âŚClark Masterlist - Main Masterlist - Read on a03!âŚ
âŚpairing: Clark Kent x female!readerâŚ
âŚAuthor's Note: should be illegal to for men to Be Like This. I need him carnally.âŚ
You have never been ruined the way Clark ruins you.Â
But youâve never been loved and touched by anyone like him, either.Â
Probably because there isnât anyone like him. Heâs Clark. A massive, sweet, muscled puppy-dog of a man, who isnât even a man at all. Who never gets tired.Â
Who loves to give, almost as much as he loves you.Â
And he loves you. Clark loves you so much that itâs all but immeasurable. He loves you in the coffee he makes you in the morning, and the kisses he plants on your cheek. He loves you in flowers on random days, and nights in when youâre too tired to do anything else. Random gifts, because he saw something and thought of you. Immediate responses to your texts, and cookies he canât really bake, but tries to anyway.Â
And the sex.Â
Clark really loves you in the sex.
The worship. His strong, warm body turning into only an instrument to bring you pleasure. His hands map your body, his lips brand every inch of skin, his hips drive into your heat until you unravel below him. Your breath stolen and replaced with only weak gasps of his name. Your eyes glazed with drunken lust and relief, because Clark never withholds. He couldnât.Â
Not from you.Â
And thatâs how it always begins.Â
You start it. You always start it. Clark is a sweet man, who will kiss you deeplyâuntil youâre dizzy and aching for himâthen walk away like he didnât just ruin you with so little effort. And then you chase after him, because he canât just abandon you like that. Not after offering you such sweet, easy temptation.Â
All it takes is batting your eyelashes and whining his name. Grabbing his big hand, and pressing your chin to his chest.Â
âPlease?â You murmur, playing with the collar of his shirt.Â
He sighs. âBaby, we went this morning-â
âYeah, but I want you again.â
âIâm not sure itâs good for- You know. Your sexual health, to have such little rest?â Heâs blushing, like heâs not the reason youâre already walking sideways. âHow about just until tomorrow? Can you wait until- Tonight?â He drops tomorrow fast, from the pout on your face. âOr- Two hours? Just until your legs feel better, I- I donât want to break you.â
You blink at him slowly. Heâs adorable. Touching your face gently, like youâre some sweet, delicate thing that heâClark, gentle and kind and lets turn around because I saw a pigeon limping and we should get it to the vet, Clarkâis going to ruin you.
For a second, you consider agreeing to wait. Just to spare him the worry.Â
Then you tilt your head at him, running your hand up his thick arm, and you can feel it.Â
Heâs hard again.Â
And youâre pretty sure heâll get over the worry.Â
âOkay.â You shrug, and Clark blinks slowly.Â
âOkay?â
âYeah. Okay.â You take a step back, smiling wickedly up at him. âI can take care of myself.â
His eyes flash. Darken, as his chest heaves.Â
And Clark folds.
Clark always folds.Â
And you end up bent over the couch, or pinned to the wall, or writhing on the bed. Clark gives. He gives and gives and gives. Offers you kisses that turn open-mouthed and sloppy, then his grip turns possessive, and his cock drives into you until your toes curl, and you see stars.Â
You cum with a broken call of his name. Your arms wrap tight around his neck, and your whole body shakes until it goes limp with release.Â
But Clark doesnât stop.Â
Heâs a giver.Â
And he has so much to give.
Youâre already completely consumed by him, when the first orgasm hits. His thick cock, dragging along your walls and pounding into your most sensitive spots. His mouth has left searing marks all over your neck, and his hands will almost certainly be printed on your hips and ass when this is done.Â
He clings to you, when he fucks you. Trying to get you as close as possible. And it only adds to the intensity of it all, because you canât even gasp for air without it smelling of Clark. His sweat, and faded, spicy cologne, and the deeper thing. The smell thatâs just Clark. Pure fucking Clark. It fills the hot air around you, lingers on your tongue as you call his name.Â
Because itâs intoxicating. It might make you more sensitive. Your fingers dig into his scalp, because after that first orgasm, the smell of him becomes like a drug, and you canât figure out how to come back down.Â
âClark-â You whine as he slams back into you, mouth attaching to a soft spot on your neck. âClark-â
He groans against your skin, the cries only driving him on. His hips start to snap, the hot, wet sound filling the room as your eyes roll back in your head.Â
âClark, Clark-â
Youâre starting to chant it, as another orgasm builds tight in your gut. Clarkâs thrusts become short and sharp, the pace punishing and perfect.Â
This time, you see white, your legs wrapping tight around his waist to try and either pull him closer, or push him away. Youâre not really sure, in the haze of your release.Â
Clark still doesnât stop. He works himself up, when he gets like this. His cock keeps slamming into you, his kisses growing rough and frantic. Itâs still loving, though. The way he touches you. Youâre clawing at his back and almost sobbing with overwhelming pleasure. Your mouth is open in a permanent moan, and your own arousal is running down your ass.Â
You press your face into his broad shoulder, just to have something to ground yourself in. Clark grabs one of your hands gently, tangling it in his own. He squeezes lightly, asking a silent question.Â
You squeeze back, three times, then hold on so tight youâre worried youâll break your own fingers.Â
Clark groans against your skin, and the tight leash he keeps on himself snaps.Â
Nobody has, or ever will, fuck you like this. Like youâre just a ragdoll, and yet simultaneously the most precious thing on earth. Clark slams himself into you so deep you can feel it in your throat, all while his lips wander your skin, murmuring low praise.
âTake it.â He mutters in your ear, breath sending shivers up your spine. âYeah, yeah, thatâs so good, baby, so warm and tight, look so-â He moans, pressing his face into the crook of your neck. âSo pretty, youâre so tight and pretty-â
He moans again, and his deep voice rolls pleasure through your whole body. Another, tiny orgasm hits you, making your head spin and legs fall open, having lost all strength to hold on. Clark hauls them back up, and angles them carefully so heâs hitting deeper.Â
Itâs not about chasing his own pleasure. Itâs never about that. If anything, itâs a testament to his will, that he can stay buried so deep inside of you for so long. Can feel you clench and writhe below him, taste you whenever he swallows your cries of his name, and still not empty himself into your poor, soaked and abused cunt.Â
He almost loses it, though, when he rises over you. Keeps one hand wrapped over yours, and lets the other one wander your beautiful, limp body. Youâre a vision. Eyes hooded and lips swollen, your tits bouncing as he rails you stupid and mouth open in a long, broken call of his name. You shake and swear breathily below him, the type of things that would normally make him stutter and blush, if he wasnât so wholly focused on fucking you until you forgot your own name.Â
And youâre already there. Youâre almost floating out of your body, by the time Clarkâs thumb finds your clit. His tiny, deliberate rubs send an electric shock through your body, and it seems to set off every nerve in your body.Â
You donât fully come down from this one. You just float through it, saying Clark over and over like a hymn. Distantly, youâre aware of him groaning your name and rutting into your fluttering pussy.Â
Heat floods through you, as he collapses over your body. You feel him mixing with you, smearing over your thighs and the curve of your ass. Clark drags himself through a few, last strokes.Â
And you come down, as he slides slowly out.Â
Taps your clit with the head of his cock, just to watch you spasm.
âFuck-â You roll into his chest with a whimper, and he chuckles.Â
âSorry, baby.â He kisses your brow, wrapping massive, muscled arms around your body. âYou just look so pretty.âÂ
You hum, not really able to form full words. Clark rubs his hand up and down your spine, then pauses.Â
âFeel good? You-â
âI liked it.â You breathe out against his pecs. âOh- Oh my god, it was so good. But next time, just- Tell me no.â
He laughs again, rising up. Probably to draw you a bath, because heâs perfect.Â
âIâll try.â He says, tracing his hand lightly over your side. âBut you can be pretty demanding, sweetheart. I just rise to the occasion, I guess.â
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âŚClark Masterlist - Read on aO3! - Main MasterlistâŚ
âŚsummary: all week, clark's been acting strange. he won't go near you, won't look at you, and by friday he's vanished all together. everyone seems to know why but you. but nothing's going to keep you away from him. not for that long.âŚ
âŚwarnings/tags: friends to lovers, secret identity shenanigans, emotional angst, fluff, sex pollen, sex pollen level smut, a little plot for the porn (male masturbation, manhandling, clark's feral, emotional sex, dry humping, blowjobs and facefucking, dumbification, dirty talk, sensitive reader, finger sucking, clark gets nasty, body worship, crazy overstimulation, sex pollen stamnia, fingering, oral f!recieving, begging, praise kink, monster dick clark, he fucks like a machine, breeding kink), no use of y/n, no descrption of readerâŚ
âŚwc: 10.5kâŚ
âŚauthor's note: request and voted fic! i got. real horny with itâŚ
Clark has been acting strange all week.
He got into work on Monday with a red face, and you didnât question it. He runs everywhere. Itâs a little ridiculous he doesnât have a red face more.
âWant some water?â Youâd tapped on his desk, and heâd let out a sharp breath.
âYeah.â His voice had been strangely rough, his glasses almost slipping off his nose. âWater- Water would be nice. Thank you.
He hadnât looked you in the eyes.
Not when you brought the water to his desk, or for the rest of the day. When you got in the next morning, he was already at his desk, but didnât do more than mumble a good morning. His shoulders had squared and rippled, when youâd walked past.
Youâd gone to the bathroom, and made sure you didnât reek of something rancid. Maybe there was a sulfur leak in your apartment and youâd just gotten used to it. Maybe youâd stepped in dog poop on the train and no oneâs told you.
âDo I smell bad?â Youâd asked Jimmy, and heâd looked at you like your were crazy.
âI donât know? I donât go around smelling people like a- A serial killer-â
âIâm not asking you to smell me like a serial killer.â Youâd hissed, leaning down to block him in his chair. âIâm asking you to smell me like a friend, Lois smells me all the time-â
âThen go ask Lois!â
âLois is in Gotham, I canât ask Lois-â
âThen ask Clark, heâll be happy to smell me-â
Jimmy had eyed you suspiciously. âIf this is some weird mating dance, Iâm not interested-â
âItâs not a mating dance!â
âIt seems like a mating dance-â
âItâs not-â Youâd shaken your head. âJust stop being a fucking pussy and smell me!â
Someone had cleared their throat behind you. Jimmyâs eyes had widened, fixed right over your shoulder, and youâd known who it was before you turned.
You know that low, controlled sound. You know the rush that his attention brings, and the shiver up your spine whenever heâs close. You close your eyes tight, breathing through your nose, and turn to Clark with a plastered smile.
âHi, Clark! No one was trying to smell anyone-â
You cut yourself off when you see him. You almost forget how to speak.
Heâs a wreck. Curly hair is plastered to his brow, his white button up is more sweat stains than dry spots, and thereâs a vein pushing out of his neck that seems painful. His glasses keep trying to slip off his nose, and heâs shifting like even just standing is uncomfortable. Heâs pale and red all at once, ruddy in his face and paper white in his fists. The flush deepens near his neck, and returns to his arms right before the cut off of his rolled up sleeves. Heâs breathing through his mouth.
His eyes are black, and gleaming.
You scramble away from Jimmy, yanking yourself back from going to press a hand to Clarkâs brow.
Clark takes a jagged, stumbling step back.
You look back to Jimmy, and he gives you a tight shake of his head. He doesnât know what to do either. Youâve never seen Clark with so much as a paper cut, and now it looks like he needs a hospital.
âHey, buddy.â Jimmy tries, voice soft. Like heâs speaking to a feral animal. âYou feeling alright?â
Clark jerks his head to Jimmy, and his nostrils flare. Like heâd almost forgotten Jimmy was there.
Jimmy leans back. And you know he doesnât mean to. Itâs Clark. The softest, sweetest heart you know, shoved into a giantâs body.
But like this, Clark doesnât look like a man. He looks like something thatâs crawled out of your darkest wet dream. Like something that should be in the sky, fighting Superman. With the black eyes and sudden, jagged movements, he looks like an animal.
He looks dangerous.
And he doesnât respond right away. Clark stares at Jimmy, breathing heavily, then squeezes his eyes shut. You and Jimmy exchange another worried look. If heâs been corrupted by somethingâin this world, you canât rule anything outâand he attacks, youâre not sure you can fight him off. Emotionally or physically. Clarkâs huge, heâd crush Jimmy with one fist and youâd be nothing but an annoying fly to be swatted across the room.
But whateverâs going on with Clark, he seems to drag it under control. He opens his eyes, and a thin ring of blue is back.
âIâm fine.â He rasps, staring at Jimmy. âJust- Didnât sleep well. You know.â
Jimmy blinks. âNo, uh- I donât-â
Clark looks at you.
And you could swear the blue flickers, when your eyes meet.
âYou smell good.â He mutters.
He turns like somethingâs dragging him, and walks away. You and Jimmy stand there for about three more minutesâin total baffled silenceâbefore Jimmyâs mouth falls open.
âWhat the fuck is up with him?â
Nobody seems to be sure.
On Tuesday, he seems a little better. He eats lunch with you. Wheels his chair next to yours like usual while heâs editing, because you always catch typos he misses, and heâs a good reporter but not the best writer.
âYou canât use that word here.â You tap his laptop screen. He frowns.
âThere are no other words I could use, though-â
âCorrupt?â
âBut- Oh.â He sighs, hitting backspace. âSee? Thatâs why youâre the expert.â
You laugh softly, and Clark gives you his usual small, almost shy smile.
âHowâs your piece coming?â He asks kindlyâalways kindlyâand you groan.
âDogshit.â
âIâm sure itâs not that bad-â
âMy main source backed out.â You grumble. âLike a little baby bitch. I canât make this level of accusations again LuthorCorp without a source, itâs asking for a defamation lawsuit, and after the last one Perry would kill me-â
âBut you won the last one.â Clark frowns, and you give him a pointed look.
âYeah. Because I had a source.â
âAh. Right.â He pauses, pushing his glasses slowly up his nose.
You watch the movement as subtly as possible. You love it when he does that. Itâs a tiny, adorable quirk that makes you want to rip his hand away and push them up yourself.
âWhat if I said I have a source for you?â He asks softly, and you perk up.
âReally?â
âYeah, really.â He grins. âYou know, Iâd think youâd have faith in me, I wouldnât lie about that-â
âShut up, Iâm excited-â
âI can tell.â He boops your nose, and you stick your tongue out at him.
He does that all the time. He says you get a bunny nose when youâre excited about something, and then you hit him because nothing about you is bunny like.
Sometimes you say that, and he chuckles.
You have no idea. He mutters under his breath.
And sometimes he hits your nose, and your breath hitches because he touched you.
Today you keep it under control.
Itâs Clark that freezes. Coughs and goes red, wheeling his chair an inch back. You frown at him, ready to ask whatâs wrong, but he shakes his head like heâs already denying you an answer.
âItâs- Uh- Superman.â
You blink. âWhat?â
âSuperman can be your source.â He grunts, shifting in his chair. âI can ask him to. For you.â
âI- You donât have to.â
âI want to.â
âI can find someone else-â
âNo, I- Iâve got it.â
He stares at you. You stare back, heart swelling with something sweeter than you usually allow it to feel.
Youâre used to your feelings for Clark. You try not to think about them, especially not in his presence. Thereâs no amount of love youâd risk your friendship for.
But he makes that rule hard to follow sometimes. When he starts being stupidly perfect.
You smile at him, wide and unrestrained. âThank you.â
He nodsâtight and jerkedâstares for a long, long moment. He shoots to his feet.
âI have to go to the bathroom!â He announces to the whole bullpen.
Clark sprints away. Jimmy gives you a questioning look, and you shake your head.
He doesnât come back for an hour. When he does, his face is wholly red again.
Heâs back to not looking you in the eyes. Back to looking so sick youâre worried he might be going feral.
And you have no idea what to do.
Lois gets back on Wednesday, and the first thing she says to you is Whatâs up with Smallville? Perry corners you at your desk to ask if youâve got any idea whatâs Clarkâs been up to that might be doing this to him. Steve loudly jokes that everyone should be placing bets on when Clark passes out. Cat keeps trying to bring him teaâa thin guise so she can suggest home remedies to whatever super hangover he hasâand Clark always drinks it with shaking hands.
He listens to all her suggestions without interrupting, but whenever Jimmy suggests Urgent Careâyouâve given up on trying to get him to the ERâClark grunts a sound like no and wonât hear another word.
Youâre getting really worried. Everyone gets sick, but Clarkâs always talking about his very good immune system.
And nobody gets sick like this. Legally, Perry should be making him go home, but no one can get close enough to confirm a fever, and itâs somehow not effecting his work performance.
âClark.â You sit on the edge of his desk, keeping your voice soft. âYou need to go to a doctor.â
His whole body locks up. His fingers freeze on his keyboard, and he bows his head like heâs in prayer.
âClark-â
âPlease.â He says, so quiet you almost miss it. âBack up.â
You blink. âBack up?â
He nods, and thereâs a sting in your heart.
He hasnât asked anyone else to back up.
But you slide off his desk, and take a single step back. Another, when he doesnât relax from the first.
You clear your throat, tucking your hands behind your back. Clark lets out a heavy, ragged exhale, and looks up.
He still wonât fully meet your gaze. His darkened eyes are fixed right over your head, and you try not to let it hurt more than it already does.
âClark.â Youâve lost a little bit of nerve. You try not to let him hear it. âThe doctor-â
âI donât need a doctor.â He tells the ceiling, and you sigh.
âYouâre sick-â
âNo. Iâm not.â
âDude, I- I can feel your fever from here.â The heat, rolling off his body like heâs an active star. âAt least just go so they can say youâre not sick.â
He doesnât answer. You almost take a step forward, before reeling yourself back. He doesnât want you too close.
âPlease?â You say. âIt would make all of us feel better.â
That makes him look at you. For just a split second, barely a heartbeat, but long enough.
His eyes go wholly back. He wheels his chair backwards, like thereâs something toxic coming off of you that heâs trying to avoid.
And it hurts. It hurts so much your face burns with shame, and your stomach does a sick clench of pain.
Itâs never fun, for the man youâve quietly been in love with for years, to look at you like youâre proximity might kill him.
The only thing that stops you from crying is worry for him.
But thatâs not enough to hold back the crack in your voice.
âClark- Please-â
He shakes his head, jaw clenching. You swallow, and take another step back.
âOh- Okay. Sorry.â
You turn on your heels. Behind you, Clark rasps your name.
And you look back. You canât help it.
But all he does is stare at you.
So you walk away.
Clark doesnât come in on Thursday. Jimmy goes to check on him, but wonât report back on what he finds. When he gets back to the office, his face is bloodless and eyes wider than an owl.
âIs he-â
âHeâs not sick.â Jimmy stares at you like youâre a ghost. âHeâs- Um- We should- Give him space.â
You frown. âBut-â
âLots of space.â Jimmy mutters under his breath, already walking away. âAnd maybe me some bleach. Freakinâ- Gross-â
Lois comes up next to you, watching Jimmy head into the bathroom. Youâre wringing your hands, lips pressed in a painfully tight line, and Lois grabs your wrists.
âDonât go visit him.â
You shoot her a glare. âI wasnât going to-â
âYes, you were.â She raises her brows. âDonât.â
âBut-â
âDonât.â
âWhat if he needs something-â
âI texted his cousin. She knows what to do.â
âToâŚâ You narrow your eyes, pulling your hands from Loisâ grip. âYou know whatâs going on with him, donât you.â
Lois shrugs. âYeah. Maybe.â
âLois-â
âHeâs going to be fine.â She says, giving you a firm look. âDonât check on him.â
She walks away without another word.
On Friday, you go to Clarkâs apartment.
You donât go inside. Loisâ voice keeps ringing in your head, and while youâre more than willing to disobey her, itâs the way sheâd said it.
Donât.
His door is right there.
Loisâ voice fills the gaps in city noise. Pointed and direct. Almost hopeless. Like she knew you wouldnât listen.
Donât.
You made him soup, because youâre pathetic. Heâd left his jacket at work on Wednesday, and youâd brought it home to clean up before returning it. Youâd had a whole painted daydream made of pastels and watercolor, where youâd give Clark his jacket, heâd swoon with how romantic that is, and then kiss you.
But like real watercolor, the colors bleed and run. Blur together. Itâs too fuzzy a picture to be reality.
You stand at his door. You donât remember walking inside the building.
Donât.
But you want to.
Donât.
He could need someone, what if his cousin was busy, what if heâs been waiting for you to check on him-
Donât.
Loisâ voice isnât louder than your heartbeat. But itâs level. And your pulse is erratic in your throat and fingers.
And you keep seeing Clarkâs face. Keep thinking of how heâd been stiffer than concrete, until youâd moved away.
He wouldnât want to see you right now. Heâd made that clear.
You put the soup and jacket on the doorstep, and ring the doorbell.
Before Clark can open it, you walk away.
On Saturday, you hole up in your apartment and work.
Itâs a distraction. Anything not to think of Clark. To think of how sick he is, how he might be in pain, how he might need help but not from you. How lately he canât stand to be in the same room as you, and apparently everyone gets to know whatâs going on with him except you-
You groan, tipping your head back against the couch.
This is exactly what youâre trying not to think about.
Itâs hard, though. Impossibly hard. If only because you open your email, and see a bunch of messages from Clark. You open Teams, and his messages are pinned at the top. You send Jimmy something, and have to include Clark as a contributor. Lois sends you something, and Clark is CCâd.
Heâs everywhere. You canât stop checking your phone for a message, even if Jimmy says heâs basically out of commission. Canât really do anything right now, heâd grumbled, making a sour face. Too⌠Sick.
Heâd said it weird, but everything about this is weird.
Usually youâd talk to Clark about that.
You miss him.
Goddamnit.
Apparently, youâre very bad at not thinking about Clark.
You busy yourself. Clean the apartment, do the laundry, waste the day, donât think about Clark.
He gave you this pencil. Let you borrow this sweater, that youâve been hoarding like a dragon with gold since. Sent you the cheesecake in the back of your fridge as a birthday present, and it had been horrible but youâd kept it anyway.
You lie flat on the floor, and fail not to think about Clark a little more. Maybe you should text him. Just so he knows youâre thinking of him. Or text Lois and ask for his cousinâs number, so you can ask her if heâs okay. Or let the anxiety fully overpower Loisâ voice in your head, and go visit him.
Youâre about to go with that last option, when thereâs a bang on your window. You shoot up with wide eyes, expecting a massive bird.
Instead you find Superman, standing in your fire escape. Itâs hard to see him, in the shadows of dusk. His head is strangely bowed, his shoulders slumped in a way youâve never seen on TV. Maybe heâs just more casual, when heâs doing home visits.
But why is he home visiting you.
Usually that would freak you out. This week, itâs just another fucking thing.
You open the window slowly, poking your head outside.
âHello?â
Superman looks up at you, and your mouth goes dry.
He doesnât look well.
Red and pale face, messed up hair, heaving chest. Clenched fists, sweat-slicken face, blown out eyes with barely a ring of blue-
Like Clark.
Just like Clark.
And itâs not just the ragged appearance. Itâs something deeper. Itâs the way heâs staring at you like heâs worried youâre going to attack him. Like heâs restraining himself from moving, like youâre a repellant and he wants to fly away.
Or something else.
Without the glasses, thereâs something else.
He looks desperate. The shadows on his face look longer. Maybe itâs just the sickness overtaking him, but he looks hungry. Desperate and starved. Thereâs an openness on his face that wasnât there before. And heâs not looking at you like heâs afraid or skittish.
Heâs looking at you like heâs a predator. Like youâre prey.
âClark?â
âIâm here for your interview-â
You speak at the same time. Your voice is a breath. SupermanâClark? âpushes out his words like they hurt, and falters in a second.
He stumbles back like heâs been hit. You scramble forward to catch him, your body not worried about anything but Clark is going to fall.
Your hand wraps around his wrist. He makes a deep, rumbling sound from his chest. Almost a growl.
His eyes flutter. He moans out your name, trying to tug weakly away.
âClark- Wait-â
Supermanâs body goes slack, and he collapses in your arms.
At one in the morning on Sunday, too much is happening.
You put ClarkâSuperman? âin your bed. Took his temperature and dropped the thermometer in shock.
Heâs burning at 150 degrees.
He should be dead. Youâre not even sure how you touched him without burning up.
The thermometer clatters to the ground, and Clark shifts in his sleep. Groans out a garbled, pained noise that sounds like your name.
You swallow, hugging yourself tight. Itâs hard not to reach out to him, but you donât feel like you should. He hadnât wanted you near him, and youâve already crossed a few lines by putting him in your bed.
Then he moans, ripping the thin sheets off his body.
That time it was definitely your name.
Superman moaned your name.
You back out of the room slowly, with an embarrassing amount of effort. You canât rip your eyes away from him.
Clark in your bed, calling for you and rolling around like a rutting beast. Whateverâs tormenting him isnât enough to wake him up, but itâs enough to drive you out of your mind. You bite the inside of your cheek, and force yourself to close the door. It solves the looking at him problem.
It does nothing for hearing him.
And heâs loud. Youâre lucky the apartments have thick walls between units, or youâd get a noise complaint. Clark is almost howling from his room, and whenever you give into temptation and go to check on him, heâs somehow managed to rip another item of clothing off in his sleep.
It starts with his top. The symbol on his chest gets torn to shreds, revealing a broad, flushed chest. Heâs got a small happy trail. Muscles that you want to trace, and boobs that might be bigger than yours.
Your eyes wander to his abdomen. Thereâs a happy trail that leads down, down, down, and-
Oh.
Thatâs⌠Big.
You slam the door closed, and run back to the kitchen. Cold water does nothing against the heat building in your core. You splash it on your face and drink two glasses, but you might as well be downing sea salt. Youâre thirstier than when you started.
The image seems to be burned behind your eyes. Clarkâs bulge. Supermanâs bulge.
You still havenât really dealt with that.
Clark is Superman. Superman is Clark. Youâre sure. Youâve spent the last hour on the couch, sketching out timelines and checking your work. The random disappearances in the middle of the day. How youâve never seen him get drunk. The fact that heâs built like a Greek god but never works out, and whenever Jimmy asks him for a routine he just says grow up on a farm. Â
And be a Kryptonian. That would probably also help.
To be sureâyou have to be positive, before Superman wakes up and you start throwing around accusationsâyou cut out a pair of paper glasses and build up all your courage.
When you step into your room, it hits you like a tidal wave. The smell of sex, sweat and cum and something deeper. Clarkâs ripped off his tights, and apparently the outside boxers are the only thing heâd been using for cover.
You donât let yourself look. Your traitorous eyes try to, but you refuse to glance past his thick thighs. You wonât violate him like that. Youâre here for confirmation, and nothing else.
Carefully, you wipe the sticky hair from Clarkâs brow. His whole body shudders under your light touch, and he bucks up to chase your fingers when you pull away. A deep whine escapes from his lips, and you swallow.
Dear lord.
Very, very slowly, you put the paper glasses on his nose. He wrinkles it, trying to buck them off, but you plant a hand on his chest.
You donât mean to. You move before you can think.
Clark relaxes. His body goes slack like putty, save for a single hand flying to your wrist, holding tight.
He could break you. Heâs Superman. Youâve watchedâalbeit from afarâhim pick up whole buildings. But his touch on you is light, as if youâre glass. His jaw relaxes. A purr rumbles under your hand, and his thumb starts to trace small circles.
You stare at him, every logical thought in your head evaporating in the heat of the room. The glasses confirmed exactly what you wanted them to.
Clark is Superman,
And somehow, thatâs the least important thing thatâs happening right now.
His brow is unfurrowed, his mouth hanging open as he pants out your name.
âClark?â You breathe, and he moans.
This time, he calls your name. His eyes flutter in his sleep, and his hand starts to move. Dragging yours down his chest. Over his pecs, his ribs, to his abdomen and-
You yank away with a squeak, when you realize. Clark whines, immediately seizing up the second you pull away.
He looks like heâs in pain. Your touch helped, and heâd liked it, and-
No. You canât. You wonât. Youâre stronger than that, and heâs not in his right mind. Whateverâs effecting himâwhateverâs strong enough to effect Supermanâcanât be letting him think clearly. It would be one thing if he asked. Another to touch him in his sleep, just because heâd moved your hand there. He probably doesnât even know itâs you.
But heâd been calling your name. Heâs calling your name right now.
The steam of the room is getting to your head. You stumble away, squeezing your eyes shut when Clark keens in pain.
If you werenât such a masochist, youâd put in earbuds to avoid hearing him. But he keeps calling your name.
And youâre not that strong at all.
Clark wakes up at four in the morning. You havenât even managed to close your eyes.
Youâre so dazed from the everything that you donât hear him coming. You just realize the moans have stopped, and hear a quiet mumble of your name.
When you turn, Clarkâs standing in the door of the living room.
Heâs naked.
Fully naked.
And this time, youâre too tired stop your eyes from wandering.
