At the very end, we were nothing but ghosts: pale silhouettes painted in violence.
The blog is mostly dedicated to the appreciation of Rolan BG3 ยฏ\_(แตโแดโ)_/ยฏ. Gifs and writing. And Nimriel, of course, my drow OC you see plastered all over here :3 I also love wallowing in my misery from time to time, so, be warned! (,ิพ_ิพ,)
โฅ All my gifs and pictures -> #wasteful sam stuff
โฅ All my writing -> #wasteful sam fic
โฅ Modded Rolans (aka Rolanverse): -> #Cambion Rolan, #Rolan the Miresworn, #Flower Knight Rolan, #Master Rolan (featuring @alrendriablaze amazing smutfic based on him :3)
โฅ All Nimriel-related -> #OC: Nimriel
โฅ Nimriel x Rolan -> #Thunder Valkyrie (I will expand it one day, I swear)
โฅ How I recreate Rolan, Zevlor, and Dammon in BG3
โฅ Nimriel masterpost - main information about my OC
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โฅ Want to request a gif/fic? Via comments or asks, and I will try mah best
โฅ Worthy - my main ongoing long fic (3rd person, multiple POVs). Rolan/female drow Tav named Nimriel + developing Dammon/Karlach relationships and some other winks at potential ships.
It's a slow-burn story with mutual pining, angst, and eventual smut. It covers the events of all three acts, mostly from Rolan's point of view, and expands on his character, giving him more agency. The same goes for some companions/minor characters.
The story can be found on AO3 or, if you prefer reading on Tumblr under the #the Worthy fic.
Wordcount: 76k+, ongoing
โฅ Blades and hearts laid bare [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan x Nimriel, rough sex, cunnilingus, Rolan is confident and dominant AF, ass slapping (a lot), dirty talk).
After a close call in battle, Rolan and Nimriel have to confront the insatiable lust they have for each other. The lovers go through a full circle of emotions: anger, regret, passion, and devotion. Hiding feelings in plain sight, they succumb to each other, knowing that tomorrow may never come.
This fic is a part of the โWorthyโ cannon, but can be read separately :3 Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 5,8k, finished
โฅ That day, I died with him - horror (1st and 3rd person, Rolan's POW, body horror, psychological horror, blood and violence, angst, major character death).
The fic starts with the entry of Rolan's diary, where he recounts how he killed Lorroakan. The notes quickly reveal that Rolan struggles with piled-up mental issues caused by the events of the past and rapidly approaches the breaking point.
The fic is an entry to the Miresworn AU - a longfic I am slowly starting to work on. I have been consumed by the idea of writing a dark Rolan fic for a while now. A universe where Cal and Lia die in Shadow-Cursed Lands, and Rolan looks for ways to resurrect them. In his pursuit, he begins using Thay's Necromancy. As it slowly corrupts him, Rolan loses his grasp on reality and allies with Ascended Astarion to control Baldurโs Gate from the shadows and have full access to all its resources. The snippet of the story youโve read takes place two years after the final battle.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 1,3k, finished, a part of the ongoing series.
โฅ Only the moon bore witness to his yearning [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan's POV in chapter 1, double POVs in subsequent chapters).
Overtaken by his desperate longing for Tav, Rolan has no choice but to pleasure himself, letting his desires take complete control. In the following chapter, the dumbass gets caught by Tav, and the porn scenario ensues. โ(๏ธถโฝ๏ธถ)โ ย Chapter 3 - soon, hopefully. ๐ฅด
Read on AO3 or Tumblr: ch. 1, ch. 2
Wordcount: 4k+, ongoing
โฅ Be as greedy as you want [18+] - smut. It is the reimagining of the "Don't be greedy" cutscene if BG3 was a full-on porn game T_T.
Basically, Rolan/f!Tav, shameless smut, 99% porn/1% plot, spontaneous drunk sex, groping, taunting, not-so-dirty dirty talk, confident Rolan gets what he fucking deserves, and all the good stuff. ๐
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 2,4k, finished
โฅ The Master and his glove [18+] - short smut about Master Rolan. What can I say, I love writing Rolan masturbation scenes. (ยฌ_ยฌโ) But here's a twist: he does it with his leather glove. (๊ชโฟ๊ช)
Solo masturbation, a short and sweet fic. :3
Read on Tumblr
Wordcount: 720, finished
โฅ Masks left behind - short, pure romance (??? inconceivable!). Rolan/f!Tav, post-canon, romantic fluff, double POV.
