Adrian was right; Adi was starting to notice he was becoming overbearing, that he was suffocating his poor love, but hearing it made his mistakes all the more real to the tiny dhampir. It was certainly a good thing they were finally communicating with each other on the matter, thatâs for sure. Adi furiously rubbed at his eyes, trying to stop the tears before he answered.
âIâmâŚIâm sorry, Iâll try harder to control it⌠Iâm sorry Iâve been suffocating you so much. Youâre right, and Iâm so sorry I keep ruining this for youâŚâ he spoke, still trying to staunch his tears, and not think about how much blood this particular wound spilt. âSometimes I admittedly forget what we areâŚthat youâre much stronger than I am⌠butâŚthank you for reminding me of how overbearing I can get, I donât mean to be⌠Iâll try harder, Iâll try harder not to fuss so much next time so you can really enjoy this.â
And Adi meant it, he would try harder to reign himself in. For Adrian, heâd do anything he had to so he could be as happy as he made his tiny partner. Heâd take this reminder that no, Adrian wouldnât let Trevor get them killed, that Adrian knew how much he meant to him, to heart. That the stunts were small, that this is Adrianâs only source of fun and normalcy⌠he just wished he could make Adrian nearly as happy as he is when he did those few dumb things.
âCanâŚcan I ask for one thing, though? After you do these thingsâŚhold me? Please?IâŚitâll be easier for me, if I can feel youâre still there, that youâre mostly in one piece. Iâll reign it in, I promise I willâŚjust⌠itâs all I ask, Adrian. Just this one thing, I promise Iâll work on controlling how I react when you get hurt. Iâm so sorry Iâve been causing problems for youâŚâ
How nice it must be to be able to forget what one was. To not have it shoved in your face and down your throat every day of oneâs life, something Adrian could only ever want for. Of course it wasnât something he could blame the other for, but that reminder, that extra âyouâll never get to experience life like the rest of usâ just added to what he was already feeling. He shouldnât be cross with him just for that, but he was a bit. He could deal with the constant fussing from the dumb thrills he got doing idiotic things with Trevor, he already heard it at home so what was one more person chiming in? But to this extent and the comment about forgetting, it was too much.Â
He could only stand there, hurt and irritation in his eyes as he looked at Adi. To make a request of him after all that? To not even consider Adrianâs feelings on the matter and all but demand comfort cause he felt sad about Adrianâs actions? It was almost appalling. Adrian shook his head and scoffed.
âAnd what? Get my blood on you?âÂ