Heâs glorious. Itâs not just the muscle and size of him, itâs all Clark. How his flexing arms are the ones that catch up when you stumble over yourself, and his legs are the ones that bring you coffee in the morning. Those fisted hands hold your hair back when youâre sick and boop your nose. His tense knees bump against yours under almost every table, and his chest keeps you tucked safely away from the world whenever you have a meltdown.
But itâs also the muscle and size of him. He looks wound up, so tight youâre worried he may snap. The coat of sweat on his skin is begging to be licked off, and his thick arms could wrap around your neck and you wouldnât complain.
And his cock.Â
You donât know how he manages to walk around with that thing. Itâs bigger than the toys youâve seen in shops, bigger than the ones in porn that have to be fake, bigger than the lewdest drawings on the internet. Thick and veiny, hard and standing proud. His balls are heavy, and you kind of want to put them in your mouth. Every inch of him is slicked with cum, and you realize you just licked your lips far too late.
Clark clears his throat. You look up with burning cheeks and wide eyes.
âClark, I- Iâm so sorry-â
âDonât.â He mutters, shifting on his feet. You can see his arms jerking wildly. Like heâs actively stopping them from moving. âIâm the one that should be sorry, I- I shouldnât have come here.â
He winces at his own word choice, rubbing a stain of release on his thigh. Heâd been humping the sheets all night. Youâd heard the squeak of the mattress, and-
âI broke your bed.â He mumbles, not meeting your gaze. âIâll fix it when- This passes.â
âClark-â
âStop saying it like that.â
You blink. Clark takes a deep breath, and looks up at you.
His eyes are shining. You canât tell if itâs with frustration, or sadness, or that something else.
âPlease donât say my name. Like that, or- At all.â His throat bobs. âIt makes everything very hard.â
Your lips twitch, and you glance back to his dick. He sighs.
âYeah. I know. There are only so many words I can use, you know.â
You laugh softly, despite everything.
Clark grabs the doorframe with a groan. It cracks under his hands, and he wonât stop staring at you,.
âDonât laugh either.â
âI- Iâm sorry-â
âAnd donât apologize, or- Or look at me-â
He cuts himself off with a long moan, and you fix your gaze very pointedly on the ceiling.
âCla-â You cut yourself off. âShould I call you Superman?â
âNo- That- Thatâs weird-â
âKal-El?â
âWorse.â He grunts, and you sigh.
âI need to be able to call you something.â
âIt would be better if you didnât talk, actually.â
That makes you glare at him. He winces, face scrunching in apology.
âNo, not- Not like that-â
âNot like what-â
âItâs just, when you talk-â
âItâs hard?â You snap, and you donât know why youâre so mad all of a sudden. Maybe itâs how you havenât slept in almost two days.
Itâs probably that. But also, something needs to break. If Clark just Supermans away after everything, youâre going to kill him.
âPlease donât sat that word.â Clark mumbles, and you shake your head.
âNo. Iâm going to talk, and youâre going to listen and give me answers.â
âI- I donât think thatâs a good idea-â
âYou donât get to decide whatâs a good idea right now, boner-boy.â
He wrinkles his nose. âThat⌠Doesnât seem fair.â
âMaybe, but you know whatâs also not fair?â You cross your arms over your chest, raising your chin. âIgnoring your best friend for a week, then showing up with a fever and- And magic boner then telling her to shut up!â
âI didnât tell you to shut up-â
âYou said I shouldnât talk.â
âI said it would be better if you didnât talk.â He mumbles, staring at the floor. âThatâs not the same-â
âShut up.â
âSorry.â
The wall cracks further. You wrinkle your nose.
âYou better fix the wall, Kent.â
âI will. âM sorry-â
âStop apologizing to me, and just- Just tell me whatâs wrong!â
You take a step forward. Clark shrinks back, but doesnât move away.
âYouâre not allowed to- To be mad.â He glances up under his lashes, and lets out another labored sigh. âBe more mad.â
 Thatâs not promising, but your worry outweighs your anger. You nod, watching him expectantly. He closes his eyes, like he canât bear to see your reaction. Â
âYou know kryptonite?â
You blink. âOf course I know kryptonite, I donât live under a rock.â
âRight. Well,â he coughs. âThereâs, uh- This thing. Called red kryptonite. And it does⌠Weird things. To me. And other Kryptonians. Which is just Kara- My cousin- I think youâd like her-â
âClark.â
âSorry- Sorry.â He groans. You can trace a bead of sweat down his brow.
âRed kryptonite?â You prompt, softer than before.
His cock twitches. You try not think about it.
âI got exposed to some.â He mumbles. âLast weekend. And it never does the same thing twice, but usually itâs something like⌠Shrinking me. Flipping my personality, or giving me an extra power or curse or- Once it turned me into a fish-â
âIt what-â
âI got better.â He says quickly. âBut itâs usually immediate. This wasnât. I- I even hoped I got lucky. That it wasnât going to effect me at all. Then I got into the office on Monday, and saw you, andâŚâ
He trails off, words hanging in the air.
Saw you.
You activated the red kryptonite in him.
Thereâs a very reasonable guess to what itâs doing. You still need to hear him say it, before you do something about it.
âWhat happened when you saw me?â You breathe, and he gives you a pleading look.
Makes a loose gesture to his erection. You bite back a smile. Heâs going to need talking into this.
âClark.â You say gently, and he groans.
âPlease donât make me say it.â
You give him a look, and he turns even redder than before. Stares down at his feet like a scolded child. Itâs almost adorable, while also remaining impossibly hot.
âItâs very⌠Demanding.â He mumbles. âAbout certain things that I would like to do. And it is very particular about who I need to do it with. But- I canât ask that of you-â
âCanât you?â
Your question is quiet. You know heâll hear you.
And Clarkâs head snaps up, his jaw hanging open. He shakes his head.
âYou- You canât mean that-â
âWhy not?â
You take a small step forward. Clark grabs the other side of the door way, tracking your every movement with that predatory focus.
âIâd like to.â You murmur. He grunts.
âYou donât have to pity me-â
âItâs not pity.â
He chuckles dryly. âFeels like it. I know you donât- Thatâs not how you feel-â
âWho says itâs not how I feel?â
You fix him with a challenging glare, and Clark swallows.
âUhh⌠Steve?â
You scoff. âSteveâs been trying to ask me out for three years, of course heâd tell you that.â
Clark shakes his head, his whole body trembling.
Youâve stopped a foot away. More than close enough for him to grab you. But he has to make that final step himself.
âI- I could hurt you.â He says, giving you that puppy look.
You shrug. âI like being hurt a little.â
His cock jumps. He doubles over, and youâre a little worried heâs going to break your whole apartment if he doesnât move soon.
âClark.â You whisper, taking a small step forward. âI trust you. And I- I want this. I want you.â
âNo, you-â
âDonât tell me what I feel.â
He shuts his mouth, still giving you that desperate look. You want to soothe him, but you just hold your ground.
âWill it hurt you?â You ask. âIf you ignore it?â
He nods, tight and controlled.
You steel yourself, even as your nerves start to buzz.
Not with fear.
With excitement.
âThen use me.â You whisper, holding his darkened gaze. âPlease.â
And Clark snaps.
He kisses you so hard you stumble. Knees buckle as Clarkâs fevered lips overtake yours, and your startled squeal only lets him kiss you deeper. Your fingers fly out for something to hold onto, and find only the air.
Clark picks you up like youâre made of feathers, and thereâs something steady about there being no ground at all.
If you were in your right mind, youâd think something about free fall and having no worry if thereâs nowhere for impact. If you can only be caught.
But youâre not in your right mind. Because Clark isnât kissing you like a kiss.
Heâs inhaling you, and itâs already lighting you on fire.
Thereâs a thick arm wrapped around your waist, the other holding your back. A hand wrapped around your neck, angling him to kiss as deeply as he wants. His tongue presses over yours as he walks himself backwards.
You push back, and he moans. Itâs the most beautiful sound youâve ever heard.
Clarkâs back hits the wall, his legs sinking slightly as you make out. Nothing in his hold on you falters. If anything, it tightens. Like even with your open mouth moving against each other, thereâs no way he can get close enough.
You respond to everything he gives you. Clark squeezes the back of your neck lightly, and you hum happily, smiling into the kiss. He grunts, when you thread your fingers through his hair.
He sinks further down, kisses turning short and desperate. He sucks on your lower lip, nipping softly and hauling you further up his body. Your nails dig into his scalp, and he drops his arm on your waist to grab your ass.
âClark-â
âSo- Sorry-â He groans, and you can feel him rolling beneath you, trying to get himself back under control. âYouâre just- So pretty, and- And soft, and-â
He drops fully to the floor, and you start slightly when he rips his mouth from yours, before burying his face in your neck.
âSmell so good.â He almost whines. âSo good.â
You take a deep breath, trying to collect yourself. Youâre the sane one right now. The Clark beneath you is still your Clark, but heâs also a man whoâs in a fugue state of lust. Not the mild, usually level headed, noble little dork you love.
Clark whines, when you run your nails gently against the back of his neck. Heâs almost shaking, kissing and sucking on your neck like he canât even help himself. You donât think he can.
It makes sense why he was avoiding you. This wouldâve been quite the HR violation in the copy room.
âItâs okay.â You coo, kissing the side of his head. âYou can take what you need, Clark, I told you I want it-â
âYou- You canât-â
âDonât tell me what I get to want-â
âNo, you canât.â He detaches himself from your neck, going completely still. His grip on your hips is bruising.
You donât mind at all.
âIâll hurt you.â He mutters, and you sigh.
âWe talked about this-â
âIâll hurt you.â He squeezes his eyes shut, over pouncing each word, and you stare at him for a moment.
You shift in his lap, trying to peer closer, and he hisses. His fingers dig into your sides, and his head slowly bows against your chest. Licking and kissing softly, as if he canât physically stand to be that far from you.
And you feel it.
The literal alien cock pressing against your ass. Youâd think was a stick if you didnât know better.
Oh.
Right.
Clark must hear the way your heartbeat picks up, and put it together. He sighs, warm breath tickling over your breasts.
âI need to get you ready.â
You swallow. âI- Iâm pretty-â You can feel your heartbeat in your cunt, and thereâs the familiar tingling ache thatâs always a good sign. âI feel pretty ready-â
Clark grunts. âNot ready enough.â
âHow do you know-â
âNose.â
âNose- Oh.â You flush. He can smell your arousal. âBut thatâs a good thing, right-â
âNot enough.â
He seems reduced to short worded grunts. Youâre not faring much better, but thereâs also a massive man below you that canât stop sucking around your tits.
âCan you⌠Always smell me?â You manage to ask, and he hums.
Thatâs his agreement hum.
Your jaw drops.
âAre you serious-â
âI canât help it.â
âYou- You could wear nose plugs-â
âNo. Like it too much.â
Your thighs squeeze, those deep words shooting straight to your cunt, and Clark groans.
âYou- Canât move-â
âYou should move-â
âWonât hurt you.â He grunts, like heâs making a vow. âJust- Need a second.â
You let out a slow breath, looking up to the ceiling. The idea comes faster than you want to admit, but youâre desperate.
âYou were better when you woke up.â You say causally, stroking your fingers through his hair. âLucid.â
Clark grunts. You smile at the air.
âYou came in bed last night.â
He stiffens slightly. âWet dream.â
âAbout who?â
You feel the ghost of a smile, against your chest. âYouâre very⌠Mouthy. Like this.â
And youâve been told that before. But something about the way Clark says itâlike something heâs measuring, a note heâs jotting down for a pieceâmakes you feel all glowy and stupid inside.
âWow. Mouthy.â You tease. âNot very polite, Clark.â
âThere are other words I couldâve used for it.â He mumbles, and you giggle.
âYeah? Like what?â
Clark draws slowly back, staring at you with those drunken, dark eyes.
âA brat.â
A lot of the fight leaves you, very fast. No ones ever looked at you like that. Like youâre something they want to chew on, carefully and deeply. To leave a mark while keeping every part of you both ruined and intact.
And his voice. Lower than youâve ever heard, and hoarse with desire. You were already a lot woman. This just seals your fate.
âI should jerk you off.â You blurt.
Clark makes a sound like a wounded animal, and drops his brow against yours.
âYou- You canât just say that-â
âBut it will help.â You give him your best, pouty and pleading expression. âYouâll feel better enough to- To get me ready.â You try to keep your voice level, as if youâre not thrilled just to say the words. âAnd then⌠More.â
Clark doesnât answer. He just closes his eyes again, breathing heavily through his mouth. You wait, but you start to get a little worried he didnât hear.
âCan you please look at me-â
âNo.â He grinds out, and you frown. Reach up to cup his face.
âClark-â
âDonât ask me to move.â His words are tight. Pushed through his teeth.
You feel his cocks twitch, near your ass.
âClark.â You make your voice soft. Traced the tensed line of his jaw, the bridge of his nose. He whimpers at the touch, and you smile. âItâs okay.â
âI- I need to get you-â
âIâm going to touch you, okay?â
His throat bobs, but he nods. Short and tight.
Enough.
You scoot back, and Clark lowers his legs at a painfully slow pace you accommodate you. Your ass drags over his dick, and he hisses, rutting up.
âSorry-â
âItâs okay.â You say quickly, smiling slightly. âGood preview.â
He looks at you in befuddled exasperation. Opens his mouth like heâs going to snap something else out about you being a brat.
You settle against his knees, and donât give him a chance.
The sound Clark makes when you wrap your hand around his cock is holy. Deep and guttural, like a man already wrecked. You let him sit in your loose grip for a second, watching his chest heave and eyes flutter.
Heâs throbbing under your touch. You can barely hold him with the single hand.
You add a second, and squeeze at the base.
Clark makes another one of those beautiful noises, and grabs your wrist.
âBe- Be careful.â
You pause. âDoes it not feel-â
âFeels good.â He grunts. âToo good. Gonna- Oh, fuck-â
Your mouth falls open. Clark swore.
You started to stroke his cock, and he swore.
And more. You need more. More of his swears, his sounds, his sweat running down his bare chest and the way heâs moaning your name. You need to see him fall apart, because once heâs back in controlâonce this massive dildo of a dick is inside youâyouâre not going to be able to focus on such things.
You set a quick pace. Skin slapping and hot, unraveling him quickly.
Clark calls your name, his hands slamming back to grab at the walls. You watch in awe as his fingers sink into the wood, creating a slot for him to hold onto.
âLike- Like that- Shit.â He tosses his head back, moaning loud and lewd. âYeah, baby, oh- Right there-â
He cuts himself off, rolling his hips up into your touch. You squeeze him again, switching your hands so one can thumb at the weeping slit on his head. Pre-cum leaks all over your fingers, and your lean further down.
You want to taste him.
When you slide off his legsâkeeping your hands workingâClark says your name in a rough, garbled warning.
âWhat- What are you-â
You wrap your lips around the tip of him, flicking your tongue where your thumb had been. Clark makes a sound youâve never heard from anyone before, his free hand flying to grab your neck.
The grip is tight, but painless. Youâre in no danger of pain.
Thereâs something thrilling about how heâs gripping you so possessively. Like a life line.
You drop your hand to play with his balls. Clark bucks up into your mouth, bumping against the back of your throat.
âSorry- Fucking Christ-â
You moan happily around him, drooling lips pushing down further. Your tongue swirls around him, and you suck, bobbing your head up and down. Trying to make him lose control again.
It doesnât take long. Not when you reach up to his hand on your neck, and push it down.
âAre you-â
You moan, and Clark gives in.
He fucks your face like itâs a toy. Cock slipping in and out from between your lips, your spit staining with his pre-cum. Tears prick at your eyes, but you dig your nails into his thighs, refusing to be pulled off.
âLook- Look at you- Holy- Holy shit-â
Clark moans your name, and you let your hand drift back his balls. He slams up at the featherlight touch, and the tears start to flow.
âYouâre so good at this sweetheart, so- So good-â Clark moans, hips thrusting to meet every bob of your head. âYour mouth is so warm, and- And soft-â
You suckle lightly, the praise going right to your core. Your ass is sticking in the air, grinding up into nothing as he uses you.
And you can feel how close he is. His balls are tightening under your fingers, his cock twitching and pulsing, and-
Clark yanks you off suddenly, with one last cry of your name. Before you can protest or try to go back down, you see why.
Heâs cumming.
And heâs not stopping.
Thick white ropes spurt from his dick, and you stare, transfixed. Every time you think he must be done, more comes. When the geyser finally stops, thereâs not a place it hasnât hit.
Clark lets out a shaky breath. You look up to him with wide eyes. He stares back, licking his lips.
âIf you-â
âDo that inside me.â
You speak at the same time again. Clark blinks, leaning back slightly, and you flush.
âI- I mean- Clark-â
He starts to drag you forward, and your words turn into a squeak. Your being manhandled right into his lap, your ass still sticking up in the air and your hands just barely bracing you on the ground.
âI heard you.â He drawls, running a hand over the curve of your ass. âPretty well, actually.â
His hand drags over your exposed core, and you whimper.
âDonât- Donât tease-â
âTrust me.â He mutters darkly. âI wonât.â
Two thick fingers toy at your clit, and you push yourself higher into the air. He knows exactly how to flick that little button, to drive you insane.
âOh- Oh god-â
âIf I had time.â Clark murmurs, almost to himself. âIâd keep you here for the rest of the day. Watch the sweetness drip down your legs,â his fingers trace over your sensitive inner thighs. âLet you make a mess in my lap. Wait âtill youâre begging for it, then touch you,â one, broad finger rubs around your fluttering hole. âNice and slow, until you feel what Iâm dealinâ with right now.â
You moan, gaping at the floor. Clark gets a southern, Kanas drawl when heâs horny. It makes you clench around nothing, and he chuckles.
âOh, you like that.â He presses the tip of his finger in, and you whine. âYeah, I know. Know better than anyone, sweetheart.â
He pushes his hips slightly, forcing your ass higher into the air. Thereâs a rip, and cold air hits your core, making you shiver. His cock, still so hard, bumps against your tummy right as his finger slips into your cunt.
âClaaaark.â You moan, squeezing tight around him.
Youâre rubbing backwards, trying to take him deeper. He splays one hand on your lower back, keeping you from getting what you want while still letting you chase the false hope.
He crooks his finger slightly, twisting it in a circle. You go limp, wrapping your arms around his thigh and pressing your cheek down for support.
âThatâs it.â He mutters. âJust seeing what you need, itâs alright. Shit,â he lets out a sharp breath, cock twitching against you. âYouâre so wet. I- I gotta-â
You hear it start to possess him, and you canât be surprised when he pulls the finger out. Still, you twist to whine at him, maybe try to drag his hand back. Heâs strong, but youâre horny, and thatâs sure to help you somehow.
Instead, you trip on your own hands and collapse back down at the sight before you.
Clark cleaning your arousal off his fingers, eyes closed and face slack like heâs having a fine meal.
You canât look away from it. Itâs the hottest, most lewd thing youâve ever seen. You whimper when he goes back into for more, dragging two fingers between your pussy lips before returning them to his mouth. He does it over, and over, and over again. Sometimes giving a little attention to your clit, like heâs milking you for more.
Youâre a flushed, wiggling mess when he finally pulls his fingers away with a pop. His eyes are wholly black, gleaming with lust and fixed on yours.
Thereâs nothing left of you but putty, when Clark slowly starts to rub your pussy again. Youâre a smeared, wrecked mess that canât stop grinding back onto his hand, and he smiles down at you.
Itâs predatory, but still soft. Exactly what you expect from him now. Pulling out the hair that got stuck in your mouth, all while slowly fingering your cunt.
âWanted to do that for so long.â He coos, pushing two fingers deep inside of you. âYouâd come into the office and start gettinâ wet right next me, I was slobbering like a dog. Thought Iâd lose my mind, every single day.â
His fingers go deeper, bumping against your g-spot. You keen, making an almost unearthly sound from your chest. Clark notices it. Of course he does.
âThere she is.â He mutters, starting to pump his fingers fast. Pushing against the gummy point over and over, until youâre drooling.
Your head has never been this empty during sex before. But youâve also never been put over Clarkâs lap like this. Fingered into oblivion while his dick pushes into your stomach. You start to push upâhe needs attentionâbut Clark pushes you back down with a grunt.
âNeed to be inside you.â He grunts. âNeed you ready.â
Well. If he needs it.
Itâs easy to relax into the feeling. Clark starting to thumb at your clit, rubbing it back and forth like a bop-it toy. Between that and his fingers, Clark is almost pulling pleasure out of you like a machine. It doesnât take long for you to feel like youâre close. Your face his presses into his bare leg, your pussy fully pried open and well touched. You can feel the familiar tension inside you, about to burst.
âClark- Clark-â You donât have the strength to twist, so you scratch at his leg. âI- Iâm gonna-â
âI know.â He mutters, and fuck, you donât doubt him. âWhenever youâre ready, sweetheart. Cum on my hand, let me feel it.â
It only takes a few more moments. Release hits you quickly, and lasts long. Thighs shaking and loud moans escaping your lips as Clark keeps playing with you.
Youâre dazed from the orgasm. Itâs the strongest youâve ever felt, and your cunt is still pulsing when Clarkâs fingers pull away.
âYouâre ready.â He mutters, and you agree with a garbled sound.
He laughs, leaning down to kiss the back of your head as you quiver. He pulls you up into his lap, and you can feel his cock sliding between your folds. Both of your are so slick with everything thereâs no friction. The tension in Clark tells you heâs close to going feral again, but his voice is still sweet.
âJust- Stay like that, beautiful.â He kisses the side of your head. âAnd if it- If anything starts to feel bad, tell me. Iâll stop.â
And you believe him. You know just how much this is affecting him, but you also know heâs Clark. And there isnât a force on earth that could make him hurt you like that.
âCan you- Can you please say youâll tell me-â
âIâll tell you.â Itâs barely more than an exhale.
Clark hears it.
âGood. Good girl.â He kisses your neck this time, and you whimper. âLet me- Canât do it here. Not right.â
Youâre not sure what heâs talking about until youâre airborne. Clark tosses you over his shoulder, holding you steady with one arm around your knees, and you blink at the cum and sweat stained floor. You might have to move, after this.
Maybe Clark could let you live with him.
Too fast. And not the thing to worry about right now.
Get fucked stupid, then think about your living situation and relationship status.
Thatâs a good plan. The best plan.
There really couldnât be a better one, you decide. Not when Clark starts to rub your clit again, using the full pressure of his palm.
âKeeping her ready.â He rumbles, and you hum. Youâre certainly not complaining.
Youâre already close to another orgasm, when he lowers you down onto the bed. Your back hits the mattress, and you immediately reach between your thighs, fondling at your pussy hopelessly. Nothing feels as good as Clarkâs hands. He mightâve already ruined you forever.
âDonât do that.â
Those very hands catch your wrists. You stumble over your breath, when you look up at Clark.
Heâs back into feral caveman mode. Stroking his cock with one hand, the other squeezing yours gently before setting it down at your side.
âI touch you.â He grunts, and you canât argue with that.
You lay down, spreading your legs slowly. In offering. Clark makes that guttural sound, his dick somehow looking like itâs gotten harder. You swallow. Itâs very hard not to touch yourself with a massive, hulking god standing over you and jerking himself off. For Clark, youâre going to try.
Heâs been reduced back to deep noises from his chest and moans of your name, but heâs not making any attempt to move on you. Heâs just⌠Staring.
Stroking his cock, and watching you. Looking between your wet, gaping pussy and flushed face, beating himself into his fist.
He moans, and doubles over. Pumps so fast his hand becomes a blur, and god youâd like him to do that to you later.
His face lands on your inner thigh. Soft stubble grazing the oversensitive area, cold breath pushing against your clit. You grab his hair, back arching off the bed at the taunting pleasure. Clark moans, watching you clench around nothing.
You cry, as his face fully presses into your cunt. Itâs right as he finishes himself off, his cum painting the mattress and covering your ankles.
Clark rises back up, and for a second you just stare at each other.
âDidnât mean to do that.â He rasps, and your lips twitch.
âI liked it.â
He chuckles, shaking his head. âOf course you did.â
Clark falls back over you, kissing you deep and slow. You call tell that the clear-headed affect of the orgasm is lasting for a shorter and shorter time.
And Clark choses to use it, just to kiss you.
He tests the head of his cock up and down your pussy, making sure to push it against your clit before going back down, and starting to slide slowly in. Thereâs almost no resistance, and he hums against your lips.
âGoinâ slow.â He mumbles. âWhile I can.â
You nod. Itâs all you can manage.
He feels just as bigâif not biggerâthan he looked. Never has a cock stretched you so greatly, and so well. The fullness is incomparable, and youâd be worried you couldnât take it if your pussy wasnât greedily swallowing him whole.
âThatâs it.â Clark groans, pushing in every inch so torturously and amazingly slow. Forcing you to feel every single inch. âThereâs you go, just- Just take it- Fuuuck-â
He moans your name, and you kiss him. You want to feel everything he has, vibrating through your chest. Straight into your cunt.
Clark bottoms out, hiding his face in your neck. You blink up at the ceiling, trying to push off more tears. Itâs good, unbelievably good, and your body doesnât know what to do with it.
âTight.â Clark mumbles against you, and you laugh breathily.
âBig.â
He looks up at you, and for a second, you only see Clark. Your best friend, looking out of you, always kinder than he needs to be.
ââm serious.â He says, low and rough. Like a secret. âWhen I call you pretty. When I- When I say I want you-â
You kiss him, and Clark melts into you in a second. You canât stop your smile.
âI know.â You breathe, and he nods.
âLove you.â He pushes in almost an inch deeper, like the words spur him on. âSo much.â
You blink, and his eyes widen.
âThatâs- Um- I donât think I meant to- You feel really good and my brain is soupy-â
Kissing to shut him up will only work so many times. You cover his mouth with your hand, every inch of you feeling alive. From his words, his body, every single inch of this glorious man thatâs somehow, all yours.
âMy brain is soupy too.â You whisper, clenching purposefully around his cock.
Clark grunts, rutting forward. You giggle, and he gives you a dangerous look.
âVery soupy. But,â You beam. âI love you too. And Iâm very serious.â
Clark pauses. Smiles into your hand, eyes shining in the dark. You feel a little like your floating. Youâd like to be rocketed right up to heaven.
âMake me dumb.â You breathe, and Clarkâs shoulders square.
Your hand is knocked away in a second. His mouth attacks yours, and the moment he starts to move, an orgasm is ripped from your very core.
You scream, locking up and clenching around him. Clark moans against your lips, grabbing your knees and pushing them up to your chest. Itâs a deep angle, and you can feel every inch of him, sliding in and out of your cunt. His balls slap near your ass, and his mouth hangs open as he stares down at him.
Heâs fully gone to the red kryptonites effects. Thereâs no question, as he bends you in half and starts to fuck you like a doll. But he still doesnât let his strength slip. You feel completely safe in his hands.
Safe and attended to.
Youâve never fucked a man who makes sure to hit your g-spot so much, and Clarkâs barely even lucid right now. But he drills down into it, moaning your name and making those sinful, beautiful sounds.
Itâs too much for your poor pussy. Two is a lot of orgasms. Three is yourâusualâmax, and thatâs usually with time between. But Clark isnât letting up. And youâre getting close again.
âCla- Clark-â You whine out, and he fucking growls. âClark, Iâm gonna-â
He makes a deep noise of understanding, and starts to fuck you harder. You cry out, grabbing uselessly at the sheets as the next release gushes from your pussy, flying up your spine like ecstasy.
Clark finds his own release there. With you clenching tight around him, writhing with overwhelmed pleasure and moaning his name like a hymn as you come. He throws his head back and starts to fuck like an animal, roaring your name.
He grabs your jaw, demanding your eyes on his. His thumb presses on your lower lip.
Cockdrunk and empty headed, you open your mouth and start to suck.
It feels even better than youâd thought. At first itâs nothing, just painting your walls and sticking so deep inside you, you think it knocks you into another, tiny orgasm. Then itâs more, spurting out of your pussy as he keeps fucking into you. An obscene fountain, staining your ass and thighs.
Then itâs too much. Youâre not sure you can breathe, but the lights dancing on the edge of your vision only add to the euphoria.
Now, itâs everything. Youâre full. So full. You never want to be empty again.
And you donât think Clark would allow that anyway.
Because heâs still fully hard inside of you. And with how heâs staring at you, you donât think thereâs a space of sound mind anymore.
Clark just stares at you, still mindlessly sucking on his thumb and growls.
You giggle as he grabs your hips and flips you onto your stomach. Drags your ass back up into the air and pushes himself back in with a thick moan.
Thereâs a chance that his cum is transferring some of the sexual stamina onto you. Itâs the only possible way you can last this long. Clark fucks into you from behind, kissing up and down your spine as his balls slap against your clit. Your fourth orgasm hits you, and you think you see he stars.
Clark cums again. You donât know how thereâs still possibly space for it, but nature finds a way.
You giggle into the sheets. Clark kisses your shoulder, rutting deeper and deeper into your abused pussy.
