[Iâve been meaning to give a status report forever, but I didnât want it to become too bleak and pessimistic, but now that things have become a bit better for me, I believe, I am ready to give it a go.
So⌠thing is, my health has been REALLY bad for the past months, probably worse than it has ever been â and yes, I did see this coming back in April, but I wasnât taken seriously. So I kept getting worse with every month to pass, and given how Iâve also been turned away by âprofessionalsâ  on multiple occasions and refused treatment for being 'too illâ, I couldnât be honest about how urgent my health problems truly were to the professional Iâd turned to as my last resort, meaning⌠âCome back in a week, then in two weeks, then in a month, then in another two weeks, so we can talk more about maybe actually starting your treatment sometime⌠after another talk with results that donât do anything for you.â
And no, Iâm still not even back to the shape I was in before the April setback, but at least, my treatment finally started about a month ago and Iâve been feeling the first positive effects for about two weeks now, as I finally got meds thatâd get rid of at least most of the horrible chest pains Iâve baaaaasically been having all day when I was particularly unlucky, but definitely for multiple hours and every day.
In this context, I donât think it is necessary for me to go into detail about why I havenât been able to RP and why I havenât been responding to any messages as quickly as I used to, though I will apologize for not having been open about this sooner instead of simply disappearing.
I do want to go back to RPing as Shun and Ruri â and also as Serena, and it is important to me to emphasize on that. As my concentration is still crappy as hell, though, (given how getting rid of the chest pains was just one of many necessary steps) I cannot give an realistic estimate for WHEN I will be able RP regularly again or for when Iâll reach a specific point in my recovery thatâd allow me to [sucessfully do thing X], and I also donât want to make any promises I cannot realistically keep.
For that reason, I will simply say that Iâll be doing my best as I focus on getting better. Whether that means one reply per week or none at all for another month or two (or maybe more, should my condition improve or I just have a good day in general?), I canât say and Iâm not going to guess either as I donât want to disappoint anyone - first and foremost myself.Â
But yes, I am still here and I am still trying â and no, my love for Shun and Ruri hasnât changed in the slightest and I do miss RPing a lot.
As always, I am still lurking and checking my RP dash daily even if I havenât made any actual posts in ages, and everyone is absolutely welcome to come and talk to me about anything â potential plots included, just⌠please no pressure.]