Raising Violet Raye

Feeling really really down and alone. Blah.

I already feel like a failure today. WHY WONT HE EAT UGGGHHH

@peaceful-momming The only reason I want to is cause he's eating 5-7 minutes on one side every 45min-1hr. So my pediatrician said to try to wake him back up after he finishes and try to get him to eat a little more on the other side to try to see if he will go longer between feeds. I'm not really worried cause he's gaining fine and I DO want to feed on demand but I'd also REALLY like to go longer then an hour 😂

I need to: (everyday) Try to get him to breastfeed on both sides at each feeding. Pump twice a day. Do more tummy time. Try to get him used to the crib during the day. Rotate his head during the day. (!!!)

I hate night time. Once the sun goes down my anxiety is high as fuck and I'm weepy and I just hate everything. I'm suddenly so sad. I've had a pretty good day. But it doesn't matter. I'm sad.