𝙬𝙚𝙚𝙗𝙤𝙗𝙖! |on Hiatus|

“tsumu! what are you doing here? don’t you have practice?” you jogged up to him while he opened his arms to invite you into them. 

“no, practice was canceled so i came to see you.” he pushed your hair out of your eyes as he stared into you. “and i know you’re stressed out. it’s the final week after all. so how about a date?”

you smiled. after his promise to you a while ago, he had really been proving to you how much he really cared about the potential of the two of you. a part of you had doubts of course, like what if he was just putting up a front? but he wouldn’t be putting this much effort, so you subsided your negative thoughts to the back of your brain.

“wow, i really appreciate it. it’s like you read my mind or something.”

“or you know, listened to ya rant about this and that every day,” he responded as he smoothed out your hair. you laughed at his banter as you told him you’ll put your stuff away and come back out. he agreed and stood outside to wait while you headed up to your room.

atsumu waited outside leaning on the window once more, scrolling through his social media feed before a familiar voice called him to look away from his phone.

“miya?” 

he stared up, adjusting his eyes to the figure standing in front of him. the streetlamps didn’t help identify who the man was, but upon shining his phone screen onto his face he realized it was suna that stood in front of him.

“suna? what’re you doing here?” he locked his phone before shoving his hands into his pockets and looking back at his teammate.

“i should ask you the same thing. isn’t this y/n’s dorm?”

atsumu gave him a curious stare. “uh, yeah. it is, why?”

suna had looked at the door to your dorm building before turning back to the setter in front of him. “i wanted to talk to y/n.”

hearing his intentions, atsumu’s blood had started to boil. how dare he just show up unannounced to your dorm, let alone bother to see you weeks after the incident that happened. 

“why? she doesn’t deserve you and–”

“rin?” your voice snapped the two out of their own world and both looked at you who had changed your clothes, holding a spare jacket on your forearm. you walked up to the two, standing more on atsumu’s side. “what are you doing here?”

“i wanted to talk,” suna spoke. to his response, you looked at him with disgust and anger, but you couldn’t help but feel sadness that he wanted to reach out to you first. despite that, your distaste for him held on, and you slowly stepped back from him.

“n-no, we won’t. you know what you did and nothing won’t ever change the rift between us anymore,” you held your ground with venom coming out of your mouth.

suna scoffed at you, “okay. whatever. i don’t care anymore. i don’t even know why i came here.” he turned on his heel and walked away from your building, leaving you and atsumu in confusion and frustration.

“you didn’t know he was coming?” atsumu had questioned.

“no. i blocked him on everything.” you sighed out of annoyance. it felt like the world was continuing to throw problem after problem onto you and this was no exception. upon reading your body’s response to the interaction, the blond took matters into his own hands and proceeded to lean down behind you and squeeze your body as his arms snaked around your neck. feeling his comforting presence allowed you to stop tensing your body and melt into his embrace. it always felt like his touch was healing.

“i came here to get your mind off of your worries, so i think i should do my job right now,” he whispered into the shell of your ear causing your body to shiver and grow goosebumps. you wrapped your hand around his wrist, squeezing it as a sign of gratitude.

“we can stay in if you’d like, but i want you to decide.” after asking his question, you proceeded to turn in his hold and smother your face into his chest. you can smell the faint cologne he always wore and that new clothing smell that always gives a sense of comfort.

“i wanna stay in… please.” you murmured into his sweater and he laughed. you felt the vibrations of his chest as he kissed the crown of your head.

“okay, let’s go inside.”

a few days later, practice for the college team had been planned for today. a few members had already been inside the gym, including suna.

practice hadn’t started yet, but those who came early were stretching and setting up the courts. suna had been lacing his shoes while hinata, who came with bokuto, set up the nets with the help of kageyama, bickering in between as usual.

on his phone, bokuto had been scrolling through his feed before he spoke out loud to hinata to come to him. the carrot top walked over to where he sat and looked over his shoulder to see what he was going on about. he smiled before he spoke out loud for the whole gym to hear.

