we-are--god

i made a new blog. 

tumblr.com/kaeinthegrass

why? cause i literally have not one single friend (not an exaggeration) to express myself to so i need an outlet other than family members because my family is the best ever and they’re my best friends seriously but some times family is just not the people to express yourself to

i still hate tumblr so i’m going to be selective about who i follow moving forward

If you see someone say they want to kill themselves or say they are going to.. DO NOT “LIKE” THAT POST.

Do not. Fucking. Like. That post.

I saw a loved one’s blog recently and I was absolutely disgusted that three people liked their post about wanting to end their life. 

Suicide and depression aren’t trendy. It’s not something to build a community around. When people say that kind of shit, take it seriously. Discourage them. Tell them to stop and breathe. Don’t hit the “like” button because it’s relatable. 

After a short series of suicidal posts, this person I care for did not say anything else on any of their social media profiles, and I know they do normally. I don’t live close to them anymore, so I didn’t know what was going on. I was freaking out, crying, worrying... That could have been it. They could have REALLY killed themselves. They disappeared, and I didn’t know what kind of disappearance that was. I was going crazy all day wondering what happened until I was able to get in touch with someone who knew what was going on. 

And three people “liked” that.

Luckily, they are safe. However, they have been hospitalized since March 16th.

What if they did jump? What if they were dead? How much would you “like” that fucking post?

Get your fucking act together. Do NOT encourage someone feeling like death is their only option.

Tumblr has developed a huge culture around mental illness - accepting it as a truth we can’t fight. Accepting it like there’s nothing we can do about it. This is such a lie, and we need to see and spread the truth.

Stop your culture of mental illness. Stop encouraging yourself and others to feel this way. Creating a culture and community around this is keeping you stuck in your depression. Build a community of hope. Surround yourself with positivity, and spread it with everyone you know. Even if it feels fake - do it. It will become real if you are patient.

Please. If anyone sees this.. please think about what I’m saying. There absolutely needs to be a change in how our generation handles these issues.

And if you’re thinking about ending your life right now... Please don’t. I promise, things can get better. You can email me and I will be there to listen any time you are feeling alone: [email protected] 

I don’t use tumblr anymore, so if you need someone, please email instead of PM here.

I used to run a blog for self injury called “We Will Quit Cutting”, and many people said talking to me one-on-one was helpful for them. I will love and accept you, I will not judge you. Whatever you say is just between us. And feel free to share my email with anyone else you think needs an anonymous friend.

Embody love. Spread love. Accept love.

i guess i was ahead of the game lol

i got bored today and wanted to see if you bitches straightened up

You all think you have all the fucking answers, you think you’re all so fucking progressive and fucking aweome and fucking accepting and all this shit

But literally your social justice bullshit really invalidates and insults people

There’s not 2,000 gender to choose from.

You’re not ALL mentally fucking ill. 

You’re not doing gender equality any favors with your over-the-top feminism

You attack anyone who you think is prejudice in a really horrible and shaming way, and you guys find a way to make it fucking widespread hate

You think you’re being so fucking awwwwweeeesssssooome cause you post pictures of people who are overweight or say “all bodies are beautiful” and bullshitshitshit. you DONT think so. i was massively fat and i know for a fact no one who posted that shit actually thought my body was beautiful, becaue even the fat bodies were exceptional. even now, my left over skin and misshapen body from losing the weight would not be consider beautiful by you people who are fooling themselves

The thing about my hair was the last straw, I’ve been so irritated with what I see on my dash.

i apologize if i offended anyone (like anyone even cares about my blog but still)

but i do want to say some things

1: if you would like to educate me, please educate me. don’t give me vague information and imply bad things about me. it doesn’t really make me want to learn from you. i would rather someone tell me the whole story respectfully. i would be happy to listen and learn from someone who wants to teach, rather than someone who wants to hate on me.

2. no matter what historical whatever, Hinduim is one of the oldest philosophies/religions in the world so let’s keep it real... I bet the gurus have had dreadlocks longer than any culture in the world. similar to Rastafarianism, it is a part of their practices.... It is historically and primarily a spiritual thing, clearly, and I would like to think I have the right to my own spirituality and my own journey, which includes my hair. this is not a fashion statement for me, and i really do mean that. and for those that are doing it as a fashion statement... well, they should have a right to that without being thought of as an asshole.

3. if dreadlocks are bad, then they are bad for everyone. if it is bad for white people, why is it okay for black people? back to the original post i replied on, why is it cultural appropriation for white people, but it is not cultural appropriation for black people? race and culture are different. following this logic, something that is a part of the culture of slavery does not need to be taken by anyone of any race and turned into to something thought of as good.