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It's been exactly two months and I'm so angry at myself that I'm still so hurt by the breakup. Like why can't I just get over it instead of laying awake every night trying to understand how someone could look you in the eyes and tell you all the ways they love you and then say they don't less than 48 hours later? How does someone wake up one day and realize they aren't in love with the person they were in love with before they fell asleep? Ugh, I'm so tired of feeling so pathetic (and I really miss having sex) and I don't know how to get over this UGH

I've spent at least 10 hours each day laying in bed for the past two weeks because I don't know how to cope with being heartbroken and my job ended on Sunday so now I'm basically unemployed and I have no idea what I'm doing with my life and all I can care about is finishing Grey's Anatomy and that scares me