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He said that Finn and Noah carried a lot this season and yet you know what we didn't see? That happening anywhere in the promo material.

With a couple mentions of events from the first five minutes (you’ve been warned) !!

I’ve actually been working on this analysis since before the first five minutes came out, but after seeing it, I had to drop everything to finish it. Because the EMOTIONS I FEEL RN.

I’m sure many of you have heard the theory, or analysis rather, of Will Byers experiencing SA in Stranger Things, specifically referring to two instances: when Will is found by Hopper and Joyce in the Upside Down with a tendril down his throat that ‘impregnated’ him (implied when he throws up the baby demogorgon), and when he gets possessed by the Mindflayer (after having watched the first five, the depiction of his s1 SA is even more uncanny). I want to talk about these representations (and their possible allusions to Lonnie), their significance, and what they mean for Will’s character.

Part I: Henry as the predator

Okay, let's break down Will's arc in each season in regards to these two events. His plot in s1 represents the act of violence itself, the loss of innocence that comes with it. He is taken from his home, the circumstances of which we are still not 100% sure of. A demogorgon spends a week hunting him, Will singing to try and self-soothe as he is living in hell.

In the finale, we have Hopper and Joyce finding Will, covered in vines, a tendril shoved into his throat which they must remove. At the time, it's unclear what exactly happened, but I think most of us assumed it was just the demogorgon impregnating him. We can infer this because of the epilogue of the s1 finale where we see Will go to the bathroom and throw up a slug-looking creature, which we later find out is a demogorgon.

Now, the first five minutes finally showed us the missing scene -- what happened to Will when the demogorgon finally got him?

The demogorgon drags Will from Castle Byers to the library where Vecna is revealed to be waiting for him ('at long last, we can begin'). The rest of the scene was incredibly difficult to watch as we see Vecna (AKA Henry, a human adult, not just a predator blindly acting on instinct) control the tendril. It was a man, controlling the tendril, intentionally. Forcing it into Will’s mouth, emptying something into him, and we know at least part of that is the baby demogorgon. Just watching it felt so so violating. The look of enjoyment on Vecna’s face watching it. Vecna stroking Will's face when he wakes up and starts crying/choking. The fact that the tendril is coming out of some kind of sac, and the vines around it look like veins.

It’s not just an allegory anymore.

This shot makes me feel sick. And want to cry (which I did). It is incredibly clear what this moment is actually depicting.

In s2, much of Will's initial plot revolves around PTSD from his time in the UD, being tormented by the same monster, even if it was under a guise. He experiences a series of visions where he is being chased by the Mindflayer, completely dissociating as the mental slowly becomes the physical. He is faced with Dart, the product of his assault, and doesn't tell anyone (except Mike) that he knows what it's from, and even then, he doesn't reveal that it came from him.

Will's possession by the Mindflayer is incredibly graphic, and it's depicted in such a violent and intrusive way, unlike many horror movies I've seen. The possession is not some invisible force entering the body; no, it's physical. It's particles that make up a being, prying their way into Will, tearing his mouth open. We can only see the shot from the shoulders up, but the Mindflayer (an extension of Henry based on what we know) is invading Will from every possible pathway into his body.

This shot perfectly depicts just how suffocating of an experience SA is, regardless of whether or not its depiction this way was intentional. Similarly, when Will opens up to Joyce about what happened, his line "I felt it everywhere" further fits into this narrative as a common way that many survivors describe the experience (especially CSA where it's a young person unable to more specifically describe what happened).

The doctors and Will's family believe that these visions are just mental, that is, until Will starts acting off. He insists on avoiding warm water, saying 'he likes it cold,' representing sensory flashbacks and being re-immersed in a traumatic experience. However, by the time anyone can realize that what happened to Will was not just in his head, even when they were with him as it happened, it’s too late.

After s2, there are no more specific depictions; however, the experiences continue to haunt Will. In s3, our monster takes a fleshy human-eating form, representing puberty as the party grows up. Around Will, his friends' romantic relationships and sexualities are emerging, but it doesn't feel like a carefree coming-of-age. No, it feels violent, tormenting, and disgusting in its grotesque embodiment. It's a reminder of what happened to Will. It's a reminder that he is always going to be different from his friends, not just for being gay. He's never going to be able to express himself, to fall in love, like the rest of the party is (but of course, we know this isn't true).

God and after all that we've seen (now in more detail), all he wanted to do was play his favorite childhood game. Mike Wheeler count your days (I still love him though).

