At the very end, we were nothing but ghosts: pale silhouettes painted in violence.
The blog is mostly dedicated to the appreciation of Rolan BG3 ¯\_(ᵕ—ᴗ—)_/¯. Gifs and writing. And Nimriel, of course, my drow OC you see plastered all over here :3 I also love wallowing in my misery from time to time, so, be warned! (,Ծ_Ծ,)
♥ All my gifs and pictures -> #wasteful sam stuff
♥ All my writing -> #wasteful sam fic
♥ Modded Rolans (aka Rolanverse): -> #Cambion Rolan, #Rolan the Miresworn, #Flower Knight Rolan, #Master Rolan (featuring @alrendriablaze amazing smutfic based on him :3)
♥ All Nimriel-related -> #OC: Nimriel
♥ Nimriel x Rolan -> #Thunder Valkyrie (I will expand it one day, I swear)
♥ How I recreate Rolan, Zevlor, and Dammon in BG3
♥ Nimriel masterpost - main information about my OC
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♥ Worthy - my main ongoing long fic (3rd person, multiple POVs). Rolan/female drow Tav named Nimriel + developing Dammon/Karlach relationships and some other winks at potential ships.
It's a slow-burn story with mutual pining, angst, and eventual smut. It covers the events of all three acts, mostly from Rolan's point of view, and expands on his character, giving him more agency. The same goes for some companions/minor characters.
The story can be found on AO3 or, if you prefer reading on Tumblr under the #the Worthy fic.
Wordcount: 76k+, ongoing
♥ Blades and hearts laid bare [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan x Nimriel, rough sex, cunnilingus, Rolan is confident and dominant AF, ass slapping (a lot), dirty talk).
After a close call in battle, Rolan and Nimriel have to confront the insatiable lust they have for each other. The lovers go through a full circle of emotions: anger, regret, passion, and devotion. Hiding feelings in plain sight, they succumb to each other, knowing that tomorrow may never come.
This fic is a part of the “Worthy” cannon, but can be read separately :3 Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 5,8k, finished
♥ That day, I died with him - horror (1st and 3rd person, Rolan's POW, body horror, psychological horror, blood and violence, angst, major character death).
The fic starts with the entry of Rolan's diary, where he recounts how he killed Lorroakan. The notes quickly reveal that Rolan struggles with piled-up mental issues caused by the events of the past and rapidly approaches the breaking point.
The fic is an entry to the Miresworn AU - a longfic I am slowly starting to work on. I have been consumed by the idea of writing a dark Rolan fic for a while now. A universe where Cal and Lia die in Shadow-Cursed Lands, and Rolan looks for ways to resurrect them. In his pursuit, he begins using Thay's Necromancy. As it slowly corrupts him, Rolan loses his grasp on reality and allies with Ascended Astarion to control Baldur’s Gate from the shadows and have full access to all its resources. The snippet of the story you’ve read takes place two years after the final battle.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 1,3k, finished, a part of the ongoing series.
♥ Only the moon bore witness to his yearning [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan's POV in chapter 1, double POVs in subsequent chapters).
Overtaken by his desperate longing for Tav, Rolan has no choice but to pleasure himself, letting his desires take complete control. In the following chapter, the dumbass gets caught by Tav, and the porn scenario ensues. ┐(︶▽︶)┌ Chapter 3 - soon, hopefully. 🥴
Read on AO3 or Tumblr: ch. 1, ch. 2
Wordcount: 4k+, ongoing
♥ Be as greedy as you want [18+] - smut. It is the reimagining of the "Don't be greedy" cutscene if BG3 was a full-on porn game T_T.
Basically, Rolan/f!Tav, shameless smut, 99% porn/1% plot, spontaneous drunk sex, groping, taunting, not-so-dirty dirty talk, confident Rolan gets what he fucking deserves, and all the good stuff. 👌
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 2,4k, finished
♥ The Master and his glove [18+] - short smut about Master Rolan. What can I say, I love writing Rolan masturbation scenes. (¬_¬”) But here's a twist: he does it with his leather glove. (꒪▿꒪)
Solo masturbation, a short and sweet fic. :3
Read on Tumblr
Wordcount: 720, finished
♥ Masks left behind - short, pure romance (??? inconceivable!). Rolan/f!Tav, post-canon, romantic fluff, double POV.
Two years have passed after the final battle for Baldur's Gate, and the new Master of Ramazith's Tower is invited to the Moonlight Masquerade celebration. At first glance, it seems that Rolan now has it all, earning the respect he deserves among the citizens and a peaceful life with his siblings. But tonight, a chance meeting makes him dare to dream beyond that. He yearns to give his heart to the woman he secretly adored all these years.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 3,191, finished
♥ A debt paid in lust [18+] - smut (3rd person, double POV). It is a shameless hatefucking. Rolan/female tiefling DU Vexis.
A short, one-chapter story. A quickie, one might say, to clench the urges. (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و My first smut ever, so, yeah...
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Some ramblings below, because it's like my diary or smth idk. CW war and mental health
I think I lost the remnants of my humanity. Because I was doing all this while listening to explosions outside. But my brain is so bacon and eggs at this point that I barely react.
I think the meds for panic attacks are killing my brain activity. Because everything happens in slow motion. And my mind throws absolutely idiotic thoughts at me while it all goes on.
Like, it is not normal to sit and think about cosmetic procedures on my legs, or that I should finish writing smut this weekend (if I survive echoes in my brain) when all of this is happening.
Yes, i take the meds to escape panic attacks, but i don't want to sit emotionless and think crazy thoughts while this is happening either.
