“Maybe he is but he’s still there and I want to punch his perfect face whenever he calls but I don’t wanna be that guy. You’re a big girl and I trust you so I just try to shake it off” he shrugged.

His smile came back when she said what he meant to her “I’m glad you feel like that and it’s not stupid… I guess it’s normal for us to feel like this cause it took us longer to find each other.”

He chuckled and shook his head “no not really. Not yet but I want to you know that I wanna do it. I want to marry you and share every day with you doing all in my power to make you as happy as you make me” he grinned “and if you don’t want to get married because of what you went through, I’ll understand that”

He smiled and shook his head, splashing some water to her “Haha very funny…” he relaxed a little. “I do understand. I know it’s not the same but I feel insecure about Noah too… he’s still there and he still wants you back” he did his best not to sound petty. A bitter taste in his throat whenever he remembered how Vikki’s ex insisted in contacting her.

He could feel her frustration rolling out of her so he move a little closer, reaching to caress her leg “I’ll do everything in my power to help you ease that feeling. I’ll work hard everyday so you can feel how much I love you and how much you mean to me” he promised.

“Since day one I’ve always worried about you feeling like a replacement and just like you I feel lost on how to change that… it’s one of the reasons why I haven’t asked you to marry me because fuck! I do want you to. You really have no idea but I want to do it when I’m sure you’ll know you’re the only one for me. Always and forever.”

“Noah is a leech.” Vikki was also frustrated about that too, she looked away from him when he moved close again and caressed her thighs that way. “You already do, Alex.” She looked back at him. “You’re an amazing person and dad, I feel very lucky to have you in my life, which is why my feelings are so stupid.” 

It broke his heart that Vikki looked away and for a moment he panicked because he could tell she didn’t really believe him. “You just said it yourself. You both are completely different. You don’t remind of her. I’ve never met anyone like you” he assured and sighed when she pulled away and sat on the other side.

“I understand the hormones could be part of why you’re feeling like this but you also said this has been always there… you’re not a second choice. You could never be a second choice. You’re my only choice” he tried to smile a little even if it was a sad smile. “I’ve been thinking a lot lately and I was reading a book the other day where it said how some people are just part of the journey in our lives and how they help us see and get to the ones who are meant to be our destination… that’s exactly what you are for me. You’re my destination. The one I love and the one I want to be with”

He nodded at her next question and sighed. Deep down he knew it was his fault. He wasn’t really over Valerie when he met Vikki and now that was gonna hunt them.

Hearing her say those words… the mere idea of her being a second choice made him feel sick so he unwrapped his arms from around her “ok I need you to look at me when I say this ok?” He said softly as he helped her up so she would be straddling him instead. Once they were face to face he cupped her face with one hand, his thumb caressing her cheek “When Val died I thought a part of me had died too. I gave up because to me nothing had sense anymore. I wasn’t living. I was surviving” he swallowed hard before continue “when we met… the things you made me feel, they scared me because I never felt anything like this. With such intensity and I couldn’t understand why you made me feel things she didn’t…”

He laughed a little “it’s good to know I’m part of the reason you accepted… I’d be a little heartbroken if you hadn’t” he teased as he wrapped his arms around her middle and pressed a kiss on her temple this time before leaning back and just enjoying the warmth of the bath and that calm that he was so used to everytime Vikki was in his arms.

That question wasn’t something he was expecting and it made him frown but he didn’t miss a second to answer “No” his tone serious. “I used to ask myself that everyday for a very long time but then you happened…”

He chuckled softly, not wanting to wake their baby up “I was kinda sure it was the view you got every morning” he teased as he started to unbuckle his pants. “I was gonna go for roses and mint but this one is more relaxing” he defended his choice with a playful smile at the kiss.

He leaned against the bathroom’s doorway, just watching Vikki undress, humming at the view to then follow her “I can imagine… it was a hard week but we get to just forget about all that stress now” he shrugged and moved to get in the tub behind her “scoot over” he asked as he sat with his legs parted to give her space to rest her back against his chest “I’m glad we did too… I knew this tub was gonna be the one thing that would convince you about the house” he teased as he pressed a kiss on her right shoulder. His hands caressing her thighs innocently

Vikki moved to let him in then moved again to lean against his chest, sighing softly then glanced up at him. “It wasn’t just the one thing, you were part of the thing too and the fact that I was fed up of going in between our places all the time in the end.” She shrugged then put her arms over his knees, just relaxing into him. She was very tired though, as she was trying to get used to juggling having a baby and working at the school, long hours with each of them.

TIME: March 29th, 2019 PLACE: Morris-Lysher’s household BETWEEN: Vikki & Alex PLOT: Sometimes there are questions that must be asked for things to work out…

Alex was glad they were home a little earlier on Friday, things had been especially tiring during the week so after Dylan had fallen asleep he thought it would be a good idea for Vik and him to relax a little and what better way to do that in the bathtub with some lavender and vanilla oils (he was never gonna accept those were his favorites).

He had just finished setting everything up when he got back into the room and smiled at his girl “Hey… you getting sleepy there? The bath’s ready” he announced as he removed his shirt and threw it to the hamper in the corner of the room

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Vikki had been half asleep on the bed when Alex walked and cracked open one of her eyes, “If I saw this every time I opened my eyes, I’d be really spoiled.” Then with a chuckle, Vikki managed to push herself off the bed and undressed. “Let me guess, lavender and vanilla?” She teased, then checked that Dylan was sleeping before stealing a light kiss from Alex.