My Folly Continues ch 3 Sneak peek
Just a little sample of whats going to happen in the third chapter of "My Folly Continues". Warning...we're going to a dark place...so if things like Sex work, dubious consent, toxic abusive relationships, suicidal thoughts, and borderline sexual assault trigger you, please skip this and have a lovely day!
Those of you who want some good angst and can handle it, hop aboard the pain train!
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/62736592/chapters/160609435#workskin
Link to the work in question.
Summary: Gale is a prostitute who got away from Vampire Ascendent Astarion. Mystra punished him by helping break his chain and giving him the ability to be in the sun, but she kept him a spawn and made the orb crave magical items again.
Summary for this chapter: Astarion pays for a night with Gale, and it doesn't go as either of them plan. In this specific snippet, Gale has Disassociated during the sex and retreats to his inner Mind Palace for some relief.
Rated: E for sexual content and lots of angst and suicidal thoughts, nothing too bad in this snippet though
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Gale had long since stopped feeling his body. He didn’t need to be in it at the moment…if he could help it, he would never return to himself again.
As he laid there, letting Astarion use him…as so many others have before…his mind wandered through the safe palace he’d crafted for himself…his mind palace. He retreated here when it got too difficult for him. Let his body go on autopilot so he could maintain some sense of sanity.
His mind palace…it always took the form of his tower in Waterdeep…his library. The same place he’d once pulled Astarion to in an illusion. He gushed about his books, the view, and his desire to share all of it with his beloved.
…before he failed to save Astarion from himself.
In a way…this was his fault…he deserved this…deserved the cards dealt to him. He didn’t stop Astarion…he should have stopped him. But in his desire to please…to keep Astarion at his side…he stood back and let him do as he pleased…just like now.
He was so afraid of losing Astarion if he spoke out against ascending…he was willing to turn away and allow him to commit atrocities…kill thousands to gain a power that no one should weild.
And he fucking lost him anyways.
If Gale was present, he would laugh. But no…in the distance he could still feel Astarion inside him…moaning, spitting vile insults, ripping and biting and tearing him as much as the contract allowed.
He couldn’t come back yet…no…he didn’t want to return yet.
Let me stay here…let me stay in Waterdeep for just a little while…let me pet Tara and read my books and see my mother in the morning. Please…let me be anywhere but here…with him…
Let me speak up and stop him from destroying us both…please…
Astarion…I want Astarion back…please…please…PLEASE!! Give him back! I want to be with him in Waterdeep! I want to bring him here with my books and my Tara and my view of the harbor!
I want to make love in my bed…with him, only him!
No more strangers…no more pain…no more hunger or orb…
Please…I can’t take any more…
He felt the tower fade around him…felt the lights shift from the warm glow of sunset to the cold white of candlelight. He saw his library shift into the shelves of his prison…filled with books that were a mockery of true literature.
And he felt pain courseing through his body as the Ascendant’s panting form appeared above him.
No…no please….let me stay…just a little while longer, please! I don’t want to go back…I can’t be with him!
I want to die! Please just kill me! Please KILL ME!
“Please…” Gale mumbled out into the ceiling…
Astarion stilled, glancing at him with a raised brow, “Please what?”
Gale’s eyes never met his…they stared still…vacantly…like they’d been doing for a while now. But the words never came. Gale closed his mouth…so Astarion rolled his eyes and continued using him.
A single tear managed to slide down Gale’s cheek…going unnoticed as what he wanted to say rattled around in his brain…unable to come out hrough the fog of his mind.
