At the very end, we were nothing but ghosts: pale silhouettes painted in violence.
The blog is mostly dedicated to the appreciation of Rolan BG3 ¯\_(ᵕ—ᴗ—)_/¯. Gifs and writing. And Nimriel, of course, my drow OC you see plastered all over here :3 I also love wallowing in my misery from time to time, so, be warned! (,Ծ_Ծ,)
♥ All my gifs and pictures -> #wasteful sam stuff
♥ All my writing -> #wasteful sam fic
♥ Modded Rolans (aka Rolanverse): -> #Cambion Rolan, #Rolan the Miresworn, #Flower Knight Rolan, #Master Rolan (featuring @alrendriablaze amazing smutfic based on him :3)
♥ All Nimriel-related -> #OC: Nimriel
♥ Nimriel x Rolan -> #Thunder Valkyrie (I will expand it one day, I swear)
♥ How I recreate Rolan, Zevlor, and Dammon in BG3
♥ Nimriel masterpost - main information about my OC
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♥ Worthy - my main ongoing long fic (3rd person, multiple POVs). Rolan/female drow Tav named Nimriel + developing Dammon/Karlach relationships and some other winks at potential ships.
It's a slow-burn story with mutual pining, angst, and eventual smut. It covers the events of all three acts, mostly from Rolan's point of view, and expands on his character, giving him more agency. The same goes for some companions/minor characters.
The story can be found on AO3 or, if you prefer reading on Tumblr under the #the Worthy fic.
Wordcount: 76k+, ongoing
♥ Blades and hearts laid bare [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan x Nimriel, rough sex, cunnilingus, Rolan is confident and dominant AF, ass slapping (a lot), dirty talk).
After a close call in battle, Rolan and Nimriel have to confront the insatiable lust they have for each other. The lovers go through a full circle of emotions: anger, regret, passion, and devotion. Hiding feelings in plain sight, they succumb to each other, knowing that tomorrow may never come.
This fic is a part of the “Worthy” cannon, but can be read separately :3 Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 5,8k, finished
♥ That day, I died with him - horror (1st and 3rd person, Rolan's POW, body horror, psychological horror, blood and violence, angst, major character death).
The fic starts with the entry of Rolan's diary, where he recounts how he killed Lorroakan. The notes quickly reveal that Rolan struggles with piled-up mental issues caused by the events of the past and rapidly approaches the breaking point.
The fic is an entry to the Miresworn AU - a longfic I am slowly starting to work on. I have been consumed by the idea of writing a dark Rolan fic for a while now. A universe where Cal and Lia die in Shadow-Cursed Lands, and Rolan looks for ways to resurrect them. In his pursuit, he begins using Thay's Necromancy. As it slowly corrupts him, Rolan loses his grasp on reality and allies with Ascended Astarion to control Baldur’s Gate from the shadows and have full access to all its resources. The snippet of the story you’ve read takes place two years after the final battle.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 1,3k, finished, a part of the ongoing series.
♥ Only the moon bore witness to his yearning [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan's POV in chapter 1, double POVs in subsequent chapters).
Overtaken by his desperate longing for Tav, Rolan has no choice but to pleasure himself, letting his desires take complete control. In the following chapter, the dumbass gets caught by Tav, and the porn scenario ensues. ┐(︶▽︶)┌ Chapter 3 - soon, hopefully. 🥴
Read on AO3 or Tumblr: ch. 1, ch. 2
Wordcount: 4k+, ongoing
♥ Be as greedy as you want [18+] - smut. It is the reimagining of the "Don't be greedy" cutscene if BG3 was a full-on porn game T_T.
Basically, Rolan/f!Tav, shameless smut, 99% porn/1% plot, spontaneous drunk sex, groping, taunting, not-so-dirty dirty talk, confident Rolan gets what he fucking deserves, and all the good stuff. 👌
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 2,4k, finished
♥ The Master and his glove [18+] - short smut about Master Rolan. What can I say, I love writing Rolan masturbation scenes. (¬_¬”) But here's a twist: he does it with his leather glove. (꒪▿꒪)
Solo masturbation, a short and sweet fic. :3
Read on Tumblr
Wordcount: 720, finished
♥ Masks left behind - short, pure romance (??? inconceivable!). Rolan/f!Tav, post-canon, romantic fluff, double POV.
