V/Vi

I miss the community I used to have on this app but I deleted it bc I found out one of them actually thought I was rlly fucking annoying and maybe they all felt that so maybe it’s better that I lost it all.

I’ve accidentally ate below 1k calories the past couple days and it’s reminding me of how easy it is to do and also how much I missed me ed.

Maybe in another universe I’m not rotting and lonely in my bedroom at the end of everyday.

I’m glad I’m doing better and that I’ve been clean for two years obviously but there also hasn’t really truly been a day that I don’t miss the comfort of being so mentally ill that it consumes my life and that I don’t miss sh and get the urge to do it.

I can’t do dating apps because these people don’t understand that no I don’t want to go on a date after texting u for a day I want to have the opportunity to get addicted to the feelings of ur texts and notifications before that. I want to check my phone constantly hoping to see a notification from you I want to become codependent before we even meet

Need a partner I can talk to 24/7 and obsess over and think about all the time and have them do the same. I want to be able to make my world revolve around them. I want matching icons and matching bios and for our every thoughts to be about each other.