Sorry Mom but I'm Below Empty

I've never been more alone.

There aren't any tricks to it allow yourself to feel empty

I don't deserve obsession

I told you I wanted to die and you left me for it. Guess how that made me feel. LIKE I WANTED TO DIE.

Why can't I eat anymore?

It's never going to feel the same again.

No one wants to hear me talk about it anymore.

I know you asked me not to, but it doesn't seem like my choice anymore does it?

I'm not mad you left. I held open the door and made sure to double check the lock.

You're always reminding me that none of it actually matters. I like to lie to you and agree. It makes lying to myself that much easier.

No one wants to love the ghost possessing someone's body.

This is what happens when you assign your hobbies and passions as personal attributes then lose your vigor for these activities and in turn become completely void of personality.

I keep on trying to look for myself but the more I do the more I keep finding out I was never that person to begin with.