He might take your laughter as a challenge. Suddenly youâre being flipped over, and Clarkâs impaling you on his dick once more, forcing you to slide down and feel every inch.
Itâs a good thing you get giggly when you have good sex.
If he sees it as a challenge, youâre ready to lose, over and over and over again.
On Sunday, Clark fucks you through the afternoon and into the night.
There isnât a spot in the apartment that doesnât feel the aftermath. After making you ride him, he clambered over you and held you to his chest, fucking you with just your knees on the bed. After that you ended up on your back, then riding him again, then somehow on the floor. Against the wall. In the doorway, your face pressed against the window, Clark flying and holding you in his lap. By the time the sun was over your head, you were a wordless, dumb mess. Clark had you in a headlock and you were smiling like an idiot, taking his cock over and over again until you think you reshaped each other.
Now, standing in the shower to wash off the everything, you think if you reached down and touched yourself, youâd find Clark completely rearranged your guts to his shape. When youâd looked at him during the soft, quiet cleanup, his cock had certainly looked like youâd molded him to only fit in you.
Itâs an oddly romantic thought.
There are lots of those to go around.
Clarkâs waiting for you in the living room. Heâs been trying to clean, but you donât think thereâs a point.
âI told you Iâm going to have to move,â you joke, and he sighs.
âWell, I- I really tried, but-â He wrinkles his nose. âI think it got in things. When I- Yeah.â He groans. âI can see it.â
âSee it-â
âX-ray vision.â
âOh.â That fun revelation had gotten lost in everything else. Itâs going to take some getting used to.
Clark bows his head, almost in shame.
âSorry I didnât tell you,â he mutters.
You shake your head. âIt fine-â
âI wanted to-â
âClark.â You place a hand on his chest, smiling softly. âItâs okay. Really.â
He blinks at you, then relaxes.
âReally?â He asks anyway, and you nod.
âReally.â You nod to the floor. âI can even start apartment hunting right now.â
Clark laughs at that, and you beam.
Itâs the same. Even after I love yous and the sex marathon, itâs still just Clark. And youâre more lucky to have that, than anything else.
âYou could move in with me.â He suggests quiet and nervous, and your eyes widen.
âI-â
âIf itâs too fast, you donât have to, I- Geez, I havenât even taken you out on a date yet, never mind-â
âClark.â You raise your voice, forcing him to quiet down. âI was thinking the same thing earlier.â
He starts slightly. His lips twitch. âYou were?â
You nod, and he grins like you handed him the sun.
âItâs not- Maybe too fast-â
âMaybe.â You shrug. âBut I- Iâve loved you for years.â You look down to your fingers. âAnd we kind of lived together before. For work. And youâre my friend, first, so if you think itâs fine-â
Clark pulls your own trick. He grabs your face, and shuts you up with a deep, long kiss. You smile, rising up to meet him, and itâs barely been a day, but itâs the most natural thing in the world.
âIâm gonna do it right, though.â Clark says against your lips. âTake you out. Woo you.â
You laugh. âBring it on.â
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Summary: 4.2k (21+) Basically PwP. Bob's wanted you for ages and you want him too, so you ask him to take you home.
Warnings: Smut. PwP, Oral (male and female receiving), protected PnV, Bob has a big dick (as he should). I wrote this at 2am, so no edits.
A/N: I had a thought and decided to execute it. Enjoy!
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Itâs been awhile. That was the only thing running through Bobâs head as you both stepped through the door into his apartment, wasting no time in reattaching your lips to his as soon as the door was locked. If this was his one chance at getting to take you to bed, he didnât want to waste it.
He kissed you. Hard. Almost bruisingly, but you didnât seem to mind. His glasses were fogging up a bit from your shared breath as he pressed you against the wall. Bob swallowed your moans as he pressed one thigh between your legs, allowing you to rub against his jeans with just the right amount of pressure.
And he was hard. So hard. The pressure behind his zipper was almost enough to have him whining along with you. It had been so long since he was with someone. So long since heâd even pulled himself off, though heâd considered it so many times in the last few months. Ever since youâd joined the team as Haloâs backseater, heâd wanted you. But wanting someone on the same team just didnât seem right. So he watched you in that quiet way of his, always observant and keen to learn anything he could.
He learned your likes and dislikes. He knew you could take Hangman and Roosterâs shit and give it right back to them. He learned your coffee order and your favorite energy drink. And he also knew that you watched him right back with that smirk of yours that made him want to run away or jump out of a plane. He wanted to avoid your piercing gaze or be put under your thumb. He hadnât really decided how he felt, but he knew he wanted you.
Bob definitely hadnât expected to get you in his bed. Not tonight. Not ever. Because you were coworkers and you could have anyone, but you chose him. He hadnât even realized youâd chosen him until you were at the Hard Deck and youâd sidled up next to him as he watched Nat beat Hangman at pool yet again while Jake tried to maintain his honor. Youâd just sat next to him quietly. Comfortably. Like you belonged there. Two WSOs just watching the team youâd made a family battle it out over the pool table like they did every weekend. Then youâd nudged his arm.
âYou wanna get out of here?â you asked quietly, not even looking at him.
Bob whipped his head towards you so fast he almost got whiplash and nearly dropped his cup of peanuts. If he were sipping on the coke sweating beside him, he wouldâve done a spit take. You just gave him that slow smirk. He glanced around the room and noticed no one was watching them, so he turned back to you.
âWhat did you have in mind?â he asked slowly, disbelief still coloring every bit of his face.
âOh, yâknow,â your voice was nonchalant and Bob couldnât understand how when you finished, âyou, me, a bed? Your place?â Then you were taking a slow sip of your drink like you hadnât just short-circuited his brain. Like you hadnât just altered his brain chemistry and caused him to start stiffening in his jeans. You asked like it was the most normal thing in the world.
âYou mean that?â Bob asked, tone careful.
âWouldnât have asked if I didnât. Meet me outside in ten minutes?â
And Bob, helpless that he was when he was with you, nodded. You slipped away without anyone noticing in the direction of the bathrooms where Bob knew there was a side door and he counted down the minutes until he got up. He handed his glass back to Penny and threw his peanuts away and then he was ambling out the door. He knew no one would mind if he slipped away since he usually did pretty early, but he really wasnât worried tonight.
He found you leaning against his car door, nonchalantly, just like when youâd asked him to bed. Your coolness was definitely affecting his ability to think straight. As soon as he was next to you, you reached up to catch the back of his head with your hand and leaned in to kiss him. And Bob fucking melted.
It was the type of kiss he imagined in a rom com. Where neither of you cared about anyone seeing you and your focus was on each other instead. You may have gotten your hand in the short hair on the back of his neck, but his hands were roaming respectfully up and down your back as you pressed your hips against the car door.
âUnlock the car, Floyd.â you laughed, breaking the kiss. He groaned, eyes fluttering back open. His glasses were askew, but he wasnât sure he cared. However, he did as you asked and unlocked his beat up old truck. You slipped around the back and hopped in and he did as well, knuckles clenched against the steering wheel. But silence and sexual tension filled the air as he made the quick fifteen minute drive back to his apartment.
âNice place,â you murmured when he parked in the lot. And really, Bob was pretty proud of the one bedroom apartment heâd somehow commandeered at a decent price. The building itself looked nice on the outside and heâd tried to make the inside as homey as possible. The elevator ride was torture as he struggled to keep his hands to himself, but he wanted you in his place first away from potentially wandering eyes.
But back to the present, Bob had his leg between your thighs and his mouth trailed away from your lips towards the soft skin of your throat. He was careful not to leave any marks, at least not yet and not where anyone would be able to see. He did have ideas about marking up your hip bone or maybe even your breasts. Somewhere heâd know it was there and so would you, but that no one else would see or know about. Something to prove heâd been there, especially if this was the only time heâd get to take you home.
You moaned, a little breathless, as Bob trailed a kiss at the juncture of your jaw and your neck, the skin sensitive and he smiled against your skin.
âQuit teasing, Floyd.â you groaned, hauled him back up for a kiss and giving a particularly solid press against his thigh.Â
âMhhmm,â he hummed against your lips. âI believe you said something about you, me, and a bed?â
âCorrect, so take me to bed, Bob.â
âYes, maâam.â
He was setting you back against the wall before you could even take another breath and tugging you along to his bedroom near the back of his apartment, not even giving you any time to look around. Bob had one goal and one goal only right now; taking you however youâd let him right here and now.
You sat down on the edge of the bed, letting Bob settle between your thighs. That was when he realized that your mouth was right at the same level as his cock and by your smirk, he knew you were thinking the same thing. He didnât stop you as your fingers trailed up his thighs, sending shivers down his spine and up and down his arms. Your hands didnât stop there either. You were nimbly undoing his belt and pushing it to the sides. Then you were popping the button at the top and your fingertips brushed over the zipper. Bob groaned at the pressure.
It felt like an eternity passed as you slowly unzipped his jeans, millimeter by millimeter. But then your fingers reached the end of the zip and you were reaching over to shove his jeans down to his ankles. Finally, his cock was free of the confines of the jeans and he quickly stepped out of them, leaving himself in his grey boxers, the front of which were tenting spectacularly with a clear wet spot where the head was.
You didnât look surprised. In fact, you looked quite smug as you stared at the bulge between his legs. And when you touched him through the thin fabric of his boxers, his hips jutted forward of their own accord. The smile stayed.
âI knew the boysâ locker room talk wasnât false.â you murmured. Bob didnât even have a chance to react to that particular statement before you were leaning forward and pressing an open mouthed kiss to that wet spot and right over the head. His eyes rolled back in his head. One finger trailed up his dick from the base to the tip and he jutted forward again. âSo sensitive.â
âItâs been awhile.â Bob whispered, unsure of why heâd said it. Maybe youâd stop if you knew. He hoped you wouldnât.
âHmm, I can tell. Youâre all jumpy.â Your voice was like honey as you repeated your actions and pressed another kiss through the material. He could feel your hot breath through the fabric. âYou gonna let me suck you off? Been thinking about it for weeks.â
If Bobâs brain hadnât broken already, this was going to be it. This was gonna be how he died.
âYeah,â he breathed out. âYeah, Iâll let you.â
âTake these off. Wanna see you. Youâve been hiding from me.â you murmured, tapping his covered thigh and his stomach, indicating that you wanted his boxers and his t-shirt off. Bob did as you asked and you stood to take off your own shirt and pants. You were left in this simple set of black underwear that shouldnât have been as sexy as it was, but it left Bob aching for more. The ache was obvious in the bob of his cock.
Heâd always known you were beautiful. Heâd seen it when you whipped off your shirt at the beach the one day Mav had taken you all down there for dogfight football at the start of their teamâs bonding period. Youâd been left in your sports bra and shorts and heâd nearly fallen over at the first glimpse of your stomach and breasts. Heâd won the game for you, though he hadnât said anything, and heâd been too shy to take off his own shirt to show off like the others had. But you werenât with them tonight; you were with him.
Then you dropped to your knees. Bobâs eyes widened behind his glasses, his breath coming out in deep pants and you hadnât even really touched him. He gulped as you shuffled forward and the back of his knees hit the wall beside his bed. You steadied him with your hands on his thighs and Bob struggled with where to put his hands. He wanted them in your hair, but he wasnât sure if thatâs what you wanted and he was completely at your mercy at the moment.
Like you knew exactly what he was thinking, you guided one of his hands to the back of your head and he almost smiled. Almost. Because then you had your hands on his cock for real this time, your warm hands pumping the delicate skin up and down his shaft in alternating motions. Bob whined and immediately clapped his other hand over his mouth to muffle the sound.
âDonât do that.â you whispered, breath reaching the sensitive skin you were working, âWanna hear you. Wanna hear what Iâm doing to you.â
Bobâs head hit the wall. Because as soon as you stopped talking, you ran your tongue up his length. From his balls to the tip of his cock that was now flushed and angry and weeping so much precum he wasnât sure he hadnât come yet. Either you were really good at this or it had been longer than heâd thought. You werenât finished.
You popped the head of his cock into your mouth and swirled your tongue around the tip, pressure surrounding the sensitive skin of his cock. He was panting now, one hand loose in your hair and the other pressing against the wall beside him. One of your hands was still pumping him while the other held the tip steady so you could really take him. And take him you did.
Bob groaned, a guttural sound, as you leaned forward and took a few inches of him into the warm confines of your mouth. The slide of your tongue against the underside of his dick felt heavenly.
âOh my god.â he groaned, focusing on the feeling of your mouth. This was the best blowjob of his life, by far. âShit.â
You pulled off him for a moment and Bob almost whined at the loss of contact with your mouth until the most sinful of words was escaping your mouth.
âYou can fuck my mouth, Floyd. I wonât break.â The hand youâd been pumping his cock with lifted up to touch the hand he had tangled in your hair and you nodded up at him. Heâd barely registered that when you took him in your mouth again and this time, you didnât let up until the head was bumping the back of your throat. The pressure was insane.
âJesus, woman, youâre going to be the death of me.â Bob groaned, hand tightening in your hair. He could feel you hum around him and his cock twitched at the sound. If you kept this up, he wasnât going to last very long. He kept his hand firmly in your hair as you worked in a rhythm of blowing him, bobbing your pretty head in front of him. âIâm close.â
You pulled off again and he did whine. âThatâs fine. Iâm not finished with you yet.â
This time, you moved your hand to gently circle his balls and he felt them tightening up before he was really ready. When you sucked him back down your throat and dragged a nail down the center of his balls, it was game over. He shattered, hand in your hair and the other one against his abs as he cried out, hips stuttering into your mouth shallowly while you swallowed his release. When you pulled off, you wiped your mouth with the back of your hand and smiled softly up at him.
âFuck,â he whined, âdidnât mean to finish so fast. Havenât even touched you. Wanna touch you.â
âYeah?â you murmured, voice hoarsened by what youâd just done. Bob hauled you up from the floor and dragged you to the bed. You let him. He ended up on top of you, completely naked and between your thighs. âYou been thinking about touching me, Floyd?â
âSo much.â Bob trailed a finger from the bottom edge of your bra down to the top edge of your panties and pressed a kiss just above your naval. You shivered at the contact. âThought about worshipping between your legs and fucking you in the locker room.â
âI never thought youâd have it in you.â You grinned wickedly and pulled him down for a kiss. âWhat else did you think about?â
âThought about making out with you at the Hard Deck and showing the guys who you belong to. Wanted to take my time with you and fuck you slow and steady here in my bed.â Bob punctuated that particular sentence with a slow thrust of his hips against your core and was rewarded with a whine of his own from your lips. He may have just gotten off five minutes before, but he was already growing again and he knew heâd be ready for another round as soon as he made his fantasies a reality.
âSo why donât you?â you asked, looking him dead in the eyes.
âYou gonna let me take my time between your legs. Touch you here?â Bob murmured, trailing his finger between the seam of your legs now and your hips jumped.
âYeah, yeah, Iâd let you.â
âGood.â He took his time holding himself up with his knees and one hand as he leaned in to kiss you. He shouldâve felt disgusted tasting himself on your lips, but somehow it was hot as sin and he groaned into your mouth. Two seconds later, his hand was on your back, unclipping your bra with just one hand. You gasped into his mouth in surprise. He smiled.
Then he was leaning back on his knees and pulling your bra off, tossing it over his shoulder. You laughed and helped him take off your underwear. Bobâs voice grew quiet as he looked over your body, completely bare in front of him for the first time. You didnât seem self conscious as you lazily looked him over, waiting to see what he would do next.
Bob shuffled down the bed and ran his hands down the tops of your thighs, slowly spreading your legs so he could see exactly what heâd been dreaming about for months. He wasnât disappointed. Your center winked at him, clenching and unclenching in a fluttery motion. He drew his thumb from your clit to your center, then traced your folds gently. Your hips jumped away from the gentle touch.
âSensitive?â he asked, grinning from his space between your legs. You shot him a glare.
âQuit teasing, Bob, or Iâm getting up and leaving your ass here. Thatâs twice in one night and my patience is growing thin.â
âIâve got you.â He settled down, hips to the bed and came face to face with your pussy. He blew on it gently and was rewarded with a groan as you clenched again on nothing. âSo pretty.â
The first kiss he placed to the skin of your inner left thigh, just next to where you wanted him. He followed up quickly with another kiss to your right thigh. Then, he felt your hand on the top of his head. Finally, he drew his tongue from the bottom of your channel up to the top and swirled his tongue in firm pressure around your clit. Your resounding whine gave him confidence as he held your hips steady and started eating you like a man starved.
He didnât just eat you. He worshipped you. Just like he said he would. He drew patterns against your clit and your folds, alternating pressure and sucking on that sensitive button every once and awhile just to make you squirm in his hands. Soon, you were gasping and pulling on his hair, but he couldnât bring himself to care. He ground his hips into the bed, fully hard again as he drew you closer and closer to the edge of the cliff.
âOh my god,â you whined, voice hitting a new pitch the closer you got to your orgasm. Bob used that moment to introduce two fingers and he pressed upwards with them in a new motion that had you keening. He smiled and started rubbing his thumb in deliberate circles over your clit. ââM close!â
âI know.â he replied simply and replaced his thumb with his mouth, applying a gentle suction that had you crashing around his fingers and whining his name. He kept up with his thrusts, letting you ride out the aftershocks and you quickly yanked on his hair to pull him away due to the overstimulation.
âCâmere.â you gasped, pulling him up for a kiss. He obliged and kissed you, tongue delving deep to dance with yours. It was filthy and it was perfect. You broke away. âNeed you inside me. Right now. Iâve waited long enough.â
Bob nodded and climbed off of you to get a condom from the box he kept in his drawer. It was for emergencies like this one, though he couldnât remember the last time heâd grabbed one. He ripped one of the foil packets open and rolled it on and you pulled him over you yet again.
Your legs were wrapped around his hips, heels digging into his ass as you tried to pull him into you. Bob remained steady and held himself up over you, his strength surprising you.
âWhatâre you waiting for?â you whined, reaching between your legs. Bob stopped you, pulling back.
âI said I wanted to take my time with you.â he murmured, reaching down to run the head of his cock up and down your slit. The juices coated his tip quickly and you groaned.
âFuck that. I want you to fuck me.â you said firmly, staring directly up at him. Bob smiled and leaned down to kiss you. And then he drove his hips home in one solid thrust, punching the air from your lungs as your body rushed to accommodate his length. Because Bob was long and just the right thickness to slightly rearrange your insides. Your moan was long and drawn out against his mouth and he hurried to kiss you again.
He hadnât moved after that first thrust, letting your cunt adjust to the beating he was about to give it. But then you were pressing your heels against him again and nodding for him to move, and how could he say no?
Bob pulled out until just the tip was inside you and drove in again, stealing another moan from your lips. He continued that pace for a while until he felt you clenching around him and started thrusting even deeper and harder. Your leg shifted just enough that he was able to slide the last of his dick into your channel and the whine you gave him was like music to his ears as he panted into your neck.
Just from the way you were squeezing him, he could tell that you were nearly there and he wasnât sure how much longer he was going to last either. Being inside you was even more heavenly than being in your mouth and his hips started to stutter the closer he got to his own orgasm. You reached between your legs to touch your clit, but Bob swatted your hand away and reached down to touch you himself. His thumb drew firm circles and soon you were clenching again, crying out. Bob leaned in to kiss you again, swallowing those pretty sounds and reaching his own crescendo between your thighs.
He pulled out and flopped over beside you, settling your body against his.
âThat was good, Floyd.â you murmured, head resting on his chest where his heart was nearly beating out of his ribcage. Bob drew his hand over your hair and smiled.
âYeah, it was,â he said quietly. âDo you wanna shower?â
âYou joining?â
âOnly if you want me to.â
âPlease. Iâm not sure my legs will work.â you sighed and Bob laughed. He shouldnât have, but it felt right and he was rewarded with your own sleepy giggle.
âCâmon, letâs get you showered. You can borrow some of my clothes to sleep in.â
âMâkay.â you murmured sleepily and allowed him to pull you into the bathroom. He turned on the showerhead and gathered two pairs of his boxers along with an oversized shirt for you.
âHope you donât mind. I usually just sleep in my boxers.â He shrugged and set his glasses on the bathroom counter.
âI donât mind.â you hummed, stepping into the shower. Bob stepped in behind you, being careful to always stay within reach of your body. You were right. Your legs were a bit wobbly from the position youâd put yourself in during sex, but you werenât upset about it. It was a good ache.
Bob handed you a washcloth and poured some sort of botanical smelling soap on it, letting you clean yourself while he did the same thing to his own body. And thatâs when you really, really looked at him. Bob was toned. You knew he had to be in order to maintain the rigorous PT standards you had to follow, but he was more toned than you expected and you drew your hand over his abs.
âWhy do you hide all this with those shirts all the time?â you asked softly, standing in the spray of the shower. Bob squinted at you and shrugged.
âI donât really care to show off. Itâs not my nature.â he answered, and that was that. The rest of the shower was quiet, but filled with soft kisses and wandering hands. It was a miracle you ended up outside the shower, dressed and not in it going for another round. You wanted to, but you knew you were too tired and you werenât sure Bobâs body could handle yet another orgasm in the space of an hour.
He handed you an extra toothbrush and you brushed your teeth sleepily, ready to crash. It was only when you were in bed beside him, alarms set for him to drive you home in the morning before work that he broke the silence.
âAre we gonna talk about what this means?â Bob asked quietly. Timidly. Scared of the answer.
âIn the morning. Right now I just want you to hold me.â you murmured, slipping closer to his side. He reached around your body to spoon you, settling in the gap youâd both made. And you would.
Maybe youâd tell him about your feelings besides the lust-filled ones youâd shared tonight. And maybe heâd tell you heâd dreamed of far more than just sleeping with you. But that could be said in the daylight.
tags â 18+ minors dni | f!reader, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it), spooning sex, size difference, pet names (sweetheart & baby), dirty talk, creampie (0.6 wc)
the clock on your bedside table reads 7:14am and clark has you on your side, his body engulfing yours as his chest presses up against your back. with an arm wrapped around your front, clark holds you tight against himârubbing slow, languid circles on your swollen clit.
a soft, muffled groan tumbles from clarkâs lips as you slowly roll your hips backâhis cock nestled deep inside your cunt, stretching you open. you desperately try to fight back your need for him, for his cock, knowing you have to get ready for work, but youâre practically begging for more.Â
his pelvis is snug against your assâcoarse curls beneath his navel brushing against you. you feel all of him, every ridge, every vein, every twitch as he rocks into your cunt. clark moves his hand to grip your thigh, his fingers sinking into the soft flesh as he gently hooks your leg over his thigh, spreading you wider.
the new angle drove him deeper, the head of his cock kissing your cervix with each thrust. the room fills with your breaths mingling together with the filthy, wet sounds of his cock sliding in and out of you.Â
just as quickly as it left, clarks hand returns to your clit and you instinctively clench around him, trying to pull him deeper as he ruts against you. clarkâs breath is warm against the nape of your neck as he lightly bites down on the skin of your shoulder.Â
every roll of clarkâs hips is with a little more tenacity each time, seeking that delicious friction. the pleasure is overwhelming, completely taking over all of your senses. you canât think of anything else, except for clark, and how he's ruining you for anyone else.
âtaking me so well, baby,â he mutters, kissing behind your ear.
you cry out, fingers clawing at the sheets, then at his forearmâyour nails leaving crescent indents in his skin. he revels in the soft, needy moans you make with each shallow thrust. you move your hips in counterpoint, chasing the pleasure of his fingers and the fullness of his cock.Â
âIâve got you, sweetheart, that's it,â he mumbles, his cock hitting that sweet spot inside you repeatedly.Â
an embarrassingly loud moan slips from your lips as you cum without warning. your body shudders hard against hisâyour orgasm crashing through you and taking your breath away. clark gently coaxes you through it, rocking his hips in a slow, gentle rhythm while pressing tender kisses along your shoulder and neck.Â
clark's hips stutter and his own orgasm catches him off-guard. he buries himself to the hilt, releasing thick, hot ropes of cum deep within your cuntâfilling you completely as his cock throbs and pulses inside you. Â
you clench around him and clark hides his face in your neck with a weak, tired chuckle. his hand squeezes your hip tenderly as he slowly eases himself out of you. your cunt clenches around nothing, missing his cock already. you can feel his release leak from you and slide down your thighs but you pay no mind to it.
âgood morning to you too,â clark says through soft pants.
âhmm, good morning indeed,â you hum, turning to face him with a small smile.
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Soaked Ted Hitchcock x F!Reader (AO3)
Summary: After one intense night with you, Hitch is completely wrecked and grinning like an idiot. The boys at Shoresyâs quickly realize something happened and wonât stop chirping him about it.
Tags: Praise Kink, Dirty Talk, Oral Sex, Vaginal Fingering, Teasing, Squirting, Female Ejaculation, Established Relationship, Plot What Plot, Porn With Feelings
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You can't look at him; your eyes keep darting away to the ceiling, to the wall, anywhere but down at where Hitch is settling himself between your thighs with that confident grin on his face. Your cheeks are burning, and you know he can see it, can see how flustered you are just from the way he's looking at you.
"Eyes on me, b'y," he says. His calloused hands slide up your thighs, spreading them wider. "None of that shy stuff now."
"I can't," you start, but your voice comes out breathy and weak.
"Yeah, ya can." His thumbs stroke the sensitive skin of your inner thighs, and you feel yourself trembling already. "Gonna make ya feel real good, but I need those pretty eyes right here. On me."
You try, you really do. But the moment his breath ghosts over your most sensitive skin, your eyes squeeze shut, and your head tips back against the pillow.
"Ah, ah." His voice is firm and commanding. One hand leaves your thigh to tap against your hip. "What'd I just say?"
"Hitch, I..."
"Look. At. Me."
You force your eyes open, force yourself to look down the length of your body to where he's positioned between your legs. He's watching you with those intense eyes, and there's something predatory in his expression, something that makes your stomach flip, and your breath catch.
"There we go," he murmurs, and the satisfaction in his voice makes you clench around nothing. "Keep 'em right there, yeah? Wanna see your face when I make ya come apart."
Before you can respond, his mouth is on you, and the sensation tears a gasp from your throat. Your eyes want to close, want to roll back, but you catch the warning look he shoots up at you, and you fight to keep them open to keep watching him.
"Fuck," you whimper, and your hands clench in the sheets.
He hums against you, the vibration making your hips jerk. His tongue is moving in slow, deliberate strokes that have you panting within seconds. He knows exactly what he's doing, and he's taking his goddamn time about it.
"Hitch, please."
He pulls back just enough to speak, his lips glistening. "Please, what? Use your words, love."
Your face burns hotter. "I can't...I can't think when you-"
"Good." That cocky grin again, his chin already shining with your wetness. "Don't need ya thinkin'. Just need ya watchin'."
He doesn't give you time to respond before he's back between your thighs, and this time there's nothing gentle about it. His tongue flattens against you, dragging slowly and deliberately from bottom to top, collecting everything you're giving him. The obscene wet sound it makes has you gasping mortified and aroused.
"Fuck, you're drippin' for me," he groans, and you can hear the satisfaction in his voice, feel his breath hot against your soaked pussy. "Taste so fuckin' good, b'y."
He seals his lips around your clit and sucks, his tongue flicking rapidly, and the combination makes your back arch off the bed. You can hear it now the wet, sloppy sounds of his mouth working you over, the slick slide of his tongue through your folds; the way he's practically making out with your pussy like he's starving for it
"Eyes," he warns without pulling away, the word muffled and vibrating against you. "Keep 'em on me."
You force yourself to look down, and the sight nearly undoes you. His face is buried between your thighs, his jaw working, and you can see the mess you're making your arousal coating his lips, his chin, glistening in the light. He looks up at you as his tongue delves inside you, fucking into you with enthusiasm, and the eye contact while he does something so filthy makes you whimper.
"That's it," he pulls back just enough to speak, strings of saliva and your wetness connecting his mouth to you. "Look at what you're doin' to me. Look at this mess." He drags two fingers through your folds, gathering the slick mixture of his spit and your arousal, holding them up so you can see how they glisten. "Fuckin' soaked, aren't ya?"
Before you can answer, he's pushing those fingers inside you while his mouth returns to your clit, and the dual sensation has you crying out. He's not neat about it he's messy, hungry, groaning against you like you're the best thing he's ever tasted. His free hand grips your thigh hard enough to bruise, holding you open and spread for him.
"Hitch-oh god-"
He pulls his fingers out only to replace them with his tongue again, fucking into you deep and wet, his nose pressed against your clit. You can feel his saliva mixing with your arousal, feel it dripping down, making everything slicker and messier.
"Love how wet ya get for me," he rasps, his voice rough and thick. "Could eat this pretty pussy all fuckin' day." He punctuates his words with long, slow licks, gathering everything on his tongue before swallowing deliberately, making sure you're watching. "Drippin' down my chin. Makin' such a mess."
Your thighs are shaking, trying to close around his head, but his hands hold you open, keep you spread and vulnerable for him.