Two years have passed after the final battle for Baldur's Gate, and the new Master of Ramazith's Tower is invited to the Moonlight Masquerade celebration. At first glance, it seems that Rolan now has it all, earning the respect he deserves among the citizens and a peaceful life with his siblings. But tonight, a chance meeting makes him dare to dream beyond that. He yearns to give his heart to the woman he secretly adored all these years.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 3,191, finished
โฅ A debt paid in lust [18+] - smut (3rd person, double POV). It is a shameless hatefucking. Rolan/female tiefling DU Vexis.
A short, one-chapter story. A quickie, one might say, to clench the urges. (เนหฬตแดหฬต)ู My first smut ever, so, yeah...
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Don't you want US to last for eternity? Until the whole world dies and rots?
Thank you so much for the tags, @rdekarios (post here) @doomedlamb (post here) @deianestormborn (post here) <333333. I feel like more people tagged me, but I can't find more mentions, so if I missed you - letme know T_T
Ok, about the photos: Nim would be horrible in this scenario, because it's finally a perfect recipe to keep those she loves around her forever, 24/7. But it is all a fairytale, I promise. You know Nim, she wouldnโt even hurt a fly :3 *psycho-stares at you through the screen*.
Ok, not sure who hasnโt done this yet, tagging those whose vamps I havenโt seen yet :3
No-pressure tags: @cursed-nyxan @bhaal-battle-beer-bard @the-shadowfell-darkroom @optimisticgrey @purpleasters-inseptember @litsenn @starlit-serpent @victoria-strangelove @valannamizarym @elandra-beltharys @onlytavs @thecampjuicebox @tealfling @vakariansyndrome @scoldingdarjeeling @theya-art @burnt-by-marigolds @mercymaker @knightofbhaal @perpetualmaladaptivedaydream and anyone who wants to join :3
...or more like "Oh well, I fell asleep and almost forgot to share this", today with our special guest, Shadowheart! Both of them deserve all the kisses ๐
Tagged by the lovely @deianestormborn and @lucretiouswept, and no-pressure tagging in return @perpetualmaladaptivedaydream, @ann-bg3-lol, @wasteful-sam, @cursed-nyxan, @optimisticgrey, @selunitejeanne, @riddlerosehearts, @zigloo
She stands in the shadows โ moonlight just catching the curves of her pale skin, her blood red eyes โ and she waits.
There are footsteps, swift and heavy against the cobblestones.
The scent of blood, sandalwood and magic drifting to her on the breeze, and she salivates with anticipation.
He rounds the corner, coming into sharp focus. He's muttering to himself, brows furrowed in contemplation. Dark hair. Neatly trimmed beard. Eyes which sparkle with intelligence, and clothes suggesting he is wealthy.
She shouldn't touch him. There are always too many questions when the wealthy go missing.
But hells, as as the moonlight hits him, she cannot help but notice the artery thumping against the column of his neck.
She imagines her lips against that spot. His flesh splitting between her teeth, the taste of copper and salt flooding her mouth.
"She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now, I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do when she makes me sad"
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I think overall, my favorite little worldbuilding detail from the Lady Penitent is that it canonically says some Drow use "dark spectacles" to protect their eyes from the harsh surface world light.
DROW SUNGLASSES ARE CANON Y'ALL. THERE'S NEVER BEEN A BETTER TIME TO GIVE YOUR DROW OC A PAIR OF SHADES!
I can finally share some of my work for the Baldur's Eyes - A BG3 Virtual Photography & Modding Zine! My theme that I ended up going with was Luck and Misfortune, where I had my Tymoran and Bashaba clerics duke it out at the poker table~ Lots of symbolism went into this and I'm so proud of how it came out. Hope you like it!
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^^Ship Head-Canon Questions for Saulus & Keith: ๐โ๏ธ๐ซ
Thank you so much for these, my most beloved tea ๐๐ต๐
๐ And as always I consult @cursed-nyxan to correct me if I put words into her son's mouthโor into his loreโthat aren't quite in character, or to add something that broadens my own horizons; after all, Keith loves saying the exact opposite of what heโs actually thinking and feeling when it comes to Saulus ๐ He calls it "cool and charming," though anyone else would surely call it stupid.
๐ How did they both realize โoh wait, this is actually loveโ?
Oh well, because nyxie and bhaalie said so ๐ Well maybe it was literally like this:
โI have a new silly, cute Tav.โ
โAwww, he loves and animals and saved the hyena ๐๐ฅน๐ Saulus always saves the hyena as well - with that he is her certified friend now! ๐โ
โMaybe they can go on walk together some day ๐โ
I say it is nyxieโs fault for making this go walking the โdogsโ pics very romantic indeed for two friends ๐ So why not?! Why not ship it ๐ข ?! ๐ Bilbo style!
