chi

i made it to 24. who would have thought? idk. lifes been hard.

my dad passed away. i have a hole in my heart now. a part of me is missing. id do anything to have him back.

got out of a really, really, really bad relationship. the scars from the pain are still there but im doing okay.

struggling with self-image. a lot.

idk if i believe in love or any of that shit.

25 is so close & idk how im almost halfway to 30 already. tumblr reminds me of when i was 14. in highschool. its been 10 years.

i see the students i teach & i see myself in some of them. some of them feel like siblings & i wish pure happiness & blessings for them.

overall…. i just miss my dad man. i feel like a hug from him would solve so many things that im feeling. knowing he wont meet his grandchildren, attend my wedding, see me get my masters. knowing i wont get to watch his hair turn greyer & greyer & wrinkles start to form. knowing i cant say “hi dad” or call anyone dad for the rest of my days. the things id do to have him back on this earth.. i miss you dad.