"That's it," he murmurs against you, the words muffled and slurred. "Doin' so good for me. Look how pretty ya are like this, all spread out."
You want to cover your face and want to hide from the intensity of his gaze, but you don't dare. Not when he's made it so clear what he wants. Your hand moves without thinking, reaching down to thread through his hair, and he groans in approval. The sound vibrates through you, and your hips buck involuntarily.
"Sorry, I..." you start to apologize, but he shakes his head slightly.
When he finally pulls back enough to speak, his voice is rough. "Don't apologize. Fuck my face if ya need to."
The crude words make you gasp and make your core clench, and he sees it. Of course he sees it. He sees everything, watches every reaction, every flutter of your lashes when you struggle to keep your eyes from closing.
"Gettin' close, aren't ya?" He asks the question with a long, slow lick that has you crying out. "Can feel it. Feel how you're shakin' for me."
"Yes," you manage, your voice breaking. "Yes, I'moh god."
"Look at me," he demands again, more forceful this time. Your eyes had started to drift shut, overwhelmed by sensation, but they snapped back open at his command. "There ya go. Wanna see it. Wanna see ya come undone."
His mouth seals over you again, and this time there's no teasing, no slow build. He's relentless, focused, working you with lips and tongue and the occasional graze of teeth that makes you see stars. Your hand tightens in his hair, and you're dimly aware that you might be hurting him, but he just groans and doubles his efforts.
"Hitch, I can'tI'm gonna!"
"Fuckin' do it," he growls against you, the vibration sending shockwaves through your core. "Come all over my face, love. Wanna feel it. Wanna taste every fuckin' drop." His fingers curl inside you, finding that spot that makes you see white. "Come on my tongue. Soak me. Make a fuckin' mess of me."
The filthy words push you right to the edge, and you can feel something building that's different, more intense.
"Eyes," he commands, his own gaze burning into yours. "Keep 'em on me. Wanna watch ya lose it."
The orgasm hits you like an explosion, and your whole body goes rigid as pleasure detonates through every nerve. Your eyes try desperately to close, to roll back, but his free hand comes up to grip your jaw, holding your face steady, forcing you to maintain eye contact as you come apart.
"That's it, fuck, that's it" His words are cut off as you gush, liquid heat flooding his mouth and splashing across his face. You can see it happening, can see the moment your body releases in a way it never has before, releasing onto his eager tongue, dripping down his chin, soaking his face.
And he loves it.
His eyes go dark with pure hunger, and he groans like he's the one coming, his mouth open and catching what he can, swallowing greedily while the rest runs down his neck. "Fuck yes, give it to me," he rasps, his voice thick and wrecked. "So fuckin' perfect."
You're shaking violently, trying to close your thighs, trying to look away from the obscene sight of him drenched in your release, but he won't let you.
"Look at what ya did to me," he says, pulling back just enough so you can see the full extent of the mess. "Look how fuckin' wet ya got me. Fuckin' beautiful, love."
He dives back in, licking you through the aftershocks, groaning as he collects every drop, his tongue working over your oversensitive skin until you're whimpering and trembling.
"Could drink from this pussy all day," he murmurs against you, pressing messy, open-mouthed kisses to your inner thighs. "Taste so fuckin' good when ya come. Never had anyone squirt for me like that."
When you finally collapse back against the bed, boneless and spent, your vision blurry with tears from the intensity, he slowly crawls up your body. His face is absolutely wrecked, flushed, and soaked; his lips are swollen and glistening. He looks like he's been through a storm, and he's never looked more satisfied.
"Told ya," he says, his accent thick with smug satisfaction as he finally releases your jaw. "Told ya I needed to see those eyes." He licks his lips deliberately, savoring the taste. "And fuck, was that worth it."
You can barely form words, your whole body still trembling with aftershocks, but you manage a weak, "You're impossible."
"Yeah." He grins, leaning down to kiss you, and you can taste yourself on his tongue, sharp and musky and everywhere. His face is still wet against yours, transferring the mess to your own skin.
The next night at Shoresy, Hitch is nursing a martoonie and trying real hard not to look like he's got something on his mind. But he does. He absolutely fuckin' does.
"So Hitch," Shoresy says, sliding into the chair across from him. "You're lookin' awful pleased with yourself there."
Hitch shrugs and takes a sip of his drink. "Just a good day, that's all."
"Good day," Goody repeats, grinning from his side of the couch. "That what we're callin' it now?"
"Don't know what you're on about." But Hitch can feel the smirk tugging at his lips and can't quite keep it down.
Dolo leans in, eyes narrowed. "You're hidin' somethin'."
"Fuck off."
"You're definitely hidin' somethin'," Shoresy confirms. "Got that look about ya. Like a cat that got into the cream."
Hitch snorts into his martoonie. "Yeah, well-" He catches himself, but it's too late. The boys are already leaning in like sharks smelling blood in the water.
"Yeah, well, what?" Goody asks.
"Nothin'. Just had a good night, that's all." Hitch shifts in his seat, suddenly really interested in the floor.
"Doin' what?" Dolo presses.
"None of your fuckin' business."
"Oh, it's like that, is it?" Shoresy grins, and Hitch knows he's fucked. "Must be somethin' good if you're gettin' all defensive about it."
"I'm not gettin' defensive-"
"You're absolutely gettin' defensive," Dolo laughs. "Look at him, he's all red."
Hitch can feel the heat creeping up his neck. "I just-look, somethin' happened last night that never-" He stops himself again, jaw clenching. Fuck. Why can't he keep his goddamn mouth shut?
The entire house goes silent for a beat, then erupts.
"NEVER?" Dolo shouts. "What the fuck does that mean?"
"Did you do somethin' freaky?" Goody asks, eyes wide.
"Did you finally get arrested?" Shoresy guesses.
"Fuck off, all of ya." Hitch drains his martoonie in one go, signals for another. "I'm not talkin' about this."
"Oh, you're definitely talkin' about this," Shoresy says. "Come on, We're your teammates. Your brothers. You can tell us."
"No."
"Why not?"
"Because it's-" Hitch struggles for words, his accent getting thicker the more flustered he gets. "It's private, alright? It's my business and I'm not gonna sit here and let you assholes chirp me about it."
The boys are all looking at him with varying degrees of surprise and amusement.
"Holy fuck," Dolo says slowly. "Whatever happened, you actually care about it."
"I didn't say that."
"You didn't have to," Goody grins. "Look at ya gettin' all serious."
"I am not-"
"You're so worked up," Shoresy agrees, looking delighted. "Look at you, gettin' all protective. 'It's private,'" he mimics in a high voice. "'My business.' Buddy, what the fuck happened to you?"
Hitch stands up so fast his chair scrapes against the floor. "You know what? Fuck this. I'm gettin' another drink."
"Aw, don't be like that!" Shoresy calls after him. "We're just chirpin' ya!"
"Yeah, well chirp someone else," Hitch mutters, but he can't quite hide the smile tugging at his lips as he heads to the bar.
Summary: Your new coworker causes problems between you and Frank. You canât figure out whyâyouâre nothing special. But when drinks at the bar prove you wrong⌠the night ends in blood.
Warnings: slow burn conflict to violent explosion, threats, detailed violence, blood, jealous!Frank, protective!Frank, negative self-image/imposter syndrome/negative self-talk & self-worth, manipulation (not Frank), sexual innuendoes, implied fingering, attempted drugging (not Frank), fuck ton of cussing, power plays, mentioned death of an animal (trust me, youâll see, itâs not sad).Â
W/C:Â JESUS CHRISTÂ 10k
Requested by anon: here
A/N: I kept Frank as still being semi-active as The Punisher. My personal opinion: Frank would not do the job if married. He loves you too much to put you in unnecessary danger. HOWEVER⌠itâs hot as fuck so thatâs my reasoning. đ Pics from Pinterest, not mine. I lowkey took this to some extremes. Reader is always 18+. Minors do not interact. Tag list is open for 18+. Asks open for Frank.
Frank can smell bullshit the way a shark smells blood: one drop, a quarter mile away.Â
Shitâs not close enough to see yet, but it fuckinâ stinks.Â
A cool breeze whistles through the crack in the window as the rain patters down, crisp ozone and wet tarmac in Frankâs nose. Night settles in; so consuming itâs comfortable. Maybe itâs the anticipation of waiting for you. His girl, gettinâ off her shift to get in his car, get you back home safe, drive you through that coffee joint for a chai latte and a coffee just to drag it out longer. Windshieldâs speckled, raindrops streaking, but heâs still got a clear enough view. Woulda been out there waitinâ for you, but last time he did, you said you loved the rain and the run to the truck. So⌠he stays put. Gives you whatever simple pleasure he can.Â
The seat creaks under Frank as he adjusts, elbow on the console, chin in his hand, eyes fastened to the door youâll be cominâ out of. Totally casual. Boot totally not taptaptaptaptapping in the footwell. Van off, artillery in the back; the unsavory pieces Frank isnât scared to show you anymore.Â
Started stinkinâ six weeks ago. Not your bullshit. Jasonâs bullshit. Your new clean-cut, savvy-tongued, personal ass-kissing coworker. Started small. Innocent enough. Frank knows better.Â
A text on your phone during dinner guyâs first week. Frank raised a brow in question, fork left hovering in front of his mouth. âSweetheart, that guy botherinâ you?âÂ
You raised a brow at your screen, then your expression neutralized. You blink across the table at Frank. âHim? Oh, god, no. Heâs been a breath of fresh air.âÂ
âŚBreath of fresh air. You hear that shit? Christ.Â
âNew guy at work just has questions. Normal stuff.âÂ
âQuestions canât wait until work hours?â Frankâd asked, voice smooth through the lurch of instinct in his chest.Â
âEh, heâsâŚÂ trying,â you reason, âto get up to speed. You know how it goes being new.âÂ
No. No, he doesnât.
Then the phone calls. He ainât even subtle.
You walked in the apartment humming acknowledgment, phone sandwiched between your shoulder and cheek while someone else gabbed. When you did answer, it was respectful. Tasteful, nothinâ out of the ordinary. That amicable professionalism Frank dotes on, hearinâ you talk all smart, talk your shop. Youâd chime in, small cues you were home. Polite excuses to get off the call. Didnât work.Â
Frank cornered you against the countertop, hands planted on either side so his barrage of affection was inescapable. Soundless, you laughed, squirming in the cage of him as Frank nipped your neck, kissed your jaw, muttered nothings about gettinâ you a bath ready, askinâ if you taste as good as you smell, pressinâ about your day⌠so when you didnât reciprocate⌠when youâstill laughinâ, still smilinââturned away to give attention to the damn phone call⌠Frank knew exactly who stole your attention, knowinâ damn well youâre home. And it pissed him the fuck off. Not pissed at you. Christ, no. Never you, his sweet angel. Pissed the fuck off at the guy callinâ a married womanâFrankâs girlâafter hours, keepinâ you on the phone âabout workâ until night came around and Frank suggested, in good nature, you needed sleep.
Frank didnât sleep much that night. When he did? He dreamt about reachinâ through the receiver to crush Jasonâs windpipe.
The double-doors unlatching retrieves Frank from his thoughts. Automatic, he sits straight, heart stuttering the second he sees you walking out into the night rain. Wind catches your hair, tugs your jacket, but when you look up through the needles of rain? See him there, the van? Jesus, heâs gone. Delight lifts you up. Puts a skip in your step, literally. You beam. Smile. Wave like you ainât seen him in weeks even though he kissed you goodbye that same morning.Â
Frank rolls the window the rest of the way down. Leans out the side, elbow hooked out, squinting against the weather. Gives a whistle, looowân slow, goddamn obnoxious as the commoners settle and the city comes to life with rats.Â
âHey, sweetheart,â Frank calls across the lot. âNeed a ride, huh?âÂ
You laugh, keeled a bit, shoes staggering a step. God, that sound fucks with a manâs common sense. âYeah!â You call back, playing into it. âI need a ride. You got a seat?âÂ
âYeah, princess, I got a seat alright. Wanna learn how tâdrive this bad boy, huh?âÂ
âFrank,â you shout back, weak from laughter, âitâs an automatic transmission.âÂ
âSweetheart, youâre supposed tâplay along, not use that beautiful brain âa yours.âÂ
You dash the rest of the way with a wild grin.Â
Frank reaches over and pushes your door open so you can barrel in.Â
You do.Â
The van rocks as you catapult yourself into Frank, lips crashing into his. Your mouthâs cold on his, sweet from whatever you were drinkinâ, soft from the chapstick you canât survive without.Â
Frank knows he wonât make it into Heaven, but god damn you taste like it.Â
Breathlessly sweet, you pull back first, an arm hooked around Frankâs neck as best you can in the confined space. You nudge your nose against his, cold to warm, heart tripping as the best part of your day nears. âChai latte time?âÂ
âHell yeah, baby,â Frank rumbles, his hand splayed over the entirety of your lower back. âChai latte time.âÂ
âYes!â And after another quick, planted kiss of appreciation that conjures a groan in his throat, you plop back into your seat.Â
But as Frank shifts the van into drive, foot on the brake, he feels your excitement diminish. Craning his head over, he sees youâhis girlâa wry smile, a hand on your stomach like youâre full.Â
âWellâŚâ you start, âmaybe aâŚÂ decaf for me.âÂ
Frank gawks. âYou feelinâ alright, sweetheart?â Pressing the back of his hand to your forehead. âThey workinâ you too much in there, huh?âÂ
You breathe a dismissive laugh, guiding his hand down. âIâm fine, Iâm fine. Promise.â You tip your head against the seat, smile all soft. âI had a chai already. I donât think I need anymore caffeine before bed.âÂ
You. Already had a chai. From somewhere in the vicinity. Frank blinks. You hate the chaiâs in the vicinity. Frank specifically drives you twenty minutes outside of town to get the chai you like. Every damn night, Monday through Friday, rain or shine. Before he can get the question out, you answer.Â
âJason and I got called out for a meeting on the other side of town. He mustâve remembered I mentioned you and I go there every night after work, that itâs our thing. It was on the way back,â you explain. âHe wouldnât take no for an answer.âÂ
Frank. sees. double. Knee-jerk reaction, Frank double-stomps the brake, his stun moving the truck. Guy drives a married woman to the place she shares with her husband, buyinâ the same fuckinâ drink he gets her every night? Guy buys the married girl the drink before her husband canâthatâs the bullshit. It fuckinâ reeks.Â
You shift, sensing the fizzling tension radiating from Frank. ââŚWhat?â you ask, quiet, like anything too loudâs illicit.Â
Low, a promise to make it known: âHe know youâre married?âÂ
Brows knotted, then lifting up, you waggle your hand at him, ring catching in the distant streetlamp light. âYou made it pretty hard to miss, Frank.â You pause, eyes narrowing as you study him; the impossible person youâve managed to learn, love, and keep. ââŚWhy?âÂ
âHe ainât actinâ like youâre married.âÂ
âWhat?â You sit forward, knees angled towards him. âThatâs ridiculous. Heâs just a nice guy, trying to make friends. He does these things for everyone.âÂ
âWork ainât fâfriends.â Frank immediately hates saying it, regrets the low-drip of spite thatâs got you tensinâ your shoulders, face twisting in pure confusion.Â
âFrankâŚâ your tone to reason.Â
Hereâs the problem:Â ya donât see it.Â
Rain pelts the windshield. Heavy, angry spit from the sky.Â
He shakes his head, almostâŚÂ solemn. âDonât get it, sweetheart, do ya?â
âGet what?â With a red-mottled face, panic bouncing in your veins. âIâm so confused here, Frankie. I donât- Iâm not sure what Iâm supposed to be getting.âÂ
Frank leans an arm on the center console. Waves you in close with his other hand.Â
Like the two of you are magnetized, you follow, leaning your chin in his palm, your eyes searching between the both of his for answers. For clarity.Â
âBabyâŚâ Frank drops his voice the way he does when he needs understanding without proof. Itâs a big ask. Frank knows. Frank knows you trust him, too. And you knowâtrustâFrank wonât lead you in the wrong direction.Â
The rough pad of his thumb slides slow strokes over your cheek, his dark eyes holding yours. âGuy ainât doinâ this shit for the right reasons,â Frank says. âAinât doinâ it âcause heâs nice, or-or tryna make friends. Nah. Guy knows exactly what heâs doinâ. Heâs tryna weasel his way tâya. Playinâ nice, playinâ dirty, yeah? Guys ainât nice tâpretty ladies fâthe hell of it. He ainât a good guy.âÂ
Your lashes falter as you process, mouth circled in disbelief. Wind howls through the seams of the truck, nullifying the silence. âYouâre⌠deducing that from whatâŚ? A tea?âÂ
âEverything. The texts. Calls. Keepinâ you late at work. Buyinâ you shit like that, yeah?âÂ
âNoââ your head glitches a shake, hesitant at first. âNo. Thatâs not it at all, Frank, oh my god. Thatâs- thatâs ridiculous.âÂ
Thunder roars like distant bombs. Lightning draws a jagged white fissure through the sky.Â
Frank grimaces, pressing his mouth into line. âAinât ridiculous. Itâs right, sweetheart. You need tâstay away from that guy, you hear me? Away, before he does somethinâ I really donât like. You need me tâtalk to him, huh? Give a gentle nudge?âÂ
âApproach Jason and threaten him over work and tea?â You shake your head, exasperated by being in the middle of such absurdity. Ferocity of your truthâthe false belief youâre never enoughâin your eyes, you pin Frankâs stare. âYou have nothing to worry about. I have nothing to worry about.âÂ
âYeah?â His brows lift in a goad. âWhyâs that, huh?âÂ
âBecause Iâm not specââ
Your phone cries and vibrates on the dash like a wasp.Â
You startle, eyes snapping to the phone.Â
Franks clocks it with a vile glare.Â
The air constricts; a noose around both your necks.Â
The name?
Jason.Â
You hesitate, heart in your throat, stomach an empty pit.Â
Jaw pulsing, expression emptyâthe preamble to violence against another manâFrank stares out the windshield with darting eyes. For five long seconds, you donât see Frank. You see The Punisher. You see what manâs capable of, if pushed too far; if whatâs his is threatened.Â
Eyes on Frank, you slink your arm out to silence the call.Â
Softer, barely a whisper, you say, âNeither of us has anything to worry about, okay? Iâm not specialââ
âBullshit.âÂ
The phone clicks to black.Â
âItâs not bullshit, itâs true. You donât have to blow smoke up my ass like Iâm not the most average person youâve met,â you bubble an incredulous, pained laugh.
âBull-shit.â Frank argues, twisting to drill his truthâthe truthâinto you, head-on. âDonât you ever say that shit âbout yourself, sweetheart, youâre theââ
A second time. Your phone buzzes a frenzy, incessant and disruptive, deafening in the space between you and Frank. Goosebumps race up your arms, like an augury to whatâs to come. Not now, but later.Â
âI- I need to answer that,â you say, voice thin.Â
Reluctant, at a loss, Frank throws a nod at it.Â
You swipe to answer, phone to your ear with a tight, âHello?â
Frantic nonsense on the other end. Nothinâ Frank can hear. He can, though, feel your anxiety spike. An innate sense tailored to you, Frank slowly turns his head in your direction. Watches you pale, fear zigzagging your eyes.Â
Thereâs no fight in him when youâre lookinâ like this. Impatient for answers but quiet, Frank leans over the console. One big hand kneads over your thigh, keepinâ you here, with him. Whatever it isâyou ainât alone. Not with Frank around.Â
âOh my god,â your gasp wanes to a halt, eyes round with shock. âOh-oh my god. Okay! Okay, yes. Yes, lâll be right there! Just- just give me a few. Okay? Yep. Yes. Bye.âÂ
Click.Â
The phone slides from your ear. You donât even realize itâs dropping until Frank grabs it. Sets it in your lap. Kneads a little firmer into you.Â
âEverything alright, sweetheart?â Dumb question, but he needs to pull you back into focus.Â
âUmâ uh-haâŚÂ no.â
Frank braces, steady inhale through his nose. âTalk tâme.â
âWe, uh- Me and- yeah. We have a presentation tomorrow. Likeâ big presentation, Frank. Like, could be a promotion and a raise big.âÂ
âYeah, alright. I remember, baby. What about it?â Kneading, kneading, kneading. Here for you. All of you. Always you.Â
Your hands steeple at your mouth to keep the bile gone. âItâs gone. Our system crashed during backup. Frankâ itâs all gone.âÂ
âFuck, sweetheartââ
You bolt to action, scrambling for your things. âIâve- Iâve gotta go back in. Iâm so sorry. Iâm so, so, so sorry, Frank, but I have to. This is one of our highest priority clients I cannot fuck this up. This- this cannot be happening.â
You fly outta the car after smearing a distracted kiss to Frankâs cheek. You donât hear him ask you to wait. Or call your name. Rain and thunder drown him out; an army of one muted by mother nature and some motherfucker named Jason.Â
You sprint for the door, swinging it open and a flood of sallow office light spills out, haloing you.Â
Through the rain, the heaviness in your gut, the scorching of your throat, you yell out: âI love you!âÂ
And the door slams shut behind you, separating you from Frank once again.Â
Quietâs got a way of gettinâ in the skin when businessâs left unfinished.Â
Left things unfinished with you.Â
Frankâs got a few rules. One of the first: fix the fuckinâ problem.Â
âCause you never know when itâll be your last chance to.Â
Frankâs eyes track the empty parking lot.Â
Finds a sedan there. One with plates Frankâs memorized.Â
Jasonâs.
Bastard never left.Â
And now heâs got you for the night.
Frank snags his phone from his pocket. Thumbs a number without looking. Three ringsâan answer.Â
âYello?â David answers in a chuckled hum. âFraaaaank. Long time no talk, big guy. Whatâs up? Howâs it goinâ?âÂ
âNeed a favor,â Frank grits.Â
Micro scoffs, âHello to you too⌠The familyâs great, thanks for asking. Kidsâre doing good in school, Sarah has totally forgot about that kissâŚâ
âJesus Christ, Micro. Need you to check a file fâme.âÂ
âDude, itâs dinner time⌠Sarah made this Mediterranean salaââ
âSalad. Great. Wonât get cold while you check this fuckinâ file fâme.âÂ
âOkay, so Iâm sensing I donât really have a choice here, did I nail that vibe?â Â
âRight on, genius.âÂ
With a sigh, grumbled huffs, a muffled excuse to Sarah, Frank hears Micro retreating. Laptop opens. Fingers flying over the keyboard.Â
âOkay, alright, here weeee goâŚâ Micro says, computer light throwing blue over his face. âCompany name?â
Frank gives it.Â
âFile type?â
âFuck, I dunno? PowerPoint?âÂ
âSheesh, ancient, okay. Who uses PowerPoint these days?âÂ
âItâs- itâs a goddamn presentation, David. Deleted in the last half hour. Can you find it or not?âÂ
âFrank. Iâm offended you even asked.â A hand over his chest to stop the hurt.Â
âChrist.âÂ
Clack clack clack.Â
âOkay⌠okay⌠breaking the firewall⌠okay⌠system override, easy⌠Like, concerningly easy, JesusâŚâÂ
Frank bounces a leg. Drums a hand on the wheel.Â
âAaaaaand⌠here⌠I thinkâŚÂ Found it!âÂ
Stock-still, back straight, Frank stares at the building, the door you vanished behind. âHow was the file deleted?â
âUhhh⌠Manually. Frank, what is this? Promise me this isnât another government database Iâm cracking because yâknow, Iâm home nowââ
âGoddamnit, Micro, the username. What the hell is it?âÂ
âJason underscore Caldwell. You, uh⌠you know the guy? Another one of yourâŚÂ targets?â
âWorse,â Frankâs nostrils flare. âGuyâs fuckinâ with my wife.âÂ
â ď¸
That nightâŚÂ
Itâs late. Regrettably late, and that always seems to be when the thoughts trickle in. Slow at first, and you donât realize youâre drowning until you canât breathe.Â
Tucked away in the privacy of the bathroom, you lean into the mirror. You bat the facet on so the sink disguises your dissection, muffles Frank tossing and turning in bed. Hips bent against the counter, your forehead an inch from the glass so you can magnify and inspect every conceivable flaw.Â
Your fingertips shake as they ghost under your eye. Thread-thin lines on the delicate skin only you can see. And then across your cheek, your head angling with the motion, over the dots of pores everyoneâs made of, but you never see theirs. Only yours. Your hair could be better. Your nose could be different. You manipulate your skin with your fingers, experimenting to see how youâd look if your eyes were justâŚÂ like this. Or if your nose was like that⌠Or if your eyebrows sat here, instead of there. Just⌠making yourself into a puppet instead of a person.Â
You donât⌠you donât understandâŚÂ
Who could love this? Who would want this? Why does Frank? Let alone, for someone else to be interested enough to prod at your marriage when thereâs plenty of other available women out there. Thereâs always smarter, prettier, better.Â
Frankâs words recite in your head from earlier.Â
âGuys ainât nice tâpretty ladies fâthe hell of it.â
âHe ainât a good guy.â
âYou need tâstay away from that guy, you hear me? Away.â
You scoff at his certainty, the mere idea flushing your face because it hurts to consider. It fucking hurts to look at yourself and see an imposter instead of this divine concept of you Frank has.
Turning away from the mirror, your eyes squeeze to shut out the thoughts, you smack the lights off. Safety in darkness; comfort in the blindness. Once you have the shower running, you bat off the sink. Constant noise, anything but the grating static of inadequacy. You shrug out of your cardigan. It falls to the ground in a heap; shed skin, but it doesnât slough off the fraud.Â
Everything youâve built⌠itâs just luck, right? Your job. Your education. Your friendshipsâŚYour marriage. And all luck runs out eventually. What happens when they see you?
The real you.Â
What do you do when⌠it all comes crashing down? When they see youâre justâŚÂ you?Â
A soft knock at the door startles you. Your gasp lodges in your throat against raw flesh.Â
âSweetheart?â Frank asks, voice low and husky from sleep he hasnât had.Â
âJustââ you clear the snag in your voice. âJust a second.âÂ
You wipe the backs of your hands under your nose, shake the rotting guilt from your face, and pick the mask back up to maintain nonchalance.
