At the very end, we were nothing but ghosts: pale silhouettes painted in violence.
The blog is mostly dedicated to the appreciation of Rolan BG3 Β―\_(α΅βα΄β)_/Β―. Gifs and writing. And Nimriel, of course, my drow OC you see plastered all over here :3 I also love wallowing in my misery from time to time, so, be warned! (,ΤΎ_ΤΎ,)
β₯ All my gifs and pictures -> #wasteful sam stuff
β₯ All my writing -> #wasteful sam fic
β₯ Modded Rolans (aka Rolanverse): -> #Cambion Rolan, #Rolan the Miresworn, #Flower Knight Rolan, #Master Rolan (featuring @alrendriablaze amazing smutfic based on him :3)
β₯ All Nimriel-related -> #OC: Nimriel
β₯ Nimriel x Rolan -> #Thunder Valkyrie (I will expand it one day, I swear)
β₯ How I recreate Rolan, Zevlor, and Dammon in BG3
β₯ Nimriel masterpost - main information about my OC
β₯ Tags - comment here if you want to be tagged in my gifs- and writing-related posts.
β₯ Want to request a gif/fic? Via comments or asks, and I will try mah best
β₯ Worthy - my main ongoing long fic (3rd person, multiple POVs). Rolan/female drow Tav named Nimriel + developing Dammon/Karlach relationships and some other winks at potential ships.
It's a slow-burn story with mutual pining, angst, and eventual smut. It covers the events of all three acts, mostly from Rolan's point of view, and expands on his character, giving him more agency. The same goes for some companions/minor characters.
The story can be found on AO3 or, if you prefer reading on Tumblr under the #the Worthy fic.
Wordcount: 76k+, ongoing
β₯ Blades and hearts laid bare [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan x Nimriel, rough sex, cunnilingus, Rolan is confident and dominant AF, ass slapping (a lot), dirty talk).
After a close call in battle, Rolan and Nimriel have to confront the insatiable lust they have for each other. The lovers go through a full circle of emotions: anger, regret, passion, and devotion. Hiding feelings in plain sight, they succumb to each other, knowing that tomorrow may never come.
This fic is a part of the βWorthyβ cannon, but can be read separately :3 Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 5,8k, finished
β₯ That day, I died with him - horror (1st and 3rd person, Rolan's POW, body horror, psychological horror, blood and violence, angst, major character death).
The fic starts with the entry of Rolan's diary, where he recounts how he killed Lorroakan. The notes quickly reveal that Rolan struggles with piled-up mental issues caused by the events of the past and rapidly approaches the breaking point.
The fic is an entry to the Miresworn AU - a longfic I am slowly starting to work on. I have been consumed by the idea of writing a dark Rolan fic for a while now. A universe where Cal and Lia die in Shadow-Cursed Lands, and Rolan looks for ways to resurrect them. In his pursuit, he begins using Thay's Necromancy. As it slowly corrupts him, Rolan loses his grasp on reality and allies with Ascended Astarion to control Baldurβs Gate from the shadows and have full access to all its resources. The snippet of the story youβve read takes place two years after the final battle.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 1,3k, finished, a part of the ongoing series.
β₯ Only the moon bore witness to his yearning [18+] - smut (3rd person, Rolan's POV in chapter 1, double POVs in subsequent chapters).
Overtaken by his desperate longing for Tav, Rolan has no choice but to pleasure himself, letting his desires take complete control. In the following chapter, the dumbass gets caught by Tav, and the porn scenario ensues. β(οΈΆβ½οΈΆ)β Β Chapter 3 - soon, hopefully. π₯΄
Read on AO3 or Tumblr: ch. 1, ch. 2
Wordcount: 4k+, ongoing
β₯ Be as greedy as you want [18+] - smut. It is the reimagining of the "Don't be greedy" cutscene if BG3 was a full-on porn game T_T.
