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woah! so its been a reaallllyyy hot minute since ive used tumblr… let alone this account…

Not to say my life has been a pocket full of sunshine i guess i just have been coping better??

Anyways tonight has been shit and its cus of my close friends so i cant rlly complain to them.

Basically im asian and all my friends are hispanic so i dont really talk about my culture much to them. Honestly im really understanding of how they are sometimes cus thats just how it is in their culture but one of the guys said something that really pissed me off.

So one of my guy friends said like i guess a racist joke abt asians but it wasnt even rlly a joke it was just like those middle schools saying like ching chong or smth stupid like that—honestly he seems really apologetic about it so i dont mind

However, my other guy friends really pissed me off because after i was like ‘yea thats actually like racist’ and my best friend was telling them off my other guy friend tried defending it. It was some super racist bs like ‘oh well factually asians have smaller eyes’ and legit i just hung up cus. Are you f-ing serious? Like we’re about to go to college and you’re saying this stupid shit.

Like the racist joke was one thing cus like yea i get it you probably didnt think it was that serious and have actually genuinely apologized like its cool. On the other hand trying to fully defend it by being like absurdly racist like?? Genuinely the hell? Like if this is a topic of debate thats another thing but I personally told you ‘hey thats actually not cool’ and you try to argue like???

Vent//

everyone in my family is fucking crazy idk why i get surprised then batshit shit happens

context! my father pushed my sister but also my sister took the car out 6-7+ hrs than she was supposed to and i hate my life

like i feel so melodramatic and that im complaining about nothinga nd that the shit that happens rlly isnt that bad but it is actually bad my sister getting hurt and maybe kicked out is bad my parents are awful my sisters awful i wanna lie down for awhile

sometimes im like man whyd i try 2 ov myself in middleschool life is so great then stuff like this happens an im like oh yea

its crazy to think how horrible i felt for my family bc i felt likes I was the one ruining it for everyone THAT I was the odd one out and fucking crazy but i realize now that I WASNT CRAZY my family is haha

“The words change, we dont change”

I had hit a slump in writing, i guess i dont really know how i kept pushing stuff out, while the laptop (which is now broken) must be a key part of it due to the convenience it provided to write, there was still something else that was missing.