A second is what Frank gives.Â
With a creak, the door opens.Â
Heavy shuffled steps follow, then pause in the doorway when he clocks the total darkness here, and in the bedroom behind him. Still, you can see his towering silhouette, something carved from mythology and given sentience.Â
Bare, broad shoulders, the sharp slant of his trapezius.Â
âYou, uhâŚâ Frank huffs a chuckle, no humor in it. âYou good? Seeinâ alright in the dark?âÂ
In your tank and slacks, in the dark where itâs safe, you lean back against the counter, hands grasping the ledge. âIâm⌠okay.âÂ
It convinces neither of you.Â
âNeed some sleep, yeah? Got your clothes in the dryer.âÂ
Your arms cinch around yourself, holding together the shaking pieces, wondering if this is the night they all break. HeâsâŚÂ so sweet. Frank. Always. Thoughtful in ways youâve never been loved before. Considerate to the extent that the only fear you live in is when heâll realize you arenât worth all this.Â
You log every single example of how Frank loves you, nausea souring your stomach because itâs overwhelming and beautiful and unconditional.Â
he drives you to and from work, every damn dayÂ
every damn day, your chai tea Except⌠except todayâŚÂ
you never go to the grocery store aloneÂ
you never lift a finger unless you ask to do it yourself, or ask to learn the task with himÂ
holds you while you cry, even cups a tissue under your nose and tells you to âblowâ after
has never made you feel unsafeÂ
loves you unconditionally, indefinitely
warms your clothes in the dryerÂ
thereâs always an electrolyte water in your lunchbox, something you forget, but Frank never doesÂ
You donât even realize you havenât said anything until Frankâs hand is on your waist, guiding you into him, asylum from your mind. Out of touch with your body, you shuffle in automatic steps.Â
âWhatâs goinâ on in that headâa yours, huh? Câmere.â Before he can settle you against his chest, you halt.Â
âWhy?â You finally spurt out, disgust spoiling the one question you havenât been able to answer after all the years.Â
Against the dark, his head cranes, his fingertips curling your tank-top where youâre just out of reach. âWhy, what?â
Steam compresses the air, humidity stiflingânowhere to run, nowhere to breathe. Everything you hold back sears your throat, veins in your head swelling with pending implosion. âWhyâŚÂ me?âÂ
Needing the light to see the repulsion in your voice, Frank flicks on the overhead bulb.Â
You recoil as though the light scorches.Â
There, in the light, he sees you. All of you. The prey animal darting of your bloodshot eyes. Deep lines of worry trekking through your face. The goddamn sincerity from which your question came, bowing your shoulders in, shrinking your spine.Â
Frank narrows his eyes on you, certainty cemented in every bone in his face. ââCause thereâs only you.â Gritty fact coming out between his teeth, tendons in his neck standing. âOnly you. Always you. You and me, sweetheart? We got somethinâ no one else does. We got this, yeah?â Gesturing his finger between you two. âThis. Us. You and me.âÂ
Biting back tears, your skin crawling with your desperation to leave it, you squeak out, âI hate when we fight. Earlier,â you swallow around the lump in your throat. âI hated that.âÂ
He softens, eyes opening to mirror your vulnerability, looking a helluva lot like the foot of distance between you hurts him. âHell,â he rasps, âwouldnât call that a fight. Just me. Lookinâ out fâyou. Same shit. Always gonna look out fâyou, even if you donât like hearinâ it.âÂ
âI donât like hearing it because itâs not true. Plain and simple. I donât get why you think Jasonâs after me.â You bubble an unconvinced laugh, slapping a hand over your mouth to stop it. âI donât even understand why youâre with me. You could do so much better, Frank.â
A loaded silence perforates the air, bleeding out something ugly, something broken from Frank. Tension ratchets up his shoulders, and self-control shoves them down. A dry, empty swallow tugs his adamâs apple.Â
The anticipation is anger.Â
The reality is worse.Â
Itâs heartbreak.Â
The waterâs gone cold. Steam dries up, leaving an empty chill in its wake. Just the patter of the water, amplifying the chasmic space separating you from him.Â
ââŚThe hell did you just say?â Frank croaks out, his brows jutting up. âBetter? Than you? There ainât no better. There ainât anyone else. Thereâs nothinââIâm nothinââwithout you, goddamn it. You?â One shake goes through the finger he points at you. âYou fuckinâ saved me, sweetheart.âÂ
Itâs heartbreak.Â
Itâs grief.Â
Itâs thanks.Â
Your eyes crawl from the tip of his finger, up the corded veins in his forearm, and flick a fleeting glance to his eyes. God, does it ruin you. The anguish in his stare, so pure you wonder if what you said is form a torture for Frank.Â
Goosebumps cover your arms, and you drag your cold, clammy palms over the skin to intimate comfort, but thereâs no sensation. It only feels like youâre rubbing filth onto yourself, grabbed straight out of the oxygen you used for those words.Â
âThatâs not true,â you try to argue, but the words hold no faith. Small. You feel small. And like the rotten parts of you are being seen. And seeing those parts⌠that means leaving, doesnât it? Itâll mean Frankâs had enough. Heâll realize what you are, what youâve always been.Â
âYeah?â Frank grates his hand over his mouth like he needs to get rid of the urge to vomit, his eyes jittering with loss. âItâs my damn truth.âÂ
And just like you expectâ Frank leaves.Â
You stuff your fist in your mouth to keep a sob from punching out, and swing for the shower handle to cut the fucking noise out.Â
And with the shower severed, there isâŚÂ nothing. Grotesque proof youâve always been right. Youâre nothing special. And someday? Frank will leave. Frank is leaving.Â
Before the silence makes a home in yours, a new noise takes its place. One that startles you, something wooden clattering together rooms away. Almost sounds like⌠the kitchen tableâŚ?Â
Answering your question, proving you wrong, Frank reappears. Shirtless, grumbling curses, knocking one of the kitchen chairs through the doorway of the bathroom.Â
âFrank! Whatâre you doing!?âÂ
Dropping the chair down in front of the mirror is his response. Knuckles tented white over the back of the chair, Frank stands angled partially towards you. He jerks his head, summoning you. Shallow breath contracts the muscles in his chest, the ridges of his abdomen. Everything about him screams bridled rage, but he says nothing.Â
âSit,â he says, voice cracked low.Â
Your eyes slide from Frank⌠to the chair⌠back to Frank⌠âYou want me toâ?â
âSit. Yeah.âÂ
âWhâ?â
With the curt wave of his hand, Frank ends the follow up question.Â
Okay. No more questions. No more excuses. On the balls of your feet, you move in soundlessly until you perch in the chair, drawing your legs up to cross on the seat with you. You donât look at the mirror. You canât. Clearing your throat, your chin on your shoulder to be near Frank without looking, your whisper comes strained, tight. âWhat am I doing in our kitchen chair in the bathroom at two in the morning, Frank?âÂ
âSomethinâ I shoulda done a long time ago.âÂ
Frank towers from behind, heat pouring off his body and into your back. His hands cover your shoulders, his focus on the mirror, your reluctant reflection in it. Beautiful, he thinks, my perfect girl. If only you could see it. He moves a hand to cup your chin. Moves it âtil youâre headâs straight, âtil youâve got no other choice but the face the person in the mirror.Â
Your bottom lip wobbles. Your eyes strain sideways with your refusal to see.Â
âLook,â Frank whispers, bending just enough to keep his voice a private rumble, just for you. âLook at yourself fâme, angel⌠Câmon.âÂ
Itâs harder than you think. Looking yourself in the eye. Accepting the imperfections, who you are, who you are not. Because he asked, because your jaw quivers under his affection⌠you look. You see. You see yourself. Exhausted, disheveled from the day, half-dressed, fully embarrassed. His thumb skims your cheek, then skates down the curve of your neck to plant back on your shoulder.Â
âThere she isâŚâ Frankâs rough cheer, a twitch at his mouth like he might smile. Frank doesnât smile much, but the corners of his eyes crinkle.Â
Eyes, after all, are the window to the soul.Â
âThereâs my girl.âÂ
A quick, unfiltered laugh barks out of you. This is ridiculous. You press the back of your hand to your mouth, shielding the dark flush over your face. Nerves bounce your leg. âIâm here,â you shake your head. âNow what?âÂ
âNow, sweetheart, weâre gonna get those thoughts outta your head and keep âem gone.â An unsettling solemnity takes his face, his instruction inarguable. âYouâre gonna sit here, with me, âtil you say fifteen nice things âbout yourself, yeah? You and me both. No bullshittinâ me. No half-assed answers, you got me?âÂ
âFrank, Iââ
âUh-uh. Ainât playinâ, sweetheart. Weâll sit here all damn night if we got to.âÂ
Panic catches your breath, but you stay. You flick your eyes to his, looking for any chance to escape, but the lift of his brows says heâs read your mind and itâs not an option.Â
âAinât playinâ,â he reiterates, setting his shoulders back to lead. âAlright. âM first.â Frank draws in a slow, composing breath through his nose, head cocking. âYou gotta lotta faith in people. Trust âem âcause youâre always seeinâ the good.âÂ
Your eyes narrow, face warm. ââŚYou usually say thatâs poor survival instinct.â
âDonât mean it ainât special,â he shrugs a shoulder. âYou wonât let the world break ya. Thatâs special.âÂ
Lips rolled in, a new perspective warm in your stomach, you look down at the interlace of your fingers as you toy with your thumbs. You nod; a thanks without words.Â
âYour turn,â Frank squeezes your shoulder.Â
âIâŚâ
âIn the mirror, sweetheart. Eyes on you.âÂ
You try again. Staring back at yourself, you expand with a steeling inhale. âI⌠like⌠my neck lengthâŚ?â
ââŚYour neck length.âÂ
âYup. Your turn?âÂ
âNice try, sweetheart. Try again.âÂ
Your shoulders deflate, but Frankâs right there to give a little shake of encouragement. âOkay. I likeâŚâŚâŚ how I show up for the people I love.âÂ
Frank perks, slightly, approving of the sincerity. âAtta girlâŚâ He lifts a hand from your shoulder, big fingers instead weaving through the ends of your hair. He quiets again, expression smoothing with the gravity of confession. âYouâre a saint, yeah, I think you are. Got such a big heart you needâa find room in it fâyourself.âÂ
The honestyâthe real truthâputs you in pensive thought. Teeth grazing your bottom lip, you nod. You understand. You see it, too. Arms linking around your knees, you smoosh Frankâs hand against your cheek and shoulder to keep him.Â
âOnly one you,â Frank says as he leans down, planting his lips against the top of your head, breathing you in so his world keeps turning. âThatâs what makes you so goddamn special. Makes an ass like me so goddamn lucky.âÂ
Throat constricting, tears full but balanced in your eyes, you push out the words, âI love you, Frank,â and the man you love smiles.Â
âLove you more, sweet girl. Ainât off the hook yet, though. Fourteen more, câmon.â
And as you conjure up fourteen more things you can say you like about yourself, your posture straightens. Laughter returns, shared between the two of you. Tears well in your eyes but donât fall. The first one was the hardest. The rest you find with Frankâs help while he threads his fingers through your hair, or drags the back of his knuckles over your cheek, or brushes his thumb over your bottom lip.Â
Youâre talkinâ. Laughinâ. Finally cuttinâ yourself some slack. Seeinâ you like thisâsoft, unguardedâreminds Frank what he first fell in love with when he met you.Â
Your heart.Â
Your goddamn heart. Got so much youâre full of it.Â
Frank understands what needs to be done. Heâll do it. Without a doubt.Â
Heâll put the fear of god into the motherfucker that preys on your doubts, your heart, under the guise of kindness. Usinâ his wifeâs goddamn sweetness to manipulate her. Slowly. Carefully. Like heâs got all the time in the world.Â
Timeâs fuckinâ up.Â
â ď¸
3 days laterâŚ
Shark to blood, Frank stalks the maze of halls to your office. Black on black, ballcap cinched down, he cuts through the normality of business casual and overhead lights like plague.Â
In reality?Â
Heâs the fuckinâ omen.Â
Fist vising a fresh bouquet of flowers, the cellophane crinkles. A stalk snaps. Boots thunder down the corridors he memorized first structurally, by blueprint, then physically, during his first visit years ago. Your colleagues flatten against walls, find convenient exits, avert their eyesâanything to be small in the presence of The Punisher. They donât know itâs him⌠but they feel it, the conquest for blood, the irrefutability of his violent nature.Â
Frank did his homework weeks ago. Soon as the bastard got hired, Frank had a full background check, credit scores, past addresses, and medical history. Poor bastardâs got scoliosisâno wonder he employs sick tactics on a sweet girl like you. Guyâs got no damn spine. Frankâll reshape it, alright.Â
The hall empties out by the time Frank approaches your office. He slows, head craning to see you through the open door as you work. Sunlight from the new picture windows soaks you âtil you glow gold. You mutter to yourself, movinâ here, movinâ there, unpacking trinkets from a box to arrange just how you like it in your new office.Â
Promotion paid off. You earned every bit of it. âSpecially when your breath of fresh air wiped your fuckinâ work. Frankâs not told you that. Wonât let you carry that hurt when he can handle it.Â
Without a sound, Frank leans a shoulder against the doorway. Flowers hang at his side. Temporarily? He forgets the real reason he came. Itâs you. âCourse itâs you. But it ainât this. Flowers.
He came for Jason.Â
Frankâs the kinda guy who mistakes warm and fuzzy for heartburn. He gets alotta heartburn around you.Â
Turns into a full blown coronary as he watches you dip both hands into the box, takinâ somethinâ in those gentle fingers like itâs priceless. You lift it out, and Christ, heâs done for.Â
Front and center on your desk, you nestle a framed photo between your monitors. The picture?
You and him. Years ago. Halloween. Hours after Frank got back, beaten only a quarter of the way dead this time. You sat between his legs on the front steps of your apartment, handinâ out candy to kids. Frank gave you relentless hell for your costume, a damn scarecrow.Â
When a kid asked Frank, âWhatâre you dressed as, mister?â
And Frank said, âAn asshole,â without blinking, heâll never forget the way you laughed.Â
You, stupidly adorable makeshift scarecrow costume. Paint on your nose, cheeks. Cheeks puffed in the biggest smile known to man.Â
Him, busted mouth crooking what it could of a smile he forgot how to make. Reminds himself of the goal heâs not yet shared: get away from the life. Retire. No more busted lips in pictures. No more bruises to come home and concern you with. No more holidays spent dressinâ his wounds.Â
Masking the aspirating blast of love tightening his voice, recalibrating to the mission instead of reminiscing, Frank speaks. âWorkinâ hard, sweetheart? Or hardly workinâ?â
Hearing Frankâs voiceâfamiliar rumbly gravelâsparks through every nerve in your system to liven you. You spin on a heel, face breaking into a wide smile, big smile. Youâre dashing to him before you realize, drawn naturally.Â
âFrank? Oh my god, hi,â your arms already winding around him waist, pressing your face against his chest to feel the steady thud, thud, thud of his heart. Your safe place. Your home. âWhatâ I wasnât expecting you,â with a breathy laugh. âWhatâre you doing here?âÂ
âCongratulatinâ my girl, yeah?â He binds his arms around you. Gives a loving nudge of his stubbled chin on your forehead to ease you back, get access, and find your mouth with his.Â
Lifted on your tiptoes, your weight braced by Frankâs forearm banded across your lower back, you tip your head to get a better taste. Lips slotted deeperâeasy to blame your excitement on the surpriseâyou hum a sound Frank laps off your mouth.Â
You want seconds. You consider seconds, delight teetering to greedy, so you compromise with two pecks and pull back to look him in the eye. Hands on his biceps for support, head tilted back so your lashes fan your eyebrow, you beam up at him.Â
âDamn,â Frank blinks, halfway disoriented. âI get that every time I bring flowers?â
âStop by more often and youâll find out.â
âYeah? Gonna let me in, give me a tour?âÂ
âMaybe more than a tour, if youâre lucky.â
âLuckâs drawn to me like flies on shit.â
You snort. ââŚRight.â
Separating a fraction, Frank offers the flowers to you in the space between his chest. Your eyes fall to them, face softening. Gentle with appreciation, over the bundle of white lilies, you press another kiss to his lips. âThank you,â you murmur against him. âThese are beautiful. For being a hard ass, youâre kinda romantic, Frank.âÂ
âRomantic, huh?â Frank watches the shape of your body as you go to tend to the flowers. âCanât let you get used tâthat.â
âToo late.â You flash a small smile in his direction, acknowledging what you both know: Frankâs not romantic in the big ways, but he loves you so much weaker men wouldâve gone stupid.Â
While you cut the stems over the wastebasket, Frank performs a simple recon of the room. Finds evidence of his target. A blazer thrown over the back of a chair. A half-drank coffee. Sloppy handwriting over an abandoned notepad.Â
âYour friend here?â Frank asks, anything but innocent.Â
Snip. Snip. You glance at him with a raised brow. âStephanie?âÂ
âNah.â Frank points at the notebook. âHim.âÂ
SnâŚip⌠Skepticism setting in, your nose scrunches. ââŚJason?âÂ
âYeah. Him. He around?â
âDoes it matter?âÂ
âFigured I should meet the guy spendinâ forty hours a week up my wifeâs ass.â
You shoot a glare, lacking any real depth. ââŚHeâs gone for the day.â
âAnd left his shit in here like this?â Frank wants to say heâs an inconsiderate slob. Frank refrains from pointinâ out the guyâs makinâ himself at home in your space.Â
âItâs three things,â you quirk a brow. âNot a big deal.â
âHe gonna be back tomorrow?âÂ
âWe have a meeting at nine a.m. sharp, so Iâm gonna hope so.â
âGood,â Frank concludes, satisfied. That works, too.Â
Stalks trimmed, you arrange the lilies in a vase, fingers hanging on the glass rim when youâre finished. âForget about him,â you shake your head. âYouâre here, visiting me, itâs just the two of us, and you definitely made my day. I couldnât be happier right now, Frank.âÂ
âYeah?â Something rare and short-lived flashes in his eyes; the look where heâs still trying to believe thisâyouâare his. âGuess I did my job.â With the heel of his boot, he knocks the door shut. Prowls the rest of the way to you, his hands at home on your hips to draw you right up against him.Â
Your arms snake around his neck, melting into the solidity of Frank. By the bill, you ease his hat off, seeing him in the full, natural light of the windows behind you. Hat in your hands, his head bent, you reach up and kiss the crook of his nose. And again, on the bridge. And again, on the tip. And falling lower, to his mouth.Â
Thereâs no tentative introduction. Not when your arms buckle around him and jerk him closer. Not when his mouth opens, inseparable from you, to taste the seam of your lips. You hiccup something dangerously close to a moan, stifled by the palm that cups your jaw, the big fingers that press into either side of your cheeks to lightly mush your lips.Â
ââBout to start somethinâ we wonât be able to walk away from,â Frank goads on your mouth, voice reduced to hot husk and need.Â
Upper lip twitching, your teeth clink against his. âCanât get my outfit dirty. Iâve got a presentation in twenty.âÂ
âAllâs I needâs ten.âÂ
ââŚTo finish?âÂ
âYou.â Boot hooked around the chair leg, Frank yanks it over. Drops down into it, knees spread wide. Looking up at you, his stare inevitable and dark, Frank pats his thigh. âSit. Wanna show you how good the city can look from up here.âÂ
You forget everythingâespecially the presentation in twentyâwhile you overlook the city in your new office, on your husbandâs lap, his hand between your legs and the other over your mouth, his boots hooking your ankles open.
You forget about the flowers on display in your desk. Frank communicates through the flowers he buys. You shouldâve known. Shouldâve read into it more. But you didnât.Â
A harbinger in the form of velvet petals and the color of purity, specifically picked by Frank: the lilies.Â
The funeral flower.Â
â ď¸
That nightâŚ
Wasnât anything unusual when you texted Frank that afternoon with a change of plans:Â
Going out for drinks after work! Stephanieâs driving me there. Pick me up after? Come a little early to help stage my escape and we can go somewhere else to have a few together. XoxoxoÂ
Frank replied:
Iâll be there, sweetheart. Count on it.Â
So he was.Â
Bar stinks. Smells like fuckinâ shit. Not actual shit. Bullshitâworst kind. Full moonâs got people squirrelly. Has Frank on edge.Â
Tucked on the other side of the room, corner high top, Frank monitors you from afar. Wonât interrupt your time out. Doesnât like people much, anyway. Sipping his beer, bottle small in his grasp, Frank clocks the faces he knows from your work, watches every interaction. Even if he hasnât met âem, heâs done his homework. Has faces to names, street addresses, registered vehicles. Five coworkers with you, and a sixth, unattended drink beside you.Â
Who could that be?Â
The rock in Frankâs gut says he knows. Says itâs divine intervention, givinâ him an opportunity. A gift. Wonders if Redâd see it that way, too.Â
Fuck, sweetheart, you glow under the shitty neon lights and grimy haze of smoke. Too damn pretty for a place like this. Kinda place where if you go out back? Youâll get gutted while a handful of bikers smoke and itâs your own fault for havinâ the balls.Â
Feeling Frankâs stare, you look through the crowd, finding him at his usual post. You lift your glass. Frank lifts his. A salutation from a distance, a promise for more time together later in a cheers, a sip, and a smile.Â
You go back to your friends.Â
Frank resumes guard, ensuring your safety, so you can focus on enjoying yourself.Â
Turning back to the bar, the animated chatter of tipsy talking, inebriated laughter, you feelâŚÂ good. Happy. Elbows on the sticky counter, the vodka soda in both hands, you smile. Content now, knowing later promises the best kind of fun, but itâs just you, Frank, and the entire night.Â
You donât have long to indulge in the thoughts. Jason sidles back up beside you, his shoulder pressing against yours in the congested room. He smells like aftershave, smells good, honestly, not in a hungry way, just respectable. He smells like he tried.Â
âEverything go okay at your doctorâs appointment?â you ask, nudging at the reason he left the office early today.Â
âDoctorâs appointment?â Jason fires back before he realizes. âOh, right. Yeah, definitely. Doctorâs appointment went good, went well⌠Just⌠routine.âÂ
You hum, nod along, but as you look at his profileâconversational attentionâyou notice the clean clipper passes through his hair. And then at his jaw, the skin faintly red, leftover friction of a razor blade. So he⌠went to the doctor⌠got a haircutâŚÂ shaved⌠and then you notice his clothes⌠Dark dress jeans, a fitted quarter-zip. Jasonâs not a bad looking guy, but heâs definitely not your type either. Too clean, too concerned with gaining, obtaining instead of sharing or supporting. Talks a little too much about crap he can convince you knows a lot about, even if he knows nothing. Helps him at work, and he knows it.Â
âI hope Iâm not prying here, surely you wonât mind me askingâŚâ Jason says, not asking permission, taking it anyway. He faces you completely, elbow on the bar. He looks down, thumbing the rim of his old fashioned, pensive as an act. âIs your husband⌠good to you?âÂ
Almost swallowing your straw, you spit it out in a stuttered cough, brows over your head. âWhat?âÂ
âYou seem reallyâŚÂ tense all the time. You said yourself, heâs intense.âÂ
You bubble a genuine, incredulous laugh. âMy husbandâs not the problem. Heâs intense, sure, but thatâs not a downfall.âÂ
âIt is if youâre distracted and uneasy.âÂ
âIâmâ what?â you belt out, face screwed. Itâs the first youâre hearing about being distracted, uneasy, or tense. âIâm at work. We have deadlines, high stakes, high pressure. Home isnât the problem.âÂ
Jason draws a clicking breath between his teeth, as if he knew youâd say that, and youâre still wrong. Kind, compassionate, even, he looks at you with enough sympathy to drown you.Â
âI think for you, workâs a break. Iâm just looking out for you, definitely not trying to be the bad guy here, you know Iâd never do that,â Jason raises his hands to claim innocence. âWhat Iâm trying to say is⌠you deserve someoneâŚÂ nice.â
âLike you?â you prompt, heart thrumming with Frankâs accusation from days ago.Â
Jason shrugs, biting back a smirk since you said it. âSomething for you to think about. I mean, look at all the time we spend together. Calls, staying later than we have to in the officeâŚÂ I know you, I see you in those quiet moments.âÂ
Bewildered by the audacity, brain turning the words over multiple times as you put together a rebuttal. âYou call me, Jason. You- you have questions, need help on a sheet⌠I answer and stay because Iâm supposed to. Itâs called being a good coworker, not attraction.âÂ
âBut you answer. Every time. And you never tell me you have to go. You stay on the line, stay in the office⌠with me. Whatâs that say about you? Your marriage?â Jason gauges your reaction. Pushes harder. âWhatâs the say about us?âÂ
Jaw hanging, your mind races to the last long call you had with Jason. That night Frank cornered you at the counter, kissing and biting your neck, your jaw, trying to coax your attention to home, to him. You told Jason you were home. You vocalized polite deflections that hinted the conversation needed to end. But⌠this is where being polite got you, stuck with the ideas of yourself you continuously reject, watching them come to fruition. You resist the urge to yell for Frank. You know, desperately, Frank can make the problems go away, remove you from this equation, but Frank canât fight all of your battles for you.Â
âYou,â you say, cocking a hip out, your jaw jutted. âYou need to learn your place. Now, if youâll excuse me, Iâm gonna go to the bathroom, and when I come back? This never happened, and it will never happen again. Are we clear?âÂ
Giving him no time to respondâthe only answer is yesâyou storm off. Shoulder through the crowd, and close yourself in the bathroom to cool down.Â
Frank watched the whole thing. Waited for you to give the signal. The: Frank, I need you over here signal. You never did. You wanted to handle it on your own. Alright. Frank respects that. Admires it. But seeinâ you walk off like that? Shit. No stayinâ out of it now.Â
No stayinâ out of it whenâŚ
At the bar, Jason rummages in his pocket, hands trembling with urgency. Pulls out a baggie, small, coke-sized. No coke in it. Just five peach, oblong tablets.
Violent inspiration for Frank.Â
Jason digs a finger in the baggie. Scoops out two pills. Drops a third on the floor with a hissed curse, fumbling for it.Â
Sockets yank loose in Frankâs head, vision going red. Tendons cable through his neck, breath ragged and shallow; an animal without a leash. Frank chains himself with a fist around his beer bottle, squeezing tighter.Â
If that pill goes into your fuckinâ drinkâŚÂ
Tighter.Â
Frank shoulda taken this sick fuck out in his own home, do it on his turf, repaint the sonnuva bitchâs apartment with his brains.Â
Tighter. The glass creaks. Whines. The bottle quakes.Â
Ghosts in his palms, clear as day, Frank jolts as he feels old bones and old corpses break in his fingers. Hundredsâthousandsâdismantled by the hands he uses to love you.Â
The noises start. You know the ones. The guttural reeving of a man-made machine; an element of pure fucking consequence.Â
Tighter. To demolish.Â
The bottle explodes. Glass bursts. Beer flies.Â
Jason drops two tablets into your drink. Through the swarm of people, Frank sees the drugs contaminate, spreading poison without your fuckinâ consent.Â
Instinct and action convergeâthen explode.Â
Before Jason can lower his hand, Frank tears through the masses. Not a man. A weapon. Retribution. Vengeance. Divine wrath.
The fuckinâ judge, jury, and executioner.Â
Punishment.Â
Pain reaching him before realization does, Jason screams. Bloodcurdling agony scratches out the music, the clamor, all fuckinâ sound. Brain catching up to the excruciating pain, the cause of it, Jason stares at the snare of his wrist. Whatâs left of it. Snapped back, hand hanging off the wrist, bone spearing under the skin in fractured protrusions. Â
If not for the pain, itâs the sound that puts the fear of god in Jason.Â
Itâs Frank.Â
In the span of two seconds, Frank bounces Jasonâs head on the counter with a wet crack of skull, heel of his hand pinning him in place. The glassâyour glassâabsorbing the drug magnifies Jasonâs skittering eyes, his stammering breath painting the countertop.Â
âPuttinâ shit in a girlâs drink, huh?â Frank spits, smashing Jasonâs head until it purples.Â
Everyone gives Frank a wide berth. Whispers of The Punisher start to circulate, always do on this side of town. Â
âI didnât-! I-I-Iââ Jason sputters, spittle and fear flying.Â
âYou DID!â Frank roars, slam, slam, slamming Jasonâs head for a three count, blood sprinkling the wood. âYou think Iâm stupid, hm? Talkinâ to me like Iâm fuckinâ stupid? You think I look stupid?âÂ
âNo- no! No! God, no!â Anything to get off the hook.Â
âThen donât fuck with me like Iâm fuckinâ stupid. Now,â Frank cages Jason in from behind, a massive hand squeezing between his cheeks to pry open his mouth. âDrink it. You were gonna feed this shit to my wife. You drink it.âÂ
Frank lifts the glass as Jason pounds the counter with his good hand, smearing his face in a desperate bid for escape.Â
As the narcotized drink teeters the rim of the glass, ready to spill over into Jasonâs pleading, incessant mouth, a voiceâconcerned, still sweetâcuts through the thick of it.Â
Your voice.Â
âF-Frank?â Legs jellied from shock, you shuffle forward, the herd parting for you. âWhatâs going onâŚ?âÂ
Frank looks over his shoulder. Right to you. Jesus, his heart almost gives out. You. His wife. Precious, delicate, so fuckinâ good the scum of the earth tries to eat ya. Frank wonât let that happen. âHey, sweetheart, no problem. Havinâ a civil conversation with hotshot here about human decency. Caught your breathâa fresh air spikinâ your drink, sâall.âÂ
A green-tinge floods your face. âOhâ? Oh⌠my godâŚâ The ground beneath you swirls. A hand on your stomach to keep the vomit in, other hand curling into a fist, you grit your question through your teeth. âWhy?âÂ
Jason huffs, all panted breath and nowhere to run. âBecause,â he hisses, grunting when Frank pinches the back of his neck like scruff. âBecause youâre special.âÂ
â ď¸
Jasonâs thrown into the brick wall of the back alley with a heavy slap of limp meat.