In loreโฆhow even with these fools?
Keith not even realising Saulus was flirting with him, because he is a sheepish cinnamon roll with no clue. Himbo wizard.
And even if, too shy to make something out of it or failing because playing it cool.
Saulus going from ๐๐๐๐๐ suddenly to ๐ง๐ฒ๐จ๐ฑ๐ฐ having a โOh ohโ moment, when realizing her eyes following him constantly, soft expression and her lips smiling without her knowledge, looking at his hair. Dreaming about touching it, dreaming about being near him, without letting this thought slip her mind in any form of words. But her thoughts, like her eyes on him - her body seeking his company, an excuse to be near. Laughing about his jokes a little too loud, feeling warm and right every time they drag another fur baby to camp. Playing pet parents, everyone else shaking their heads, but not the other. Never the other.
Feeling happy he chooses her company over others and bad at the same time doing so. To dare to desire, to have consistency. The shared laughs, shenanigans, risky and silly adventures.
โOh ohโ, her heart drops a beat realizing this is actually love and very much out of her control and by no means harmless flirting anymoreโฆprobably right from the start.
Good they have Keithโs hyena adoptive son Freckles, bringing them the perfect 101 disney moment, so that even those panicking fools make the first move ๐๐
๐๐ชข๐
Tie the bonds and locking the eyes forever ๐
โ๏ธ If one of them had to leave forever, what would they leave behind for the other?
Gruesome ask.
Nyxie had the headcanon that Keith once leaves to clear his head about all the Bhaal problematic - after the not fun Shibari night ๐
But Saulus thought he left for no good and was already in crying, panic heartbreaking mode, when he just stood back in camp and made it clear to her that she could have realized he was only gone for a short while โ after all, he did leave Freckles with her.
โAnd if I ever do leave for good, Iโm taking the kids with me ๐๐โ
โNot funny!โ
And speaking of that even if not fitting for the ask โ pets/children are always a sign, a pledge that they will return to the other person.
Butโฆ I don't know where this "leaving forever" leads. And because Saulus is a Bhaalspawn, I can't help but think of death โ or perhaps a fateโฆ even worse than death.
So, sheโฆ she would leave her adopted son the owlbear cub Hootsie with Keith, knowing heโs the right family for him, and that heโll take good care of him and love him, despite some biting traumas Hootsie inflicted upon Keith ๐
If there were ever other reasons for her to leave forever โ whatever those might be โ she would likely break off her own left horn and leave it with him, should it still hold any meaning for him.
๐ซ Ten years from now, what random Tuesday are they spending together?
Easy: Beating kids at the water slides in the water park for the fastest slide record and all the games at the circus - after they had cared for all the animals at their ranch and animal rescue shelter, with Keith as her trophy husband, of course.
โLetโs try this/I bet we canโฆโ leads to one of them or both of them falling down a wall or worse in the course of the day. They might have to go to the cleric if stupidity doesn't save them from harm (or if Saulus remembers that, as a bard, sheโs actually quite good at casting spells).
At the end of the day, of course, brother Roy has to be teased a bit โ given how much they rib each other and play pranks.
If things go well, the Flaming Fist won't arrest them for their completely innocent mischief โ simply because Fists don't know the meaning of joy in their livesโฆor can no longer stand hearing their rants about animal protests and no dogs rule in the park (it was never a dog they brought, always something bigger).
Thank you again for let me ramble about them ๐
VP of course as always by @cursed-nyxan as I cannot immortalize them ๐ and it makes me happy everytime and my day, I see their faces in such wonderful picture
Their first meeting was iconic and so beautifully written!! You really got to check it out, one of the most wonderful season writings and character emotional development I've read!.
For the WIP monday, I have a totally new project to share!!! I began this projects so much long time ago but I ready to share the beginning of this project.
And thank you so much @burnt-by-marigolds for the tag!! I hope I didn't forgot someone.
CAEDUS CUSTOM DOLL
Welcome to the first part of a series of WIP for the creation of a custom doll of my beloved Durge: Caedus. I love so much the poisoner's robe so I decided to create Caedus as the red sorcerer doll.
The size of the of the doll will be 1/6, it's the size of Barbie doll. For the doll, I used an articulate ken.
Some of material are second hand materials, it's so important for me to use second hand materials: Ken used for Caedus, some fabrics for exemple.
disclaimer: I'm not a professionnal sewer, I'm just passionate to create doll.
PART 1: the creation of the under burgundy robe.
