At the very end, we were nothing but ghosts: pale silhouettes painted in violence.
The blog is mostly dedicated to the appreciation of Rolan BG3 Β―\_(α΅βα΄β)_/Β―. Gifs and writing. And Nimriel, of course, my drow OC you see plastered all over here :3 I also love wallowing in my misery from time to time, so, be warned! (,ΤΎ_ΤΎ,)
β₯ All my gifs and pictures -> #wasteful sam stuff
β₯ All my writing -> #wasteful sam fic
β₯ Modded Rolans (aka Rolanverse): -> #Cambion Rolan, #Rolan the Miresworn, #Flower Knight Rolan, #Master Rolan (featuring @alrendriablaze amazing smutfic based on him :3)
β₯ All Nimriel-related -> #OC: Nimriel
β₯ Nimriel x Rolan -> #Thunder Valkyrie (I will expand it one day, I swear)
β₯ How I recreate Rolan, Zevlor, and Dammon in BG3
β₯ Nimriel masterpost - main information about my OC
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β₯ Worthy - my main ongoing long fic (3rd person, multiple POVs). Rolan/female drow Tav named Nimriel + developing Dammon/Karlach relationships and some other winks at potential ships.
It's a slow-burn story with mutual pining, angst, and eventual smut. It covers the events of all three acts, mostly from Rolan's point of view, and expands on his character, giving him more agency. The same goes for some companions/minor characters.
The story can be found on AO3 or, if you prefer reading on Tumblr under the #the Worthy fic.
Wordcount: 76k+, ongoing
β₯ Blades and hearts laid bare [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan x Nimriel, rough sex, cunnilingus, Rolan is confident and dominant AF, ass slapping (a lot), dirty talk).
After a close call in battle, Rolan and Nimriel have to confront the insatiable lust they have for each other. The lovers go through a full circle of emotions: anger, regret, passion, and devotion. Hiding feelings in plain sight, they succumb to each other, knowing that tomorrow may never come.
This fic is a part of the βWorthyβ cannon, but can be read separately :3 Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 5,8k, finished
β₯ That day, I died with him - horror (1st and 3rd person, Rolan's POW, body horror, psychological horror, blood and violence, angst, major character death).
The fic starts with the entry of Rolan's diary, where he recounts how he killed Lorroakan. The notes quickly reveal that Rolan struggles with piled-up mental issues caused by the events of the past and rapidly approaches the breaking point.
The fic is an entry to the Miresworn AU - a longfic I am slowly starting to work on. I have been consumed by the idea of writing a dark Rolan fic for a while now. A universe where Cal and Lia die in Shadow-Cursed Lands, and Rolan looks for ways to resurrect them. In his pursuit, he begins using Thay's Necromancy. As it slowly corrupts him, Rolan loses his grasp on reality and allies with Ascended Astarion to control Baldurβs Gate from the shadows and have full access to all its resources. The snippet of the story youβve read takes place two years after the final battle.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 1,3k, finished, a part of the ongoing series.
β₯ Only the moon bore witness to his yearning [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan's POV in chapter 1, double POVs in subsequent chapters).
Overtaken by his desperate longing for Tav, Rolan has no choice but to pleasure himself, letting his desires take complete control. In the following chapter, the dumbass gets caught by Tav, and the porn scenario ensues. β(οΈΆβ½οΈΆ)β Β Chapter 3 - soon, hopefully. π₯΄
Read on AO3 or Tumblr: ch. 1, ch. 2
Wordcount: 4k+, ongoing
β₯ Be as greedy as you want [18+] - smut. It is the reimagining of the "Don't be greedy" cutscene if BG3 was a full-on porn game T_T.
Basically, Rolan/f!Tav, shameless smut, 99% porn/1% plot, spontaneous drunk sex, groping, taunting, not-so-dirty dirty talk, confident Rolan gets what he fucking deserves, and all the good stuff. π
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 2,4k, finished
β₯ The Master and his glove [18+] - short smut about Master Rolan. What can I say, I love writing Rolan masturbation scenes. (Β¬_Β¬β) But here's a twist: he does it with his leather glove. (κͺβΏκͺ)
Solo masturbation, a short and sweet fic. :3
Read on Tumblr
Wordcount: 720, finished
β₯ Masks left behind - short, pure romance (??? inconceivable!). Rolan/f!Tav, post-canon, romantic fluff, double POV.