Two years have passed after the final battle for Baldur's Gate, and the new Master of Ramazith's Tower is invited to the Moonlight Masquerade celebration. At first glance, it seems that Rolan now has it all, earning the respect he deserves among the citizens and a peaceful life with his siblings. But tonight, a chance meeting makes him dare to dream beyond that. He yearns to give his heart to the woman he secretly adored all these years.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 3,191, finished
♥ A debt paid in lust [18+] - smut (3rd person, double POV). It is a shameless hatefucking. Rolan/female tiefling DU Vexis.
A short, one-chapter story. A quickie, one might say, to clench the urges. (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و My first smut ever, so, yeah...
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Hello I know you've answered this before but I cannot for the life of me find the post/comment so I ask here,
How do you make the teifling bachelor's in the creator/ mirror, i know it requires mods, and I have most of them. I'm just looking for the stats like eye color, skin color, and stuff like highlight/graying intensity (if applicable)
I've been interested in making them for myself, but I'm not entirely sure how to do that and get them to look right at the same time.
Thanks in advance ✨️🌸✨️
Hi!! :33 No problem at all! :)) I am always happy to share! :3
UPD: Throwing Harper Geraldus here as well. To recreate him, you just need Appearance Edit Enhanced.
Before we begin, please note: these parameters I share may not be 100% accurate (percentage-wise, at least), as I mostly came up with them by literally placing the finished tieflings along their ring of metamorph counterparts and comparing them until it looked good enough. BUT, if you saw my gifs with the trio, you pretty much know what to expect. :3
List of mods you will need:
Appearance Edit Enhanced - to change your Tav/companions into tieflings. There might be better ways by now to do it (maybe hirelings mod), but I haven't tried them. Maybe someone would want to recommend something in the comments, too. Either way, AEE always works for me.
FacesUnlocked - for Rolan and Zevlor faces;
NPC Eye, Skin, Hair Colours - for Dammon, Zevlor eye, and hair colors;
Alternate Horns for Tieflings - for Zevlor horns.
SAVE YOUR GAME BEFORE USING RESCULPT VIA APPEARANCE ENHANCED.
Now, for parameters:
Rolan:
Head - his head from the mod :3
Skin color - red tone 2 (but I prefer 3, choose whichever you like more)
Eyes - demonic yellow 2
Hairdo - ChRySAlIs pod 😤
Hair color- brown 4
No highlights
Greying - ginger 1 (30%)
Horns - stygian skewers
Horns base color - ash 4
Horns tip color - grey warm 5
Dammon:
Head - standard male tiefling head #4
Skin color - blush tone 4
Eyes - NPC Dammon 02 (from the mod, there are 3 versions)
Hairdo - arabel ribbon
Haircolor - blond ash 3
Hair highlights - red 3 (80%), no greying
Horns - malbolge spires
Horn base color - ash 3
Horn tip color - ash 2
Zevlor:
Head - his head from the mod :3
Skin color - chilli tone 4
Eyes - NPC Zevlor (from the mod)
Hairdo - elysium fan
Haircolor - NPC Zevlor (from the mod)
No highlights, no greying
Horns - hellrider's pikes (from the mod)
Horn color (for all) - ash 5
Harper Geraldus:
Race - half-elf
Head - half-elf head 2
Skin color - I've been recreating him from screenshots exclusively, so it looks different under different lighting :(( His skin gives me grey-ish vibes, so I went with Pallid tone 3. Alternatively, if you want him warmer, use Neutral tone 1
Eyes - Hazelnut 1
Hairdo - Waterdavian scholar
Haircolor - Black neutral
No highlights, no greying
Additionally: he sorta has a unique hairdo with small hairs hanging on one side of his face. To recreate it, you need the Myky's Hairstyles mod. It will add the "jaws" section to the general template page (where you select the character's head). For Geraldus, you need [myky] Bangs_05.
@lyrium-tits @kimberbohwrites , added the Geraldus' parameters here, the mod you'll need to change one of your companions/hirelings into him is Appearance Edit Enhanced, follow the instructions above :))
Grabbed a tag from darling @optimisticgrey, thank you!
Something very short and simple today, just to appreciate the softer version of Deia, who, still to my surprise, looks so different to her usual normal self. No dark mouth, no shadow around the eyes, no smirk sharp enough to cut. A version of her that only Gale gets to see.
