Wanderinganima

I've been sitting here listening to all the sad old songs lol and I'm not even drinking unless you count cold coffee which i dont.

I have a new caregiving pt job to keep a feisty 90 yr old cool woman who unfortunately has dementia which i keep company and both of us occupied and out of trouble. HA!

On the other side of my day I attended a celebration of life for my niece Patricia who suffered horribly from fucking cancer bullshitting fucking disease... she was only 50 and as beautiful as her mother who also died way too young. It was at a Royal Canadian Legion and just a bit ...I dont know how to put it but no one said anything...like there wasn't even an opportunity to do so.

I don't know when they started to call funerals celebration of life but I want mine to be a real celebration of life and have my favourite songs all of them hahahaha and all my people and I want everyone to know its ok to cry ...today was weird.

So I dont know what y'all do on an emotional challenged day but ...

Why so sad ...

...walking around wit dem Blue Faces on this Blue Monday ?

This year I strive to be :

less sensitive, less insecure, cry less tho I'm crying writing this so I dont know how that one will work LMFAO 🙃

I want to believe in myself more of who I am and what I can be. Finally at 65 !

I want to be less stressed...

I want to not give a shit about people who don't understand how a good life can be without negativity and strife ...I'm not even sure what i am trying to say but i just want to be comfortable being just me.