poison-prayer:
I will… keep that suggestion in mind.
But… all those things are different. You moved in here day one but you had an escape plan. You kissed me, but you were just trying to get into my head. It took me almost four months to figure out what you already knew from the beginning.
I’m not doubting what I feel. I love you. I love you so much, and I know that, and right now it feels like the only thing I’ve got figured out. Because– I mean– what if—
What if things… change. What if two people who love each other more than anything in the world… fall apart?
What then?
Then we’ll put ourselves back together.
Love isn’t easy, you know? It’s a lot of work. It’s a lot of effort and determination and sticking it through when it goes badly.
Some people just give up on it when it stops being easy. But it’s never been easy for us. We’ve worked through such ... terrible things, on both sides.
When I picked up and left for Tennessee without warning, you picked up the phone on the second ring. When I admitted to my worst, terrible, awful secret, you held me as I cried for three days. When you drugged me for sport, I asked you to stay with me.
We’re in love. But we know what love really is. We know how to work through it when we monumentally ruin things. We’ve done it before, and we will do it again.
But we’ll work through it. Because we’re in love, and we will be for a long time.
