else's sun sign will give you an "inexplicable" sense of closeness and safety with them. As if no matter how far apart you guys are or no matter what they say you'll always feel safe with them. They're like a habit. Comfortable, warm, reassuring. Like they've always been here. Or were always meant to be ❤️
🎀 ✴ Mercury in Pisces I love how despite people finding your words to be all over the place or incomprehensible, you actually have a very detailed memory of things no one else easily recalls. You could tell vivid stories of events from 10 years ago and I'll probably believe you 80%. The remaining 20% is mostly because I'm just a skeptic like that 😃
🎀 ✴ Having a lot of planets in your 3rd house can indicate a lot of siblings or you being very sibling/family oriented, especially in the earlier stages of your life. You may or may not be less family oriented as you grow into adulthood.
🎀 ✴ Pluto in the 3rd house people. Please give me some of the boldness you have to be blunt in situations where people expect you to lay low or be agreeable. Just keep saying whatever you want ><
🎀 ✴ Dear Neptunes in the 1st house, you can be whatever you want to be to get yourself in or out of any position. Only remember to have the mental fortitude to not get lost in any role you perform at any time.
School and family have kind of been kicking my ass so this is all I have for now 🥹😖 Thank you so so much to all the 200+ followers I gained on Tumblr this year. Y'all have given me so much hope for the new year and I absolutely CANNOT wait for what this astrology community will bring me in 2026 💓
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We all have emotions. Some of us just have an easier time dealing with them than others… I’m talking to you, Aquarius.
So what happens when your Moon sign is confronted with its own wave of emotional chaos?
Let’s find out.
Aries Moon
Your impulsivity is intense. The way you go from 0 to 100 is honestly a bit scary, even to yourself. You lose your shit quickly, loudly, physically. It doesn’t stay internal, it comes out. Aries rules the first house, the body, so your emotions need a physical outlet. Sex, fighting, working out, whatever it is, it has to move through you or it will consume you.
This can be a dangerous Moon when unhealed. Especially in the 12th house, you might turn that anger inward without even realizing it. Self sabotage, self destruction, pushing yourself too far. You don’t always see that you’re the one hurting you.
You need to release it before it turns on you. Go run. Go move. Don’t let it sit.
Taurus Moon
You don’t react right away. You absorb. You tolerate more than you should because you hate disruption, instability, and losing control. You stay calm on the surface, even when something in you is already starting to crack, waiting for the moment it all feels like too much. You lose interest when you realize you’re not building in the same direction as the other.
People mistake your patience for permission. They keep pushing because you don’t react, but you are reacting, slowly, quietly, storing it in your body. Over time it builds into something solid, something unmovable.
And when you finally decide to move on, you make sure you have seen enough. Enough to not question it, enough to not go back, enough to not look behind you.
By the time it comes out, it’s not emotional anymore. It’s decided. You leave without looking back, like whatever you built all this time never even mattered.
Gemini Moon
Your emotions don’t stay in one place long enough to fully land. The second something feels too heavy, your mind jumps in, analyzing, rationalizing, talking, joking, anything to keep it from settling.
You feel things, but you don’t always stay in them. You split between feeling and explaining, constantly shifting between the two. Sometimes you don’t even know which one is real anymore.
You can talk about your emotions endlessly without actually touching them. That distance keeps you safe, but it also keeps you disconnected.
It’s not that you don’t care. Everything just moves too fast inside your head for anything to fully settle.
Cancer Moon
It always feels like too much. Even when you don’t show it, it runs deeper than anyone realizes. People don’t understand that their present actions reopen past wounds. For you, it’s never just about now, it’s layered, emotional memory stacking on top of itself.
There’s a quiet hopelessness that creeps in. A feeling that no one really gets it, no one listens the way you listen, shows up the way you show up.
You give without hesitation, you feel without limits, and that creates an imbalance that slowly drains you.
It’s not just the pain, it’s the realization that you are not being held the same way you hold others.
Leo Moon
You feel things deeply, but your pride is tied into it. You don’t just want to be loved, you want to be chosen, appreciated, recognized. When that doesn’t happen, it hits something personal, something tied directly to your sense of worth.
You try to play it off, keep your dignity, act like it doesn’t bother you. But it does, more than you’ll admit, more than you want anyone to see.
