and I couldn't say a thing

it’s interesting how different things are now compared to a year ago. guess I really was just as miserable as I used to be though

i wish i weren’t so scared of everything

tfw you are a describing a relationship you no longer have and you get a lot of “that sounds really abusive how’d you deal with that” and you just sorta ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ that was just how life was back then

i hope this is what you wanted

ive tried so hard to let it go, to move past it, but i cant. i still cant

i regret meeting you

i just want to forget. i don’t care if you think it’s me trying to get away from the consequences, i just want to forget it all

i don’t think you know how lonely it’s been for me

2018 is the year of getting my shit together and not putting up with disrespect anymore

i hope you needed it too. well wishes, old friend

so thank you for leaving. thank you for letting me go. i needed it

i want you to be happy, but not in my life. that’s just not possible with who we are as people right now, but i do want you to be happy

i have this sort of inner peace right now. and for the first time, i feel strong enough to handle anything coming my way

in the weirdest of ways, getting cut out was the best possible thing that you could of done for me. i am so much happier without you and i’ve only just realized it

i don’t think i’ve ever thought of myself as a person. more like, an animal, or a monster