Whymst

that one scene in the bfi? Sexy.

the mechanisms - the bifrost incident // lemon demon - my trains

it <3

Might be a lifestyle. Might be a religion. But so far it only jam.

I often feel like a ghost possessing my own body. I have to think about motion and expression and intonation constantly. If I am not pouring careful intent into my muscles and my face and my voice, I come out... mushy and shambling. I have no sense of rhythm; simply clapping in time with a song takes my full concentration. My face is pretty enough, when motionless, but my expressions are awkward and contorted and flinching. I am my own inexpert marionette. I wear my flesh like an ill-fitting suit.

That sounds kind of hi-falutin' but it is really what I had to do. I have just tried to say it clearly.

I guess the closest metaphor I can provide is vehicular. Imagine that you’re driving stick shift for the first time—you know, intellectually, how it works and how it operates, but you don’t have the instinct or muscle memory to shift gears smoothly. Other drivers seem to be using automatic transmission. They’re able to navigate and/or carry on a conversation while they drive and seem to do so easily, while you are using all your focus to switch gears manually without giving yourself whiplash. It’s not uncomfortable because there’s something wrong with the car—it’s just awkward and draining and stilted, and you wish you had automatic transition, and it doesn’t seem to get better with practice, and no one around you seems even seems to notice when they’re shifting gears because it’s so unconscious.

cannot believe death to the mechanisms technically happened this year the passage of time truly is a mystery

the mechanisms "terminus" // the magnus archives "last words"

[Photo ID: a meme with members of the band Mechanisms, excluding Nastya and Ivy. Toy Soldier is in the center, excited with outstretched arms, tagged with text '#Jivemind supremacy'. the rest of the present crew members is surrounding it from behind and is looking down at it with disapointment except Jonny, whom is facepalming. End ID]