Something Special

Yeah it's me, again.

There is nothing more than having to take responsibility for a child that isn't even yours. It pains me to not be able to have my own, but it also makes me happy that I get to brighten a little child's face that isn't even biologically mine. I love her with all my heart as if she was mine. There will be no replacement for her at any time. I am sharing the responsibility of raising her with the person I love. Although knowing that I can't have a child right away, I know one day when the time is right I can have a child. Being a step mother, it's probably the best thing ever. I get to see her smile on her face, I get to see her jump for joy over something exciting. I get to see her with my dad, and my mom, and the love that give her makes me so happy and cry almost, of happiness of course. But it's just amazing to see the interaction of how my family just accepts her, gets her things, plays with her, and has the best company with her ever possibly could imagine. I love just doing activities with her, playing outside with her, enjoying her company, watching her sleep is the best feeling ever. I can't believe I get to enjoy the time and peacefulness of the wonderful human that my fiancée has created with his ex. The love for her is completely and utterly endless. She brightens my day when she's around, like no one has no idea. She's the best child ever. Although she may get on my nerves sometimes and she gets cranky, you just have to stay calm and be nice, explain to her that it's bed time, but hey, I tell her the faster she falls asleep the faster she will be able to see everyone tomorrow. Or when she's really upset, I get her to calm down by taking deep breathes, and just take a moment to calm down, and just breathe. She might get completely annoying sometimes, but that's ok, I'm sure she thinks I'm annoying too. Majority of mothers, even the step parents won't admit that their child gets annoying, but they still love them. Like my mom gets annoying, but I still love her. I just love her with all my heart. And buying clothing for her? Yeah, that's a bonus! I love the little girl clothing, and I really wish I could have bought her the smaller clothing too. But hey, the clothing I get to buy now is just as awesome. She's practically my daughter. And I love her as my own.