until then, we aren't meant to be (pt. 2)
"A soulmate will love you, more than anyone else could ever."
Wendy runs, but walks most of the way to school.
She was excited to see Seulgi - who'd become her soulmate today.
Wendy is certain of that.
She's kept it low, but couldn't help to notice the fuzzy warm feeling in her chest, every time Seulgi gives her a hug - a soft, warm bear hug that welcomes Wendy everytime she meets Seulgi - the only time she looked forward to every single day.
Wendy became attached to Seulgi's hugs. Not just anyone, only hers. She'd be willing to stay in school for the rest of her life if it meant being hugged by Seulgi every day. As soon as Seulgi releases the hug, warmth leaves, and cold was the only thing thats left, and a feeling of emptiness lingers. Her body yearns for the familiar warmth of a particular person.
She couldn't live without Seulgi.
Wendy ran down the hallway upon arriving at school early. Everyone she ran past, was looking back at her and staring with confused faces plastered all over, wondering what's her hurry when class doesn't start until half an hour later.
She didn't care.
Wendy wants to find her soulmate, because she's been deprived of love, deprived of physical affection, and deprived of emotional support ever since she moved back to Canada.
Wendy wanted to be loved. Even if it's just from one person.
The past few months with Seulgi were her happiest moments.
And she'd hold onto those memories for dear life, and never let go.
Wendy stopped eating in the bathroom stalls - because she had Seulgi.
Wendy became friends with more people - because she had Seulgi.
Wendy refrained from keeping herself in her room - because she had Seulgi.
Wendy started going out more - because she had Seulgi.
Seulgi was her life.
Wendy reaches for the already wide-opened door at Seulgi's classroom - heavily panting while holding the door frame for support.
"Seulgi!"
Seulgi, who's back was facing Wendy, turns around on her chair and grins upon seeing her best friend.
"Wannie you're here!."
Wendy smiles at the nickname given by Seulgi. Her real name is Seungwan, but Seulgi shortened it to Wannie and began calling her that nickname from then on. Wendy secretly likes it, but never said a word about it.
At times like this, Wendy would usually run over to Seulgi, and Seulgi would welcome her with arms wide open for a big hug.
But this time, she stayed. They both stayed where they were. Wendy stood still at the doorframe, and Seulgi wasn't opening up her arms to hug her.
Wendy then notices another girl, sitting beside Seulgi.
She unconsciously shifted her focus to look at Seulgi's hands, as if she was holding something.
Seulgi was holding hands, with the girl beside her.
Wendy's breath hitched, eyes quivered in fear, imagining what this could mean.
This can't be.
No.
They're probably just holding for fun.
You know, friends do that.
A surprise how Seulgi and I haven't done it yet,
"Wannie what are you waiting for? Come here!" Seulgi unclasped her hand with the girl beside her, and opened her arms - waiting to hug her Wannie.
Wannie didn't move an inch.
Because this time, her eyes went to the inner wrist of Seulgi's hand. Despite standing all the way at the door, she could still spot the faint glows of gold on Seulgi's wrist.
Then, she saw it.
A bear and a duck outlined in gold, plastered on Seulgi's inner wrist.
"No." Wendy whispers in disbelief. She stood cold at the doorframe, expressionless. Her nose felt sore, an indication that tears are bound to come soon after.
"Oh yea wannie-ah, I also got good news!"
"Mhm?" Wendy voice quivered, eyes beginning to water, slightly blurring her vision, but she tries not to make it noticeable.
"I found my soulmate." Seulgi was smiling so big her eyes also appeared as small crescents. Wendy always loved her eye smiles.
Seulgi once again clasped her hands with the girl beside her, who was also smiling but refrained a little, after noticing Wendy's empty expression.
Wendy's face was blank,
And her heart broke.
(next part coming up)