“woah, did you guys see atsumu’s feed? look who he’s with.” some of the team walked up to the two of them, while suna trudged behind the others. finally getting a chance to see, his eyes widened at the sight of none other than you and atsumu. in the picture was a picture of the both of you smiling with the beach in the background. you had leaned on his shoulder, hiding your smile with your sweater-covered hand and atsumu looking at you while he was smiling as well. it was more of a candid photo, but the two of you looked so naturally good it might of been staged.

suna felt his stomach drop. he had nothing to do with you, but seeing this picture with his teammate coddling over you didn’t sit right with him. “are they dating?” he took this opportunity to ask the team.

“no, they’re just talking right now. but atsumu’s wrapped around her finger, so they might as well be,” a voice spoke coming from the court doors. sakusa had walked in with his duffle bag on his shoulders and his practice jersey in his hand, obviously hearing the conversation that had happened before he walked in.

“sakusa, you knew but we didn’t?” bokuto had questioned.

“yeah, he told me when i had asked. i guess he doesn’t trust the two of you,” he teased as he walked into the locker rooms. hinata and bokuto reacted in shock, never hearing this news from their friend himself. 

“but you told us, so doesn’t that make you untrustworthy?” hinata responded. 

“no,” sakusa spoke. “he posted about it so it’s not really private news anymore. also i don’t really care,” he mentioned as he walked to the locker rooms.

after the conversation ended, the man of the hour himself had walked into the gym. 

atsumu, rushing into the gym, jogged past the small group before heading to the locker rooms. “sorry i’m late!” yaku, the first who had arrived and had been grabbing the cart full of volleyballs, reassured the setter that it was fine as he mentioned the coach had been running late as well. 

suna couldn’t help but continue to look at atsumu, even during practice. he had been wondering since that night why he was at your dorm, no news about it from the team or from the man himself but now that the secret’s been revealed, the revelation didn’t sit well with him. he figured that he should just suck it up and speak to you.

your last final of the semester had just finished. you stretched your arms as you headed out the building, and was immediately met with the body of someone. you walked right into their back, stuttering out an apology for being so careless. except when you saw who it was, you immediately took back your apology. he doesn’t deserve one when he can’t even give you one.

“y/n. can we talk please?” suna had stood in front of you before you could continue walking further, stepping side to side to block you from walking away from him.

you were getting frustrated by his antics, so you shoved him out of the way instead of continuing to play into his antics. “move, suna. you’re my least favorite person right now and i don’t want to deal with you right now.”

now it was his turn to be irritated by your antics. he really needed to speak his mind out to you, so in an attempt to get you to listen he had grabbed your wrist and dragged you as the both of you walked away from the lecture halls.

“dude! let go! where are you taking me?” you continued to struggle but his iron grip was no match for your minimal strength. so you just followed him where he took you to sit on a bench right beside your building.

“what are you and miya?” suna sat on the table instead of the actual bench, allowing you your own space to try and be comfortable.

“we’re friends. nothing more.” you turned your attention to any direction but his. you refused to look up at him and give him what he wanted. he sighed, leaning onto his hands as he stared up into the sky.

“sorry. for, you know.” the man beside you spoke none further. all you could hear now was the sound of leaves pushing against the wind and the cicadas that always camped on your campus. you sighed, knowing nothing was going to come out of him again.

“no.” you spoke. suna turned his head in bewilderment. “no? what do you mean no?”

you scoffed at him before looking at him straight in the eyes, not backing down especially after what he did to you. “you deserve nothing. you led me on and now you’re apologizing but not even apologizing properly. maybe you don’t even know what you’re apologizing for either. go to hell, you don’t deserve me.” 

“what do you mean i don’t deserve you? you were practically head over heels for me, y/n. don’t say that because we both know i’m right.” suna spoke, irritated.

