warm touches turned cold

We don't spend much time together outside of work. I'm lucky for a mere 15 minutes of your time outside of work weekly. Fucking ridiculous btw

We don't go on dates

We've never been on a date

You have never stayed the night at my house

You still leave me on read sometimes

We don't tell each other much about our days when we're not at work bc we barely talk

You have only ever bought me one gift for no reason that wasn't food and I had to bring it up several times

You don't care if we take our breaks together or not

You don't wait for me after work bc I take 10 minutes longer than you

We've not met any of each others family

Your fb still says single 🚩🚩🚩

You don't ever tell me I'm pretty or beautiful without me asking you if you think so. You never just tell me I'm pretty...ever. never. Ever. Not that I'm beautiful or pretty or even cute. You don't see a selfie and tell me I'm pretty.

You never go out of your way to do anything to help me and I'll never fucking ask

I know all this and yet I like you so much that I just keep accepting it. I just keep trying to be okay with it. I haven't wanted to pressure you or rush you.

I moved for a lot of reasons, but one was definitely so that we'd have somewhere to be comfortable at, and we hang out less now.

I just feel horrible and stupid.

You love me

But only when you're drunk.

It bursts out of you, like you've been holding it in forever. And it feels so nice in the moment.

But then morning comes