a life in one word

❝ Hail and well met, my dude. ❞

❝ Abraca fuck you. ❞ 

❝ God lied to me! ❞

❝ Kiss my ass, you sanctimonious bastard. ❞

❝ You are going to be amazing. ❞

❝ Liches get stitches. ❞

❝ Are you my friend? ❞

❝ Go out and do good. ❞

❝ Yo thug, what’s your name? I’m about to tentacle your dick! ❞

❝ No dogs on the moon, they just run off the goddamn thing. ❞

❝ I’m afraid no one else will have me. ❞

❝ Everything I drink tastes like keylime gogurt to me. ❞

❝ Don’t let them erase me. ❞

❝ What brings you happiness? ❞

❝ Bad news, comprades, this place is magic as hell. ❞

❝ I find that not killing people is very easy. ❞

❝ Everything is for keepsies if you’re sneaky about it. ❞

❝ You’re a coward and I hate you. ❞

❝ Boy you’re not intimidated by me at all, are you? ❞

❝I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry! ❞

❝ These potions get you reeeeeal fucked up. ❞

❝ Once you pop, the time control don’t stop. ❞

❝ Hot diggity shit. That is a baller cookie.❞

❝ We don’t have to talk. Let’s just…let’s just watch this together. ❞

❝ So here’s my solution, and I think you’re gonna find it very equitable: I’m not gonna shoot you with this giant crossbow. ❞

❝ I’m about to smooch your fucking brains out, babe. ❞

❝ You’re going to have to fight and you’re gonna win. ❞

❝ I’ll be having my body back, you undead fuck! ❞

❝ You fucking took everything from me! ❞

❝ How would you like to live forever? ❞

❝ I am but a simple, idiot wizard. ❞

❝ Yeah! It’s our first kill! …So why am I so horny? I’m broken inside… ❞

❝ You know…do whatever you want. I don’t care anymore. ❞

❝ Existence, (name), life? Is horrible. To exist, to live, is horrible. ❞

❝ Sometimes there aren’t good decisions. Sometimes…there’s just decisions.❞

❝ I appreciate what you’re trying to do. And I’m on board for whatever the plan is. But understand this: I have nothing, and I don’t give a shit. The world is ending and I. Don’t. Care.  ❞

❝ I will say that if you wanted to lure me in there you should’ve stayed handsome, my fella.❞ 

❝ Who stops serving pancakes at 9am?! I missed the whole thing! I had to get Cheetos! ❞

❝ I cannot stress enough how uninterested I am in this. ❞

❝ I’m not gonna be the one to pull the trigger on an entire civilization. I won’t do it.  ❞

❝ What brings me joy is…life.  I think you can find joy anywhere in life. ❞

❝ I don’t always do things right. And I don’t always do things smart. But whatever I do, I find joy in it. ‘Cause at the end of the day, that’s all you’ve got. ❞

❝ Tell ya what, if we ever meet each other somewhere in infinity, you can apologize to me and tell me you were wrong. ❞ 

❝ I have an update from [ Name ] Central. Uh, I have updated my list of people I trust and things I believe to no one and nothing! ❞

❝ I’m good, amigo. The bleeding’s all internal. That’s where the blood is supposed to be.❞

❝ I think there was probably a time where I had joy, where I experienced fleeting happiness or anger or fear, but God, it’s just been so long. ❞

❝ I am a man, (name), who knows the answer to the question of why we’re all here. I didn’t like it. ❞

❝ To have friendship, (name), it requires you to…love someone and be invested in your shared happiness and these things, (name): friendship, love, happiness? They’re all so…small. In the grand scheme of things, they last a second. ❞

❝ Look it got – WE got dark back there. I know this journey’s been tough, and it’s only going to get harder. But we can’t allow ourselves to get to that place again. ❞

❝We’ve lost a lot. And there’s a lot more we might lose. But one thing we do have is the thing people in love rarely ever have enough of – and it’s time. ❞

They all have something. From birth, Fenris has been in pain, constant and prickling, his nerves feeling scraped raw. It's the price for what they are. Anders doesn't wear tags, and though Fenris's sensitive nose knew instantly that no matter how well he hid amongst Normals, Anders was one of them, he couldn't figure out what Anders's compensation was. Fenris's is invisible, which made him easier to hide, but his fear of touch was embedded in him long before he ever met Danarius, and it's always made him stand out.