“you? right?!” you let out a genuine laugh; he had really thought he made a point, but knowing how absolutely shitty he treated you, he really didn’t deserve a speck of what you gave him. “shut up rin! i gave you so much of me yet this is how we turned out! i really thought you were a good guy, but i learned that i shouldn’t be trusting you! o-or anyone like you!”

“so you wouldn’t trust miya either, huh?”

you stepped back. you realized that the both of them had been sweet to you, flirting with you as you flirted back, yet suna turned out different than what you had expected. would atsumu turn out the same too?

“i trust him. at least more than you,” you spoke in a gentler toner than before. 

“right. i mean, it’s not like i saw your little atsumu with some girl last night,” he mocked with a grin. atsumu wouldn’t have done that to you. he would’ve at least told you, right?

“you’re lying, rin. stop putting these thoughts in my head.”

“if you say these thoughts are in your head, weren’t they already in your head in the first place?” 

and he was right. you had the teensiest sprinkle of doubt for him, but you always brushed it aside to give him the benefit of the doubt. but now a third party is making claims over his potential unfaithful behavior. and now that you think of it, he did seem like the type. and you also knew he had no practice last night but told you he’d be studying for his finals, so why in the world is suna saying all this?

“fuck you rin! you deserve nothing for the party and for today. stop following me!” you hopped off the bench and stormed off in the direction of your dorms, fuming at each step. but each step you took turned your anger into sadness and anxiety. was it really true? you weren’t sure, but you didn’t want to ask atsumu in case it had been. you thought it would be better to just pretend you never heard anything instead of confront him.

“So I have some tea” pls Oikawa totally would be THAT person pfttt-

“Okay? What is it.” You replied not really interested.

“Iwa’s got a girlfriend.” Your hands froze in their spot as your brain had processed the information.

“He…what?” You’d always thought Iwa felt the same as you, I mean especially with the way you acted towards each other but…maybe you misinterpreted? Maybe he was just being a good friend?

“You know what that means right?”

“Kawa don’t-”

“Get your ass up and go talk to him and tell him right now.” You sighed. Well, it’s now or never. After wandering around for a few minutes looking for him, you saw him in the halls with the assumed “girlfriend”.

She was thin, but curvy with nice wavy hair and she was…pretty. She seemed better than you but…was she really?

“Hey, Iwa?” You called, and he looked at you and frowned.

“What y/n? I’m busy.” The girl giggled and then looked at you.

“I just wanted to walk to you for a second. Um…Alone please.”

“Fine.” You walked with Iwa to a different part of the hallway, and started playing with your fingers as he looked at you annoyed.

“We’ll Kawa told me about your new girlfriend and he also told me that I should confess since we belong together, his words not mine, but I want you to know that I really, really like you.” He scoffed.

“Oh really? You wait till now to tell me? For fucks sake y/n.”

“No I know but it’s just that- i don’t know I just wanted Kawa to leave me alone but-"

“Listen y/n that’s a nice sentiment and all but I have a girlfriend now. And even if I didn’t why would I ever choose you?”

You were stunned to say the least. You’d been friends for so long and with your daily interactions you thought…were you really that bad?

“Oh…I’m sorry for wasting your time.” Unbeknownst to you Iwa was in pain saying that to you. The truth was, he’d loved you for so long, longer than he’d ever loved anyone before.

You walked away tears welling up in your eyes. What about you was so bad? You ran into Oikawa who was completely confused. Once you told him what happened, guilt consumed him. This was his fault. If he hadn’t pressured you, you wouldn’t have gotten hurt like this.

“Awe y/n… let’s get you home.”

***

The days went by in a blur to be honest. You distanced yourself from Iwa, only talking to Oikawa and leaving when Iwaizumi would joking the conversation. It was becoming a habit to avoid him at all costs.

You were walking to class when you heard him calling you. “Hey y/n Wait up!”

“Leave me alone Iwa. I don’t want to talk to you.” And with that you walked towards the nurse, no longer in the mood to go to class.