Basically, Rolan/f!Tav, shameless smut, 99% porn/1% plot, spontaneous drunk sex, groping, taunting, not-so-dirty dirty talk, confident Rolan gets what he fucking deserves, and all the good stuff. π
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 2,4k, finished
β₯ The Master and his glove [18+] - short smut about Master Rolan. What can I say, I love writing Rolan masturbation scenes. (Β¬_Β¬β) But here's a twist: he does it with his leather glove. (κͺβΏκͺ)
Solo masturbation, a short and sweet fic. :3
Read on Tumblr
Wordcount: 720, finished
β₯ Masks left behind - short, pure romance (??? inconceivable!). Rolan/f!Tav, post-canon, romantic fluff, double POV.
Two years have passed after the final battle for Baldur's Gate, and the new Master of Ramazith's Tower is invited to the Moonlight Masquerade celebration. At first glance, it seems that Rolan now has it all, earning the respect he deserves among the citizens and a peaceful life with his siblings. But tonight, a chance meeting makes him dare to dream beyond that. He yearns to give his heart to the woman he secretly adored all these years.
Read on AO3 or Tumblr
Wordcount: 3,191, finished
β₯ A debt paid in lust [18+] - smut (3rd person, double POV). It is a shameless hatefucking. Rolan/female tiefling DU Vexis.
A short, one-chapter story. A quickie, one might say, to clench the urges. (ΰΉΛΜ΅α΄ΛΜ΅)Ω My first smut ever, so, yeah...
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Thank you so much for the tag, @deianestormborn (post here), @carnivaley (post here), and @perpetualmaladaptivedaydream (post here).
Ok, so, this photo is a part of the broader line of storytelling VPs, but it looks badass, so I wanted to edit it in a more brooding, sinister way, I guess xD
The WIP story itself involves Nim practicing fighting with daggers while Rolan watches and is very normal about it. You know, βcouplesβ things.β This, inevitably, leads to knife play - like I said, βcouplesβ things.β π₯΄
But honestly, I dunno when all these photos will be done, I am always intimidated by editing multiple-photo sets. x)
No-pressure tags (also sorry for double-tagging/if you've already been tagged): @cursed-nyxan @the-shadowfell-darkroom @optimisticgrey
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Soft Deia appreciation post. She looks entirely different without her usual grandeur. No dark makeup, no leather and silk, no smirk sharp enough to cut, no wild hair spilling everywhere. The version of herself that only Gale gets to see.
Was tagged by @burnt-by-marigolds in their gorgeous set of WIPs here. Please go check them out! They're so lovely and I love some narrative VP. Was delighted to be tagged to see those!
As I am always full of creative ideas but hampered by my health so I don't usually have much to offer these but the last few days I've actively working on a birthday gift for the lovely @mogruith! Like literally...I stopped the linework to post this.
It has gone through many stages of tweaking to make sure it actually looks like Coran. Had to make some adjustments after drawing from the original reference, but I think I got there! I'll put the reference below the cut for anyone interested to compare. It's been slow going as I try to get back into the groove of doing art again after a 5 year burnout, but I'm immensely happy with this sketch at the very least.
It's been so much fun bringing his cheeky little smile to life. What a pretty ourple muse he is. π
Soft tags for @elandra-beltharys @wasteful-sam @faircatch2025 @mogruith @ann-bg3-lol @litsenn @mercymaker @cursed-nyxan @bloodless-sandpiper @ratchsellsfornax @the-shadowfell-darkroom @purpleasters-inseptember @optimisticgrey any of my mutuals I forgot (which will be a lot I'm sure).
i don't have the patience to make this for all 4 of my girls atm so i only did this for mellie, but maybe i'll add the others later!
np tags, trying to tag whoever hasn't done this i lost trackπ @purpleasters-inseptember @cursed-nyxan @moon-bliss-bg3 @faeriiefire @amuletspore @elandra-beltharys @blacklodge13 @arlynx @ratchsellsfornax @fangedgrace @thesanguinesonnet
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Oooh so many, thank you! Answers under the cut! Please enjoy this image of when i made Syryth Izzy's dream guardian for one reason and one reason only
2- What's your oc's orientation? (Romantic/sexual/platonic alterous ect) Do they have opinions about it?