Some can't speak. Some are born missing limbs. Others walk around with seemingly nothing wrong with them, their compensation so minor that it hardly matters. He assumed Anders was like them.

A foolish assumption.

Fenris can't help but stare at him, discomfort in his posture, maybe a little fear. He reminds himself that people fear what they don't understand. It's the entire reason they all live this way.

"That wasn't you." He doesn't know if this is him, either. "Who was that?"

While he's heard of the phenomenon, it's only been through fictional stories. Books he can't read, movies he hasn't seen. Plot twists meant to shock or appall. Anders acts like this is just a fact of life.

Anders had come back to himself on one of the cots, feet propped up and expended autoinjector in hand. He was annoyed at that; they were hard enough to get, even if the clinic had its own ability to take them apart and change the needles, change the used cartridge. It meant one less until they could get around to doing that.

He'd been stupidly flirting with the far edges of how long he could go without medication--not intentionally, but, well, he'd been busy, distracted. The soreness in his muscles from being too tense and the ache in his chest from his heart beating too quickly were only too apparent in the aftermath.

It was unrealistic that he could have kept it to himself for the entirety of their relationship if everything between them went well. He should have mentioned it at the start, but he hadn't. Then, time had passed, and he… still hadn't brought it up. He hadn't wanted to. He hadn't wanted this conversation, the fear, the distrust. It's an entire situation that he would prefer to run from, in all honesty, but Justice had done what he had come to do (get Anders off his feet, get his heart rate back under control), and seemed content to let him deal with his own awkward conversations.

" is there anything about yourself that you haven't told me ? "

" will you come back to visit me ? "

" what could it mean ? "

" this is not the correct way , and you know it . "

" this is truly a room worth admiring . "

" your obsession borders on creepy . "

" this reflects poorly on your overall personality . "

" maybe this is why everyone left you . "

" are you just sitting around waiting for more dialogue ? "

" no one gets to tell me what to do . "

" everyone thinks you are very powerful . "

" there is nothing in the broom closet . no reason to still be here . "

" you're not even doing anything ! "

" please offer me some explanation here ; i'm genuinely confused . "

" the broom closet ending is my favourite . "

" you're fat and ugly and really , really stupid . "

" you're addicted to drugs and hookers ! "

" that kind of anxiety isn't healthy . "

" i'm not your enemy . really , i'm not . "

" i think perhaps we've gotten off on the wrong foot here . "

" how i wish to destroy you . how i wish to control you . "

" investing your trust in someone is difficult . "

" please , stop trying to make every decision by yourself . "

" this is it . your chance to redeem yourself . "

" i can't believe i've been so mistaken . "

" you and i don't even know each other . we're like strangers . "

" i still don't know you . and you don't know me . "

" you like being alone , don't you ? "

" perhaps you'll see me again , if you can find me . "

" i've escaped from that dull office and pesky narrator . "

" what are you talking about ?! "

" this is so stupid . why are we even doing this ? "

" you've demonstrated such bravery here today . "

" do you have zero consideration for others ?! "

" oh , thank god . you are willing to listen to me . "

" i think i feel ... happy . i actually feel happy . "

" no , wait ... where are you going ? "

" promise me you won't go back there . just - just stay here . "

" you are going to stay here , aren't you ? "

" please , don't take this from me ! "

" nothing good can come from this . "

" we can't be happy if we leave this place . "

" comedic timing is so difficult . i wish i was better at it . "

" it's just a bucket ! it can't think , it can't talk ! "

" i suppose you don't need me anymore . "

" you believe i'm real , don't you ? "

" give it to me ! give me the bucket , i need it ! "

" it's nice to see you again . "

" i'm on your side . we're in this together . "

" obviously the bucket isn't talking to you and telling you to do things . "

" do you see that i really have wanted you to be happy all this time ? "

" are you that convinced i want something bad to happen to you ? "

" that wasn't supposed to be a choice . how did you do that ? "

" can you see ? can you see how much we need one another ? "

" in the vast infiniteness of space , your thoughts and problems are materially insignificant . "

" when every path you can walk has been created for you long in advance , death becomes meaningless , making life the same . "

" although this passageway has the word ' escape ' written on it , the truth is at the end of this hall , you'll meet your violent death . "

rp sentence starters from michael faudet’s work , bitter sweet love. 