You give a lot of yourself, your warmth, your attention, your presence, and you expect that to be valued. When it isn’t, it feels like rejection.
Because it’s not just about the situation, it’s about what it says about your place in someone’s life.
Virgo Moon
You don’t let yourself fall apart, you analyze instead. You try to understand what went wrong, how it happened, what you could have done differently. And somehow, it always comes back to you.
You carry this quiet pressure to get it right, to fix things, to not be too much. So you manage your emotions instead of expressing them, turning them into something practical, something you can control.
They don’t disappear. They turn into tension, overthinking, and constant low level anxiety. You start doing more to make up for your discomfort, avoiding the real issue.
Suddenly nothing is right, you start nitpicking, fixing, complaining. That’s when you know it’s time, when you don’t feel like helping them anymore.
Libra Moon
You avoid conflict at all costs. You smooth things over, keep the peace, say what needs to be said to maintain balance, even if it means ignoring what you actually feel.
You prioritize harmony so much that you slowly start abandoning yourself in the process. It feels easier to adjust than to disrupt.
But it builds under the surface. You start to feel unseen, unheard, but you don’t say anything right away.
By the time you do speak, you’ve been holding it in for a long time, having reenacted the argument over and over in your head, planning what you will say in advance, but it never comes out like it was supposed to right ? Cause you were not meant to hold theses feelings in, in the first place.
Scorpio Moon
You feel everything intensely, but you don’t show it. You keep it contained, controlled, hidden, not because it’s not there, but because it’s too much. You may have been told you were too much, so you learned early on to silence your intensity.
But nothing actually disappears. You go deep with your emotions, sitting with them, analyzing them, replaying them until they become part of you. Every hurt stays, every betrayal adds another layer.
You don’t react often. But when you do, it’s deliberate, it’s cold and it cuts. You know exactly what to say to destroy them, because people have tried to do it to you countless times.
When it finally comes out, it’s overwhelming, consuming. And once it’s over, there is no going back. They’re dead to you.
Sagittarius Moon
You don’t like sitting in heavy emotions. When things get too intense, you instinctively move away, physically, mentally, or both. Staying in it feels suffocating.
You tell yourself it’s not that deep, laugh it off, distract yourself, shift focus. Anything to avoid feeling stuck in something you can’t control.
You convince yourself there are better things to focus on, learning, discovering, moving forward. But avoidance doesn’t erase anything.
The feeling stays. It comes back in quiet moments, like a wave of melancholy that follows you, reminding you that you never really dealt with it.
Capricorn Moon
You don’t trust emotions easily. You see them as something to control, manage, contain. You handle things, move forward, keep functioning, because you feel like you don’t have time to fall apart.
You were not taught how to feel, so when emotions come up, you acknowledge them, but you don’t know what to do with them. They just sit there, unprocessed.
You carry everything alone. Responsibility, pressure, expectations. And over time, it hardens, turning into something heavy you can’t put down.
Eventually it catches up to you. Your body feels it, your mind feels it. And the structure you relied on starts to crack.
Aquarius Moon
You detach before things get too intense. It’s automatic. You step back from your emotions and observe them instead of fully feeling them. It feels safer that way.
You keep an emotional distance from the world, almost afraid that if you let yourself react fully, you might lose your faith in it. So you stay slightly removed.
You understand what’s happening, but you don’t always connect to it in the moment. Reality takes time to settle in.
You process later, alone, when no one’s watching, trying to convince yourself that what you feel isn’t real.
Pisces Moon
You don’t just feel your emotions, you absorb everything around you. Other people’s feelings, the atmosphere, the unspoken tension. It all blends together so much that you cannot always tell where you end and others begin.
Feeling this much starts to feel like a curse. There is no off switch, no clear boundary between you and the world around you.
You give too much, feel too much, carry too much. And eventually, it becomes overwhelming in a way you cannot even fully explain.
It is not one thing, it is everything at once, almost like you are drowning in your own sorrow.
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I think your presence might give him a lot of confidence and make him feel desired. He may feel confident to express his desires with you as well.
There is a healing quality in Chiron— it's also a want to heal and to be healed.
