-i forced mom to take me to the NYE party last night and #TheBoy wasn’t even there. i got all dressed up and insisted we go for no reason.

-im supposed to start an internship tomorrow but have only heard from the woman ONCE on dec 6. she was overly enthusiastic, but hasn’t contacted me since to confirm details. i’ve emailed 3 times (total) and reached out through our family friend, and am still being ignored. so unprofessional! so ridiculous! i guess i won’t go, but i don’t want to miss this opportunity. she didn’t even agree to my start date, or working days of the week, or hours, or dress code, or ANYTHING. i have no information. just that i suggested i start tomorrow, which she has not responded to.

-i asked my 2 friends if we could hang out together on new years eve and they said “sure definitely we will let you know” and then the week before NYE they said no plans had come up.... so i accepted a babysitting job which got off at about 11pm new years eve. so then i forced my mom to take me to the family party (where i didn’t see #TheBoy) and then i saw on snapchat that my friends ACTUALLY DID HANG OUT WITHOUT ME and didn’t invite me!!! they’ve not-invited me before and i’ve called them out but they still do it.

-my back hurrttsss

-i weigh about 30lbs more than i’d like to, and i want to lose 30lbs before graduation (4 months away).... but i know that’s not realistic.... im just thinking about how good i’d look in grad pics of i did :(

-i need to start networking/applying to gap year jobs but i have no motivation and am too overwhelmed 

-i need to start the moho pre-app