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A firm slap followed by a stern “Excuse me”?

Bending her over mid sentence for inspection. It’s hard to sass when you’re exposed like that.

Grabbing a fistful of her hair, forcing her head up to meet my gaze, and saying “mind your manners”.

Pulling her over my lap for a quick, but hard spanking. It should be under 2 minutes, but intense enough to remind her it could go a *lot* longer.

Making her kneel beside you while you’re finishing something up. Stuffing her panties in her mouth and warning her not to drop them is an added bonus.

Cuffing her hands behind her then exposing her tits. Reminding her that she’s eye candy needs to drop the attitude.

Yanking her pants to her knees, grabbing a tight hold of her neck, and marching her to the corner. Make her hold whatever position you prefer once she’s there, but her struggling to keep up and the look on her face while you remind her who’s in charge and what you’re going to do to her for misbehaving is perfect.

Making her strip naked for a spanking. Pull her over your lap, and make her sit there for a while before you actually begin. Spank her, make her get on her knees and apologize, then pull her back over your lap to finish the spanking. That keeps her off balance and submissive.

Grabbing her cheeks with one hand, forcing her mouth open, spitting inside it, closing her mouth, forcefully telling her to swallow, then sweetly asking “what were you saying”?

For years, I gave myself orgasms whenever I wanted. For years, if I asked to masturbate, he was guaranteed to say yes. The important thing was asking permission, not having my orgasms restricted.

That’s not how we do things anymore.

In recent months, we’ve gradually shifted to stricter orgasm control. He’s more likely to say no than to say yes. Orgasms are earned. If I’ve just finished menstruating and am feeling extra horny as a result, it’s unlikely that I’ll be allowed to cum for at least another 3-5 days. 10 days is the absolute max that I can be denied before it stops being fun for either of us, but 5-8 days is typically the range in which he likes to make me suffer.

We’ve discovered that I react to a period of denial in interesting ways.

Unsurprisingly, it makes me needier. I’m always aching and frequently wet. I have conditioned my body for instant relief, so even a day of denial leaves me bucking against the hand he slips between my thighs, desperate for sensation.

But the sexual frustration also makes me soft. Receptive. Floaty. I sink deeper into a submissive headspace. Everything is yes, sir and no, sir. I feel ready and willing for him to use me or hurt me. I told him the other night that it feels like I’m not thinking with my brain anymore, but with my pussy. I called it my ‘yes daddy, whatever you want, daddy’ headspace. 

I’ve realized this:

In a period of denial, my most intense need is not to cum, but to serve.

Today marks my ninth day without an orgasm. He says I can cum tonight, after I’ve cooked him dinner and he’s beaten me and fucked me. In the meantime, he’s been pinching my nipples, spanking me and choking me when he pleases. He’s been slapping my throbbing pussy and then sticking his fingers inside of me. And I’ve just taken it, happily. Eagerly.

I didn’t think I’d be able to bear losing my orgasms, not even briefly. I wasn’t sure that I could surrender that freedom. After actually experiencing the denial, though, I’ve realized that while the orgasms fulfill a physical need, I don’t actually crave them in the same way that I crave his control. The desire for his dominance has become stronger than my desire to cum, and the longer that I am denied, the more submissive I feel.

You get in a primally submissive position (bent over sticking your butt out or on your back with your legs spread in the air), someone bigger and larger sticks their cock in you and vigorously rails you, while you usually enjoy and get off on the feeling of getting dominated/owned.

Oh, don’t look at me like that, sweetie! I know being top of the class always used to be sooo important to you, but you’re just cuter when you’re a little dumber <3

So, you’ve decided to edge. That’s great! It’s the first step to turning all those pesky brains into pretty pink mush. But, just rubbing without cumming isn’t good enough. Here are some easy tips to take your edging to the next level ❤️

Stick your tongue out 👅 like a cute little puppy. This is a great way of just feeling dumber when you rub. It’s pathetic and desperate and best of all adorable. Don’t be afraid to drool too. Let all that spit dribble over those big fake tits. Good girls look best covered in their own mess.

Don’t break eye contact 👀 Stare into the screen and never break away. Become obsessed, transfixed. Lock your eyes onto your porn. Even when your giving your pussy a break, keep filling that mushy brain with cocks and tits. Forget where you are, who you are, what you’re even doing. All you care about is how good it feels to rub and how jiggly her tits look when she bounces on that yummy cock.

Use headphones 🎧 just like you don’t want to see anything but tits, pussy and cock, you don’t want to hear anything but moaning and begging. Noise cancelling headphones are perfect for this. Not only will the moans fill your head, sounding like you’re actually there, it blocks out all those pesky distractions. Don’t worry about being walked in on. They’ll probably just start jacking off to what a pathetic little bimbo you are.

