my heart hurts

I feel so fucking alone in this relationship. My heart feels so empty. Can’t count on him anymore.

Why can he opt out of things and I can’t just cause he’s tired? Did you know I’m tired too? I’d definitely rather be doing other things that are fun and just stay at home. But no I will have to do responsibilities and stuff. I can’t just sit at home on my ass and play video games in a dark room and then complain that your head hurts and ur sick when you aren’t doing anything about it like wtf. I told him it’ll make him feel better if he takes a shower and drinks water and go outside to the dog park with me for some fresh air. I’m literally giving him solutions and he’s choosing to stay home.

I feel so alone.

crazy ….

Having anxious attachment sucks a lot sometimes. Any weird tone or facial expression I look into thinking they hate me even though I could care less what they think of me..I just want to be loved. Are they even worthy to get to know me or be with me?