This routine of him trying to talk to you and you going to the nurse to avoid any classes with him became normal for the next few weeks. Of course he understood you but God he only needed one minute to explain everything.

You were walking to class one day when you were pulled into a classroom and the door was locked behind you. Once the shock wore off, you saw Iwa standing in front of you

“What?” You tried to hold back tears as he tried to hug you and you pushed him. “What the fuck do you want?”

“I just want to explain everything…” he stated, nervous as ever.

“You have two minutes, go.”

“I’m in love with you and-“

“HA funny fucking joke Iwa-“

“Shut up, these are my two minutes.” You crossed your arms and waited, eyes never meeting his.

“I know what I said was fucked up, and I swear on my life that I didn’t mean it. I could never mean it, not about you. I’m in love with you, I-I’ve been in love with you. That girl…she was going to hurt you. She said that if I didn’t get you to stay away from me she would…she’d do some awful shit to you.” He said looking conflicted.

“What could she have possibly done that was so bad?”

“She was going to fuck up your future, like really badly. She was going to make sure that no college would accept you. I believed her well because her dad’s rich and money can make anything happen.” Your eyes widened, shocked at what you were hearing.

“This isn’t making sense-“

“Let me fucking finish! Luckily Makki was looking for me and heard the conversation and started recording it. He sent it to me and I took it to the principal. Regardless of how much her dad makes, the principal expelled her. She’s gone y/n. And I just want you to know that I really, really like you. And I hope you still like me too. I understand if you don’t but please just give me a chance.”

You opened your mouth but closed it, unsure of what to say. “Why did Oikawa tell me to-”

“Cause he didn’t know.”

“Iwa I don’t- what do I even say?”

“Well…would you want to be my girlfriend?” You were conflicted. On one hand you absolutely wanted to be his girlfriend. On the other, it was so easy for him to say that. Who knows if he’s just doing this out of pity?

“I don’t know Iwa…I just- I can’t do this right now, I’m sorry.” And with that you unlocked the door and ran out of the room, Iwa’s question still lingering in the air.

Hey yallllll. Long time no seeeee (shhhh ik ik.)

Lmk if ya want a part two 🙂

Comment to be added to the Taglist if I make a part two

***

Avoiding Suna made you feel so much better. You didn't feel like shit and felt happier. You'd moved on from Suna little by little, realizing that you didn't want him, you just wanted to feel like somebody wanted you. You'd been so used to being alone, and it felt good that someone wanted you.

For a while.

Then you met Sakusa. It was a random day in coffee shop you'd always visited and you'd ordered your favorite drink. When it was called though, you realized that it wasn't only yours but his as well.

"Oh I'm sorry" you retracted your hand and smiled softly at him backing up.

"Oh no it's okay...Um you can have it." He smiled back at you and pushed it towards you.

"Thank you so much." You started walking away before hearing him clear his throat and you turned to look at him.

"I thought we should get to know each other because you know we ordered the same drink and you're very pretty..." he said shyly with a dust of pink on his face, though his mask covered most of it.

"Oh sure! My name's y/n."

"My name is Sakusa. Well Kiyoomi, I mean— shit." You laughed and he exhaled deeply. "My names Kiyoomi but you can call me whatever. Just don't make it so formal." He sighed finally getting over himself.

"Well nice to meet you sakusa-kun."

"I told you not to make it formal."

"I know I'm just messing around."  You two sat at a table and talked for a few hours before deciding to leave. You'd given Kiyoomi your number and he smiled before seeing you off.

It'd been about a year since you met Kiyoomi, and things were going really good. You'd been on many dates with him and he was starting to become more comfortable around you (although you still had to take a shower when you went to his house but you understood).

Soon after, you started wondering where this was going. He hadn't pressured you into anything, and wasn't asking to do anything you weren't comfortable with. Sure you'd made out a few times but he didn't seem to mind not going further. It didn't seem like he was after just your body.