❝Kill them swiftly, if you will.❞

❝My god, I’ve failed again.❞

❝Don’t be afraid. I’m going to give you the choice I never had.❞

❝You can pretend it’s wine.❞

❝Evil is a point of view.❞

❝I wasn’t given a choice, remember?❞

❝We’re in a nice, filthy cemetery.❞

❝Bear me no ill will, my love. We are now even.❞

❝It’s a coffin, it’s a coffin.❞

❝You lack the courage of your convictions.❞

❝Do you find us beautiful? Magical?❞

❝Let me live. I don’t care.❞

❝No one could resist me, not even you.❞

❝Perhaps you’d like another cigarette?❞

❝Forgive me if I have a lingering respect for life.❞

❝We belong in hell.❞

❝It’s so easy you almost feel sorry for them.❞

❝I assume I need no introduction.❞

❝As much as your invitation might appeal to me, I must regretfully decline.❞

❝Let me show you some real sport.❞

❝Merciful death. How you love your precious guilt.❞

❝I’ll put you in your coffin!❞

❝Do you know what it means to be loved by death?❞

❝We are predators.❞

❝Have you said your goodbyes to the light?❞

❝Do we forgive each other then?❞

❝I came to make peace with you.❞

❝Your body’s dying. Pay no attention, it happens to us all.❞

❝Did you do it to me?❞

❝Her blood coursed through my veins, sweeter than life itself.❞

❝I’m yours forever.❞

❝You’ve been a very, very naughty little girl.❞

❝I’m not dead, am I?❞

❝Enough! Enough! Stop!❞

❝I feed on those who cross my path.❞

❝I’m frightened of myself.❞

❝Do you think I would let them harm you?❞

❝I want some more.❞

❝Goodnight, sweet prince, may flights of devils wing you to your rest.❞

❝Where are we?❞

❝The word changes, we do not; therein lies the irony that finally kills us.❞

❝You condemned me to hell!❞

❝Perfect! Just perfect! Just burn the place. Burn everything we own.❞

❝Does this make you happy?❞

❝I promise I’ll get rid of the bodies.❞

❝That’s something I’ve never heard before.❞

❝You are beautiful, my friend.❞

❝Suppose death had a heart to love and to release you, to whom would be turn this passion?❞

❝You should consider yourself lucky.❞

❝I was waiting for you in that alleyway: watching you watching me.❞

Feel free to edit and/or change pronouns as desired!

“I was distracted. All I could think about was kissing you.”

“You know I never have fun.”

“Why don’t they like questions? How else do we learn?”

“Little things have a habit of being stepped on by big things.”

“My every experiment ends in disaster.”

“Don’t go down this path! Nothing good will come of this.”

“You read too many stories.”

“No mercy for murderers!”

“I always thought I’d make a fantastic princess. I’ve got the hair for it. It’s very shiny.”

“Let’s make a deal. We both go our separate ways, and trust that the other won’t squeal.”

“Getting along may be hard at first. But like anything else in life, it just takes time to adjust.”

“Where’s your sense of adventure? Come on!”

“Remember, the bonds of sisterhood can be tested, but never broken.”

“If we allow matters of the heart to distract us from our duties, then we have failed.”

“They’re all too scared to see the truth, even when it’s right in front of them.”

“You’ll give everyone nightmares with that wailing.”

“We’re together now. That’s all that matters.”

“You make it sound so much more nefarious than it really is.”

“When was the last time you washed your hands?”

“What’s the matter? Too scared to come out and face me?”

“It’s hard to recognize the light when you’ve spent your whole life in the dark.”

“Life and death are a circle, not a line. There is no end, no beginning.”

“I’m quite capable of handling myself.”

“We’ve come too far to turn back now.”

“Promises you cannot keep are no better than lies.”

“Did you think I would not find you?”

“It will leave a scar, but scars are good. Minds forget. Scars remember.”

“Some dress to conceal their body, others to reveal their nature.”

“Turn back before it’s too late!”

“The only mercy I have left to offer is death.”

“Who decides who lives and dies? You?”

“I am the only one capable of making the hard choices.”

“We are no longer sure where one of us begins and the other ends.”

“What was once unthinkable has become inevitable: rebellion.”

“They fear what would happen if we were united.”

“Here we will make our stand. Not as many, but as one.”

“I don’t think anything will ever be like it was again.”

“I’ll die where I stand before I run again.”

“Our sacrifice will inspire others.”

“If it’s a fight you want, I’ll give you one.”

“Get away from my friends!!”

“I guess everyone wants to hug a hero.”

“We have made new enemies, and lost old friends.”

