The Little Things.

It's time.

Feeling really down tonight. Joined a Beach Body group with my SIL but found the containers and plan were SUPER triggering for me, as was the INTENSE pressure the group put on me. Told my SIL in confidence my struggles with BED and told her the Beach Body plan wasn't for me, but I still planned on pursuing health and wellness on my own. In my own way. That's healthy for ME. Well, they kicked me out of all of the support groups RIGHT AWAY. The groups are "secret" and since I'm not following the plan, apparently I can't be part of it. It really hurt my feelings because 1) my SIL clearly aired my personal business (or at least told them I was "quitting") and 2) just because I'm not following their plan doesn't mean I won't be successful and won't be a supportive member of the group. Whatever. I feel like they're a bunch of mean girls that happen to live and work in my community. I have to see them allllll the time and all I can think is that they either know my BED struggles (very personal) or they think I quit and won't be successful and will be the fat sister forever. Ugh. I hate feeling like this! Mean. Girls.