Two years have passed after the final battle for Baldur's Gate, and the new Master of Ramazith's Tower is invited to the Moonlight Masquerade celebration. At first glance, it seems that Rolan now has it all, earning the respect he deserves among the citizens and a peaceful life with his siblings. But tonight, a chance meeting makes him dare to dream beyond that. He yearns to give his heart to the woman he secretly adored all these years.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 3,191, finished
β₯ A debt paid in lust [18+] - smut (3rd person, double POV). It is a shameless hatefucking. Rolan/female tiefling DU Vexis.
A short, one-chapter story. A quickie, one might say, to clench the urges. (ΰΉΛΜ΅α΄ΛΜ΅)Ω My first smut ever, so, yeah...
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WIP Wednesday (was meant to be Tuesday Night, but oh well!)
Thank you for the tag, @unovafarm. Your piece was wonderful and I loved every word of it. So, after the events of the game, of course Gale invited Deia to move with him to Waterdeep. Deia, being practically homeless, didn't think twice about this decision and agreed. However, it would be foolish to imagine that such transition would be easy for her. So I was pondering about it and decided to write a little piece. Will I put it into my story? Perhaps. We may never know. So much to write and so much to think of. But here it is, nonetheless.
Somewhere in Waterdeep.
Deiaβs gaze moves slowly over the room. The books come first. Of course they do. Towers of them on the desk, on the shelves, stacked against the legs of furniture as if at some point Gale had simply surrendered to gravity and hoped literacy would organize itself. Then the paintings, the little arcane instruments, the sculptures, the rolled maps, the candle stubs, the half-finished notes, the amethyst glow of some artifact she suspects has been placed there less for utility and more because Gale likes the look of it. Her mouth curves.
βDragons really would like you.β
Gale, seated at the desk, looks up from beneath a loose fall of hair.
βHm?β
βThe book hoard. The paintings. The statues,β she gestures vaguely around them, black nails catching the candlelight. βYou seem more draconic than I ever did.β
βI shall choose to take that as a compliment.β
βYou should. Though your organizing skills areβ¦β her eyes drift to a precarious stack of papers beside his elbow. βQuestionable.β
βQuestionable?β
βIt looks like a storm came through here.β
His brows lift. The corner of his mouth twitches.
βWell, technicallyβ¦β
He begins to raise one hand toward her. Deiaβs eyes narrow. A beat of realization crosses her face, as if she just remembered she is named Stormborn after all.
βOoh-kay,β she says at once, rolling her eyes, though the grin gets away from her. βAbsolutely not. I heard it before you said it. Pun denied.β
Gale lays a hand over his heart.
βCruelty. In my own home.β
βYou invited the storm in, Dekarios. That is on you.β
Still smiling, Deia turns from him and wanders closer to the desk. It is easier to look at things than at him. Easier to let her fingers hover above the parchment, the quills, the little scatter of ink-dark thoughts he has left exposed in plain sight. There is something almost indecent about it, being here. Not because of the room itself, but because she understands, suddenly and with unpleasant clarity, what it means.
Gale Dekarios does not merely live here. He returns here. The thought quiets her. Her grin fades by degrees until only the ghost of it remains. She touches the edge of the desk, very lightly, as if the wood might object.
βYou told me once this was your favorite place.β
Galeβs expression softens.
βThe tower?β
βThe balcony,β she says. βA place that brings you peace.β
She looks around again, slower this time. The books. The candle. The papers. The chair he has worn into comfort. The room built around the shape of his mind. Then she looks back at him.
βAnd you brought me here.β
His teasing stills. Deiaβs brows draw together, not in anger, but in that little worried crease she gets when affection cuts too close to old damage.
βThat seems unwise.β
βDoes it?β
βGale.β
βDeia.β
She gives him a look for using her tone against her. It does not hold. Her hand tightens on the desk edge.
βYou have so few places the world has not taken from you.β
His face changes then. Quietly. Completely.
βAnd you think I should keep you outside of them?β
Deiaβs jaw shifts. A clever answer rises and dies behind her teeth.
βI think,β she says carefully, βthat I am not always gentle with sacred things.β
Gale rises from the chair. Not quickly. Not to startle her. He comes around the desk with that infuriating patience of his, all soft footfalls and unbearable certainty.
βMy love,β he says, βyou mistake the matter entirely.β
She looks away.
βDo I?β
βYes,β his hand finds hers where it rests against the desk, his thumb brushing once over her knuckles. βThis place brings me peace. That is precisely why I wanted you in it. A sanctuary that cannot hold the woman I love is a rather poor sanctuary.β
The words land too plainly to dodge. Deiaβs throat moves. For a moment, she looks almost younger, caught without armor in the warm clutter of his life.