(  dialogue  prompts  taken  from  nosferatu  (2024),  directed  by  robert  eggers.  feel  free  to  edit  and  change  as  you  seem  fit.  ) 

❛ come to me. ❜

❛ a guardian angel. a spirit of comfort. spirit of any celestial sphere. anything. hear my call. ❜

❛ you wakened me from an eternity of darkness. ❜

❛ you are not for the living. you are not for human kind. ❜

❛ and shall you be one with me ever-eternally? ❜

❛ come here. there’s nothing to be afraid of. ❜

❛ i wish i could stay, my love. ❜

❛ why have you killed these beautiful flowers? ❜

❛ i must tell you my dream. ❜

❛ i’d never been so happy as that moment… as i held hands with death. ❜

❛ i wish you to have all you deserve. ❜

❛ you mustn’t leave. i love you too much. ❜

❛ i will stay with you until you are fast asleep. ❜

❛ uh, forgive me. i only wish to stay one night. ❜

❛ by god’s name, never speak of that castle. ❜

❛ i banish you, i banish you with garlic. ❜

❛ beware of his shadow. ❜

❛ the shadow covers you in a nightmare. ❜

❛ you are late. the midnight hour has passed. ❜

❛ i wish you to do as i request. ❜

❛ i will be addressed as the honor of my blood demands it.❜

❛ speak not of it again! ❜

❛ take heed what you do. ❜

❛ i might ease your wound. ❜

❛ come by the fire. ❜

❛ your face shows you unwell. ❜

❛ do you ever feel at times as if you were not… as if you were not a person? ❜

❛ look at the sky. look at the sea. does it never call to you, urge you? ❜

❛ you are fortunate in your love. ❜

❛ now are we neighbors. ❜

❛ it is late. you must wish to retire. ❜

❛ i have been enduring the most irregular dreams. i fear i am taken ill. ❜

❛ it is a black omen to journey in poor health. you will remain and well rest yourself. ❜

❛ dream of me. only me. ❜

❛ oh, he’s coming to me. ❜

❛ i cannot resist you, my love. ❜

❛ i am no one. i am his servant. ❜

❛ look, this is a pretty one. his lordship likes the pretty ones… ❜

❛ you are lost in his shadow. ❜

❛ soon i will no longer be a shadow to you. ❜

❛ soon our flesh shall embrace and we shall be as one. ❜

❛ i have not failed your lordship! ❜

❛ embrace me, my boy. i am so rejoiced to see you. ❜

❛ my dear creature, yes, i am he, and i am hither come to help you. ❜

❛ my dreams grow darker. ❜

❛ does evil come from within us or from beyond? ❜

❛ i shall persist to join you every night… first in sleep, then in your arms. ❜

❛ everything will be mixed with abomination, and you’ll be knee-deep in blood. ❜

❛ you are promised to me! ❜

❛ i will end this plague. this devil. ❜

❛ he hasn’t found you. ❜

❛ i feared i’d never see you again. ❜

❛ you shall crave of me nothing. ❜

❛ the bells of dawn shall toll in despair of my coming. and i shall taste of you. ❜

❛ pray, forgive me for all the troubles i have caused you. ❜

❛ i am only glad you have become yourself again. ❜

❛ may i… stay with you tonight? ❜

❛ this creature is a force more powerful than evil. it is death itself. ❜

❛ i have seen things in this world that would’ve made isaac newton crawl back into his mother’s womb. ❜

❛ i have wrestled with the devil as jacob wrestled the angel in peniel. ❜

❛ if we are to tame darkness, we must first face that it exists. ❜

❛ i have felt you crawling like a serpent in my body. ❜

❛ love is inferior to you. ❜

❛ i told you, you are not of humankind. ❜

❛ i am an appetite. nothing more. ❜

❛ i lay within the darkest pit. till you did wake me, enchantress, and stirred me from my grave. ❜

❛ you are my affliction. ❜

❛ i care nothing of your afflictions. ❜

❛ yet even now we are fated. ❜

❛ your passion is bound to me. ❜

❛ you cannot love. ❜

❛ yet i cannot be sated without you. ❜

❛ remember how once we were? ❜

❛ i abhor you. ❜

❛ i will leave you three nights. tonight was the first. ❜

❛ tonight you denied yourself, and thereby, you suffer me to vanish up the lives of those you love. ❜