âTell me what the fuck that was!â Frank yells, words clawed from his throat.Â
Intimidation tactic, galvanic rage with nothing to do but bleed, Frank slugs his fist into the wall by Jasonâs face, letting him cower and piss and beg while he feels the fury sailing an intentional centimeter off mark.Â
âFuckinâ tell me. Tell me. Tell me.âÂ
Bam. Bam. Bam.Â
In harmony with the strike of his fist.Â
The drizzle of piss on the groundâs the fuckerâs first answer.Â
âIt- it wasnâtââ choked on his own terror, Jason tries to crawl up the wall. âIt wasnât bad! I swear! It- it wasnât roofies or anything, just- just something to help her relax. It was just Xanââ
And with a shark to bloodâŚÂ there comes the frenzy.Â
âYou donât decide what my wife fuckinâ needs! Sheâs a strong womanââ wham, an uppercut straight into Jasonâs solar plexus. âSheâs fuckinâ strong. Goddamn right sheâs special.âÂ
Blood gurgling from his mouth, Jason groans, tries to double-over.Â
Tries.Â
âStand the fuck up. Ainât finished with you,â Frank clocks him back, velocity of his punch leaving Jason damn-near crucified on the wall. âTake it like a fuckinâ man since thatâs what you wanna be. Controllinâ women like that. Fuck.âÂ
Weak men are whatâs wrong with the world. Â
âSheâs the only good thing I fuckinâ got. You fuckinâ hear me? Huh?âÂ
No reply. Just the sputtering cries of a grown man in crisis. Music to Frankâs ears.Â
âI saidââ Frank latches onto both of Jasonâs ears. Rips. Blood gushes out as the seams start to separate. âYOU FUCKINâ HEAR ME?âÂ
The shrieking says heâs heard. And felt.Â
Leaves âem connected even if he shouldnât.Â
Frank thinks about you. His girl. Your grin over that chai latte. Your laugh in his ear late at night while you narrate a documentary on fuckinâ whales. Halloween night those years ago, same picture on your desk now. Slow dancinâ in the kitchen to your terrible music, half asleep, tucked into him like heâs safety instead of a biblical reckoning.Â
And this motherfucker was gonna do only god knows what to you.Â
Frank snaps back when Jason hacks up blood.Â
âYou stay away from her,â Frankâs fists ball in Jasonâs collar, nose to nose, teeth bared as verbalized venom poisons the air. âLook me in the eye and tell me you fuckinâ hear me. Say it. Fuckinâ say it. Say: I hear you, Frank. I get you, Frank. Say: sorry Iâm a stupid cunt, Frank. Say: I deserve everythinâ cominâ my way.âÂ
Jason recites every word, verbatim, through chattering teeth. Calls himself  a stupid cunt. Says he hears Frank, gets Frank, deserves this.Â
âAre- are you gonna kill me?â Sprawled pliant on the wall, shirt catching the rough brick, reduced to a stuck hog instead of a man.Â
âYeah,â Frank says simply. âYeah. âM gonna need to do that.â
And Frank unloads.Â
â ď¸
1 Week LaterâŚ
Sunâs hot on Frankâs back, even at seven in the morning. Sweat funnels down his back, soaking his tee. Been up before the sun digging the shit for a proper burial. Size twelve shoebox duct taped shut and off to the side.Â
Grunting, Frank stakes the shovel back in the ground, adding to the mounds of fresh dirt on either side of his boots. Hole in the ground sized for a dismembered man in a garbage bag.Â
Shovel leaned against his side, Frank wipes the back of his hand over his forehead. Sweat smears dirt. Looks up at the sky. Blue as can be. Bright as hell. Looks a lot like forgiveness. Or deception. Frank canât tell these days.Â
Readjusting the handle in his blistered palms, spade ready to pierce the dirt, the back door creaks open. Gets his attention.Â
Frank straightens in sections of his vertebrae, squinting against the halo of sunlight aroundâŚÂ you.Â
You walk out, barefoot in the grass, sleep-soft in your pajamas yet. And you bring coffee. An angel. His angel.Â
Frank lets go of a breath he didnât know he held. âIâll be up soon, yeah?â he calls. Doesnât stop you. âDirty work out here you donât need tâsee, sweetheart.âÂ
You ignore the advice, shuffling your way right to him on an invisible track. When you reach him, you pass a mug of coffee.Â
Dirt-lined fingers clasp it by the rim, taking a generous sip through the billow of steam. âMm,â he hums, angling from the pit in the ground and towards you instead, eyes sliding down the satin set blessing your curves. âWhatâre you doinâ out here, huh?âÂ
âBringing you coffee. Enjoying the sun,â you sip from your own cup, eyes locked on him.Â
âAinât complaininâ.â
âYou didnât have to do this, you know,â you murmur, curling into Frankâs side.Â
The hole in front of you two. But it doesnât bother you. Maybe it should, but⌠it doesnât. Not how you thought it might.Â
Frank leans down. Presses a kiss to the top of your head. Drapes an arm over your shoulders lightly, afraid of dirtying you, too. âYeah,â Frank agrees. âDidnât have to.â He shrugs. âWanted to.â
âKinda looks big enough for a body in a garbage bag,â you tilt your head, lips pursed in thought. âYou know, if you chopped him up.âÂ
Frank raises a brow. âScrewy thoughts for a pretty little thing like you so early,â but he stamps two kisses your temple like he approves.Â
You hum, chin inclining for more affection. âTo be fair⌠Twinkles was a really fat cat. Itâs nice of you to do this for Ms. Jenkins.â
âThe ladyâs, what? A hundred? Ainât gonna make her dig the damn hole for her own cat.âÂ
You laugh, quiet and soft for the morning. Warms Frank right up.
Pretending your top needs adjusting, Frank smooths the fabric at your shoulder, fingertips dragging down your arm, landing at the small of your back. Light touch. Featherlight. Keeps you clean. âYou alright, sweetheart?â Quieter, with the weight of last week.Â
Your chest inflates with a slow, steady breath. Coffee in one hand, other splaying over Frankâs stomach, you think. Then nod. âYeah, Iâm⌠okay. A little fucked up over it all, but Iâm okay. Iâm good.âÂ
âAlright. Good. We good?â
âWeâre good. More than good.â
âSâlong as weâre good.âÂ
âI got an update, by the wayâŚâ
Frank tucks his chin, looking down at you in the closeness. âYeah?âÂ
âYeah⌠got the email this morning. Jasonâs been relocated to another building. So he must be out of the hospital.â
âHm,â Frank hides the satisfaction with indifference. âGood.â
ââŚto another state.â
âEven better.âÂ
âHey,â you shift. âIâve been meaning to say a few things⌠Like Iâm sorry. And thank you.â
âAh,â Frank shakes his head. âDonât owe me nothinâ.âÂ
âI owe you an apology for not believing you.â You slide in front of him, reaching up to span your hand over his stubbled cheek. âYou warned me. You were right. I didnât listen. I⌠couldnât see what you saw. About the situation, aboutâŚÂ me.âÂ
Frank leans into your touch, brows knitting before they relax. âAlways lookinâ out fâyou. Donât need to apologize for believinâ someoneâs good.â
âI need to be more aware.âÂ
âNah,â Frank turns his head in. Kisses your palm. âYou stay sweet. You leave the cynicism tâme. What you need tâdo, though, sweetheart?â Frank drops the shovel. Wipes his mouth on his shoulder. âBelieve in yourself. Ainât nothinâ in here thatâll change how people see you,â Frank says, tapping his finger against your sternum. âThisâs good. Special. You. Canât go all your life with doubt. Itâll rein you in. Keep you there. Wonât let you go far.âÂ
You drop your forehead to his chest, his sweat placating the old wounds. âI knowâŚâÂ
âWeâll work on it.âÂ
Itâs a promise. A plan.Â
âThank you,â you say, looking up at him through your lashes. âI never said thank you. Thank you for⌠looking out for me. Being patient. Doing everything in your power to keep the world from hurting me. Even when Iâm the one hurting myself with my doubts. Especially then.â
Frank tucks a strand of hair behind your ear. Dips in, his nose nudging yours. âNothinâs gonna take you from me, yeah? Bubble wrap you if I got to. I got you, baby.âÂ
Hand sliding to his neck, you draw him down. Kiss him. Slow and easy, intimate in the understanding of what this man, your husband, will do for you. The extent heâll go to.Â
Drawing back, he nips your bottom lip. Replaces your mouth with a drink. Not the same warmth, but itâll do. For now. Â
Arm around his waist, nestled back into his side, you stand with the question thatâs burned you most. Until you canât. ââŚWhyâd you stop?âÂ
Frank turns his head to you. You look up at him. You see each other in the light of a new day. A quiet day. âYou wouldnât want that, yeah? Pretty girl. Everything I doâs fâyou.âÂ
âFrank?â
âYeah?â
âI love you.âÂ
âLove you too, sweetheart.âÂ
âFrank?â
âYeah?â
âWe should probably finish burying Twinkles. I think Ms. Jenkins is watching from her window.âÂ
âEh. Let her. Wanna give her a show?âÂ
âMmm, probably not. Itâd probably be her last.âÂ
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summary: bob floyd was in a pickle. his ma and pa were expecting him to bring someone home for his older brotherâs wedding. are you up for the challenge of being his fake girlfriend for the week? or will it ruin your friendship?
warnings: 18+, mdni, smut, unprotected sex, fingering, oral fem and male receiving (bob eating it from the back), male masturbation, roommates/friends to lovers (my fav trope sue me), no use of y/n
word count: 14.3k
a/n: bob is a total mama's boy in this, but in such a good way. can you guys tell i just love bob so much? i hope you enjoy!
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your call sign: bee
In a month, Bob was expected back in Montana for his older brother's wedding. But he stared at the most recent missed call from his Ma and grimaced. How was the wedding already so close? And how had he dropped the ball this badly?
A few months earlier...
"Ma, yes, I'm still coming," Bob spoke into the phone pressed against his cheek and shoulder. His hands were folding his fresh laundry as it lay out on his bed.
"And your older brother needs to know if you're bringing someone with you, honey. There's no shame in coming home alone again..." his mother said in a sweet voice, but Bob knew what the underlying tone meant. All his life, he never had anyone to bring home. It was like an ongoing joke inside his family at this point. No high school or college girlfriends seemed acceptable at the time, but now he was a Navy pilot and couldn't get a girl? Well couldn't get the girl he really wanted.
Before he even thought about what he was saying, he blurted out a response, "I'm bringing someone."
What.
"What?! Robert Floyd, you better not be messing with me!" his mother squealed over the phone. "Jim!" Bob had to pull the phone away from his ear with a grimace as his mother shouted for his father. "He's bringing someone!"
"About time," he could hear his father's gruff voice on the other end of the call. "Was gettin' worried about him out there in California. That boy's not built for the beach."
"Oh, you hush! Honey, I'll go ahead and let Mark know. I love you!" his mother's excitement could be felt through the phone, her voice all high and pitchy.
"Bye Ma, I love you," Bob huffed out. What did he just do?
"How's she doing?" Bob jumped at the sound of your voice, quickly turning to you. You lounged against the door frame of his bedroom, wearing nothing but a sports bra and some running shorts. He hadn't expected you to be home from your run with Phoenix so soon.
"Ma? Oh, uh, yeah, she's good. She's good, nothing new, y'know," he fumbled through a response, trying to not to look at the way the beads of sweat ran down your neck.
You hummed at him, "That's good. Are you still up for Thai food tonight? The new place on 4th?"
Of course, he was. When you first mentioned it last weekend, he had almost jumped at the opportunity. Sure, he liked Thai food, but sitting across from you and sharing a meal was what Bob really cherished. "Yep! Yeah, that sounds good. Ready in an hour?"
"You read my mind, Bobby," you said with a grin as you backed into your room across from his.
Present timeâŚ
âWhatâs wrong?â you saw the scowl on Bobâs face as he stirred the pasta like he had a personal vendetta against it.
âHuh? Oh, um, just thinking about my brotherâs wedding,â he said like even the thought made him sick.
âYou say that like itâs a bad thing,â you said as you prepped the various vegetables on the countertop around you. âI love weddings. The outfits, the candles, the flowers! I canât wait to get married. And I donât want to have a big wedding, yâknow? But like more of a backyard, summer barbecue type of vibe. Oh! And I want all my bridesmaids in different color dresses!â
Bob watched you as you described your perfect wedding, mentally taking notes. The way you had set down the knife to wave your hands around was adorable. You were always so animated, unafraid to show your emotions.
âBut Bobby, the best part about weddings isâŚâ you left the ending open for him, ushering him to fill in the blank.
âThe cake?â he questioned. To be honest, he was trying to appeal to your sweet tooth.
âI mean, yeah, thatâs pretty high up there. But no, itâs the look right before the first kiss. So many people say itâs the first look or the actual kiss, but for me itâs that moment where everyone knows whatâs coming next and the purest emotions are on the bride and groom's faces,â you explained in pure joy and awe, like you had experienced this feeling yourself. It was sweet to watch. Your wonder and love for the simple things were something Bob loved about you.
âBut, why is that moment better than the first look?â he asked innocently.
You sighed wistfully. "Just that moment when you can see the excitement on the groom's face, and he can barely contain himself. And the bride is usually so bashful, but always so excited. It's just so sweet, Bobby."
It did sound sweet. If Bob and you were getting married, he doubts he'd be able to contain his eagerness before the first kiss. No, he'd be way too focused on you to even listen to the officiant of the ceremony. Surely, he'd forget what to say, and he'd be a mess through his vows.
Bob was quiet for a minute or two, and you wondered what was going on in his head. You saw the way he had a small smile on his face, like it was hidden and just for him at this moment. And the way his shoulders relaxed, going more and more slack as time passed.
"You're thinking about it, aren't you?" you asked him with a teasing smile.
"Yeah, maybe," he chuckled and went back to stirring the pasta. Bob wanted to stay in this moment forever with you. It was so domestic. Cooking together in the kitchen you shared, laughing and throwing each other playful looks, talking about weddings. Maybe one day you'll talk about your wedding. Anything you wanted for the big day, Bob was sure to agree.
Living with you had been both the best and worst thing for Bob. A few months into the program, your lease was about to let up, and you were scrambling to find a new place. Bob hadn't known you prior to the mission that brought you all down to San Diego, but you had become close very quickly. Being two of only a few backseaters in the squad, you and Bob had spent a lot of time together in training and going over mission briefs. He had met a handful of WSOs in his time in the Navy, but knowing you was like a breath of fresh air. You never diminished your position or your knowledge, even when other pilots would question your place in the military. It was a learning curve for him to be around at first; seeing you go toe-to-toe with cocky pilots was daunting. He learned that's where your call sign came from, Bee. You were sweet, but could sting when you wanted. Soon, he got used to it, becoming more confident in himself in turn.
When you joked about bumming it on Phoenix's couch until you found a new place, Bob chimed in, "You can stay at mine. I have a spare bedroom, never really got around to using it."
"Wait, really?" you asked, fully turning your body towards him. You always did that, too, gave your full attention to whoever you were talking to. It was a bit intimidating. Bob was only now getting used to it, but still felt his heart beat pick up.
"Yeah, I wouldn't mind having a roommate," he said with a soft smile.
"Oh, Bobby, I could kiss you right now!" you said with a big grin, squeezing his forearm. He wished you had.
It wasn't until you had fully moved in that Bob realized the full consequences of his actions. You were horrible to live with.
Not in the way that you left dishes in the sink to "soak" all week, or you forgot to switch your laundry out for hours on end, or even in the way that you would blast music loudly at 2 in the morning. No, you didn't do any of those things. In fact, you always cleaned up after yourself, and Bob too, taking his plate right from his lap before he could protest. You cleaned the whole apartment, top to bottom, on Sundays. Your music carried throughout the hallways as you moved from room to room. Best of all, you baked! Every week! Trying a new recipe and being a little messy was your favorite way to unwind from a hectic work week, and lucky for Bob, he was your taste tester. Sure, you brought in your treats for the entire squad on Mondays, but Bob got to sit at the counter and watch you work. You would always gravitate towards him during this time, either letting him try the new brownie batter before you added more sugar or asking him how many chocolate chips are too many.
You were a great roommate. Always so courteous and kind. Anyone would be lucky to share a space like this with you. But it was torture actually living with you.
Too many times, Bob has caught a glimpse of you walking around in nothing but a shirt and some panties. To be fair, it was almost always after you had showered and were walking to your room. But as Bob watched you track down the hallway, he cursed himself for offering up the room in the first place.
And since moving in and getting closer, you had become even more touchy than usual with him. You were quick to give out hugs and other normal affectionate gestures to everyone on the squad, Bob included, even when he had only known you for a few weeks. But now, it was like Bob's personal space was your personal space. You always pressed into him when maneuvering around the small kitchen. Bob always held his breath, feeling you up against him, reaching for the oregano or paprika. Recently, too, your hand would work its way into his windswept hair after long days at the beach. The way your nails would drag against his scalp made him want to groan every time.
But worst of all were busy nights at the Hard Deck. On multiple occasions, barstools would fill up quick, only leaving the squad with two or three seats. It was fine for most of the night, with everyone so invested in the latest match of pool between Bradley and Jake. But after a few hours, you needed a break and always found your way into Bob's lap.
"I can get up, so you can sit," Bob stammered out the first time you sat on his lap. The rest of the squad shared amused looks, careful to hide them from both of you.
"It's okay, Bobby, I know you wanna sit too. Plus, you're comfy," you said, wiggling around trying to find the best position like he actively wasn't about to combust.
A bump of your hip snapped the man back into your kitchen. "Everything okay over there, space cadet?" you asked, tilting your head to look at him better.
"Mhm, yeah. I'm okay," he said in a small voice, the smile on his lips not quite reaching his eyes.
Furrowing your brows, you wondered what was making Bob so distant tonight. "You know you can always talk to me, right?" you offered with a small smile. People say that but rarely mean it. But you meant it, and you wanted him to know that. He just nodded his head and continued stirring the boiling pasta. "Okay, Bobby. I'm here when you want to talk," you said as you rubbed up and down his back. You swore you saw a chill run up his spine.
You watched the way his face continued to fall as you worked on dinner. Bob was always quieter than you, so gentle and sweet. But you hoped whatever was bothering him would go away, or that he would talk to you about it at least. As the night continued, he gave you those small smiles, and your worry just grew.
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"Why don't you just ask Bee?" Phoenix questioned as she grabbed the drink Penny put on the bar top. The Hard Deck was busy with patrons in all corners of the joint.
"I can't just ask her!" Bob squeaked out; he felt his cheeks flush at the thought of it.
"Why not? Because you have a crush on her? Come on, Bob," she teased him with a shit-eating grin on her face. She watched him slump against the bar as if she had just punched him in the gut. "If you won't take me, then why not Bee?"
Bob sighed, given that they had this conversation almost every day. Before training, after training, and even during training. Even the clear blue skies weren't safe from Natasha's questions. "It's not like I don't want to take you. But my parents know you. They're expecting me to bring someone home, y'know."
"Someone to give them grandchildren," Phoenix cackled as Bob groaned loudly. Penny placed his fizzy soda on the bar with a smile, knowing all about the man's debacle. Natasha thanked her, and they made their way back to the squad.
"Don't say that! I don't even, I can't even think- Oh jeez, Phoenix. No more talking about this. I've decided." The pilot swore she had never heard his voice that pitchy before. Bob shook his head as he wove through the crowd of people.
Once they had settled back into the fray of the squad, Natasha finally took to giving actual advice, not just teasing her back-seater. "I think you should just be honest, tell her. It's Bee."
"Oh yeah, let me just tell her I've been in love with her for months on end now. She's gonna think I'm a creep! Luring her into my apartment, making her live with me," he half shouted, half whispered at her. "And I also said, I didn't want to talk about this. Especially with her right there." Bob glanced at you laughing freely with Bradley, head thrown back. Your energy was contagious to the people around you, as he saw Bradley and Mickey spotting matching smiles. Bob found himself smiling to himself, too.
"She wanted to live with you, idiot. And I'm not saying confess your love. Just ask for this favor. You don't have to give anything away if you don't want to," she said matter-of-factly. If only it were that easy. Within minutes of you being in his childhood home, Bob would surely fold and show all the feelings he's been trying so hard to hide. One conversation and approving nod from his mother, and he'd propose on the spot.
The pair were too entrenched in their conversation to see you making your way over. You didn't mean to snoop, but you couldn't help overhearing snips of their chatter.
"I just don't know what I'm going to do. I have to tell Ma I'm not bringing anyone," Bob muttered, dragging a hand down his jaw.
"To the wedding?" You whipped around and saw Bob's eyes almost pop out from behind his glasses. Phoenix, however, let a mischievous glint dance on her face as she watched the two of you. Directing your attention back to Bob, you continued, "Sorry, I didn't mean to eavesdrop. But if you need someone, I'll go."
Natasha let out the biggest cackle you had heard; it even caught a few of the other aviators' attention. She looked to Bob, who seemed to be frozen in time, and decided she would do her best friend a solid.
"His family is expecting a girlfriend. That's why Bob is having such a hard time," she explained. But you just furrowed your brows further at this.
"I'll be your girlfriend," you said. At this, Bob nearly fell off his barstool. "I mean, I can be your pretend girlfriend for a week. I'm really good with parents and family and stuff. And we know each other well, too! I'm sure we'd be a convincing couple. So, yeah. If you need someone." Suddenly, you felt awkward under his gaze. You definitely gave it away. Who just proclaims they'd be someones fake girlfriend?
You met Jake's gaze from across the pool table and saw him biting down on his bottom lip, trying to suppress the grin on his face. Flashing a 'Help me!' face in his direction, the blonde man made his way over to you.
"Offering your fake girlfriend services again, Bee?" he asked with a raised brow. Both Phoenix and Bob shot him quizzical looks. "Bee came out to dinner with my folks when they were in town a few weeks ago. They were on me about not settling down, but she quelled those fears. Swear I've never seen my mom fall in love faster."
"Really?" Bob asked, looking between both of you. "You met his parents?" A flash of hurt crossed his face. You had missed it completely, but both Hangman and Phoenix caught the distress on his face.
"That's perfect! Right, Bob? Bee would be great," she hit his arm, trying to snap him out of what Jake had just said. The three of you looked at Bob, waiting for his response.
He nodded slowly before responding, "Yeah, I mean, if you're okay with missing the full week. I'd love to take you." Natasha grinned at his recovery, mentally noting to pat him on the back about it later.
"I can talk to Maverick about it tomorrow. I'd love to come," you said bashfully. Jake smiled knowingly at your response. He locked eyes with Natasha and winked. The woman just rolled her eyes but got the signal.
"When was the last time I beat you in pool Hangman? I think my trophy needs a little dusting off," she challenged, gaining the attention of the squad and taking it off Bob and you.
"Looking for a rematch? I'm happy to oblige," Jake said in a sickeningly sweet tone. He stepped closer so only she could hear the next part of his sentence, "I'll win this game, just like I'll win our bet."
"In your dreams, Seresin," she scoffed. "Rack 'em!"
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Jake's couch had become a second home to you at this point. Its cushions surely remembered the way you would slump into them every weekend. Being Jake's back-seater was a challenge at first; you were never one to back down, and neither was Jake. It wasn't until you both had figured out that instead of going up against each other, you could turn your focus on the pilots around you. So as time went on, you bonded over your love for college football, dad rock, and surprisingly, the Great British Bake Off.
"Oh come on, Tom! No one is going to win with a ganache like that," Jake exclaimed from the end of the couch. There was no quippy response from you, and Jake raised an eyebrow in your direction. You had been like this all week. Mopey and weird. Your usual trash talk to other pilots or Maverick was replaced with a stone-cold face. It was just as intimidating, but Jake knew something was up.
Clutching the throw pillow in your arms, you couldn't even focus on the monstrosity that was Tom's cake on your screen. No, all that ran through your head was how you were going to contain yourself around Bob and his family. In just two days.
With a whack, fabric came flying on top of your head.
"Ow! Jake!" you exclaimed, immediately putting your arms up to protect yourself from further attacks.
"Jake! Don't Jake, me," he sassed you, only making the pout in your lips grow deeper. "What is going on with you? Is this still about Baby on Board?"
"Don't call him that," you grumbled, taking your pillow and whacking him across the chest.
He just rolled his eyes and continued, "Seriously, you need to get it together. Baby on Board and his family are expecting a perfect girlfriend, and right now, you're this."
You scowled at him as he chastised you. "Jake, that's mean. I just," you sighed before continuing. "I just don't know how I'm going to do this. A whole week? He'll know!"
Your dramatics were nothing new to Jake, but when it came to Bob, it seemed like you dialed it up tenfold. "This opportunity has been placed in your lap. I think you should take advantage of it, embrace it," he suggested.
"That's easier said than done," you mumbled.
This upcoming week made you queasy just thinking about it. It wasn't that you didn't want to go to meet Bob's family. No, you wanted all of it. But not like this. From the first day you met Bob, you knew you were in for it. His cute glasses and sweet smile almost had you confessing by the end of the first week.
When he asked you to move in with him, you had happily agreed. But as the arrangement unfolded, you realized what kind of agony would be in store for the near future. The way he always carried in all the groceries, not letting you lift a finger. How he always drove you, never letting you sit behind the wheel, no matter what kind of day he had. And he was so handy around the apartment, too. One day, the garbage disposal in your kitchen stopped working, and just as you were about to call someone, Bob brought over his tool kit and got down on his knees. It was way more attractive than it needed to be.
But these little daily pains were nothing compared to what you had walked in on about a month ago. You were about to go on your daily run with Phoenix when she called you from the car to cancel. Turning your keys and walking back into the house, you slipped off your sneakers and began padding down the hallway towards your room.
Just as you were about to head into your room, there was an odd sound. At first, you thought it was the apartment, settling, or something that people always say when a building makes noise. But as you paused, clutching your shoes and phone close to you, you knew it was something else. It was him.
His moans were unmistakable, so vocal and loud. And you froze. For a few seconds, you just stood there, listening. Listening to Bob falling apart. The schlepping of his hand against himself was unmistakable. The rocking of the bed, too. You had to peel yourself away from this. Away from his noise. So that's what you did.
You tried to forget it. But a part of you wanted to remember, as horrible as that sounds. You hadn't been able to look Bob in the eye for a few days after, and when you did, the heat in your tummy would start again.
The thought of sharing this week with Bob was more daunting than any mission you had ever faced.
"Hey! Are we going to watch this episode, or are you just going to sit and stew the whole night?" Jake's voice snapped you out of your thoughts.
"Sorry, just a little worried still," you said quietly. Jake had never seen you like this before, so in your own head.
He slid down the couch and placed an arm around your shoulder. "Hey, it's okay. Everything will be okay, I promise. Your biggest worries right now should be if Tom can figure out his presentation for the judges."
You giggled at his teasing. "Fucking, Tom," you murmured under your breath.
"Yes, fucking, Tom! God, he's selling it!" Jake boomed next to you, throwing you into another fit of laughter. "Seriously, Bee. Don't worry too much about this week."
"I will be texting you live updates every hour, I hope you know," you said with a grin.
"Wow, only hour updates. I was expecting every 5 minutes," Jake teased, poking into your sides. You just swatted his hands away, fighting off a smile.
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Stepping onto the packed dirt and smelling the fresh Montana air was a relief to Bob. The picturesque mountain ranges were illuminated by the strong moonlight, and the sky was lit up by thousands of twinkling stars. It was something to get lost in, and that's exactly what Bob found as he turned to look at you. "It's so beautiful," you said, eye going a little wide, and your voice was quiet. Bob figured it was from your hours of traveling, maybe partly from the awe of the view.
Without looking away from you, he responded, "Very beautiful."
Bob's moment of peace with you was interrupted by a swift closing of the front door and a cheery voice. "Bob! Oh, honey, you made it safe!" an older, but spry woman ran up to Bob. You looked at the pair as they embraced and caught a look at them, side by side. Bob was much larger than the woman, towering over her. His arms stood out against her frame as your eyes trailed across his large muscles and hands without even realizing what you were doing. And his nose, it was the same as the woman who stood next to him. The cute button was something you always caught yourself looking at when tracing the map of his face.
A squeal snapped you out of your daze, and you were quickly met with a tight hug and a rushed introduction of Bob's mother's name, Pam. "Oh wow! You must be Bee! You are so gorgeous. I don't know why Bob kept you hidden from us for so long." She leaned back a bit and took you in, dragging her hands across your frame and face. You giggled at her ministrations.
"Thank you for having me this week. I'm so excited to get to know you all," you said with a sweet smile.
"Oh, we are so happy to have you, Bee! Such a cute little nickname, you don't mind?" she asked, but continued on anyway. "We were a little worried about Bob for a while there. Honestly, never thought he would-"
Bob's eyes widened, knowing the long list of stories his mother could tell you. "Alright! Alright, let's not talk about all that just yet," he cut her off with a blush that dusted his cheeks.
"Honestly," you started, gaining the attention of both Bob and his mother. "Bob is the best thing that's ever happened to me. You raised such a kind and thoughtful man. I'm so thankful for him." Your eyes met his as you spoke, sharing a look of genuine care. Pam caught the way you looked at her son and smiled knowingly.
"Well, you two had better head on up to bed. Your Pa is sleeping, but he'll be up bright and early. And everyone will be over tomorrow night to meet you, Bee," Pam said, finally letting you out of her grasp. Instead, she placed a hand on your lower back to guide you inside.
You turned to grab some of your bags to take inside, but instead saw Bob balancing all of your luggage in his hold, just the same as when you left the apartment and at the airport. He shot you a look, telling you to head inside. You rolled your eyes, but mouthed 'thank you' as you kept walking with his mother.
She led you to a small bedroom upstairs in the rustic-looking house. It was cosy, a queen bed with golden colored quilt, a small adjoining bathroom, and a small window with lace curtains. She gave you another quick hug and whispered 'goodnight' before heading back down the stairs to bed.
Bob set down your bags and let out a deep breath.
"You okay? Wanna shower first? You had a long day," you said, a hand coming to his shoulder and rubbing it sweetly. He melted into your touch, unconsciously leaning into you.
"No, no. You go first, I'll be okay," Bob said softly, trailing off a bit towards the end. You had been traveling since that morning, and you could tell how tired the man in front of you was. Your flight was a few hours long, and since his family didn't live in Bozeman or Billings, Bob had to rent a car and drive 3 more hours out to the small town.
"Bobby, go shower and get ready for bed. I'll unpack and lay out the clothes for tomorrow." You took your hands and placed them on both sides of his shoulder, pushing him into the bathroom as he chuckled lowly.
Bob gave you a tired, but grateful look before he closed the bathroom door carefully. Today had been long, but seeing the way you interacted with his mother made it all worth it.
