Thoughts

I’ll never be ready in time.

I’ll forever be my own worst enemy.

My fear isn’t if, it’s when.

Will when ever come?…

I guess delicate time will tell…

I don’t like goodbyes..

Please never leave…

My heads been real foggy, I forgot a lot of important things this week, and I still am neglecting to call clinical sites. Part of me thinks I need a break from smoking, part of me feels I need to once again go back and find a quality therapist, and part of me thinks I’m being to have a mental breakdown.

I feel like I’m going through the motions but I’m happy and miserable all at the same time. I know this is my depression but fuck… maybe I need medication? Do I need a break? What’s causing me to feel like this?

I shouldn’t feel like this if I’m honest. I have a good job, I’m in school, a healthy and wonderful relationship, I have a dog, I’ve been saving money… what’s the problem? Why is life passing me by while I’m struggling to keep up with the weekly bullshit… Am I cut out for this? Have I bit off more than I can chew? Am I confused? Am I making the right choices?

Fuck me, man… I’m so tired of this shit.. I need a fucking break or some help or something…

#thoughts

First 10 Song From Shuffle.. *Honest*

1.) One I want FT PartyNextDoor- Mijad Jordan

2.) Some Nights- FUN

3.) Two Matches- Mac Miller

4.) Freedom of Speech- Immortal Technique

5.) Summer Love- Justin Timberlake

6.) The More I Drink- Blake Shelton

7.) Keep it Mellow - Marshmellow

8.) Hard to Love- Lee Brice

9.) Loving You Easy- Zac Brown Band

10.) Lost- Chance The Rapper