Mumble whatever your thinking 🧠 You don’t want to just rub, encourage that silly little imagination. Say whatever thoughts come into your head. Listen as they devolve slowly from thoughts to words. Thinking to repeating. “I wanna play with her big tits” will become “Bouncy. Bouncy. Bouncy” In no time. This can be made even better with headphones because you can’t hear yourself speak, so you think about it less. This is one of the hardest changes but also the most effective. Don’t force it, just keep speaking and let it happen. Best of all you’re showing your daddy just how stupid you’ve become ❤️ he’ll be so proud.

Suck on something 💋A dildo is best but anything work, lollipop, icy-pole, even your fingers. Even better if you can make it taste yummy. You want to teach your brain to love sucking. Connect the pleasure in your pussy to the joy of sucking. Soon you won’t be able to rub without something in your mouth. It’ll feel odd and you’ll miss it. You’ll be forced to fill your mouth every time you touch your pussy. Soon after that, the feeling won’t go away. It’s not just when edging now. It’s always. Your mouth feels empty without something in it, you need to suck to be happy. Daddy always lets you suck doesn’t he?

Taste yourself 👄 fall in love with the taste of your own pussy. Don’t just do it to be cute, do it because you like it. You want to taste your pussy. You want to be wetter so there’s more pussy juice to shovel into that dumb little mouth. It makes you happy. You need to be wet to taste but tasting makes you wet. Keep going. Taste and taste until your pussy is soaking wet and your cheeks are smeared with your own wetness. Train your pussy. It wants to be wet. It needs to be wet.

Add chance 🎲 Don’t just rub as long as you want, let change decide for you. There are a ton of edging games out there but you can make your own. It’s a fun way of submitting. You lose so much power, flipping a coin or rolling a dice, praying to finally be free. It’s an adrenaline rush that adds so much more to the experience. But along with that, it will push you and your pussy further than you ever could. Sure you might thinking edging 20 times is impressive but when you roll snake eyes and have to face a 50 edge punishment, you’ll reach a whole new meaning of cum crazy. Let your daddy make the rules if he wants, he can even enforce them as he wishes.

Why are you attracted to older men? 

Do you find yourself feeling attracted to older men? You might be interested in figuring out why; is it psychological, or something else entirely? The truth is, you can’t control who you’re attracted to. And even though stereotypes around older/younger relationships do exist, you should know that your feelings are totally normal.

Being attracted to older men is totally normal, and even though stigmas around age-gap relationships exist, you should follow your heart.

You’re biologically hardwired.

Some studies suggest that younger people have an evolutionary pull toward older men. Some of this relates to genetics—theoretically, older men have higher status and more resources at their disposal. Because of this, you might be drawn to physical features that signal this status. You might be totally enamored by his:

* Salt and pepper hair

* Classic style

* Crows feet and wrinkles

You like their sexual experience.

It can take years to come into your own sexually. If you’re attracted to older men, you might just like that they know exactly what to do and exactly how to do it. After years of practicing their moves, pleasing their partners, and reflecting on their own sexual desires, your older crush might just be exceptional between the sheets. That makes total sense!

* Because older men might be more secure in themselves, some might be more comfortable with your sexuality, too.

* Specifically, if you have certain things that you really like, he might be totally comfortable meeting those needs.

You crave stability.

Most people spend their younger years figuring themselves and their lives out. Older men have already worked through all of this; and in fact, they’re probably well-established professionally, financially, and personally. If you’re attracted to that, that makes total sense! Success can make you feel protected in a relationship—like if you needed help, he could take care of you. Specifically, you might like:

* That he’s super successful in his career. He might be able to discuss fascinating career wins and personal knowledge.

* That his home or apartment is well-furnished. He’s had years to create a curated environment, and you might love that.

* That he’s settled financially. While a younger man might still be taking financial risks and building up his savings, you might appreciate that he has extra cushioning.

You’re attracted to maturity.

Older men have had time to figure themselves out—he’s probably happy with himself and his choices. Because of this, he’ll likely struggle less with insecurities that can hurt your relationship. So you know those mind games that younger men play? He’s not interested in them. And if you’re into that kind of composure, that makes sense. He might also:

* Be honest with you about his feelings. He’s not likely to hold back in an effort to keep you guessing. When an older man is interested, he’ll probably tell you.

* Respect your ambition. Less insecurity means less of a chance that he’s threatened by your success. He might be more likely to support and celebrate your career.

* Understand his role in a healthy relationship. An older man has been in great relationships and bad ones. He knows what he needs to do to make this relationship a great one.

You’re tired of men your own age.

After tons of bad dates with immature guys, it makes sense that you’d be looking for greener pastures. If you’re suddenly only interested in older men, it could be because you’re turned off by bad experiences with dates your own age. Subconsciously, you might be looking for a way to avoid the same heartbreak or frustrations. Specifically younger guys might’ve been:

* Unfaithful

* Unwilling to commit

* Poor communicators

You appreciate old-fashioned dating norms.