Am I a real person anymore? Or does common sense makes me behave like a skin walker of my former self while all is left of me is an empty shell?
I am so tired, forever tired, 4 years tired, many more years tired after the war will be over. Sometimes it feels like my life is ruined irrevocably.
Ombra and Astarion, beautifully captured in these stunning shots by the amazing @cursed-nyxan.
I honestly don’t have the words to describe the joy I feel every time I see my two little gremlins brought to life through the eyes of such talented artists.
It’s a true privilege to be able to admire these images—to treasure them not only in my heart, but in my eyes as well, studying every little detail and nuance, hoping to learn from someone who inspires me so deeply.
This virtual photographer has such a distinctive style: natural tones that somehow also feel timeless, almost as though these moments had been preserved from another age.
And if you don’t already know their work, go check out their blog right now. Prepare to stare in awe, pick your jaw up off the floor… and then hit that follow button.
Thank you @gortashsrighthand for the tag, I loved the Disney versions of your OCs, and I had so much fun with it 🤗
Ellith as Hades (Hercules)🔥
Sassy, over-dramatic and theatrical, quick to anger but also positively manipulative, sly and revengeful... and rather funny? Yep, those two assholes could be one and the same, or at least, best buddies.
(also, they both like dead people)
And now I'm realising that this character might have unconsciously inspired me for Ellith 🤔😅
No pressure tag if you want to show the moot the Disney version(s) of your OC(s): @theya-art @optimisticgrey @missfortunetherogue @unovafarm @spillingteanotpermitted @starlit-serpent @scoldingdarjeeling @lilhumanoid @echoechowhiskey @michanvalentine @izumiphoenix @grlmmjow @wasted-sam @cursed-nyxan @bhaal-battle-beer-bard @mogruith @lucretiouswept @archduchessgortash @ejoym @yennefer-of-vengerbergs @liubovricci
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Since the third week of May I have been deliberating over these themes of the month. I see a lot of render artists participate in them. Mer-may. June is PRIDE. I had my eyes set on a combo dragon tail with matching wings since May. I wanted to do this and by the hells I'm going to force it into existence. Dragons/Demons July. Skip the fireworks I could care less. It's hott. And you know what else is hot? Dragons and Demons? Today I made Wyll as a Bad Dragon.
Writing WIP
I want to say thank you to the found family I have found myself in on Tumblr and Discord. Thank you for not pitchforking me. ⏾
And I will gently tag back. (And ignore my silliness if you already made a WIP Wednesday.)(And if I missed tagging you and you want to be tagged let me know. And if you don't want to be tagged let me know. I like communication. I'm nice I swear!)
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My first VP commission and despite my severely limited options, I did manage to find a few favorites from the session. That wasn't too hard, though, since Thomas makes for an outstanding model.
I work exclusively with Larian’s vanilla photo mode. No mods. No additional add-ons to enhance it. No maps. No external assets. No image editing on pc. Just the console photo mode exactly as Larian designed it. Yes, and yet this man has charisma in these pictures, because he needs nothing else. I like those.
Alpy, I hope you can find something in the selection that appeals to you and brings you joy—and perhaps brings us new pieces of writing for Veins of Glass.
Inspiration? Now with visual support to go along with it.
I'm just amazed and astounded. Look at him! He's got the Paxton Fettel vibes that just ooze control and pain. You got him! Every single shot is perfect. The crimson is perfect! His eyes. Just fuck, look at them eyes!
I won't be able to stop looking at these. Definitely going on my wallpaper on pc. Definitely going in Veins of Glass when I inevitably finish and print it.
Just a million times thank you @bhaal-battle-beer-bard! Thank you thank you thank you!!!!
Thank you @scoldingdarjeeling @optimisticgrey @gortashsrighthand @archduchessgortash and @spillingteanotpermitted for tagging me 🖤💛
I only just finished this ficlet, and will probably post it tomorrow, but you can have a sneak-peek 🦇
The bard relaxed, painfully aware of what it meant for Astarion to experience this: feeling alive, warm, unchained from hunger, in a body free from his past. Ellith looked at the clock. As usual they’d slept all day and it was already the end of the afternoon.
“Why don’t you go outside, Astarion?” They offered, their voice now soft and gentle. “And enjoy the sun before dusk?”
His eyes, golden bright and purple, shone and sparkled in the darkness of the room. “I… yes… Yes! I can do that.”
A large smile crawled on his lips as he jumped from the bed, the slender body he was inhabiting moving gracefully, which allowed Ellith to admire the lovely shape of their own curves. Their ass could have benefited more flesh, they thought, but there was something adorable in the flatness of their butt-cheeks.
Astarion rushed to the wardrobe to pick something to wear, and of course, he chose that dress, the one he always wanted Ellith to wear. A gift from him, and his favourite one. It made the bard smile, and they too stood up to put on Astarion’s shirt. “I’ll stay here in the meantime. I'll have a bath or something.”
As he clasped the last button, he walked up to them and pressed another kiss on their cheek. “All right dear, I’ll be back in a hour or so…” He grinned, obviously excited by the sunlight waiting for him outside. “Don’t you get too cheeky with that body while I’m out… We don’t want it too be to exhausted when I’ll come back, do we?”
Uno-reverse tag for all the lovely persons who tagged me + @theya-art @missfortunetherogue @unovafarm @carnivaley @israfela1 @aristenfromwarsaw @burnt-by-marigolds @yellomagoo @lucretiouswept @wasted-sam @riddlerosehearts @lilhumanoid if you have any WIP you want to share 🌟
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