Gale notices her before she notices him noticing. It is a small mercy. Deia stands beneath the pale spill of moonlight, her hair tied back from her face, black waves gathered without their usual silver chains and sharp little ornaments. No dark paint on her mouth. No shadow around her eyes. Nothing dramatized, nothing arranged to strike first.
She looks almost unarmored. The thought catches somewhere beneath his ribs and stays there, stubborn as a hook. He has seen her dressed in black silk and fire. He has seen her with blood on her face and a blade in her hand, with her horns crowned in silver and her smile honed to a killing edge. He has seen rooms bend around her simply because she entered them already knowing they would. This should be gentler. Easier. It is not.
“What?” she asks.
Gale blinks.
“Hm?”
Her eyes narrow, but there is no true threat in it.
“You are staring.”
“Yes,” he says, because lying seems both pointless and unwise.
Deia’s mouth shifts, reaching instinctively for a smirk and finding, perhaps, that she has left the sharper version of it elsewhere.
“Should I be offended?”
“No.”
“Should I be concerned?”
“Possibly.”
That earns him a look.
“Gale.”
He steps closer. Slowly, though not with hesitation. He has learned the difference.
“I have seen you look like a queen of ruin,” he says softly. “Like a storm given manners. Like every warning in every old story decided to become beautiful out of spite.”
Her expression stills. His hand lifts, then pauses, asking the question without words. When she does not move away, he touches one finger lightly to the tip of her nose.
“But this,” he murmurs, “may be the most dangerous you have ever looked.”
Deia stares at him. Then, to his quiet triumph, color rises faintly beneath her pale skin.
“That was absurd.”
“It was sincere.”
“Worse.”
He smiles.
“I know.”
She looks down, briefly, as if the ground might offer her a weapon against tenderness. It does not. Traitorous ground.
“I am not dressed for anything,” she says.
“No.” His thumb brushes near her cheek, careful as the turn of a page. “That is rather the point.”
Her eyes lift again. There is something wary in them, and something painfully soft beneath the wariness.
“Do not make a holy thing of it.”
Gale’s smile fades into something quieter.
“I won’t.”
“You are about to.”
“I am about to be very brave and restrain myself.”
A small laugh escapes her before she can catch it. There they are: the dimples, sudden and devastating, appearing like two secrets the night has no right to keep. Gale’s breath leaves him.
“Gods,” he says, helplessly.
Deia points at him.
“No.”
“I said one word.”
“You said it like a man about to write poetry.”
“In my defense, I am suffering.”
“Good.”
But she steps closer when she says it, fingers curling lightly into the front of his shirt. Her smile lingers, shy and wicked and gone almost as soon as he sees it. Gale catches it anyway. He always does.
With this I also celebrate my second mushroom harvest! I was convinced they’d already given up on life and weren’t coming back, but apparently mushrooms are stronger than you think. 💪✨
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I made her skin paler, her eyes more glowy and to be honest, she doesn't need much lore because she didn't wait to become a vampire to be a horrible person.
ughh i'm just going to tag as many mutuals as possible. i know i rb and have seen some of you been tagged already but again... i forgot ❤️ so you know the drill– no pressure + ignore if tagged already: @ann-bg3-lol @facetheworldbitch @wasteful-sam @knightofbhaal @theya-art @faeriiefire @purpleasters-inseptember @gortashsrighthand @citruskushh
I made her skin paler, her eyes more glowy and to be honest, she doesn't need much lore because she didn't wait to become a vampire to be a horrible person.
ughh i'm just going to tag as many mutuals as possible. i know i rb and have seen some of you been tagged already but again... i forgot ❤️ so you know the drill– no pressure + ignore if tagged already: @ann-bg3-lol @facetheworldbitch @wasteful-sam @knightofbhaal @theya-art @faeriiefire @purpleasters-inseptember @gortashsrighthand @citruskushh
Hell is empty and all the Devils are here Book One: Dawn
Chapter 6
I was simply staring at him and realizing, with a strange and sudden clarity, that he was a beautiful man.
It is an absurd thing to notice in such a moment, and yet it remains one of the sharpest details in my memory. His features were impossibly even, the sort of beauty elves carry as effortlessly as breath, as though symmetry and grace were their natural inheritance. There was a gentle glow in his deep blue eyes. His dark hair was loose, I think, or half-undone in his haste. There was blood on one sleeve. His brow was furrowed so deeply I scarcely recognized him.
