validate me????

hmm i feel like  astranger in my own skin? and like my family doesnt like me anymore. i dont think i like me anymore. my mom hasnt talked to me in a few days but she lives out of town so its understandable that shes probably just busy. i wish i didnt have to live with my dad, i hate it here. i hate everything about this house and it feels like nothing else is real, so i cant get out. i feel like my friends all have better friends than me. i think they dont like me very much anymore and normally im not too concerned with that but i was just waiting until they left me, and here we are. im really scared theyll forget me. i used to have four best friends and now i think i have 2.5. because my best friend is always here for me and i love her so much and i dont want to drive her away or hurt her or annoy her because i love her and i need her because shes my best friend and basically the only constant in my life. the other best friend rarely talks to me and i feel like shes better friends with her and her gf’s skype group and like im all for my friends having other friends but like. god it hurts being replaced and forgotten. my other best friend doesnt talk to me very often but ive known him for 5+ years and hes not leaving anytime soon im jsut not a priority rn, hes kinda really struggling with stuff and i dont wanna impose on him but hes a good dude and i love him. the other one has basically faded out of my life entirely and i dont know what to do but i dont think i want to do anything because she seems to be content in her own little world but i hate when people get distant it feels like im not good enough and reminds me of being with my ex. i just. dont know what to do nd it feels like im not here and im not myself and i dont know what to do. something is terribly wrong.