You may feel inspired to take care of him and genuinely enjoy when your presence brings out his true personality
Occasionally though, he may feel challenged or conflicted by you. He may struggle with expressing himself in a "flattering" or "pleasing" way towards you despite internally wanting to get closer to you.
Overall, his love language and personality will come across as charming to you and he may even teach you or help you get better at certain things. However the relationship risks disillusionment, or feeling stifled or feeling like duty instead of romantic or sweet (assuming this a romantic relationship you are asking about. If not just ignore that ><)
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It's about "I am through hating something just for bearing my face" it's about "I am through hurting myself" it's about "I know you're wrong and full of anger and ready to hurt and I have been there and I have gotten through, I think, I hope, and I have to hope for you, too". It's about hugging the growling snarling creature because it's you, it's you, and of course you're a monster, nothing new in that regard, but you also know a monster is not a lost cause. Because you have to try kindness even if nobody else would.
Let’s say you find that you are standing outside your window, eyes empty, face void of any expression, which you have done in the past more times than you care to recall, wondering if there’s any point in coming in, or in lingering, or in anything at all, the only difference being that you are also inside this time. You look into your own face, and you look back, and as you turn to flee you open the window from the inside, yell-whisper “wait!”. You freeze in your tracks, and this is where you imagine a different you would make a distinction between true you and wrong you, between the soft sweater-clad figure framed in orange light and the creature, shadow and sharp angles, crouched and trying so hard to be scary. Not you, though. You know intimately well how easy it is to be both.
“It is cold. In the forest,” you say. “I imagine you wouldn’t mind some tea. Perhaps a blanket, too? I still have the one with orange ducks, you know, the one your mom made you. Come inside. It is your home, after all.”
You tilt your head, beast turned confused puppy, inch your way towards the frame. Your fingers are too long and you seem to be dragging darkness behind you like a fish rising from murky water. You reach your hand outside and you hesitate to take it, but you do, you do.
You sit in the kitchen with two cups of tea and your duck-blanket wrapped around your shoulders. You smile at yourself. You do not return the gesture.
“I won’t hurt you,” you say. “If that’s what you’re worried about.”
“Why?” you ask, voice rough with disuse. You shrink into your blanket in an attempt to take up as little space as possible, to hardly exist at all. “I was going to.”
“I know. I know.” You pour some more tea into your cup, let the silence rest. You have a scar on your right forearm from where you poured half a pot of boiling water and told everyone it was an accident, maybe even convinced yourself. It is currently hidden by the sweater. Lots of things are. You take a slow sip of your tea. “I just won’t hurt you anymore.”
You reach your hand out of the blanket, find the other cup, clutch into it like it’s the panacea. Your eyes are solid black and you do not open your mouth unless you have to.
“Most do.”
You sound hurt, not in the moment, something dragged up in your memory and played on repeat despite your will. You hug yourself. You hug yourself back. You spill some of the tea on your duck blanket and it doesn't matter at all.
You live with yourself. It's something everyone does and yet it collects some glances, whispers woven into half-formed stories. You made a deal with a demon who took your twin's body. You summoned your reflection to be a helper and it went all wrong. You should have dealt with it, but you're too kind, you sentimental sob, or perhaps the unsightly creature got tangled up with your soul. Off-putting but tentatively judged to be harmless. One more strangeness in a strange land.
You sleep in the bed and sometimes under it and sometimes in the closet. You melt into shadow and you stare at lamps for too long. You are afraid of touching gentle things, but you use your claws for gardening and snipping weeds. You let out every bug you can find and whisper to the ones you found too late, still and weightless on the windowsill, words that are only between you and the bug.
You dance with yourself in the evenings, in clumsy, uncertain motions dictated by nothing but joy. You share your clothes and braid your hair. You teach yourself to cook, you read books out loud and do ridiculous voices. You venture into the forest for berries and mushrooms but you, all of you, make sure to return before dark.
You can walk through mirrors, where you are the reflection and you are the observer and the world is shadow and you are hardly anything at all. Your teeth are sharp and you dislike showing them, the way you dislike showing your scars. You know what the forest whispers and you know what the townsfolk gossip and it is not really anything new.
You have dreams in which it’s ten years ago and you would have put a knife through the throat of anything that looks like you and in the morning haze you struggle to remember what changed.