And still, all I could think was how very beautiful he was.
Not in any romantic sense. It struck me as fascinating in the detached way one notices some new and startling fact about the world. The sky is blue. Fire burns. Hennan is beautiful.
When I did not answer, he continued, words tumbling over one another in his haste.
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TY @deianestormborn for the tag! 🦇 Find Gale & Deiane here!
I've previously done a vamp AU for my durge a few months back. So Briar takes the cake today! I reckon I've finally figured out her pairings too.
Another bite just for good measure ~~ call it cuteness aggression.
Leaving this one as an Open Tag for anyone interested.
Today's BG3-brainwave-while-biking was for a future run that combines several Tavs that I haven't played in a bit, but whose individual runs have been languishing.
Most notably it would (among other things) combine my monk and monk-like characters plus their tiefling-refugee relationships: Drem x Rikka and Vyan x Arka.
The playthrough's name/tag? "Horns On Main" of course.
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Purple signifies Shae's (Saki's) dialogue that Mad is responding to.
She was an absolute delight, a sharp-tongued breath of fresh air compared to the stale, suffocating energy of the café earlier. This was exactly the kind of bite he had meant, she had it in spades, and he fucking adored the unapologetic self-worth that came with it. Where she saw vanity, he saw confidence in its purest form, something rare in women her age. Most he'd known were too busy chasing filters and trends, while his own reality revolved around hiding bodies and wondering if tonight's meal would be his last before the cops finally caught up.
I'll try if you buy.
"Buyin' was never negotiable, Saki," he responded immediately, voice rough with pleasure. "I decided that the moment you didn't tell me to get lost."
SCORE.
Absolute grand fucking slam! The confirmation hit him harder than expected. This little spitfire didn't bend easily for anyone, least of all men like him, and that made earning her 'I'll try' feel like a real challenge, one he actually wanted to rise to. For once in his life, he felt the weight of wanting to prove he was worth the trouble.
Something shifted in his chest then. Not nerves exactly, but a rare flicker of determination to be someone she wouldn't regret giving the opportunity to. She had that pull on him, dragging out the sharper, cleaner parts of himself he rarely bothered showing anyone else. It was the same impulse that made him duck low when she reached for the cigarette, letting her claim it because she fought for it instead of begging him like some pouty princess. That shameless grin he wore often returned as he leaned in, beard brushing her ear where he whispered against it, "But if 'I'll try' is what I get for offering you dinner, I can't wait to see what you say after dessert." Then he pulled back slowly, watching as the cherry bright glow of the cigarette bounced off of her skin as she inhaled. He drank in her scent where she pressed so close to his side: tart cherry and something else–perhaps floral–cutting through the coffee and citrus dish soap that clung to her skin. The combination was addictive, sending his mind into a spiral as he imagined that same scent wrapped around his tongue as he buried his face between her thighs, beard soaked, skin slapping wetly against his cheeks. He pinched his side hard with his free hand, an old trick learned from his therapy sessions to short-circuit any old toxic wiring before impulse could take the wheel.
FUCK.
She was beautiful, though... in the most disarming way–soft curves wrapped tight around a blade. He wanted to cut himself open on her. Wanted to drown in every contradiction she offered. Everything he said seemed to roll off her like water off snake skin, and in his own twisted way he tested that theory by waving every red flag he owned tonight. He wanted to offer her every chance to run from the gravity of a man like him–a man who spent years of his life ending things instead of building them. A man who carved through problems, people, and promises with the cold efficiency of a storm that never learned the difference between cleansing and destruction.
The thing is, men like him didn't plant gardens; they dug graves.
No matter how hard he tried to bury that old version of himself, the stain of who he was would always cling to the surface of his skin as surely as the cigarette smoke curling between them now. It yellowed his fingers and teeth in the same slow, inevitable way those bodies had yellowed in all the shallow graves he'd left behind. Some things just couldn't be washed away no matter how hard you scrubbed at the evidence: the blood under his nails, the screams that still echoed in quiet rooms, the scars etched into both skin and soul. Every shared drag reminded him the past was still chained to his ankle, no matter how many miles he put between himself and the man he used to be. And here he was anyway–handing his jacket and his cigerette to a woman sharp enough to drag that ghost back into the light.