❛ you revel in my torture. ❜

❛ upon the third night, you will submit, or he you call your husband shall perish by my hand. ❜

❛ till you bid me come shall you watch the world become as naught. ❜

❛ tell me, what is this insufferable darkness? ❜

❛ nothing you can say will shake me, for there is a devil in this world, and i have met him. ❜

❛ i’ve brought this evil upon us. ❜

❛ i sought company. i sought… tenderness, and i called out. ❜

❛ at first, it was sweet. i had never known such bliss. yet it turned to torture. ❜

❛ it was you that gave me the courage to be free of my shame. ❜

❛ he took me as his lover then, and now he has come back. ❜

❛ all my sleeping thoughts are of him every night. ❜

❛ don’t touch me! i am not to be touched. ❜

❛ i’ll be good. i promise. ❜

❛ you could never please me as he could. ❜

❛ yes! take me! ❜

❛ kiss me. kiss my heart. ❜

❛ let him see. let him see our love. ❜

❛ without you, i will become a demon. ❜

❛ you’re safe with me. ❜

❛ keep away from me. i am unclean. ❜

❛ he will murder you if i do not go to him. ❜

❛ kill him i will. he shall never harm you again. ❜

❛ i can weep no longer, for i have no more tears to shed. ❜

❛ the grim reaper wields his heavy scythe with every change of wind. ❜

❛ the monster left you to the wolves, yet you prevailed. ❜

❛ his pull to me is so powerful, so terrible, yet my spirit cannot be evil as his. ❜

❛ we must know evil to be able to destroy it. ❜

❛ you are our salvation. ❜

❛ i bid you, come to me. ❜

    episode 1 - 3

it’s okay. go back to bed.

you okay? you scared? that’s okay. i get scared too sometimes.

why are you awake?

your big brother must have scared her away. big brothers are good like that.

the big dreams can spill out sometimes.

how long do we have to live here?

do you remember that storm?

i’ve never seen a ghost.

i don’t need to say goodbye.

i need you to call me.

there’s nothing easy about this house.

this door’s been locked for years and years and years and years, so if there’s a pony in there, it’s dead.

i know you don’t need me to tell you this, but literally everything is an emergency with [name].

look, i can’t deal with this right now.

that’s why everybody dumps their shit on me, isn’t it?

where’d you come from?

i’m just kind of a germophobe. 

i know you normally prefer the company of cold stiffs.

i mean, she’s sweet enough but - pile of issues.

who’s saying it’s quick? i’m a giver.

you’re like a guy. you’re worse than a guy, you’re like a frat guy.

when i said you could live here, i wasn’t expecting the pussy parade.

i’m drawing boundaries, which is something you might want to look into.

she’s got one foot in crazy and the other on a banana peel.

we gotta get out of here right now.

you keep your eyes closed no matter what you hear. you don’t open them. you promise?

you don’t just get to call me and tell me what to do.

a ghost can be a lot of things: a memory, a daydream, a secret. grief, anger, guilt.

i’ve seen a lot of ghosts. just not the way you think.

this is the worst of the bullshit- worse than the tabloids.

i need to start a real life for my own family.

no one will come any nearer than that.

something tells me they weren’t too scared of the dark.

science isn’t an exact science, you know.

how do you spell ‘no girls allowed’?

i used to have imaginary friends, too. they go away when you get bigger.

thanks. i needed a good scare.

you just stood there and watched him loot me?

i’m going to fix her.

every house needs a heart, and this is ours.

a house is like a person’s body.

when you’re little, you learn how to see things that aren’t there.

i told you, i’m too old for tea parties.

i don’t blame you for screaming.

there’s no such thing as ghosts and you know it.

you can pay me back when you’re a famous writer.

imagine the worst thing possible, assume it’s true, and go from there.

why are you banging on the wall?

i told you she was in trouble.

you know how when you take one of your pictures, you capture something forever, just the way it is? stories do that, too.

when we die, we turn into stories.

we’re all stories in the end.

this is too much for anyone.

codeine’s finally kicking in.

she’s gonna have a pretty messed up view of death coming out of this no matter what.

i’m sad, too. so sad, i can’t even tell you.

i handcuffed him to a radiator downstairs. he’s not going anywhere.

i just wanted to say break a leg - and if you make a run for it, i’ll keep the car running, okay?

you have another nightmare?

you can sleep with me for tonight.

you’re really freaked out, huh? ease up a little.

you’re squeezing too tight.

the stairs - the third step from the top, it makes a sound.

