Why the rush to get back to work and school? Mother Nature is truly giving us the chance to spend time with our families and ourselves to possibly mend relationships, family issues or to simply bask in it with their loved ones! First it was, “STAY HOME” and now those same people are all up in arms over being stuck at home! Does life mean nothing to them? I’m trying to understand why but I can’t. What’s so hard about taking a step back and appreciating the time you are here and spending it with those that you love whether it’s in person, over the phone, in a video chat? Hell, write a letter. And if you feel like you don’t have anyone just dial a random number  In times like this we should be focusing on each other. How many times in your life have you been given this much time to hug your kids? How many times have you been able to sit down and chat with them, have fun with them, or eaten at the same table together? How about finally having the time to call your distant relatives & friends? All those, “I’ll call you back” or “Call you later”s are piled up I’m sure. And if you’ve miraculously gotten all caught up on all of that then do something for you. We all need to look inside ourselves at some point in life right? Now that most of you are at home what else have you got to lose?! Meditate, or learn how to. Get crafty, rearrange, paint, learn how to use sign language, read, but do something useful. Doing nothing turns you into an angry person, annoyed with everything and everyone that is doing something instead of wasting away worrying about something you have no control over. This is life right now, make the best of it! Stop worrying about bills, we all have them and we’re all walking on the same unstable ground. There are orders in place to protect you from eviction, unpaid property taxes, repossessions, and utility cut offs. So what’s the worry about? If you can’t work, you still have resources for food and utilities. There’s even resources for healthcare, diapers, and DOG FOOD! Where is the fuss coming from?? Just stay home or distanced at the very least! Enjoy this time in your life when time isn’t an issue for the moment at least! Dance in your kitchen, play a video game, watch a movie, go for a run, learn to cook something new, the possibilities are endless y’all! Whatever you do, just don’t worry about it, cuz every little thing is gonna be alright! *~Vixxy~*

I just hope to God that my daughter & son carry my heart with them for the rest of their life. I can only hope that they’ll never change their loving spirits just because I’m not here any longer. I pray that they’ll remember my words when they feel lost and if even for just one minute they feel a sense of relief knowing that I am with them in that moment. I hope that my absence doesn’t steer them in the wrong direction. I pray that they live their lives to the fullest. I want for them to take the trip, travel the world, make memories and make lots of friends. And at the end of each day when they lay their heads down to sleep I only hope that they are happy with themselves. I don’t ever want them to feel alone, helpless, worthless, or angry. I don’t ever want them to hold back on the possibility of happiness for anyone or anything. I want them to always take life with a grain of salt and stay humble. Because at the end of their life on this earth nothing will matter more than the life that’s left behind. For many of us, when we know our days are coming to an end, all we tend to do is feel regret. Regret is the worst. It’s that feeling of emptiness never knowing what could’ve, might’ve been. It’s a feeling I know all too well and would never want my children to experience. So Kahli & Izaiah, live your lives my babies, to the fullest extent and always look forward. Don’t worry about anyone’s happiness but your own and when you have your own families, you tell them to do the same. I love you both with every fiber of my soul and I will always be with you, I promise you that! Also, make sure your dad is L-I-V-I-N as well because it’s what I would have wanted for the three most important people of my life. I love you more than anything & when I leave this life I intend on being there with you all throughout yours. We will all be together one day again, I promise ❤️

Here we are, April of 2020, stuck at home, restaurants closed, libraries closed, work closed, schools closed, society...closed! But, as with everything else, there’s a bright side to this. For most people, before this pandemic, time wasn’t a commodity because life was on fast forward most days and the off days were spent running errands and doing chores. Few times were we able to just sit back, relax, read a book, spend time with family, cook, or even chit chat with friends & family.We were either too busy, too tired, or preoccupied with pointless matters. We started this new year just 4 months ago and 2 out of the 4 have been spent inside because of this global catastrophe. What a downer, I know! We tune in to the media every day to catch a glimpse of the outside world but all we see is the negative, and not nearly enough of the positive. In my 5 weeks of being inside I have gone through just about every room in my house twice, painted, rearranged, cleaned out, and renovated anything that needed fixing or adjusting. Then I had an epiphany; Why not do the same in my life? I thought about how much better things looked when I completed those projects I put on hold for so long. How beautiful a wall could look when you took the time to paint it right, no matter how many coats you had to give it. The difference it made to rearrange a room to look and feel brand new. All these things are similar to what we should do with out hearts, our bodies, and our relationships. Take the time to iron out the wrinkles, smooth everything out with whoever you’ve had issues with, because life is but a wrinkle in time and we are all grains in an hourglass. Spend time with your family, play games together, eat at the table together, watch a movie together as a family. Don’t just sulk and complain about how crappy it is to be stuck at home. We’re all in the same boat honey, we know. If you shift that same energy into repairing, renovating, or rearranging your inner self and your family and I promise you will see the light in all of this darkness. And if you ever feel like you’re getting to a point where the road is just too rough to tread, then call me and I’ll take your hand and we’ll walk through it together. Stay blessed and mentally strong my pretties....   ❤ Vixxy