You spent a lot of time at Kiyoomi's apartment, just talking about nothing and cooking dinner together. You'd spend time watching dumb, predictable movies, and your favorite TV shows. Kiyoomi learned what your favorite things were food and drink wise, and kept them stocked in his apartment.

The little things he did for you made you fall for him and that terrified you. What if this whole thing was nothing to him? What if he was just playing the waiting game till he got bored?

One night you were at his apartment and caught him staring at you. "Y/n I have to tell you something."

"Go ahead Kiyo."

"Well two things actually. I got a contract with the MSBY black Jackals!"

"Oh my gosh omi that's great!" You threw your arms around him and he softly hugged you back.

"But there's something else. I have to move to Osaka but...I want you to come with me. This year with you has been amazing and I think...I think I'm in love with you. I don't wanna loose you. So come with me."

"You love me?"

"I do. You're the only one for me. I wanted to take things slowly and make sure you were comfortable. But god damn it I want you to be mine so badly. I want to wake u to you every morning and I want you to keep coming to my games to cheer me on. I want you to be the first person I see when I win and the person who screams when I spike the way I'm supposed to. I want you to complain about not having anymore snacks and I want to keep cooking dinner with you. I love you and I want you there all the time. "

"Kiyo I love you too." Tears welled in your eyes as your fears had dissipated and Kiyoomi hugged you tighter. "I'll go with you Kiyo." He smiled with you and kissed you softly.

"Good. We leave next week baby." He kissed you again.

***

Meanwhile, Suna was wondering where you'd gone. It was like you disappeared from his life altogether (quite frankly you had), and he found himself missing you.

Not just your body but your laugh and smile when everything was said and done. The way you'd sit and just talk about anything and the way you'd cook for him when you came over.

Within the last year he'd gone on dates but found himself comparing them to you. They didn't have the same beautiful smile, and their conversations were boring and shallow.

What had he done to drive you away? That was the question he kept asking himself, although he knew the answer already.

He'd been drafted for EJP Raijin and he wished that you'd be there for him. To cheer him on and tell him that he had it the way you used to. He left in a week and he knew that there was no way you'd come back in that much time and he knew he'd have to leave without you.

***

Why was he here again? The crowded party had Kiyoomi in a corner with you keeping him company. Quite frankly neither of you wanted to be there, but it was Komori's birthday.  Of course he invited his new teammates already, they were already close. You heard the front door open and turned your head and the color drained from your face.

In walked Suna dapping up Komori. How did they know each other? Were they team mates? Kiyoomi sensed your uneasiness and turned his attention to where you were looking.

"Who's that baby?"

"That's Suna Kiyo. The one I told you about." Of course you'd told Kiyoomi about your and Suna's past and he was pissed. Of course he didn't know what Suna looked like but shit he did now and he was going to handle that. He walked over to Komori and put an arm over his cousins shoulder.

"My girl and I are heading out Komori."

"Wait before you leave introduce y/n to Suna! They'll see each other a lot if she comes to my parties!"

"Y/n?"

"Oh you know her?" Komori asked.

"She's my ex-"

"No she's not you piece of shit. She was never your girlfriend to begin with and you sure as hell didn't deserve everything she gave to you." Suna looked down knowing Kiyoomi was right. Kiyoomi felt a small hand grip his and felt you press yourself into his side.

"Hi Suna."  You said.

"Hey."

"Kiyo we should go home. I'm kind of tired. Happy birthday Komori. Thank you for inviting us." You smiled at Komori and he pat your head. "Bye y/n! Both of you don't forget the dinner tomorrow."

"What dinner?" Suna asked.

"Oh y/n's meeting the rest of the family after Kiyoomi's game! I think MSBY is actually playing EJP!"

"Komori shut up!" Kiyoomi hissed.

"Oh I didn't know you guys were that serious." Suna commented his heart sinking further.

"Yep we've been together for like a year and some change now?" You said smiling up at Kiyoomi and he kissed your forehead. "See you around Suna. See you tomorrow Komori!" You pulled Kiyoomi out of the house and went home.