βThat is a dangerous thing to say to me.β
βI know.β
βI might believe you.β
Gale smiles, small and devastating.
βThat is rather the hope.β
No pressure tags: @purpleasters-inseptember @ann-bg3-lol @doomedlamb @dr4gonwriter @wasteful-sam @unovafarm @cursed-nyxan @facetheworldbitch @the-shadowfell-darkroom @optimisticgrey @rdekarios @faeriiefire and back at you @unovafarm
I don't really consider myself a VP artist as I lack the skill, but will ABSOLUTELY use this as an excuse to post some more recent pics for the modern BG3 AU that @thecampjuicebox and I have been RPing. I decided to take some of Mad and Saki, inspired by their future sushi date. We haven't even gotten there yet in the writing, but I'm thinking about it non-stop.
Thanks so much, @wasteful-sam, for tagging me! I'm always so jazzed to be a part of these. I know some of you that I'm about to tag have already been booped, but I am going to give you another gentle one just in caseβand if I missed your posting, feel free to link it below or message me because I truly would love to see them!
picking up late tags from @archduchessgortash and @onlytavs and unoreversed by @unovafarm @cursed-nyxan as well as WIP vp tags from @perpetualmaladaptivedaydream @lucretiouswept @wasteful-sam and @alstromeri-a !
Thank you for thinking of me, lovelies π«Ά Consider yourself unoreverse tagged!
Free time is limited right now, so allow me to combine writing and VP WIPs.
(Presenting this as a VP WIP after being tagged by the goddess of VP herself is kind of ironic. I am aware.)
(This is a very early WIP stage)
We were drunk on mulled wine, laughter, and love.
Not merely intoxicated, but drunk in the deeper sense of the wordβso saturated with happiness that the world itself seemed softened around the edges. Life felt impossibly sweet then, rich with wonder and possibility, and I had the extraordinary privilege of sharing it with two people I loved beyond reason.
Looking back, I do not think I appreciated how rare such moments truly are.
We wandered through Waterdeep with no destination in mind, hands constantly finding one another, kisses stolen between conversations, a bottle of mead passed back and forth whenever one of us remembered we were carrying it. Around us, the city blazed with life. Lanterns hung above the streets like captured stars, music drifted from open tavern doors and merchants shouted over one another while children darted between crowds with sticky fingers and sugar-coated smiles.
And the smell.
Gods, the smell.
Only Waterdeep can somehow fit half the known world into a single street and make it fragrant. Roasted chestnuts and spiced apples mingled with evergold baklahva, monkey balls, niangao, grilled fish, candied nuts, fresh bread, snowbread, mulled wine, and a dozen other delicacies whose names I never learned because I was too busy eating them.
Lucia spotted something sweet being sold from a nearby stall and immediately declared it essential. Aron disagreed, or perhaps he merely wished to continue walking. I cannot remember. What I do remember is their good-natured argument beginning beside me while I laughed and surrendered Aron's hand.
The sensation arrived so suddenly it cut through wine and merriment alike. The hairs on the back of my neck rose, my smile faded and I stopped walking.
At first, I could not identify why. Only that something felt wrong. Not dangerous, not exactly, but familiar in the way old scars ache before rain.
I felt watched.
The sensation was unmistakableβas though someone's gaze had settled between my shoulder blades with enough weight to become physical. So immediate, so intense, that I turned before I consciously decided to do so.
The crowd moved around me in a blur of color and motion. Hundreds of faces, laughter, lanternlight swirled in music.
Yet my eyes passed over all of it.
Searching, seeking and finding. Across the street stood a small tent. Bright purple. Closed. Entirely unremarkable.
And yet the moment I saw it, something deep inside me tightened.
There was a pull. Not curiosity, not quite, but something stranger. Recognition without memory. A form of certainty without understanding.
I stared at the tent and felt the world around me recede. The music grew distant, the voices blurred and even Lucia and Aron seemed suddenly far away.
I vaguely remember one of them speaking to me, perhaps both. I recall myself nodding in response to something, agreeing automatically while my attention remained fixed entirely upon that impossible little tent, as I was already moving.
Crossing the street without thought, drawn forward by something I could neither name nor resist.
The tent stood waiting and before I could question my own actions, the entrance flap opened. Not by wind or a visible hands, it simply opened and I stepped inside.
The world vanished, the cacophony of sound and smell behind me fell away in an instant.
Cedarwood struck me first. Not the pleasant trace of it one finds in wardrobes or carved furniture, but something dense and overwhelming, thick enough to feel tangible. Then anise. Cinnamon. And smoke. And Incense. Dozens of scents layered atop one another until the air itself seemed alive.