Syryth is bisexual and heteromantic, he's also probably somewhere on the aromantic spectrum. He wouldn't use labels personally and has no opinions on his own sexuality. He kind of does have the understanding of sexuality that a 150-year-old would, but without the potential bigotry given that his loose opinions about else that people find "immoral," whether justified or not.
Izzeth is gay across the board, and he'd actually say that once he learned the word for it. I think it's quite nice for him to have a label, and he thinks of it as both a personal and a social identity.
Lyn'ethe is queer with a preference for women. She doesn't think about it too hard.
7- Is there something that could cause your oc to question their identity? What?
Not really, especially with Syryth and Lyn'ethe. I do think if you tried to tell Izzeth his orientation might stem from his hatred of matriarchal society and attitudes against female drow, he'd have a rough day or two of crisis before going "actually, I think I just want to date men and you're wrong." Which is demonstrably true.
11- Is your oc open about their identity? Are they more lowkey or more blunt about it? Why or why not?
Syryth doesn't feel the need to hide his identity, but he doesn't feel the need to state anything directly about himself either. He feels he doesn't owe mortals shit.
Lyn'ethe is quite open and extremely blunt. She's always been a very outspoken person, including in her gender transition, so it stands to reason that sexuality would be similar. She loves everyone and they love her, why hide it?
Izzeth is also very open and very blunt about it. He loves having a thing that he's a part of that's actually him, and to put it plainly, he likes to hit on guys. Sort of hard to hit on guys as much as he wants if he's in the closet.
15- Do any of your ocs use neopronouns? Which ones?
My current dnd character uses all pronouns, which could does include neopronouns
21. Free ramble card wee
Uhhh I love queer people, happy pride, never let the quantity of buff men and romance on this blog make you forget that I am an arospec dyke βοΈ
to tell your favorite creator that their work means something to you.
Especially if they're quiet. If they seem distant. If they come across as a little intimidating, a little snobbish, or awkward whenever someone compliments them.
There's a good chance that their work is simply their primary language.
Some people pour most of their energy into creating rather than communicating. Into learning, experimenting, refining, and trying to capture a feeling exactly the way they imagined it. They speak through stories, shots, paintings, edits, music, or words.
And many of them never really had the chance to learn how to accept praise in the first place.
But that doesn't mean they don't remember it.
Most of them remember far more than they let on.
And more often than not, they answer in the language they know best: by creating something new.
Something more thoughtful. More ambitious. More beautiful than the last piece.
Not because they feel obligated to repay kindness, but because genuine support has a remarkable way of making people want to keep creating. In fact, many creators remember kind words for years.
A comment left under a post. A message sent on a random afternoon. A repost with a thoughtful note attached.
Most people never realize how much those things matter.
I've been lucky enough to know creators like that, both inside and outside this fandom. They're often quiet, self-contained people who spend countless hours improving their craft, learning from the strangest places, collecting knowledge one tiny piece at a time.
And I've also been lucky enough to know incredibly kind people who regularly remind me (often against my willπ ) that artists tend to be much harsher on themselves than anyone else ever could.
Lately, I've watched more and more creators quietly drift into the background.
Maybe it's summer.
Maybe the fandom is getting older.
Maybe people are simply tired, busy, or dealing with things outside the internet.
Most likely, it's a combination of all of those things.
But it made me wonder:
Does that person know they inspired you?
Do they know that their work brightened difficult days, made you smile, gave you ideas, or helped you love a character even more?
You'd be surprised how many people have absolutely no idea that they did.
So perhaps today is as good a day as any to remind themπ€
I love the bit of lore that tieflings name their children after virtues, vices, or just concepts, itβs such a cool detail anyway this is to say i think itβd be funny if Cal and Lia were actually named Calamity and Liability
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He enjoyed all the fame and glamour of a bard's life, yet under all the rosy paint was a gentle heart. Thorien wanted nothing more than to make a difference in how the surface world viewed drow, especially those fleeing the horror of living under the Spider Queen's tyranny.