Stepping under the warm stream of water, Bob felt his muscles relax instantly. He didn't want to take long in the shower, knowing you were waiting for him, but he also needed a few moments to himself. Reflecting on your day together, Bob felt himself getting half hard at the thought of you.
On the plane ride over, you had fallen asleep against his shoulder, your body angling into his. With your odd positioning, your tits were pressed right up against him for the majority of the flight. It took everything in him to keep his gaze straight ahead on the action movie playing on the little screen in front of him and not your soft, full chest.
His right hand drifted down, gripping himself firmly.
And your hair. You had been tucked right under his chin, and the scent of your shampoo was overwhelming. Sometimes, Bob would catch a whiff of it floating down the hallway after your showers, but now it was coming at him in waves. He felt like such a creep, but what was he supposed to do? Push you away from him? Bob didn't know the next time you would get so close to him.
Now, his cock stood proud under the stream.
In the car ride over, you had made it a point to keep him company since it was so late at night. Finding a radio station that played old country music, you began to sing along to almost every song that played. After the fourth song, Bob knew it wasn't a fluke that you knew all the lyrics so well. You explained that your college roommate was from Wyoming and was constantly playing her music in the dorms.
Bob knew he needed to keep his eyes on the road, but he couldn't help the way he looked over to your figure sitting beside him. Your lips moving along to whatever song was playing, your thighs pressed up against the leather seat of the truck, and the way your hand would occasionally find its way to his upper back, rubbing soft, smooth circles into it, all drove him to glance over at your sweet face.
His pace was steady now.
Bob felt so dirty, touching himself like this with you, only a thin wall away. But he knew if he didn't do it now, he wasn't sure when he would get a chance this week. So he hunched over the corner of the shower, trying to focus on anything but you. But like every time before this one, Bob's mind only wandered to thoughts of you.
What would you look like with water cascading down your tits? Or how your back would arch into the tile of the shower as he fucked you from behind. Best of all, how your face would twist with pleasure as he drilled into you, making you cum all over his thick cock.
That's what always got him to finish. Thinking about you, your pleasure. He caught the groan in his throat before it sounded, instead biting down on his free fist, whining lowly.
After cleaning up fully, Bob looked around the bathroom and realized he hadn't brought any clean clothes in with his. Wrapping the towel around his waist, he stepped out sheepishly.
At the creak of the bathroom door, you looked up from your place on the ground. You were met with Bob's nearly bare form. Water droplets from his hair were dripping down his shoulders, finding their way down his chest and waist. As you tracked one of the droplets, your eyes stopped when they met his waist. Bob's v-line was even better than you had imagined, and you had thought about it a lot.
He had an aversion to taking his shirt off around others, and that was reasonable. Especially in front of a bunch of macho, testosterone-fueled Navy men. But you had always wondered what he looked like under the kaki uniform he wore so often. Seeing it up close almost had you drooling.
"Forgot a change of clothes," he explained in a quiet voice. You just hummed, not trusting your voice. Pushing up off the ground and padding over to the dresser, you opened a drawer, and Bob found all of his clothes folded and set perfectly. His heart warmed at the thought of your delicate fingers working across all the clothing he had packed for the week. You had obviously taken care of his stuff first, as your luggage was still open on the floor.
Bob grabbed a change of clothes and kept his voice at the same quiet tone, "Thank you, Bee." You smiled up at him, staring a bit too long. But quickly, you fumbled to grab your nightwear from your bag and made your way into the bathroom.
Bob dropped the towel from his waist and began to dress. He didn't miss the way your eyes trailed down his body, and honestly, it made his stomach flip. Just as he was about to lie down and call it a night, he realized you hadn't discussed the bed situation. Bob would never want to make you uncomfortable, so he shuffled down the hall and found his way into the spare linen closet, grabbing a fluffy comforter and some blankets to lie down on the floor beside the bed.
Not too long after, you emerged from the bathroom and furrowed your brows at the sight of the empty bedroom, expecting to see Bob knocked out on the bed from such a long day.
"Down here," Bob's voice startled you as his hand shot up in a lazy wave from the other side of the bed.
"Bob? What are you doing?" you asked the man, walking over to see him laying down on the makeshift bed he had set up on the hardwood floor.
He rubbed the back of his neck, not quite meeting your eyes. "Didn't want to make you feel like we needed to share the bed or anything like that."
"We've literally fallen asleep on the couch together," you said, narrowing your eyes as a teasing smile made its way to your face at his chivalry. "I don't mind sharing the bed at all, Bobby. And that can't be comfortable."
"No, no. Ma's got the best blankets. Feels like a cloud," Bob explained with a soft smile.
You narrowed your eyes at the man before speaking, "With you back? Do you remember earlier today when we got off the plane?"
Bob recalled the moment of weakness. He had stretched out a bit too far after sitting for hours on end and felt a tug throughout his body, wincing a little. You had fused over him for the next 30 minutes, almost refusing to get in the car if you couldn't drive. But Bob, of course, got his way.
He looked as if he was about to argue with you. Bob was hardheaded sometimes, but you knew just the right thing to say to knock him out of it.
"Plus, if your mom comes to wake us up and she sees you sleeping on the floor, everything would be ruined," you offered. Seeing a look of recognition flash across his face, he nodded slowly, like he was considering your words. "Come on, Bobby. I'll help you fold everything and put it back."
You giggled as he sprang up from the floor, a hand already coming down to his lower back.
"I knew your back was going to hurt! Comfy my ass," you said, smacking him lightly across the chest. He just smiled at you, joining in with some soft chuckles that warmed your heart.
Curling into bed, you felt sleep hit you almost immediately. Letting your eyelids droop, part of you wanted to stay up and think about tomorrow. To pick Bob's brain about who might show up. Worry about what they would think of you. But the sound of Bob's voice made your heart slow and breathing even out.
"G'night, Bee. Thank you again for coming with me," Bob told you, not even sure if you were lucid enough to hear him.
"Anything for you, Bobby. Goodnight," you said in the softest voice he thinks he's ever heard from you. Your words slurred a little and were definitely muffled by the pillow, but he still heard you. He saw your eyelashes flutter across your cheeks as you settled into sleep. The way your mouth opened slightly, lips parting so delicately. How your body seemed to curl into itself, making you look so small and fragile.
Wishing to hold you close to his chest like earlier today on the plane or to grasp your hand to hold in his sleep, Bob just stayed up for a few minutes longer to watch your sleeping form. Soon enough, his thoughts of you became muddy and distant as sleep took over, claiming you both now.
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Bob had awoken to soft beams of sunlight streaming through the lace curtains. Everything was quiet, and Bob let himself lie for a moment, taking in the peace. Just as he was about to stretch and get up, he looked to his side and saw you.
Your cheek was still flushed up against the pillow, and your hair was in a bit of a mess as it rubbed on the fabric. It wasn't rare that Bob got to see you relax, but it was rare to see you completely void of all concerns. Usually, you were still holding some type of resistance in your shoulders or furrowing your brows slightly, even when lying across the couch at the end of the day. But now, you looked completely free. He smiled a bit at this.
Like you had sensed him mentally tracing the outline of your nose or the apples of your cheeks, suddenly your eyelashes fluttered, and you opened your eyes.
"G'morning, Bobby," you half mumbled-half whispered into your pillow. You weren't sure he understood you until hearing his telltale chuckle that was seemingly reserved for you.
"Morning, Bee," he said softly, voice a little deeper than usual. You chalked it up to the morning hours, but it still made your tummy flip. "Did you sleep well?"
"Mhm," you hummed. Bob saw that you made no effort to move from your comfortable position and chuckled again.
He often teased you for being so out of it in the mornings, but Bob had never seen you so unguarded. On the weekends you had off from training, you would usually pad into the kitchen, eyes still a little puffy and your movement still a little soft. There was one time Bob had to quickly intervene before you poured your coffee into your cereal bowl instead of your mug. But right now was different.
"Don't laugh," you grumbled. "Need like five more minutes. Or maybe ten."
Just as Bob was about to say okay and lie back under the covers with you, he heard a familiar pattern of steps making their way up the hallway.
"I'm afraid you're not going to get that, Bee," he spoke, seeing your brows fold in on themselves at his words. But soon, the bedroom door opened, and Pam was rushing to hug you good morning.
"I can see Bob has been soft on you, letting you sleep in," she joked as you shot up in the bed to meet her embrace. "We Floyds are early risers! Better start building the habit now."
"Oh, I know. Bob's up every morning at the crack of dawn, it feels like. Always hear him trying to be so quiet around the apartment," you said with a yawn as she drew away from you. Bob's cheeks heated at the thought of you being so in tune with his morning routine.
"Well, I won't rush you this morning, but breakfast will be ready in 20 minutes. Then we'll head into town afterwards, alright, Bee?" she said with a fond smile on her face. You nodded your head, saying a quick thank you as she closed the door and left.
The room was silent for a few seconds as you and Bob shared a small smile and knowing look at what had happened. "I'm only getting up early for her this week, Floyd. Don't expect any new habits when we're back home," you joked, a teasing smile on your face.
"Oh, I know. Wouldn't want to disrupt your morning routine of inside-out jeans and backwards shirts," Bob said with full seriousness as he pushed the covers off his body.
"Whatever that happened like one time," you said, pursing your lips. Hearing his laughter fill the air made your face flush with embarrassment. "One time! It was one time!"
Your protests at his teasing had no effect. Instead, Bob's laughter seemed to increase ten-fold as he doubled over in the bed.
"Bob, stop! It was one time!" you whined now. "You said it wasn't that bad."
His laughter subsided as he began to speak, "I know, I know." There was a silence that lasted for a few seconds until he spoke again, "But it was so funny, Bee." With that, Bob burst out laughing again as you half groaned, half laughed loudly.
From the kitchen, Pam smiled to herself, hearing her son's laughter carry throughout the house.
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That night, like Pam had promised, Bob's extended family was over. Honestly, Bob was a little worried for you. His family could be a lot, and given that this was the first time he had brought anyone home, he expected everyone to poke and prod at you. But as his family filed into the house, your bright smile had never faltered.
Sometime after dinner but before dessert, Bob had lost you in the crowd of Floyds. He had walked through the house about ten different times at this point, looking for you, but you were nowhere to be found. Seeing the worried look on his face, his father gently grasped his son's shoulder to gain his attention.
"She's outside," he said lowly. Bob nodded and walked with purpose towards the back porch. His mind racing, thinking of all the possibilities that would've pushed you to escape outside. Were you crying? Was this all too overwhelming? Did someone ask you a rude question? Had you finally gotten sick of him? Sick of this role you were playing?
Right as he was about to push the door open, Bob paused. He saw you outside, but you weren't alone.
Gathered around you in the grassy field was a gaggle of small children, all laughing and smiling. Bob couldn't tell exactly what you were playing with the children, but after one of his younger cousins ran up to you and tapped your hip, he understood immediately. Bob smiled to himself, seeing you take off into a run as all the children screamed joyfully.
"She's sweet. Reminds me of your mother." Bob was snapped out of his trance as his father spoke. "Good job, son," he added, hand coming to clap softly on Bob's back.
Bob felt his heart race watching you. He knew you were perfect, living with you and being best friends had proven it to him. But he had never seen you like this, so carefree and thoughtful. Sure, there were nights when Jake or Bradley would get a bit too carried away at the Hard Deck, and you would be right by their side, taking care of them. But it wasn't even close to this.
Bob saw you chase around the children, never gaining too fast on the younger kids, but still giving the older ones a run for their money. He watched as all the kids gravitated towards you, all of their smiles and laughs being thrown your way. And Bob understood this feeling deeply. He had always felt a pull towards you. It came out in various ways, like always finding your eyes when Coyote would say something outrageous during training. Or bursting out into synchronized laughter whenever Jake would ultimately lose another game of pool to Nat. And his favorite was the way you would find your way over to Bob whenever you were in a large group. You could talk to Jake or joke around with Bradley, but whenever the full Dagger Squad was together on a crowded night at the Hard Deck, you were glued to Bob's side. These moments let him know that you were undeniably in each other's orbit.
Finally, Bob pulled open the door and walked out to you and your new friends.
"Uncle Bob!" one of the children exclaimed. You whipped around, seeing Bob walking up to you with a small smile on his face.
"Thought I lost you in there," he joked. You smiled, not speaking but walking closer to meet him in the middle. He met your kind eyes, but upon looking into them further, he squinted a little at you. Just as he was about to step back, you lunged forward.
"Tag! You're it!" you blurted out, giggling as you sprinted in the opposite direction. The children seemed to follow your example, all shrieking and laughing as Bob took off.
Suddenly, you heard little cries of your name. Turning around, you saw Bob gaining on you. Before you knew it, his hands grasped your waist, picking you up a few inches off the ground, bringing you into his chest.
Tucked close into him now, you felt his breath on the back of your neck. The heaving of his chest against your back had you squirming. "Can't get away that easily," his voice close to your ear. Biting down on your lip, careful to not let the whine out, you felt your tummy flip at the position he had you in.
You had come outside to escape, yes. But not from Bob's never-ending list of uncles or aunts. From him.
During dinner, he had been nothing but kind to you. Caring. Attentive. And it had been like that all day. From when you left the house and went into town with him and his mother, you hadn't as much as blinked before Bob made sure you didn't have to lift a finger. Sure, he had done this to a certain extent back in California, not letting you open the door or always opening glass jars for you when in the kitchen together. But today was a different level.
Pam insisted on getting you a pair of real, genuine cowgirl boots. She marched you into "Jesse's Boots & Shoes" and immediately sat you down on one of the little benches. After gathering what seemed like half the merchandise in the store, she came back to you with stacks of boxes full of different types of boots.
As you began to bend down to untie your shoes, Bob suddenly appeared in front of you. On his knees.
"I got it, don't worry," he said, before delicately unlacing your shoes. His large, warm hand flew up underneath your calf, and the other shimmied off your shoe. Then he looked up with that sweet smile and repeated the whole process on your other foot. You could've sworn you saw Pam snap a picture.
Later in the day, you made it back to the house and were helping Pam fix up some lunch. She handed you a big yellow onion and a kitchen knife, but before you could even take hold of the wooden handle she had outstretched to you, Bob had rushed into your view. Stealing the onion out of your right hand and gently pushing you out of the way of the cutting board, you looked at him incredulously.
"I know how watery your eyes get. I got it, just go sit down," he offered with that same sweet smile.
"I can cut one onion, Bobby," you said, playfully trying to grab the onion from his hand. He just raised his hands above his head, ensuring you wouldn't be able to reach him.
"I got it, Bee. Don't try to argue," he challenged, raising his brows. Huffing, you rolled your eyes, but couldn't help the small smile that was creeping on your face.
Pam once again snapped a picture. This time, giggling to herself a bit like she knew this was going to happen.
The third time was right before everyone had arrived. You were upstairs, checking your hair one last time and making sure your outfit looked okay, when you noticed you had forgotten to put your necklace on this morning.
After retrieving the delicate piece from the bathroom, Bob had seemingly appeared. Seeing the jewelry in your hand, he walked forward with purpose, holding out his palm. You raised an eyebrow at his actions.
"Seen you do it a million times," he started. "Let me."
You nodded, not trusting your voice once again, dropping the piece into his hand. Softly, his free hand came down to your hip, guiding you to turn around.
Then, you felt his arms go around your shoulders, not touching, but there. It was so quiet in that moment. The only noise you could hear was the creaking of the old house and Bob's soft breathing close to your ear. It was distracting. Maddening, after the day you had.
Clasping the necklace around you, his hands dropped. Turning back around, you were met, once again, by the same sweet smile.
"You look beautiful, Bee," he told you before backing out of the room. "I'll be downstairs whenever you're ready."
Driven outside, you had wanted to sit on the porch for a bit. Think about what this weekend really meant for you. For Bob. For your friendship. But your plans were quickly interrupted after feeling a little tug on your leg and hearing a quiet invitation to a game of tag.
"Robert Floyd, you'd better let go of that girl! We've got apple pie coming out the oven!" Pam's voice drew you back into the heart-racing position you were in. Bob was quick to set you down, smoothing his hands over your hips in an effort to fix the creases in your dress that his hold had caused. But you saw the raging blush that crossed his face and burst out into a fit of giggles, and soon, all of his younger cousins were doing the same thing.
"I think this might be your inside-out jean moment," you teased with a smile, seeing the blush turn to a darker shade.
"Not funny," he said sternly, but you could tell he was trying to hold back a laugh.
"Mm, I recall saying something earlier this morning like that." You grinned at him, walking closer to the house, but your body was still fully facing the man in front of you. "But Bobby, it's so funny!" you laughed, throwing your head back. Bob couldn't help but smile, even if it was at the expense of his own actions.
What neither Bob nor you realized was the crowd of onlookers peaking through the windows, watching as Bob Floyd was struck with a look of love.
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You had been right. The look before the first kiss was the best part of a wedding. Bob doesn't remember the last time he'd seen his older brother so giddy.
You, on the other hand, had missed it completely. Looking at the man who sat next to you instead. You saw the way the corners of Bob's mouth pulled upwards, smiling brightly.
The week had gone smoothly, both of you getting away with touches that were a little more lingering than usual or looks that called for a deeper conversation. To Bob's family, this looked like restraint, manners, and control. To you, this was torture, heartache, and suppression. You didn't know how many more instances of Bob's big hand on the small of your back you had in you before you broke completely. His gentle guidance and care throughout the week had been something that you reveled in. Returning to California, returning to normalcy, it all seemed so distant.
Sipping some champagne, you sat with Bob at the reception. Stringed bulbs lit up the night. Bright colors popped from all of the flowers that seemed to be placed on every table. And sweet music filled the air, inviting everyone to dance.
Bob studied your face under the night sky and limited lighting. You were the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. Dread filled his heart, though. The thought of this week just being a glimpse into what life would be like if he got up the courage to ask you to be with him weighed heavily on his heart.
Going to bed with you every night was something Bob didn't even know he was missing, but now he craved it so deeply. Being able to talk to you and share his thoughts with you right before bed. Getting to hear you ramble on, either about your worries or joys, was something he began to love more than anything. The way your voice would begin to taper, become gentle, when you were truly tired and ready for sleep. How you supported your face under your small palm while talking with him in the dark. How your eyes would become glassy and glazed over as you finally hit the pillow. These moments became precious to him.
"All couples! Head to the dance floor now! Tell your partner how much you care about them, and let's dance!" The DJ's voice broke Bob's train of thought. Without thinking, he rose out of his seat and offered you a hand.
Sheepishly, you took it, letting him guide you.
A soft, slow melody filled the air as you began to take your place with Bob. His hands brushed your hips, stiff, like he was in middle school, and it was his first time slow dancing. You chuckled a little under your breath.
"What's got you laughing now?" he asked, soft and sweet. Eyes searching yours with intensity you had only seen from him this week.
You looked at him for a moment and just grinned, like you knew something he didn't.
"Just so stiff, Bobby. Relax," you told him, pushing into his space a little more. Your hands found their way around his shoulders, palms settling on the broad plain of his back. Now, your face met his chest, and you melted into him.
Bob felt the sway of your hips and the light movement of your feet. If it wasn't for you, he would've stood still, not knowing what to do with you like this. Sure, he had danced like this before. But it was never this intimate. This deep. This connected.
At any moment, Bob felt like he was going to let the words spill out of him. Tell you how he was really feeling. It seemed so easy.
The way you interacted with his family. Cooking with his Ma, talking about college sports with his Pa. Even the way you talked with his brother and sister-in-law. Though it was brief, you made an immediate connection. You and his sister-in-law, chatting away like you had grown up together. And he didn't miss the way his older brother shot him a look of surprise, but approval.
But it wasn't just about them. It was also about the way you just fit so well into his life. Sure, you weren't an early riser, and Bob had learned this weekend that you weren't the best with large animals, but he didn't mind. If being with you meant slow mornings where you would coax him back to bed, hands grasping for him to come lie with you beneath the sheets, he'd be okay with that. More than okay. And if the biggest animal you owned was a chocolate lab, that would be okay by him, too.
Slowly, his large hands came around your waist, more secure and grounded. And Bob closed his eyes, letting out a deep breath. Taking in this moment with you was the most important thing to him.
You danced under the twinkling lights and stars, no concern for the people around you. No concern that this was fake, that it was all pretend. Because right now, it felt real.
Hearing the thump of Bob's heart calmed you. It was grounding you, just like the gentle guitar in the background. You swayed like that for a while, but eventually the pounding of his heart and the steadiness of his figure became all too much. While the music swelled, so did your chest. Heaving up and down at a much more rapid pace.
Bob, feeling the sudden shift in your energy, pulled back, but just slightly. Still close enough to hear the hitch in your breath, to see the quiver of your bottom lip.
Your eyes blinked rapidly. Looking up at Bob seemed like an impossible task. But with a gentle touch to your chin, you did.
"Bee?" he asked softly. Concern written across his face.
"I'm sorry," you said, even quieter. With slow moments, you pressed your lips to his.
Your lips were softer than he imagined. The way your lips slotted between his was like second nature. And before you could pull back, he learned in deeper. Taking the hand that was under your chin and pressing it into the back of your head. Meeting you in the kiss, he pressed closer to you, and you felt the strong hold he had on your hip.
Bob wanted so badly to lick into your mouth, to mix your spit. But he restrained himself upon feeling the slight jump below his waist.
The solid kiss made your tummy turn in a way you didn't think was possible. Something deeper took hold of you as you melted, once again, into the man in front of you. The heaving of your chest was still present, but now it was fueled by want rather than anxiety.
Pulling away slowly, your breathing was heavy. Your eyes searched his, trying to see what he was thinking. What would his reaction to your impulsivity be?
Before your question could be answered, you were being pulled by one of Bob's cousins, urging you to go line up for the bouquet toss.
Bob watched as you were ripped away from him. His hand came up to grab onto you, but his fingers slipped against the fabric of your dress. Your eyes widen, head whipping around to look at him. But just as quick, you broke your gaze.
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As soon as the door to the guest bedroom clicked shut, you immediately began apologizing.
"Bobby, I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me, and I'm so sorry. I wasn't thinking," you said, hands coming up to your face in an attempt to hide from him.
"Bee," Bob tried to cut in, but you could barely hear him over the sound of your racing heart and rambling words."
"I didn't mean to ruin this. Ruin this weekend and make you feel uncomfortable. Ruin what we have. Our friendship," you kept going, stomach now turning at the thought of losing Bob from your life.
"Bee," he started again, but still you weren't hearing a thing he said.
Your hands now rubbed nervously down your dress, like you were trying to wipe off what had happened earlier that night. "I'm gonna go take my stuff and sleep in the bathroom or something. You don't have to share a bed with me tonight. And if you want me to move out, I will. I'm sorry, I just, I don't know-"
"Bee!" Bob's voice startled you into silence. He stepped closer to you, reaching for your hands, trying to quell your nervous energy.
Bob's hand closed around your wrists. Your heart was beating out of your chest as you looked at your best friend.
"Tonight," he started, hand rubbing softly against yours. "What did the kiss mean?"
He took a deep breath as you just stared at him.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable," you said, feeling tears well up in your eyes.
"I'm not mad, and I'm not uncomfortable. I just," he took another deep breath before continuing. "I just want to know what it meant to you. Why you did it."
A tear slipped down your cheek at his soft-spoken words.
"I love you," you said quietly as more tears fell from your eyes. "I kissed you because I love you. Because I'm in love with you. I'm sorry, Bobby."
You felt your world crumbling around you. Years of friendship, laughter, and good memories all seemed to blur past you. Surely, when you got back to California, Bob would ask you to move out. The thought made you sick to your stomach.
Bob stared at you, silent. He felt like he was dreaming. All week, he had been trying to tell you how he felt. Been trying to get the words out. And here you were, saying everything he was thinking.
His hands quickly came up to your face, wiping the tears away. You couldn't look at him, eyes closed and body closing in on itself.
"Bee, will you open your eyes, please. I just want to talk to you," Bob pleaded. "I need to tell you something. Need you to look at me."
You shook your head, starting to feel like everything was all too much. Of course, he was still being sweet to you. After everything, after all of what you said and did. The thought made more tears come to your eyes.
"Please, please look at me," he asked again, thumbs now stroking your cheeks. Bob could see the internal debate you were having as your lips pushed deeper into a pout.
But after a few seconds, you opened your eyes. Blinking away the last bit of tears, you tried to look at the man in front of you.
As soon as your eyes met his, Bob smiled at you sweetly. "I love you. I'm sorry I didn't say it sooner. And I'm sorry about this week. I should've told you how I was feeling, but I thought everything would go okay. That we could just go back to being normal after all this."
Your shoulders relaxed with his admission, your mouth opening just a bit to look at Bob in awe.
"But we can't," you said, voice still small. It made Bob's heart ache thinking about all that you were feeling this week, knowing he was feeling the same way.
"No, I don't think we can." His eyes dropped to your lips for a split second. If you weren't watching him so closely, you would've missed it.
Something in your stomach turned at the thought of kissing him again. Your chest began to rise and fall much like it had earlier.
Still holding your face in his hands, Bob leaned in slowly. Slow enough to let you pull away if this was something you didn't want. Slow enough that seconds felt like minutes.
Finally, your lips met for the second time that night. Less rushed than before and softer. Your eyes flutter shut at the feeling.
The kiss was sweet. Bob's heart was racing out of his chest, having you like this. He was content letting your lips brush up against each other in a soft manner. But each time you kissed, he got hungrier. It wasn't until you let a soft sound slip past your lips and into his that he pressed into you harder.
Suddenly, Bob was walking you backwards into the bed. You felt one of his hands leave your face and come down to the small of your back, pressing you closer to him.
"This okay?" he asked breathlessly as you nodded, not trusting your voice.
With that, Bob got to work on the zipper at the back of your dress. He felt your hands in his hair, on his arms, pulling him in closer. Finally, the dress dropped and you let it fall to the floor.
Bob's eyes scanned your body. Wearing the prettiest set of black lace underwear and a matching bra, he felt his stomach turn. You were perfect.
Quickly, his hands were all over your body as you fell back with him on the bed. Feeling his hard length grind down on your barely clad heat had you biting down on your lip. Bob worked his mouth against your neck, looking for the spot that would make you moan against him. His licking and biting made your legs tighten around his waist, pulling him even closer if possible.
"Please, Bobby. Need you," you whispered. His head shot up to take you in. Your eyes were blinking quickly, like you were struggling to keep them open. Your mouth parted slightly, like you couldn't take deep enough breaths. Your hair splayed out around you, like you were an angel come down from heaven.
"Want me to touch you?" Bob asked as you whined, head nodding. "Gonna have to be quiet for me, okay? I wanna help you."
"Okay, I'll be good. Promise," you said, eyes searching his. Waiting for his movements to change. Waiting for him to help you feel good.
His hands moved from your hips down to your heat. Only one hand cupping it at first, while the other worked at the back of your bra. Pushing into your underwear, Bob's big hand began to feel you everywhere. His thumb quickly found your clit, and you thought you were seeing stars as he rubbed it softly.
You felt the tightness of your bra loosen, and Bob's other hand quickly moved to take it off you completely. Seconds after, his mouth came down to your pebbled nipple, swirling his tongue around it, sucking it into his mouth.
Your jaw dropped at the feeling. His kisses and ministrations made your hips jump up into his hand. "Need more, wanna feel your fingers," you said softly, trying to keep your promise to him.
Popping his lips from your tits, Bob looked at you with darkened eyes. "Being so good for me. I can feel you, so wet for me," he praised you, but still, his hand made no effort to move further into your heat.
Your brows furrowed at this, and you propped yourself up to look at the man lying above you. "Bobby, please," you whispered, kissing his cheek sweetly.
There was no way he could resist you when you asked so sweetly. His hand made its way towards your opening, stretching your underwear a bit. Bob played with you a bit more, and you whined into the pillow next to you.
"Sorry, honey," he whispered into your ear. "Just love your little pussy so much."
Your jaw dropped at his dirty words and at the feeling of two of his fingers stretching out your heat. They felt so thick, and Bob knew exactly what he was doing, moving them with expert precision. Pushing in slow and deep, reaching your spot almost immediately, your back arched off the bed into his touch.
Bob watched as you crumbled at his touch. It had to be a dream. The way your tits heaved up and down made him dizzy. Your face, now driven into the pillow next to you, silencing your noises, made his cock jump from beneath his trousers. You lying on the bed, almost completely naked, and he still fully dressed, made him bite down on his lip hard.
He was trying to take his time with you. Be gentle. Get to know your body. But every noise that escaped you and every look of longing you shot him made his resolve crumble. He could spend hours like this, with you at his disposal to play with. But sweat beaded down his forehead in restraint. Bob had to know what your tight pussy felt like around his cock.
A hand on his bicep pulled Bob from his thoughts. He felt your pussy clench up at his fingers, and he instantly moved his thumb back up to your clit. The reaction was immediate. Your body curling off the body and into him, Bob leaned into you, taking one of your tits into his mouth again, sucking harshly this time.