I drew a breath and immediately regretted it.
The fragrance flooded my lungs so completely that my chest seized. My head spun, the floor shifting beneath my feet as though I had stepped onto the deck of a ship caught in rough waters. Hands settled on my shouldersβgentle, unexpectedly strongβand before I fully understood what was happening, I found myself guided into an impossibly soft chair.
The tent's interior was dimly lit, shadows dancing across richly colored fabrics that concealed every visible wall. Candles flickered from impossible corners, their flames strangely steady despite the absence of any obvious structure holding the tent upright. The scents lingered heavily in the air, bordering on suffocating.
"Good, good. Here you are, child."
The voice emerged from somewhere beyond the haze clouding my thoughts. Thinking had become unexpectedly difficult. Each thought felt slow, dragged through molasses.
"So kind of you to stop by. So very kind."
An old woman shuffled into view, leaning heavily upon a walking stick fashioned from twisted wood, its grain curling upon itself like frozen smoke. Her robe was surprisingly simpleβa plain purple garment devoid of embroidery, jewelry, or ornamentation. It contrasted sharply with the extravagant surroundings.
Her hair caught my attention immediately. Far too red. Not dyed red or vibrant red, but the sort of red that seemed fundamentally unwilling to acknowledge age.
She lowered herself into the chair opposite mine and before I could react, my hands were in hers. I never saw her reach for them. One moment they rested in my lap, the next, she was turning them over beneath the candlelight, tracing the lines of my palms with weathered fingers.
"What do youβ"
"Ah." The old woman cackled softly. "Ah, yes."
Her fingers stilled. A delighted smile spread across her faceβthe smile of someone finding exactly what they expected. It unsettled me more than anything else in that tent.
"Interesting."
"What is?"
"Something is coming." She tilted her head. "Not a person. A mind." Her thumb brushed across my palm. "There is a weight waiting for you. A very large one."
I laughed nervously. "I suspect that describes most people's futures."
"Oh, no." She sounded genuinely amused. "This one is different."
For the first time, she looked up. Her eyes were startlingly clear. Clear enough to make me wonder if she had ever truly been old at all.
"It will change the direction of your life," she added quietly. "And the lives of many others besides."
The smile faded slightly.
"I see difficult choices. The sort that leave scars regardless of which path is chosen."
Something cold settled in my stomach.
The old woman continued studying me. "Two influences." She frowned. "No. Not influences." Her eyes narrowed. "Two men, perhaps." The words sounded uncertain, as though she disliked them. "They are important." A pause. "Powerful in their own ways." Another pause. "And very different from one another. A man and an elf."
I swallowed. She seemed not to notice.
"Neither will walk your path for you. They cannot." Her grip tightened slightly around my hands. "But both will change it."
The silence stretched as she studied my hands.
Finally, the old woman released them.
"Be careful whom you allow to guide you, child."
I rubbed my palms automatically. "I thought you just said they couldn't."
A crooked smile returned to her face. "People have a remarkable talent for convincing themselves that their choices were entirely their own."
For a moment, neither of us spoke, my hands still caught in her grip.
"Neither of those men β nor your father β can choose for you," she laughed as if I had told the funniest story.
"Oh, but that is tomorrow's problem." She waved a dismissive hand. "Tonight is for mulled wine, bad decisions, and whatever handsome fools are currently wondering where you've wandered off to."
I blinked β and found myself outside.
The noise hit me first, music and laughter and the warm chaos of a city celebrating itself. Then the smells. Then Lucia's voice, sharp with relief, and Aron's somewhere close behind her, both of them calling my name through the crowd.
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oh gosh yall. thanks for the tags @purpleasters-inseptember @wasteful-sam @arlynx @cursed-nyxan @starlit-serpent @ratchsellsfornax @elandra-beltharys and anyone else i may have missed!
i always take my time with WIP tags because i like to wait until i have something to show off.
so i'm bringing back a project that i've mentioned a few times this year:
i've FINALLY finished making all the members of House Blackblood!
everyone is here but Mellie, who no joke walked away while i was gathering everyone and returned RIGHT AFTER i exited photomode like the diva she isππ€¦π»ββοΈ
i still need to make a few tweaks, and had to change Irris's head bc it wasn't compatible with KAVT.
i'm mostly happy with the result.
expect to see a lot more of Irris in the future btwπ
that post introducing them is still on the way! it should be out relatively soonβ¨
uno reverse tag to everyone who tagged me, and an open tag for anyone who has a wip to share
Thank you so much for the tag, @deianestormborn (post here), @carnivaley (post here), and @perpetualmaladaptivedaydream (post here).