he’s always smiling, but he isn’t happy.

when i was little, i was afraid of a lot of things.

kids like us have been through more than other kids.

the foster care system isn’t the easiest place to grow up.

do you feel cold right there?

this whole house is cold.

you’re out of mustard and you’re almost out of turkey.

you always figure out how to help.

ugh, what is that smell?

i was trying to take ownership of something that doesn’t belong just to me.

i’m trying to do the right thing.

maybe it’s a middle child thing, but i just would rather focus on living my actual life right now.

want to let go of his arm?

you don’t have to be so mean about it.

there’s a ladder down here on the wall. you can come get me.

there’s something down here!

it’s okay, baby, we’re right here.

something grabbed me! monster! it was a monster!

we didn’t know you were into…?

sorry to bring this up again, but why the hell would she go to that house?!

don’t elaborate. don’t offer information that’s not requested.

i don’t want to have to tell them that i’m fucking pissed at [name] who should have known better.

nobody ever believes me.

i believe you.

i was just out and about and thinking about your case.

you just have to trust me on this. i haven’t been wrong before, have i?

i’m sure the guy will confess if you just get them here.

i really, really don’t like that you went down there by yourself.

we’ll talk a lot more about it as you get older.

if you’re feeling overwhelmed and you think nobody will understand, you can talk to me. about anything.

i’m pretty good at secrets.

you got a couple things wrong in there, by the way.

that was really wild stuff considering that you were asleep for, what, like ninety-nine percent of it?

i’m gonna get my fucking phD.

i thought i heard somebody down here.

make up something that’s gonna piss her off less than the truth.

we barely said two words to each other.

can we take a second and talk?

what do people usually talk about?

she just needed help and no one was listening.

so should we talk about your day or would you rather come to bed?

you get in, lock the doors, don’t unlock until you see me come outside.

don’t touch me!

dialogue prompts from eskew productions' the silt verses.

are you frightened?

nothing in this rotten world knows how to withstand change.

may your peace walk on with you for a while.

i tried. i really did.

i should be past this, shouldn't i?

___ should be past caring.

none of this is going like it was meant to.

maybe it was always a mad dream, thinking there was something special in me.

all the best dreams are the mad ones.

i've loved you for so, so long. i've tried to know you for so much longer.

i am not dying for you, you hear?

what were you praying for, exactly?

what else can you do but keep going?

looking for directions?

not many of us get to choose what eats us.

shouldn't someone be taking care of us?

you've got eyes, don't you?

i want a seat at the inner table.

i really should have asked.

i think your head's still all in a muddle.

you spoke a little, while you slept.

i'd appreciate knowing where 'here' is.

call it an attempted act of kindness.

it's alright. grab a shovel and dig.

there's nothing to be frightened of here.

do you think you could be happy here?

i honestly don't know if i have it in me to start again, not with everything that i've done. not with everything that's been done to me.

there's no such thing as a 'fresh start'. we're all scrabbling amongst ruins that will long outlast us.

they tell me i'm in shock.

no justice, is there?

don't fucking call my house, ever again.

i should kill myself, shouldn't i?

i've lied to a lot of people for a very long time.

there's nobody left who can help me.

you want to smoke?

you don't even know what you're volunteering for.

you've got all this fucking pride in you, and it's making you stupid.

you're not bigger than this. you're not.

your pride won't save you.

success brings its own kind of failure.

have you been causing property damage?

hell of a thing, running into you like this.

i remember you said you liked the quiet.

i think there's a god in you.

stop playing games. it isn't funny.

there have to be limits, don't there?

how clean can our hands be if we let this stand?

do you genuinely think there's a way back for ____ from this?

how does it feel to know that you're alone? that nobody's coming to help you?

there's no kindness, no mercy left to be had.

are you okay? is everything alright with you?

i'm not used to company these days.

i've been too many people, and each one of them is me.

you can leave now. the door is open.

i'm tired of chasing after faceless things.

dialogue prompts from eskew productions' the silt verses.

don't look back. just keep running.

i don't think i've ever truly been happy before.

i've been waiting for you so long.

sorry as i am to break it to you, you aren't going anywhere.

i haven't called the police. nobody knows you're here.

it sounds like your people have abandoned you.

i think i need to go for a walk.

how would you like to pretend to be someone else?

you were always impulsive. that's always been your problem.

you give so you can take.

love is just a meathook you can catch me on.

you rot everything you touch.

