Hearts of Many

So to start. August was always going to be hard. That was my anniversary with my ex, when we were supposed to get married, etc. I was struggling really hard with that. Around this time, my grandma was also finally put into a home, as her care needs exceeded what my aunt could provide. As we entered september, she was put in hospice care.

Shortly after that news, I went to leave for work one morning. My car was stolen. All that remained in the parking lot was the door handle. We found it after less than a week. However, insurance totaled it out (not because of any accidents, but because of the repairs of just what the thieves did while stealing it). So I was without transportation for like a month. While the good that came of this is i'm back in a jeep, my dream car, have more coverage on this loan than the last and my payment didn't change, and my insurance went down in cost, it was a lot.

In that time, my grandma died. So that's been hard. Even knowing it was coming. I was devestated. In a lot of ways I still am. I miss her a lot.

On top of that, we've just had a lot of mental health clashes and challenges at home. One roommate is off meds, and her bevahior has basically had me living in a constantly triggered state of where I was last year living with my ex. Which hasn't been pleasant or easy.

So to start. August was always going to be hard. That was my anniversary with my ex, when we were supposed to get married, etc. I was struggling really hard with that. Around this time, my grandma was also finally put into a home, as her care needs exceeded what my aunt could provide. As we entered september, she was put in hospice care.

Shortly after that news, I went to leave for work one morning. My car was stolen. All that remained in the parking lot was the door handle. We found it after less than a week. However, insurance totaled it out (not because of any accidents, but because of the repairs of just what the thieves did while stealing it). So I was without transportation for like a month. While the good that came of this is i'm back in a jeep, my dream car, have more coverage on this loan than the last and my payment didn't change, and my insurance went down in cost, it was a lot.

In that time, my grandma died. So that's been hard. Even knowing it was coming. I was devestated. In a lot of ways I still am. I miss her a lot.

On top of that, we've just had a lot of mental health clashes and challenges at home. One roommate is off meds, and her bevahior has basically had me living in a constantly triggered state of where I was last year living with my ex. Which hasn't been pleasant or easy.