The creation of the pattern:
When I create a pattern, I use a heavy tape to draw and cut out the pattern. I redraw the pattern on a special pattern paper and after I sew a tunic draft to see if the pattern is right or not.
I'm no photo of the under robe pattern with the tape, I used over robe pattern
The creation of the under robe
For the tunic I used a heavy burgundy fabric. the result will be better with an heavy fabric.
The sleeves and the under sleeve. For this the under sleeves, I used a second hand fabric, it was an old shirt of me, the color of this fabric is darker, it was so perfect for the under sleeve.
After I add the white band and sew the skeeve on the tunic.
I need to add a little button to attach the tunic.
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You already know thay when I saw this I had Q's for SaulusโกKieth.
๐ Whoโs the little spoon & who pretends they hate it but secretly loves it?
๐ Who is bolder in public (hand-holding, kisses, etc.)?
๐ค Who apologizes first after a fight, even if they werenโt wrong?
๐ Who kisses the other first thing in the morning, morning breath & all?
@cursed-nyxan we got another Keilus ask ๐๐๐คฉ๐คฉ๐๐ !!!!! This is no drill!!! As always I need you for my assistance, correction and additions.
And what I know for sure, you are the sweet spoon, skee ๐๐ญ๐ with your cutest asks, thank you so so so much ๐ Makes me happy!
๐ Whoโs the little spoon & who pretends they hate it but secretly loves it?
Look at Keith that big man child is literally a big spoon BUT Saulus loves to play his little backpack, koala style as nyxie said ๐ So they switch ๐
We also agree that they love sleeping on top of each other - specifically, right on each other's chests ๐๐๐ด๐๐ - especially when they just drift off to sleep after the exhaustion and satisfaction kick in ๐ This leads to tell-tale ridge marks on their faces ๐คฃ, making it obvious to everyone in the camp who slept on whom the next day - best HC by nyxie.
On Saulus's behalf, Iโd like to mention that Keith shows no mercy when sleeping on her or doing other mischief; he pays no mind to the massive difference in their size and weight - heโs like a giant Great Dane that thinks it can still play with tiny puppies or kittens and act just like them ๐๐คฃ๐ - innocent cinnamon roll Saulus' crushed ass!
๐ Who is bolder in public (hand-holding, kisses, etc.)?
S A U L U S
No question at all.
He gets his cinnamon roll badge back. Imagine just gentle giant energy, compared with shyness and flirting failโฆgetting occupied by a kitten, overenergetic pup or cheeky goat.
Thatโs them. That is why itโs working and things are getting done and these two get what they want and not just tribbling around the bushes ๐
Plus Keith becomes totally more self-confident in this regard, too, and once he gets used to it - which naturally happens given her personality - the two of them turn into a romantic, billing-and-cooing, and utterly maddening whirlwind for everyone around them๐๐
(and always to the very much annoyance of his older - very very older ๐๐๐ - brother Roy, who is less than enthusiastic about Saulusโ openness - none of them)
๐ค Who apologizes first after a fight, even if they werenโt wrong?
Both
Just as they might both try to play it cool, the bad guy, or the sulky one for five seconds, only to immediately burst into a "I'M SORRY, I DON'T WANT TO FIGHT!"ย
They're both harmony-seeking tieflings, causing trouble by accident and thinking it's fun, never with bad intentions. Fun ends where real hurt begins.ย
Especially with their special other staying tough, angry, strict and hard doesn't work well, at least not in this respect.ย
๐ Who kisses the other first thing in the morning, morning breath & all?
Oh, very much Saulus.
She cares for very less except love, cuddles and taking things as they are.
Love is messy, just as they are. Imperfection makes complete and there is no moment for her, she wouldn't want a kiss from him.
I can rather imagine Keith getting worked up about it and be a little naggy and winy even ๐๐คฃ For not being used to the situation.
But what to say, the man smells like wet dog most of the time for wearing his leather armour 24/7 and bathing with his hyena, sooo...
A rather laugh about a morning kiss from Saulus because imaging her, crushing a bottle of peppermint liquor night before or to counteract the hangover already a shot in the morning, they probably taste more like fresh mouthwash ๐๐คฃ๐
Astarion: "Yes, alcoholism is funny ๐๐โโ๏ธ"
Gale: "๐ Uh-uh"
Thank you so much for your amazing enabler ask @onlytavs ๐๐ from the hcs
Sweet pictures of Saulus&Keith as always by @cursed-nyxan 's forge of VP ๐ธ
You can feel through both your writing @bhaal-battle-beer-bard and your VPs, @cursed-nyxan, how much they love each other. I feel the warmest ache in my chest when I see them! <33