gods and people: we all need to feed on something.

there's no blessing without sacrifice.

nobody ever really 'overreacts' to a parent. you're just yelling back through the decades, making up for lost time.

everything we've built, we've built on bodies.

you're high. don't try to stand up.

i know i've lived this night already.

you knew me like nobody else. how i hated you for that.

you're an organ in the working body of this world.

you're no better than what's gone before, and you're no better than what's coming after.

how many worst nights of your life have there been?

you never knew a way to solve a problem that wasn't smashing it to pieces.

i came back for you when it mattered.

names can be daggers. they can become something you need to run from.

there is always a way forward, if only you know where to look.

you could lose your life in dreaming.

hang onto this joy. it will be useful to you.

you'll never get to where you think you're going.

it is you, isn't it? i'm not dreaming? i'm not dead?

do i know you from somewhere?

we're hugging now, are we?

whatever you had, i think you've passed it on.

the problem is, i really do hate you. i don't have any other way of saying it.

doesn't that make you ashamed? because it should.

it's really better if you read the book.

what kind of sales pitch do you call that?

i have just a few joys left in me.

the pain isn't what lasts. you and i both know that.

you can't build anything that lasts on the backs of other people.

can you really not see that you've gone too far?

so what are you gonna do about it, asshole? huh?

can i tell you something? in confidence?

i don't pray like i used to anymore.

there's nothing i can invent to make this better.

you will always be my people.

i'm starting to wonder if anything will ever mean anything to me again.

i'm sorry if i've been pushing you too hard.

great sorrow is pursued by a greater happiness.

you talk just like ____ now.

who said it would make you feel better?

few good things come quickly, and fewer quick things last.

i don't know where i'm supposed to be. that's the problem.

"You have survived worse than this," Fenris says, his grip on Anders light, lazy, but unyielding. "Though if it tortures you so, perhaps I should stop."

It's fascinating to him how often he can put the man just there, right on the edge, close enough that a single word could send him over, only to stop cold. Arousal burns in Fenris's gut but he keeps his demeanor cool and calm, watching impassively as though it were someone else doing this to Anders, as though Fenris is merely a spectator. When Anders loses his composure enough to deign to reach for him, Fenris simply reminds him to put his hands back where they were. He keeps his touch off of Anders until he can calm down enough to listen.

Fenris doesn't cave to his own cravings because this isn't about him, not really. Or--- it is, but only insomuch as he enjoys the control he can hold over Anders, and enjoys how much Anders enjoys it. So he watches, and waits, and occasionally changes up his grip or his rhythm depending on Anders's responses. He doesn't let himself indulge. Not yet.

But Anders begs so nicely, and it's difficult to resist him.

"Why should I? You look perfect just like this." Fenris holds him without stroking, a tight grip so he can feel the delayed pulse of Anders's racing heart against his palm. He thinks of denying him again just to drag it out, but instead leans over, putting all his weight onto his opposite elbow on the mattress.

Without armor, Fenris always feels small -- the nature of his heritage, his people. But leaning over Anders's prone body, with the man looking up at him with need and desire and trust, Fenris's small stature is brimming with untapped power.

He places a chaste kiss on the corner of Anders's mouth. "I suppose you have had enough," he says, voice a low rumble, and then kisses him properly, all lips and tongue and teeth. It doesn't last nearly long enough for Fenris's tastes, but he thinks Anders needs some respite, a reward.

Fenris shifts his hand to the base of Anders's cock and then ducks down to sink his mouth on him. He even uses his free hand to take Anders's and bring it to his hair. It's never a chore to do this to Anders, for Anders. Like Anders, he's had a lot of practice (albeit not on as many people), and he meant it when he said that he enjoys seeing Anders come. Seeing it, feeling it, tasting it is never dull.