Will was used by predators, then discarded, ignored, and discounted. His lack of perspective and distinct plot in s3 (besides his realization of his developing feelings for Mike) is symbolic of the way his experience has repressed him. And of course, he still has a lingering connection to Vecna, a persistent reminder of his trauma. Yet, anything he’s been through is no longer significant; he's pushed to the side because he's queer. And therefore, whatever he went through must not have been that bad, must not have been uncalled for, right?

There are fewer direct depictions of Will's SA plotline in s4 as the California gang is incredibly removed from Vecna and the UD (I'm convinced the entire point of their plot was just to show Will's feelings for Mike, because otherwise he'd be too wrapped up in the action). California seems like it could be a period of escapism as Vecna targets other people with their traumas. However, I believe we're just seeing the more subtle and long-term effects of the experience on Will, specifically, his views of himself and his queerness. Growing up in Hawkins and with Lonnie as his father already shrouded Will with internalized homophobia, I'm sure. But I believe this is furthered by his association of his queerness with his trauma, especially if his SA depictions in the UD are meant to represent Lonnie's abuse.

There was (and still is) a common narrative that boys who were victims of CSA by men would become gay (nature vs nurture being applied in a crazy way). Further, being in the kind of violated position Will was in is seen as emasculating (like homosexuality). This ties his queerness to those traumatic events (especially if the UD represents queerness and his experiences of SA occurred in that space). It makes him feel wrong, like a mistake, because his queerness makes him feel like the men who have taken advantage of him before (we'll get to Lonnie in a second).

But Mike makes him feel like he isn't a mistake. Like his queerness, his love for that boy, isn't gross or wrong or violating.

Now, as for s5, beyond the flashbacks to Will in the UD, there are serious implications for Will from his SA. The scenes from the trailer hit even harder now as Vecna strokes Will's face again, and there is such a visceral and raw terror in his eyes as he looks at Vecna. This is the man who shoved a tendril down his throat with the goal of reproduction and seemingly derived pleasure from it. This is the man who tore the Mindflayer into his body, and he felt it everywhere.

And now, he's going to make Will 'help him one last time.' This line in itself is already terrifying, but especially if you consider the two past times we've known Will has 'helped' him, it was both of these SA depictions. So, what on earth does that mean Vecna is going to make him do this time?

Part II: a metaphor for Lonnie’s abuse

Now, this is another theory many of you are probably familiar with, which is that Will was a victim of CSA from Lonnie. We know Lonnie was abusive towards his children already, and we know he insisted from a young age that Will was gay and needed to 'man up.' He was so worried about his kids being gay or not 'man' enough, projecting his own insecurities onto them. He was terrified of Will being gay because in his mind, it was a result/evidence of what he did to him (also, note the graffiti done by Steve and his friends in s1, 'Byers is a perv').

Looking back on Jonathan visiting Lonnie and Lonnie coming to the Byers’ house in s1 gives me the heebie geebies. First of all, we see Lonnie shove Jonathan against a wall, immediately displaying his physical aggression. Jonathan checks Lonnie's fucking trunk for Will. Once he arrives at the Byers' house, his and Jonathan's conversation in front of a graphic poster of a woman being SA by a tree (which Lonnie calls inappropriate) hints further at what their home dynamic was before he left. After Lonnie's arrival, the Byers' house shifts quickly -- Joyce stops believing herself, and starts thinking that she might really be crazy, that Will isn't still alive.

She briefly lets go of trying to find Will -- demonstrating how Lonnie is able to distract them from the truth, to dismiss it, to lead Joyce astray.

Lonnie’s abuse influenced his children in different ways, likely because his abuse was different between the two.

With Jonathan, he lacked boundaries, was authoritative and controlling, leading Jonathan to push back but also make… questionable decisions regarding boundaries of others (like photographing Nancy without her knowing oop). He had to be tough to stand up to Lonnie, and had to mature fast to comfort Will when things got rough.

Will, however, has some level of secretiveness. He does lie to others despite 'friends don't lie', and with Mike, he is careful to only tell him things when he’s ready to and insists he keep it between them.

I would suspect this has something to do with being forced to keep certain secrets by Lonnie. Being forced to be honest about things going on makes Will defensive and cagey. It makes him scared. This is further demonstrated by how no one knows about Will’s s2 possession even as the violation happens in front of them, because Will keeps it internalized, too scared to tell others, made to keep it a secret. He learned that violations like that are secret. That you don’t tell others.