You have nightmares in which you never get to be anything more than hurt, a distorted echo of what a person is supposed to be. You hold yourself until sunlight puts everything in its place.
Sometimes you still linger by windows, looking in, forgetting it's okay to enter. Sometimes you don't fit in your body right with all of your emptiness and all of your claws and all the feelings that you were pretty sure you worked through years ago, and on those days you hold yourself tight, tell yourself about tomorrow, about the day after that, about how you can get a cat and a bird and a weird talking fish who is probably omniscient, you saw an add for one scribbled on the bottom of a rock at the edge of the forest.
And sometimes you listen to yourself, and sometimes you just nod along until the words fit together enough to make sense again. Either way you look into your face and choose to be kind again and again and again.
It's about "I am through hating something just for bearing my face" it's about "I am through hurting myself" it's about "I know you're wrong and full of anger and ready to hurt and I have been there and I have gotten through, I think, I hope, and I have to hope for you, too". It's about hugging the growling snarling creature because it's you, it's you, and of course you're a monster, nothing new in that regard, but you also know a monster is not a lost cause. Because you have to try kindness even if nobody else would.
Let’s say you find that you are standing outside your window, eyes empty, face void of any expression, which you have done in the past more times than you care to recall, wondering if there’s any point in coming in, or in lingering, or in anything at all, the only difference being that you are also inside this time. You look into your own face, and you look back, and as you turn to flee you open the window from the inside, yell-whisper “wait!”. You freeze in your tracks, and this is where you imagine a different you would make a distinction between true you and wrong you, between the soft sweater-clad figure framed in orange light and the creature, shadow and sharp angles, crouched and trying so hard to be scary. Not you, though. You know intimately well how easy it is to be both.
“It is cold. In the forest,” you say. “I imagine you wouldn’t mind some tea. Perhaps a blanket, too? I still have the one with orange ducks, you know, the one your mom made you. Come inside. It is your home, after all.”
You tilt your head, beast turned confused puppy, inch your way towards the frame. Your fingers are too long and you seem to be dragging darkness behind you like a fish rising from murky water. You reach your hand outside and you hesitate to take it, but you do, you do.
You sit in the kitchen with two cups of tea and your duck-blanket wrapped around your shoulders. You smile at yourself. You do not return the gesture.
“I won’t hurt you,” you say. “If that’s what you’re worried about.”
“Why?” you ask, voice rough with disuse. You shrink into your blanket in an attempt to take up as little space as possible, to hardly exist at all. “I was going to.”
“I know. I know.” You pour some more tea into your cup, let the silence rest. You have a scar on your right forearm from where you poured half a pot of boiling water and told everyone it was an accident, maybe even convinced yourself. It is currently hidden by the sweater. Lots of things are. You take a slow sip of your tea. “I just won’t hurt you anymore.”
You reach your hand out of the blanket, find the other cup, clutch into it like it’s the panacea. Your eyes are solid black and you do not open your mouth unless you have to.
“Most do.”
You sound hurt, not in the moment, something dragged up in your memory and played on repeat despite your will. You hug yourself. You hug yourself back. You spill some of the tea on your duck blanket and it doesn't matter at all.
You live with yourself. It's something everyone does and yet it collects some glances, whispers woven into half-formed stories. You made a deal with a demon who took your twin's body. You summoned your reflection to be a helper and it went all wrong. You should have dealt with it, but you're too kind, you sentimental sob, or perhaps the unsightly creature got tangled up with your soul. Off-putting but tentatively judged to be harmless. One more strangeness in a strange land.
You sleep in the bed and sometimes under it and sometimes in the closet. You melt into shadow and you stare at lamps for too long. You are afraid of touching gentle things, but you use your claws for gardening and snipping weeds. You let out every bug you can find and whisper to the ones you found too late, still and weightless on the windowsill, words that are only between you and the bug.
You dance with yourself in the evenings, in clumsy, uncertain motions dictated by nothing but joy. You share your clothes and braid your hair. You teach yourself to cook, you read books out loud and do ridiculous voices. You venture into the forest for berries and mushrooms but you, all of you, make sure to return before dark.