❝ your world isn’t for people like me. ❞

❝ i will always hate you, i vow it.❞

❝ i’m having a premonition. we’re going to have fun tonight. ❞

❝ dirt. it’s where you came from. it’s what you’ll return to soon enough. ❞

❝ i hate you so much that sometimes when i look at you, i can hardly breathe. ❞

❝ you’re better off being scared. ❞

❝ you’re no killer. ❞

❝ horror of horrors, you might actually have a good time! ❞

❝ there’s always something left to lose. ❞

❝ i am done with being weak. i am done with being good. i think i am going to be something else. ❞

❝ only idiots aren’t scared of things that are scary. ❞

❝ how can anything done in the service of a noble cause be wrong? ❞

❝ get down on your knees. beg. make it pretty. flowery. worthy of me. ❞

❝ i have made myself less. i have made myself small, i have kept my head down. i’m not going to do that anymore. ❞

❝ desire is an odd thing. as soon as it’s sated, it transmutes. if we receive golden thread, we desire the golden needle. ❞

❝ i will never be cruel to you for the sake of delighting in it. ❞

❝ our lives are the only real thing we have, our only coin. we get to buy what we want with them. ❞

❝ you’re a story that hasn’t happened yet. i want to be part of the unfolding of the tale. ❞

❝ poison might be a coward’s weapon, but it’s an effective one. ❞

❝ being born mortal is like being born already dead. ❞

❝ may your hands always be stained with blood. may death be your only companion. ❞

❝ do you love me enough to give me up? ❞

❝ if you hurt me, i wouldn’t cry. i would hurt you back. ❞

❝ half a plan is good enough. ❞

❝ i killed him, and then i buried him. so believe me when i threaten you. ❞

❝ true power isn’t granted. true power can’t be taken away. ❞

❝ i challenge you to a duel. for my honour, which was grievously betrayed. ❞

❝ was it fun to deceive me? did you like the feeling of having something over me? ❞

❝ i’m a mirror! i’m the mirror you don’t want to look at. ❞

❝ i will not stand in front of your happiness. i will not even stand in front of misery that you choose for yourself. ❞ 

❝ love doesn’t grow well, fed on pain. ❞ 

❝ i know you’re keeping secrets. something is making you sick. you’re paler and thinner and your eyes have a weird shine. ❞ 

❝ you fit in better than i do, but i bet it cost you something. ❞ 

❝ as i am now, i am well on my way to becoming one of the wolves. ❞ 

❝ the odd thing about ambition is this: you can acquire it like a fever, but it is not so easy to shed. ❞ 

❝ maybe being a monster was my calling. ❞ 

❝ most of all, i hate you because i think of you. often. it’s disgusting and i can’t stop. ❞ 

❝ go ahead and run. i definitely won’t shoot you in the back. ❞ 

❝ i will act as your shield. i will act as your hand. i will act in accordance with your will. ❞

❝ i can be charming. i charmed you, didn’t i? ❞

❝ i know. don’t bore you by dying. ❞

❝ this is where i grew up. even if i hate it half the time, it’s mine. ❞

❝ you’d do well to decide how much you care for goodness before you go too far. ❞

❝ you’re a dirty liar and i hate it and i hate this. ❞

❝ i turned out to be useful after all. what a terrible surprise. ❞

❝ if you live your life always afraid, always with danger on your heels, it is not so difficult to pretend away more danger. ❞

❝ oh, yes. let me tell you my whole plan. you’ve goaded me right into it. ❞ 

❝ i am what you made me. ❞

❝ i have not always danced to your piping, but you haven’t the stomach to truly cross me. ❞

❝ it turns out i still don’t know how to laugh. ❞

❝ i have lied and i have betrayed and i have triumphed. if only there was someone to congratulate me. ❞

❝ come back when returning feels like a hard choice instead of an easy one. ❞

❝ i may be the useless shield you put in front of you, but don’t expect me to start being useful. ❞

It's a new facet to their relationship, one Fenris thought of after Anders was left still ready for more after three rounds. Grey Warden stamina, Anders had explained -- something Fenris doesn't possess. And though Anders has told him that they don't have to go again, that Anders is fine with just the once and ignoring that insistent craving for more until it dies down, Fenris saw it as a challenge.

And he's never been one to back away from a challenge.

“Maker, you're going to be the death of me,” he pants in the respite between Fenris bringing him to the precipice again and again. Squeezing his eyes shut he presses his palms into them, trying to get himself back under control. He thinks about templars and darkspawn until he can still himself. 

It goes on like that. If Fenris wanted him to beg for him to stop, they would be there forever. 

Anders loses track of how many times he's brought close, how many times Fenris pulls away to chastise him for moving too much. It gets harder to keep himself from squirming. Every time feels like it takes less to rile him back up, more effort to calm himself down. It was strangely effective at quieting his often racing thoughts. It is a sweet haze; there was no room in his head to think much beyond _Fenris_, _so close_, and still frustratingly fully dressed and teasing.

He shudders, he whines, once he nearly grabs for Fenris, stopping himself just short.