used to be vocaloid posting now its just art posting in general.

the awesome thing about making art for me and only me is that every once in a while there will be another person who feels like the art is made for them and only them. moments like that remind me that, no matter what, someone can always relate to me! thank you!

it's nice to know that my art resonates like that... my gender is endlessly complicated by dissociative identity disorder and years of compounding trauma, to the point where i often have no clue what to call myself. since i was in my early teens, i've been indulging in hyperfeminine soft aesthetics as both a way to comfort myself and a way to shield myself. if i'm cute enough, maybe people won't hit me so hard. if i'm cute enough, maybe people won't want to bully me anymore. if i'm cute enough, maybe someone will keep me around for a little longer, letting me believe in the facade of their love for just one more moment before i'm cruelly disposed of again. of course, none of this really happens, and if anything, it only made me more of a target since my "childish" aesthetics stood out. sometimes people would even use that hyperfeminity as an excuse to hurt me even more. still, though, drowning myself in frills feels far more comforting and safe than anything else. that sort of thing reflects a lot in my artwork - i learned how to draw proper frills before i learned how to draw basic anatomy, lol... anyway, thank you for enjoying my art.

the moronic pest. the foolish vermin. the imbecile parasite. the know-nothing beast. the creepy-crawly cretin. the

i'm happy that my artwork motivates you to create things of your own! i've always wanted to create art that inspires others to create art, so it means a lot to me that i've finally reached a point where i'm achieving that goal...

thank you for enjoying my artwork!

yes, idiot bug is a robot! i like to use robot characters as a way to explore autism, childhood trauma, physical disability, and gender struggles through a degree of separation.

i didn't watch the concert... i don't approve, because i headcanon kaito as a woman, so she can't be yaoi with anyone in my mind.

i don't know who that character is, unfortunately... upon looking them up, though, it's kind of funny how similar the hair shape is to meika hime! there's even a gradient, too!

thank you! i don't know you, but i hope you're amazing too!

thank you! messages like this inspire me to keep creating!

thank you! when i designed idiot bug, i didn't really think much about it, and just designed a character vaguely based off of my old appearance but as a robot thing with whatever random design elements i thought were cute and easy/fun to draw... i definitely could have refined it more, but i'm not sure what i would do at this point in time. maybe i'll give them an alternate design if i release a new voicebank!

i'm sure you meant the character of adachi rei, but my alter who's introjected from adachi rei wanted to say hi... i'll let her type something!

hello.

...wow! she really is a robot of few words, huh!

unfortunately i'm not sure who you could be, but ever since i received this ask, i've been wondering what to say in response... it means a lot to me that i've had this much of a positive impact on someone, even if it was within a traumatizing past of mine that i don't remember much of anything from anymore. a part of me wanted to reach out and ask who you are, to see if maybe i could recognize you if i knew your name, but... i assume that, since you sent this message anonymously in the first place, that's not what you'd want.

i've always struggled with my self-image. there's always a nagging part of me that insists i'm an evil and uncaring person who hates everything and wishes the worst for others. someone whose existence is a net negative, who leeches from people out of hedonistic laziness. of course, none of that is true, and sometimes i reread this ask as proof of that. proof that, even the teenaged version of myself who i often look back on with so much scorn, held something good within them. proof that, maybe, instead of being the monster everyone told me i was throughout my entire childhood, i really was just a heavily traumatized and disabled child always trying my best in a world not made for me and a system working actively against me.

i've always wanted to create art for people like me. for years, i was terrified of actually exploring anything dark or nuanced in my public work, out of a fear that people will misinterpret it, or think less of me, or wish harm upon me for saying or creating something too transgressive. or even that i'll mess up somehow; that i'll word something wrong in my story or my marketing and give people the fuel to hurt me again. i hope you'll be happy to know that i'm finally going to, slowly but surely, try my best to represent that which i've always wanted to see. artwork that's adorable yet horribly raw and tragic. artwork that appeals to those who have struggled their entire lives. artwork by and for minds who have been split into mere fragments of people. that's the sort of artist i want to become. even if i'm not sure who you are, i want to hope that you'll enjoy it.

thank you.

hi! i love your ask! thank you!

i'm so late to this. fuck. i'm so late. fuck. i'm sorry women. i'm sorry

thank you! i love defoko a lot, and i've come up with an alteration of the typical design that i think is really fun to draw. i like to make defoko very small and squishy looking... a little pathetic, even

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