Ok, so, this photo is a part of the broader line of storytelling VPs, but it looks badass, so I wanted to edit it in a more brooding, sinister way, I guess xD
The WIP story itself involves Nim practicing fighting with daggers while Rolan watches and is very normal about it. You know, βcouplesβ things.β This, inevitably, leads to knife play - like I said, βcouplesβ things.β π₯΄
But honestly, I dunno when all these photos will be done, I am always intimidated by editing multiple-photo sets. x)
No-pressure tags (also sorry for double-tagging/if you've already been tagged): @cursed-nyxan @the-shadowfell-darkroom @optimisticgrey
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Soft Deia appreciation post. She looks entirely different without her usual grandeur. No dark makeup, no leather and silk, no smirk sharp enough to cut, no wild hair spilling everywhere. The version of herself that only Gale gets to see.
Was tagged by @burnt-by-marigolds in their gorgeous set of WIPs here. Please go check them out! They're so lovely and I love some narrative VP. Was delighted to be tagged to see those!
As I am always full of creative ideas but hampered by my health so I don't usually have much to offer these but the last few days I've actively working on a birthday gift for the lovely @mogruith! Like literally...I stopped the linework to post this.
It has gone through many stages of tweaking to make sure it actually looks like Coran. Had to make some adjustments after drawing from the original reference, but I think I got there! I'll put the reference below the cut for anyone interested to compare. It's been slow going as I try to get back into the groove of doing art again after a 5 year burnout, but I'm immensely happy with this sketch at the very least.
It's been so much fun bringing his cheeky little smile to life. What a pretty ourple muse he is. π
Soft tags for @elandra-beltharys @wasteful-sam @faircatch2025 @mogruith @ann-bg3-lol @litsenn @mercymaker @cursed-nyxan @bloodless-sandpiper @ratchsellsfornax @the-shadowfell-darkroom @purpleasters-inseptember @optimisticgrey any of my mutuals I forgot (which will be a lot I'm sure).
i don't have the patience to make this for all 4 of my girls atm so i only did this for mellie, but maybe i'll add the others later!
np tags, trying to tag whoever hasn't done this i lost trackπ @purpleasters-inseptember @cursed-nyxan @moon-bliss-bg3 @faeriiefire @amuletspore @elandra-beltharys @blacklodge13 @arlynx @ratchsellsfornax @fangedgrace @thesanguinesonnet
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Oooh so many, thank you! Answers under the cut! Please enjoy this image of when i made Syryth Izzy's dream guardian for one reason and one reason only
2- What's your oc's orientation? (Romantic/sexual/platonic alterous ect) Do they have opinions about it?
Syryth is bisexual and heteromantic, he's also probably somewhere on the aromantic spectrum. He wouldn't use labels personally and has no opinions on his own sexuality. He kind of does have the understanding of sexuality that a 150-year-old would, but without the potential bigotry given that his loose opinions about else that people find "immoral," whether justified or not.
Izzeth is gay across the board, and he'd actually say that once he learned the word for it. I think it's quite nice for him to have a label, and he thinks of it as both a personal and a social identity.
Lyn'ethe is queer with a preference for women. She doesn't think about it too hard.
7- Is there something that could cause your oc to question their identity? What?
Not really, especially with Syryth and Lyn'ethe. I do think if you tried to tell Izzeth his orientation might stem from his hatred of matriarchal society and attitudes against female drow, he'd have a rough day or two of crisis before going "actually, I think I just want to date men and you're wrong." Which is demonstrably true.
11- Is your oc open about their identity? Are they more lowkey or more blunt about it? Why or why not?
Syryth doesn't feel the need to hide his identity, but he doesn't feel the need to state anything directly about himself either. He feels he doesn't owe mortals shit.
Lyn'ethe is quite open and extremely blunt. She's always been a very outspoken person, including in her gender transition, so it stands to reason that sexuality would be similar. She loves everyone and they love her, why hide it?
Izzeth is also very open and very blunt about it. He loves having a thing that he's a part of that's actually him, and to put it plainly, he likes to hit on guys. Sort of hard to hit on guys as much as he wants if he's in the closet.
15- Do any of your ocs use neopronouns? Which ones?
My current dnd character uses all pronouns, which could does include neopronouns
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Uhhh I love queer people, happy pride, never let the quantity of buff men and romance on this blog make you forget that I am an arospec dyke βοΈ