"Oh, fuck," you whispered as your orgasm ran through you. You never knew your orgasms could be so intense, but with Bob's constant attention to your body, you had never felt better.
Delicately, he pulled his fingers from your entrance and leaned down to kiss you sweetly.
"You're so beautiful," Bob said breathlessly. Then he brought his fingers up to his mouth, and you felt your pussy throb all over again at the sight of him licking your slick from his fingers. "Taste so good, too," he said, popping his fingers from his mouth. "Can I taste you?"
You nodded, but apparently, this wasn't enough for him anymore.
"Wanna hear you," Bob spoke softly. "Killing me, not being able to hear all your cute noises."
"Sorry," you said bashfully. "Yes, please."
"Don't gotta say sorry. Doing so good for me, my beautiful girl." Bob leaned in to kiss you again, making you feel his want and warmth as he licked into your mouth. His mouth traveled down your body, stopping to suck dark marks into your throat and all over your tits. But you didn't stop him, not really caring about how you would cover them up in the morning. His nips and licks were much more convincing than anything your brain told you.
Finally making his way down to your heat, Bob pushed your underwear to the side. Licking a broad stripe with his flat tongue, he tried to feel all of you. Your thighs worked to close around him, but his strong hands came up to grip them just hard enough to remind you of his strength, but not hard enough to hurt you. Continuing, he kissed all over your heat, much like he had just licked into your mouth. The movements made you dizzy.
Focusing on your clit, you felt one of his hands leave your thigh and dive into your heat again.
"Bobby," you whined. Quickly slapping a hand over your mouth, remembering what you had promised him. He looked up at you, chuckling a bit at your movements. But the vibrations against your heat only made you squirm and cry out more.
Removing his mouth from your heat, he kissed your thighs sweetly.
"Need me to help you, honey?" he asked, voice low and eyes dark as they looked at you.
"Mhm, please," you whispered, still moving your hips against his fingers.
He smiled at your movements. "So needy," he whispered more to himself than anything. "Didn't think you'd be that way."
Your tummy flipped at his admission. Even if he hadn't explicitly said it, just thinking about Bob touching himself to the thought of you made your pulse race like crazy.
Pulling your underwear away from your heat, Bob tossed them across the room. His hands now moved to your waist, picking you up effortlessly, flipping you on your tummy softly.
Your neck craned back, a puzzled look on your face. But he was already meeting you half way, coming up to kiss you again and ask a question.
"This okay, honey?" Bob asked, one hand coming to raise your hips. Another guided a pillow beneath them. Your stomach turned at the thought of what he was about to do.
"Yeah, it's okay," you whispered. He smiled at this, placing a sweet kiss on the crown of your head. But soon, his hand was pushing your head into the pillow, tucking your hair behind your ears, making sure you were comfortable. But still, his hand came down to guide you into the plush surface beneath you.
Not seeing Bob and only feeling him was something you never thought you would love. But the way his hands dragged down your body, fingers toying with your body, and firmly kneading your ass made your breathing sharp and shallow. Bob made his way down to your heat once more, licks more confident and sure now.
Sure enough, you whined into the pillow underneath you, pushing your hips back into Bob as he continued to work at your entrance. His tongue pushed in and out of you, sucking harshly. Hands spreading your ass, allowing him to kiss you better, get deeper.
It was quick for you to feel the familiar tug in your tummy return, ready to snap at any moment. Snaking a hand under your tummy and to your clit, Bob worked diligently to make you feel good, rubbing tight, small circles.
Your hand flew back, trying to grasp at anything you could. Your fingers found his golden locks, and you gripped them tightly as you came for the second time that night.
After a few last licks, Bob kissed up your back, letting his body sink into you a bit. It wasn't until his kisses reached your neck that you felt his hard length straining against your ass.
"So good, honey," he whispered, placing sweet kisses against your hair once more. "Gonna go get a towel to clean you up, okay?"
Soon, he moved to shift off the bed. But you shot up, grabbing his forearm.
"What's wrong?" Bob asked, concern evident on his face as he looked at you. He wondered if it had been too much. He had indulged a little bit, but he thought that you were feeling good. Or maybe he was pulling away too soon, maybe you wanted to cuddle a bit more before he got up. But what you said next made his heart jump.
"Wanna feel you. Do you not want to?" you spoke softly, forehead creasing in on itself.
Bob smiled at your question, coming back into your space, pressing his lips to yours. You smiled into the kiss, too. Something about them was so sweet and gentle, but so deep and longing at the same time.
"Course I do, just didn't want to push anything," he spoke, pulling away a bit. "And, I don't have anything here. I didn't bring any condoms," Bob whispered the last bit, like it was a secret.
"I'm clean and on birth control," you offered with a small smile that Bob swore would be the death of him.
"Me too," he said, immediately backtracking at the sound of your giggles. "I mean clean. No birth control."
Your smile grew wider at his words. Even when Bob didn't mean to, he made you laugh, always making you feel good.
"Can I see you? Think it's a little unfair you're still dressed," you teased him. Even with the faint glow of the moon and the soft bedside lamp, you were able to see the way Bob's ears turned pink.
Without a word, he began to unbutton his shirt. Scooching toward him on the bed, your hands made quick work of his belt, button, and zipper. Bob would've laughed at your eagerness if he weren't feeling the exact same way. Kicking off his pants and underwear and whipping the shirt off over his head, Bob stood before. Your tongue peeked out a bit at the sight of him.
His abs are sculpted and molded to perfection; you were able to gawk at them more openly now than a few nights ago. As your eyes traveled further, you saw his V-line, prominent and defined. And his length stood proud in front of you. Chills ran down your spine at the thought of taking all of him. You leaned down, falling on your elbows before him. Kissing his pink tip, your tongue began to kitten lick at his head.
Bob groaned audibly at the sight in front of him. Your ass up, mouth working against his length, and eyes looking up at him for approval. This wasn't real, surely. Any minute now, he would wake up in bed, spoiled underwear once again. But as you moved to take his length further in your mouth, Bob couldn't deny what he was feeling.
Knowing that if you sucked his length much longer, he wouldn't last, Bob softly grasped your head in his hands, moving you away from his length and instead onto the bed like you once were.
Lying back on the bed, you watched as Bob moved over your body. Settling on top of you, you found yourself face-to-face with him. Smiling at him, your eyes met, and you couldn't help but laugh a bit to yourself.
"What's got you so happy?" Bob asked, leaning down to kiss your neck as you let the giggles flow freely. He smiled at you, the kisses sweet rather than searing like they were before.
"I just love you," you whispered. Bob's head shot up, dopey grin now on his face.
"I love you," he whispered back. Leaning down to kiss you again, you thought about how you would never get used to this. Just a few hours ago, you were anxiety-ridden with thoughts of losing your best friend to a dumb mistake. Now, all your nerves were still on fire, but for a different reason. Bob's lips worked against yours until you felt your tummy flip again, and it seemed he felt the same way; one of his hands moved down to grip his length. Guiding himself to your heat, you felt Bob shudder in your embrace, but his lips never left yours.
Bob groaned against your lips as he pushed into you. Only a few inches at first, seeing the way your body would react to him. Your chest heaved, and your eyes screwed shut at the unfamiliar feeling. But your hands pawed at his chest and back, trying to bring him closer to you.
"Doing okay, honey? Feel good?" Bob asked, watching your face for any signs of discomfort.
You whinnied a little as you answered, "Feels good. So good. You're so big."
"You can take it, can't you, honey?" Bob asked, pushing a bit more into you as your jaw dropped at the feeling. He was now kissing up and down your throat again, unable to keep himself away from your soft, dewy skin for too long.
The man felt you pulsed around him. Your heat seemingly needing more from him. Before Bob could ask, you spoke in a breathless whisper.
"More, please. I can take it."
With that, he pushed into you fully. Balls settling against your ass, pelvis meeting yours. His arms came around under your back, bringing you tight into his embrace. Bob made sure to hold onto you, made sure he was taking care of you.
When he started moving, it was filthy. The sounds couldn't be masked as he moved in and out of your heat at a steady pace, deep enough to be hitting your spot in just the right way. Your bodies began to sweat and shine under the soft bedroom light.
You tried biting down on your lip, tried to not let the sounds escape you, but it was no use. The way that Bob moved above you drew out soft, airy noises. Bob saw that you struggled to control yourself and fully feel pleasure, so he took matters into his own hands.
Placing a large hand over your mouth, Bob met your eyes. They shot wide open at first, maybe a flicker of embarrassment, but soon they became droopy again as you focused more on his thrusts into you.
"It's okay, honey," he leaned down to talk near your ear. "Know it feels good. Just gonna help you a little."
You nodded at his words, clenching around his length again. Your moans were now muffled behind his big hand. The feeling of Bob asserting himself over you made you dizzy. You knew he was confident and could take charge if need be, but this was something else. Bob worked with precision, seemingly adjusting to your every move. It wasn't long until his other hand left its spot on your hip and made its way down to your heat once more, circling your clit in what you now learned was your favorite way. His big thumb moved in tandem with his thrusts, and you opened your eyes to look at the man above you.
Bob, seeing the way your eyes glossed over, kissed your lips, briefly moving his hand before placing it back and speaking, "It's okay, I got you. Wanna feel you cum around me."
With that, the knot in your tummy unraveled. Shaking against Bob, you pushed your body as close to his as possible. Still working into you, Bob felt the way you squeezed his length and couldn't hold back anymore, coming to his high with you.
Slowly, Bob moved his hand from your mouth and instead stroked your hair, placing a kiss on your hairline. You smiled at his actions, despite being exhausted from your rigorous activities.
"I love you," Bob told you. He watched as you relaxed against the bed, shifting slightly to hold you better.
"I love you, Bobby. Thank you for inviting me this week," you said sweetly, sharing another kiss with him as he was still nestled inside you, neither of you moving to get up just yet.
He smiled at your words. Thinking back to this week and all that had happened, Bob was grateful you were by his side. From his rambunctious family to the quietness of rural Montana, you fit in perfectly. Bob couldn't wait to bring you back, properly this time.
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Like always, you and Bob went along with the squad's outstanding Saturday night plans at the Hard Deck, not caring that you had just gotten back to California a few hours prior. Jake grinned at the sight of you walking into the Hard Deck, hand in hand with Bob. He watched as Bob carefully guided you through the crowd of people, delicately holding onto your waist and shielding you from the rowdy patrons.
"Well, well, well," Jake teased as soon as you had both made your way over to the pool table full of aviators. "Looks like my plan worked."
Bob's brows furrowed at this, immediately looking to you.
"No way, Bagman, you aren't getting the credit for this," Phoenix chimed in, abandoning the game of pool.
Now it was your turn to look at Bob with confusion on your face.
"I was the one who sold Bee about the parents thing," Jake argued. You felt your face flush at his admission of your white lie.
"Well, I was the one hyping Bob up for weeks about getting her to come," Phoenix fought back. Bob closed his eyes, not thinking he could survive the look of amusement on your face.
Suddenly, both of your pilots turned to you.
"So who did it?" Phoenix asked. Both you and Bob looked at each other, puzzled.
"Oh come on," Jake said exasperatedly. "You know what were talking about. Who made the first move?"
The squad was silent, watching both you and Bob under a microscope, it seemed. A slight tilt of Bob's head in your direction made Jake cry out triumphantly, pumping his fists into the air.
"I knew it! I knew it! Suck it, Phoenix," Jake whooped as onlookers watched with amusement at his antics.
"Knew it?" Bob asked, almost scared for the answer.
Jake grinned at the both of you. "Yup!" he said, popping the ending syllable in a way that made Nat's eye roll even farther back into her head. "I knew Bee would make the first move. She's gutsy! No offense, Baby on Board."
"Jake," you chastised, but knew the nickname was all in good fun now.
"Where's my twenty dollars? My wallet seems to be missing something," Jake faux-questioned, turning his attention to Phoenix.
Digging into her back pocket and sifting through her wallet, she slapped a crisp twenty-dollar bill into Jake's outstretched hand with a groan. Jake almost giggled in delight, a sound you had only heard come out of him once or twice.
"I just want to say," he started, raising his glass to the group, "that I, Jake Seresin, best pilot among us, was instrumental in ending our suffering. That is, watching these two dance around each other forever like little lovesick puppies."
The group groaned at his statement, but raised their drinks nonetheless. You giggled into Bob's shoulder, and he smiled widely at the sound. His eyes found yours and saw a playful look on your face. Before he knew it, you leaned into his space, pressing your lips to his.
The group watched as he melted into your touch, half-cheering and half-whistling.
Pulling away slightly, you smiled at the man next to you. Bob's cheeks were now dusted with pink, but he still wrapped a hand around your waist, bringing you close into his hold.
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Summary: You swore youâd never give him the satisfaction. Sonny swore youâd never last a season. Somehow youâre both still here, circling the same track, circling each other, too stubborn to admit where the heatâs really coming from.
Warnings: SMUT 18+, enemies to lovers, yelling as foreplay, hate sex (capital H), size difference, strength kink oops, manhandling, dirty talk but meaner, age gap, unresolved sexual tension combusting, protective older man activated aftercareâ˘, pining but make it violent, feelings?? maybe?? not tonight.
A/N: ok, this was a request I fell in love with, so I hope it is up to par. I could have written thousands of words of actual smut, but the pre-smut/buildup was so much hotter for some reason, so there's a lot of that, lol.
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WC: 3.5k
The garage still smells like hot brakes and burnt rubber when you climb out of the car. Your gloves are half stripped off before your feet even hit the concrete, and the second your helmetâs off, the heat of the paddock feels like nothing compared to the fire already crawling up your spine.
You donât have to look for him, because Sonnyâs already there, leaning against the wall like he owns the damn place. Sweat darkens the collar of his fire suit and his blond hair is plastered damp across his forehead. Heâs not even bothering to hide the smirk pulling at his mouth.
âYou nearly put me in the wall out there,â you snap, shoving your gloves into the hands of a waiting mechanic.
âYou cut across my line first.â His voice is maddeningly calm, that gravelly edge somehow making it worse. âYou left me nowhere to go.â
You scoff. âYou had room. You just didnât have the balls to take it.â
The smirk twitches into something sharper. He pushes off the wall and takes a few steps closer, casual as anything, though his eyes are hard. âIâve been doing this for decades, sweetheart. Maybe try finishing a race without tripping over your own ego before you give me advice.â
Your laugh comes out harsh. âSweetheart? Thatâs rich. Youâre the one who canât handle a little competition without crying about it.â
A couple of engineers glance up from the telemetry screens, sensing the storm but wisely keeping their heads down.
Sonnyâs close enough now that you can catch the salt of his sweat, the burnt tang of fuel still clinging to him. He doesnât lower his voice when he says, âYouâre reckless. And if you keep driving like that, youâre gonna take us both out.â
âMaybe I just donât drive scared,â you shoot back, chin tilting up. âBut hey, if it rattled you that bad, maybe itâs time to hang it up and let the younger ones handle it.â
For a second, his jaw works, like heâs holding back exactly what he wants to say. Then, quieter, tighter,
âYou have no idea what youâre talking about.â
The hotel room is too quiet after the chaos of the day. Youâre stretched out on the bed, TV flickering low just for some background noise. Your phone has been buzzing nonstop for hours. You know why, your post-race interviews have been circulating since this morning.
"Heâs quick, but heâs reckless. You canât always count on a guy like that when it matters."
You hadnât thought much of it when you said it, just the heat of the moment, mic shoved in your face, adrenaline still burning a hole in your chest. But you know damn well how it sounds on replay.
Which is why youâre not surprised when a knock rattles your door at 1 a.m. Sharp. Insistent.
You drag yourself up, bare feet on the carpet, and glance through the peephole. Blond hair, broad shoulders, a scowl that could crack concrete.
Of course.
You open the door just enough to lean against the frame. âIf this is a wellness check, youâre late.â
Sonny doesnât take the bait. He pushes past you like he has every right, the smell of cigarette smoke and hotel bar whiskey clinging to him. âWhat the hell was that?â
You shut the door with a sigh. âBe more specific.â
His voice rises. ââCanât count on a guy like thatâ? You think youâre the one people can count on?â He turns on you, eyes blazing. âYouâve been here five minutes and youâre already running your mouth like youâve got this all figured out.â
You cross your arms, refusing to back up even as he stalks closer. âI just told the truth. Sorry if that hurts your feelings.â
âFeelings?â He laughs, short and mean, running a hand through his sweat-damp hair. âYou think I give a damn about feelings? Youâre dragging me in front of the press like this is high school drama.â
âYou nearly put me in the wall today, Sonny.â Your voice cuts sharply through the air. âIâm not gonna smile pretty and pretend it didnât happen just because youâre some legend with a name that still sells merch.â
His jaw tightens.
He doesnât back down, though; he never does. He takes a step closer, and then another, until you can feel the heat rolling off him, your chin tipping up to meet his eyes. âYou donât get it. You never will.â
Your laugh comes out harsh. âNo, I get it. I get that youâre terrified of anyone younger, faster, hungrier than you. Thatâs why you keep circling me like a guard dog."
"Really?" He smirks.
"Yeah, really. Because you know your timeâs almost up.â
That lands. His eyes flash, and for the first time tonight, the smirk drops. âCareful,â he warns, voice low, dangerous.
âOr what?â you snap, stepping into him instead of away. âYouâll glower me into silence?â
The air between you feels electric, like standing too close to a live wire. Heâs so close you can feel the brush of his breath, the subtle tremor in his chest with every sharp inhale. His eyes flick down, just once, to your mouth, so quick you almost doubt you saw it. Almost.
Your pulse hammers. You force your voice steady. âYou should go.â
âNot until you get it through your head,â he says, voice dropping an octave. âYou donât get to fuck with me out there, and you sure as hell donât get to fuck with me off track.â
âYou donât own me, Sonny. You donât own the track, you donât own this team, and you donât get to tell me what I can say.â
He barks a laugh, sharp and ugly. âYou really think anyone gives a damn what you say? Youâre here because they needed someone to fill a seat. Donât confuse that with being irreplaceable.â
The words slice deep, sharper than you want him to see. So you shove him, hard, palms flat against his chest. He rocks back a step, but only for a second before heâs right there again.
âFuck you,â you spit.
His hand slams the wall beside your head as he cages you in. His face is flushed, furious, and far too close. âSay that again.â
Your chest heaves against his, breaths colliding, every nerve stretched tight. âFuck. You.â
The moment hangs, a couple seconds of sheer, vibrating tension, the kind that feels like it has nowhere to go.
Then something in him breaks.
One second itâs pure rage crackling between you, the next his mouth is on yours, crashing down in a kiss thatâs more like a fight. Teeth, heat, the taste of whiskey and adrenaline.
You donât hesitate. You bite back, your hand fisting in the front of his undershirt like youâre trying to tear it off him. His growl rumbles against your lips, rough and dangerous, and the sound makes you shiver despite yourself.
You wrench back just enough to glare up at him, lips swollen, breath ragged. âYouâre such an asshole.â
His thumb brushes your jaw, holding you in place. His grin is sharp, dangerous. âAnd you still want me.â
Before you can throw another insult, his mouth is on yours again, hungrier this time, teeth dragging against your bottom lip.
He doesnât give you space to think. The moment you push back against him, he uses it. Big hands lock on your hips, dragging you clean off the wall like you weigh nothing, steering you backwards through the dim hotel room.
âWhere the hell do you think youâre-â you start, but your words cut off in a gasp when your spine knocks into the edge of the dresser. The wood rattles under the impact.
He cages you in without hesitation, one arm braced firm beside your head, the other hand sliding down your side, deliberate and unhurried, like heâs testing just how easily he can pin every inch of you.
You glare up at him, jaw tight, even as your pulse skips. âYou think throwing me around makes you right?â
His smirk curves slow, infuriating. He leans closer, letting the weight of his chest crowd you until your shoulders press harder against the wood. âDoesnât make me wrong.â
The hand at your hip tightens, dragging you forward against him. His size swallows yours whole, thighs bracketing yours, chest broad enough to eclipse your view, heat radiating off his skin. You push at him out of sheer defiance, but itâs like shoving against a wall.
He doesnât even budge.
âYou donât get it, do you?â His voice dips low, the gravel in it rough against your ear. âIâve been fucking longer than youâve been alive. You really think you can put me on the back foot?â
You tilt your chin up, refusing to break eye contact even with your breath caught in your throat. âIâm not scared of you.â
That earns a laugh, low and mean, vibrating through his chest where it brushes yours. He deliberately shifts his weight forward, pinning you harder against the dresser, his thigh nudging between your legs until you canât ignore how much space he takes up.
âYou should be.â
He trails his fingers from your hip to your wrist, catching it mid-swing when you try to shove him again. With practised ease, he presses your hand above your head and holds it there, his grip firm but controlled. The message is clear, he doesnât need both hands to keep you where he wants you.
âYouâre all fight until someone calls your bluff,â he murmurs, eyes narrowing. âBut I can read you easier than you think. You canât hide it.â
You twist under his hold, your free hand bunching in his undershirt in a useless attempt to lever him back.
âYouâre full of shit.â
His grin sharpens. He lets you struggle a moment longer, lets you feel just how little your resistance matters, before ducking his head to press his mouth to the side of your jaw. Hot, deliberate, a scrape of teeth that makes your knees weaken despite yourself.
âKeep telling yourself that,â he mutters against your skin. âIâll still have you pinned every time.â
âGod, youâre insufferable.â
âYeah? Funny, youâre the one shaking.â
You scoff, even though heâs right.
His grin sharpens. In a blink, heâs hauling you away from the dresser and onto the bed, a hand flat against your stomach to press you down into the mattress. The air leaves your lungs at the force of it.
âYou weigh nothing,â he mutters, almost to himself, like heâs annoyed at how easily you move under his hands.
âYouâre such a caveman,â you hiss, squirming, though the heat pooling low in your stomach betrays you.
He leans down until his mouth is at your ear. âAnd you love it.â
You kick at him in defiance, catching his thigh, but he only laughs, low and gravelly. When you writhe again, his hand fists in the fabric of your top. You open your mouth to snap at him.
And then he tears.
The rip is loud in the quiet room, fabric splitting down the middle like paper. You gasp, half outrage, half something else entirely.
âAre you serious?â you snap, shoving at him again.
He drops the shredded fabric onto the floor like itâs nothing, eyes dark as they rake over you. âShouldnât get in fights you canât win.â
His body presses heavier into yours, his hand spreading wide at your hip, fingers digging in like he could hold you there forever.
Your voice comes ragged against his mouth. âYouâre not even good at this. Youâre just-â His palm slides up your bare side, thumb brushing under your bra, and you choke on your next insult.
âJust what?â he asks, grinning against your lips. âGo on.â
You bite down on his bottom lip hard enough to make him groan.
âJust an arrogant asshole who thinks brute force counts as skill.â
He growls low in his throat, and in the next instant youâre flipped onto your stomach, his weight pressing you into the mattress. His hand fists in your hair, yanking your head back just enough so his mouth can brush your ear.
âStill talking,â he murmurs, gravel rough. âGuess Iâll have to shut you up another way.â
You twist under him anyway, forcing yourself onto your back.
âGo on then.â
Thatâs all it takes. His mouth crashes against yours again, brutal and hungry, like heâs trying to consume every last insult youâve ever thrown at him. Your hands claw at his undershirt, tugging until he helps rip it over his head, tossing it aside without looking. His body is solid heat and muscle; you feel every inch of that size difference, every ounce of strength.
You shove at him out of sheer stubbornness, even though he doesnât budge. âGod, youâre heavy.â
He smiles against your neck, teeth grazing skin. âGood. Means youâll stay where I put you.â
Your bra joins the ruined shirt on the floor in seconds, his rough fingers making quick work of the clasp. He palms your breast hard, like heâs testing how much you can take, and when you arch into it with a bitten-back moan, his laugh is low and pleased. âKnew it. You love this.â
âGo to hell,â you gasp, even as your nails dig into his shoulders, pulling him closer.
His mouth trails lower, hot, open-mouthed kisses down your chest, tongue flicking until youâre arching helplessly under him. You curse him again, weaker this time, and he chuckles against your skin.
By the time he shoves your shorts and underwear down in one rough motion, youâre already trembling with how much you want him. He catches the way your thighs press together, smirks, and spreads them apart with both hands, easy as parting curtains.
âStill gonna tell me you donât want this?â
You glare at him, but your voice betrays you with the catch in it. âYouâre so difficult.â
He drags two fingers down your centre, slow, deliberate, making you gasp. âYeah? But youâre soaking for me anyway.â
Your answer is a broken sound that turns into a sharp intake when he pushes inside without warning, his thumb finding your clit instantly. The rhythm is merciless, fingers curling deep until youâre clenching around him, unable to hold back the moans spilling from your mouth.
âLouder than you were on the radio today,â he mutters, eyes fixed on your face. âFinally admitting Iâve got you beat.â
âNot-â you bite your lip, trying to hold the words together as your body bucks against his hand. âNot a chance.â
His laugh is dark. He pulls out his fingers and replaces them with his cock in one rough thrust, stretching you so suddenly your nails claw the sheets. He swallows your cry with another kiss, his pace brutal from the start, fucking into you like heâs trying to prove a point.
Every push drives you deeper into the mattress, your body no match for his. He pins your wrists above your head with one hand, the other gripping your thigh to spread you wider. âLook at you,â he growls, pounding into you harder. âAll mouth until I get you like this.â
Your head tips back, hair sticking to sweaty skin, breathless curses spilling between gasps. âFuck, youâre- god, youâre so-â
He smirks, chest slick against yours. âBig? Yeah. Thatâs the point.â
You try to bite back another retort, but he shifts his angle just right, and your voice breaks on a cry. The smug look on his face tells you he felt it.
âYouâre close,â he says, low and sure, like he owns it. âAdmit it.â
You shake your head, but the rhythm of his thrusts makes a liar out of you, every nerve screaming as the coil tightens. Your bratty protest dies in your throat, replaced with a moan that tears through you as you come hard, clenching around him.
He doesnât stop, doesnât even slow down. His pace grows rougher, chasing his own release, and youâre still shaking when he groans against your neck, hips snapping deep one last time before he comes undone inside you.
The silence after is loud. The air feels heavy with sweat and sex, your heartbeat still drumming in your ears as you shove weakly at his chest again.
âGet off me,â you mutter, breathless, even though your arms are jelly and your legs are still trembling.
He doesnât budge, just shifts enough to look down at you, his hair sticking to his forehead, chest still heaving. âWhy? You planning to kick me out already?â
âYes.â You glare at him, even though your lips are swollen from his kisses and your voice cracks halfway through the word. âThis was a mistake.â
He huffs a laugh, low and smug. âYou keep saying that like you didnât just come so hard you almost bit my shoulder off.â
Heat rises in your face, but you scowl harder, trying to cover it. âDonât flatter yourself. That was just-â
He cuts you off with a raised eyebrow, then shifts his weight enough to slide out of you, slow, deliberate. You gasp at the sensitivity, at how wrecked your body feels, and he notices it instantly, the way your hips jerk, the way your thighs clamp tight.
His smirk softens into something else. âYeah. Thatâs what I thought.â
You try to sit up, but your body gives out halfway, and you flop back onto the sheets with a frustrated groan. âFuck off.â
Instead of gloating, he leans over the side of the bed, grabs one of the discarded towels, and presses it gently between your thighs. His touch is steady, efficient, and it makes you squirm for an entirely different reason.
âI can do it myself,â you snap, reaching for the towel.
âSure you can.â He doesnât let go. His eyes flick to yours, calm and unyielding, and for once thereâs no teasing in his tone. âBut youâre shaking so hard you can barely sit up. Relax.â
The command is so firm, so matter-of-fact, that you actually freeze. For the first time all night, he isnât smirking, isnât trying to win. Heâs justâŚtaking care of you, like itâs the most obvious thing in the world.
Your throat tightens, and you hate that it does. âI donât need you looking after me.â
He wipes you clean anyway, ignoring your half-hearted squirming. âDidnât ask if you needed it. Youâre getting it.â
You turn your face away, jaw clenched, but the sting in your eyes betrays you. You donât want him to see how wrung out you feel, how much it means that heâs not bolting for the door.
He tosses the towel aside and shifts back onto the bed, stretching out beside you. His arm comes over your waist like it belongs there, heavy and grounding.
âWhat the hell are you doing?â you demand, even though your voice wobbles.
âStaying.â
âYouâre not- â You push weakly at his chest, but he catches your wrist easily, pinning it against his side with one big hand.
âYeah, I am.â His voice is quiet but firm, that gravelly certainty impossible to argue with. âYou can go back to hating me in the morning. Tonight, Iâm not leaving.â
You bite your lip, torn between shoving him harder and just collapsing into the warmth of his body. Exhaustion wins. Your arm drops back against his chest, and you mutter, âYouâre such an arrogant prick.â
âMm,â he hums, clearly unbothered. âAnd youâre impossible. Weâll sort it out tomorrow.â
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