You can walk through mirrors, where you are the reflection and you are the observer and the world is shadow and you are hardly anything at all. Your teeth are sharp and you dislike showing them, the way you dislike showing your scars. You know what the forest whispers and you know what the townsfolk gossip and it is not really anything new.
You have dreams in which it’s ten years ago and you would have put a knife through the throat of anything that looks like you and in the morning haze you struggle to remember what changed.
You have nightmares in which you never get to be anything more than hurt, a distorted echo of what a person is supposed to be. You hold yourself until sunlight puts everything in its place.
Sometimes you still linger by windows, looking in, forgetting it's okay to enter. Sometimes you don't fit in your body right with all of your emptiness and all of your claws and all the feelings that you were pretty sure you worked through years ago, and on those days you hold yourself tight, tell yourself about tomorrow, about the day after that, about how you can get a cat and a bird and a weird talking fish who is probably omniscient, you saw an add for one scribbled on the bottom of a rock at the edge of the forest.
And sometimes you listen to yourself, and sometimes you just nod along until the words fit together enough to make sense again. Either way you look into your face and choose to be kind again and again and again.
“You probably won’t be happy until you’re an old man. No matter what kind of tournaments you win, you’ll never be truly satisfied. You’ll be that annoying guy who chases volleyball forever.”
A Japanese transmasc rapper named Cocona has become a Brand Ambassador for Gucci. GUCCI!!!! And he’s in Milan Primavera, a really important and fancy fashion show, strutting around with a buzz cut and all his piercings and visible top surgery scars and I’m like genuinely so emotional about this I need all of you to see this!!!!!!! 🥹🥹🥹
He has been out for about 2 months, and in the time since his bandmates (as he is part of a musical group) have been nothing but extremely loving and supportive towards him, even rebranding from “Xtraordinary Girls” to “Xtraordinary Genes” as a way to support him :D
They now refer to him as their little brother and pet his buzz cut like a cat :]
I hope this can serve as proof to any trans people who may see this that there will always, ALWAYS be people out there who see you as you are and love you for it! It just takes a little time.
So my exams are coming up soon and that's why I've been very inactive and probably will be that way for the next one month. I may or may not post something within this time (but no promises).
I will definitely get into the asks when I get free time so don't worry. Sending love and good health to anyone who comes across this post and to all who follow this blog 💗
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Mars in the signs and what your heart always finds worth fighting for 💘🔥 Pt 1
Mars in Aries
The importance of your presence; The things you want and envision being a reality; Physical strength; Your direction; Your passions; Your assertive power/influence
Mars in Taurus
Your body; Your comfort; Your values; Your comfort foods; Your habits; Your properties like money, jewelry, land or a house; Your self esteem; Self worth
Mars in Gemini
Your voice; Your thoughts; Your childhood/The childhood of others you care about; How you communicate; actually standing up for your siblings (if you have any) or constantly having fights and tussles with them; Your versatility and ability to be multifaceted (basically fighting to not be put in a box or seen as a monolithe due to what ever stereotype)
Mars in Cancer
The validity of your feelings; The respect of your feelings; Your family/loved ones; People you feel are less privileged; Your home
Mars in Leo
Your identity; Your dreams and aspirations; The spotlight; Individuality; Keeping the excitement alive; Creativity; Romantic pursuits; Children
Mars in Virgo
Order; Ease within a situation; Consistency; Your habits/rituals and routines; The environment (keeping things green and gravitating towards natural remedies); With or For co-workers; Your hard work; Seeing everything you do as worth the effort and sticking to it (beyond what others see as necessary)
FIVE FREE FACTS FOR ASTROLOGY PLACEMENTS (Pisces edition)
🐟 I'm yet to understand the mechanism behind Pisces Mercuries appearing lost in their own world and head at some times, yet having such vivid memories that'll surprise even the seemingly "attentive" people.
🐟 Pisces in 2nd house likes money but don't really giving af when they don't have it. They be manifesting and mentally in another reality where they're comfortable
🐟 North node venus will probably have a very striking epiphany of allowing themselves to feel the moment and enjoy the ride. It'll become one of their biggest blessings when they allow their hearts to breathe and understand the inexplicable tides of life.
🐟 Pisces stellium in 2nd house and having a lot of water themed ornaments and décors in their home (like mermaid sculptures, fish paintings, water filled glass structures yada yada)
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