Wormwood

Descansa en paz amiga 💔 no sé porqué pensé que tendría más tiempo para volver a hablarte, juntarme contigo y reír como lo hacía siempre que te veía ✨ Me regalaste momentos en los que fui realmente feliz y no me di cuenta. Momentos que hoy parecen tan extraños y distantes. Qué pena darme cuenta de esta manera que no supe valorarte y que nunca sabrás cuánto lo lamento, cuánto quisiera volver a hablar contigo y pedirte perdón. Me arrepiento tanto. En toda mi vida nunca sufrí la pérdida de alguien cercano. Me has enseñado una lección tan dolorosa, la vida no espera y el tiempo no perdona. Como quisiera que supieras todo esto, lo importante que fuiste para mi. Quisiera poder darte las gracias por tanto. Por recibirme en tu casa y presentarme a tus bellos hijos. Por hacerme una parte de tu vida. Un ser humano maravilloso ha dejado esta tierra y me ha dejado con el alma rota. Qué pena no haber alcanzado a decirte lo hermosa que eras. Voy a extrañarte siempre, y siempre voy a estar en deuda contigo. No tengo más palabras para sacarme esta tristeza que siento. Ella era mi amiga y se llamaba Areli 🖤 (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsO0N24nP51/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1mgc6hxgy89cw

📷 @rspnyc <rant> Ok so I see a lot of posts about self love based on accepting yourself physically and I just wanna say - be gentle with yourself. it’s ok for your body to be imperfect and it’s also okay for your mind to be. Don’t beat yourself over not meeting the requirements you set for yourself -they only exist in your mind- It’s okay to be a lil sad or weird sometimes. It’s okay if you can’t handle all the stress, its okay if you fall back into comparing yourself to others, it’s okay if you mess up. You can always pick up where you left off and do your best again. My point being, don’t set conditions for your self love. Love yourself anyways. Love yourself through the entire process of learning how to do so properly. It’s okay wanting to be a lil prettier or to have more followers or getting your lips done or whatever the hell it is you wanna change about yourself while you scroll through Instagram. What matters is making changes from a place of unconditional love for who you are NOW Instead of using negative talk to instigate change. learn to give the same love to others. Don’t subjugate others to your own ideals, no one is obligated to behave as you think they should. Accept them as they are with their flaws and everything. You might find you’re really attached to ideals that are causing you more pain than happiness or that you have been evading yourself and others for this reason, who knows how long. Let go of judgment and expectations for yourself and others. This will help you heal from previous relationships and forgive. My intention is to see more humanity and less ego bullshit in 2019 u feel me #newyearsresolution #growup (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Br8LOqrn4T0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=4urnd2wisvbd

smol tiddies @sundaeflix https://www.instagram.com/p/Br2spIYn9BI/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=cag4uf9kis5w

Hangin by the telephone 🎵 ☎️ 📞✨ @ddcxpressions shot at @fdphotostudio #losangeles #model (at FD Photo Studio) https://www.instagram.com/p/Brk0-hMnIc0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1m04pvo6jz2mf

@rspnyc always making me look like a lil angel 🖤 #lamodels #losangeles #tattooedmodels #suicidegirls (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Brc94AinLI-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=en3z1owu61k9

@darth_slr has amazing poster calendars for sale featuring me 💕 check out the link in his bio to purchase • #eroticart #calendars #losangeles #lamodel #hollywood (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrX1KjuHn3W/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=g237c9v36kz3

Tell me how you like my shoots with @rspnyc with emojis 💕✨ whoever leaves the most comments gets this full size 5x7 print (cropped the original to post) full set is coming to my p a t r e o n 🙂 #lamodel #boudoir #losangeles #california #lingerie (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrQ2OPQnLBj/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ez3258alouhl

dreaming of warmer days in the desert 🌸 jk I actually prefer colder weather and am happy it’s raining in LA rn 📸: @darth_slr *censored for the nipple police in compliance to Instagram guidelines* #desert #losangeles #california #model (at Mojave Desert) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrAnAX3HBIv/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=zwhq9gzke32e

Suave como un ronroneo 🐾 🐱by @rspnyc 💕 #lamodels #losangeles (at Marina del Rey, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq-GXujHGXM/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=13b7kbnec9ocq

Lights are dim Sun is down Love you more when no one’s around . 📸: @benhoneyb #blackandwhitephotography #fishnets https://www.instagram.com/p/BqxQUQnnbP9/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=5cuvj2vm2jul

Always a pleasure shooting with @rspnyc 💕✨full set will be on p a t r e o n tonight https://www.instagram.com/p/BqsndnIHS3E/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1r4mhksp15u7x

Making jewelry is something I truly love 💎 and seeing women wearing my designs and sharing this love for unique handcrafted jewelry is such an amazing feeling 💘 Follow @vampbunny if you’d like to see the things I come up with 😊 📸: @whiskey_shotz (at Bar Sinister) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqFWq9Hn2-Z/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=p5nhtnis35t4

‘Twas my first time 🎃 #pumpkinpatch #halloween (at Mr. Bones Pumpkin Patch) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpX3ORpHHnn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=b0t8j8ofp5gz

Wanna feel ethereal 🌈 (at Hollywood) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpCR7JHHF-V/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ipm2bl0t0995

About #nationalcomingoutday 🌈 I came out as #pansexual roughly ten years ago because I strongly believe that gender doesn’t determine whether I’m attracted to someone or not and that gender isn’t binary. It’s a full spectrum. Even after ten years there’s still a lot of ignorance when it comes to my sexual orientation, people either chuckle or don’t know what I’m talking about when I get asked that question. It’s been ten years since I made peace with that part of my identity, and because I was sixteen at the time I came out, many people believed I was joking or that I was too young to really understand it, or that being into #trans people was gross. But I had to let people talk and let them think about me whatever they wanted. My identity is more complex that they could ever grasp. People find their way to be mean when there’s hate within them. Me? I’ve got nothing but love to give. I grew to become a strong female, one that can stand for what she truly believes in 💞 (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo0G0J7HLt4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1kz43bjg8wd7s

In work uniform: mesh, lace and black pumps 🖤🥀 📸 @benhoneyb (at Portland, Oregon) https://www.instagram.com/p/BornRQSnjke/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=107gti3infwdd