The fact that Will is able to be honest with Mikes marks him as having been a safe person for Will, something I hope we’ll see in the miwi flashback and understand how much of his home life Mike really knew about (This makes his seeming indifference towards Will in season 3 even more heartbreaking). But considering Will was willing to let Mike in to some capacity regarding what was going on in s2, this could represent Mike knowing in some capacity what Lonnie did to Will.

I even think in s1, his time in the UD could be representing this as Will hides in Castle Byers. Jonathan built it with Will as a place for him to escape to, and I think it could be possible that Lonnie didn’t know where it was. So Will would use it to hide from him, like how he uses it to hide from the demogorgon, a predator. Remember, Jonathan says that Will is “good at hiding.”

Further, during Will's possession, when he is fully out of control of his body, I think this could very clearly represent his time while being abused by Lonnie. He lashes out at everyone (except Mike, really), leads soldiers to their deaths (a representation of making out-of-character decisions and hurting others), and yells as he denies it. Will was in denial while experiencing the abuse, dismissing it. However, he cracks and cries, "he made me do it."

This scene is heartbreaking. But it also provides them with a chance to free Will.

Further, if his SA at the hands of Vecna is also meant to mimic his abuse at the hands of Lonnie, this would tie Will's connection of his queerness to his assault more closely. Wondering if he's only gay because of what his dad did, fearing that he could turn out like him, repressing himself and taking it out on a kid, fearing that his love is somehow perverted and violating just by existing.

We know Vecna feeds off of other's trauma, and loves using it against them. So would it really be surprising if he took inspiration from Will's lived experiences in his torment of him?

Part III: Bringing it all together

Regardless of whether or not Will’s experiences with SA in the Upside Down are meant to mimic events from his real life or not, those by themselves are enough to relate Will’s experience to SA. He is physically and reproductively violated by a phallic-like object in a way that asserts Vecna's dominance and that he seemed to derive a sadistic kind of pleasure from.

Now this is so important for Will going into the final season. He has spent the entire show having his power stripped away from him, being used by predators, and hiding himself away. However, we know in s5, Will is at the center stage, with his connection to Vecna more important than ever. The truth of what Will has suffered at the hands of this monster will be revealed, no longer so cleanly covered up or brushed over. We are going to get a full play-by-play of how Vecna used Will, how he violated him, how he tormented him.

And yet, through it all, Will has remained a kind person. He has kept his pure heart, his genuine care for others, and his sensitivity. People are used to seeing characters who go through hell and toughen up because of it. But Will didn't. He got stronger, he had to adapt, he definitely repressed himself. But he never turned cold and emotionless. He stayed kind, selfless, and fiercely loyal to his loved ones. He has sat on the sidelines the past two seasons. But this is his moment.

This is Will's moment to stand up for himself, to reassert some of the autonomy he lost under Vecna. I am incredibly confident that out of everyone, it's going to have to be Will who ultimately takes down Vecna and the UD. Not just because of it making sense world and lore-wise, but also because of the larger message it sends.

Will was sexually assaulted by Vecna, abused and tormented beyond comprehension for years, and has internalized it all. For him to be able to stand up to this predator, this abuser, and renew his sense of personal power and belonging in his body, is one of the most symbolically important messages that could come from the show. And Will reconciling this trauma that he has deeply linked to a core part of his identity while having that identity reaffirmed to him -- by being shown that his love is not gross or wrong, by having that love reciprocated -- sends such a beautiful message to all survivors of SA. That their experiences do not make them less valuable, less lovable, or 'impure' in any way (because I'm sorry, Mike quite literally views Will as being bathed in golden light). That they can and do deserve kind and gentle love. That they deserve to feel empowered.

This is the kind of message that would've meant the world to me years ago in the immediate aftermath. This is a message that would still mean so much to me now. And to so many others. To anyone who has felt violated in their body, like their body will never really be their own again, disgusted with themself for just existing.

It adds more depth to Will's love for Mike and will make the reciprocation even more meaningful and crucial.

Knowing what we learned in the first five minutes especially, it appears that this depiction of SA is critical to Will's character and arc. To his whole experience of the UD in general -- a complex web relating his experience of queerness to his abuse. Will's story began with being used by the UD. And now it will end with him destroying it.

there's absolutely no fucking way that “its not fate, it's not destiny, it's just simple dumb luck” is winning over “it was the best thing I've ever done.”

there's absolutely no fucking way that “you never say it” “i say it” is winning over “i didn't say it” “you didn't have to.”

there is absolutely NO. FUCKING. WAY. That “she’s gonna realize that she doesn't need me anymore” is winning over “so, yeah, I need you, mike, and I always will.”