DespairWithinReach

A lot of new followers I get are mostly all spam/scam profiles like just three photos and that’s about it a lot of the profiles use the same photos as well

Well it’s November, time flys so fast, it’s weird being here right now at this moment, at times I wish the pills worked and I wasn’t, still trying to be positive even though life keeps kicking me down for some reason, it sucks being a nice person

Trying to do better although life still seems to suck, I am trying atleast applying to jobs even part time is something but so far no where wants to hire me, I wish I knew how to sell myself online and make money through photos or videos but I’m not attractive I’m male and just suck. Hopefully I get something for I can save up to pay for classes and books

Haven’t posted in a bit, I did try to off my self a few weeks ago but my sibling and friend got to me before the pills did and got me to throw some up and was taken to the hospital for a stomach pump and put on a 24 hour hold, I was close but it wasn’t meant to be I guess

I wished I had the balls to just end it like everyone else, why do I hesitate so much when it’s so easy to do, maybe it would have been easier if I never was taught about an afterlife

Well, jobless now and everything always seems to crash down on me I always knew life always finds a way to get fucked and things break apart

I’m not sure if anyone has tried the Suka app where it’s an AI generated chats with a lot of fictional characters and many story lines but it is amazing, I’ve tried it for a month now and I am loving it, you can be vulgar as you want with each story, make it an adventure or just fuck every character, the AI will make it happen and you get photos of those characters, it’s badass

Uuuugh why is it so hard to just live, no matter what I do it’s never enough and someone always has to bring me down whether it’s family or friends or strangers, can’t I just work 8-9 hours a day and enjoy whatever time I have left of the day why should I work all damn day just to get home sleep, wake up shower and and do it all over again and get back to hating life…. Ugh damn pill bottles keep calling my name why can’t I just go to sleep and never wake up again 😵‍💫😴😵

Took a trip to Mexico and it is pretty amazing so far, nothing bad has happened and the locals are nice, the neighbors are a gilfs and milfs

Ever felt like your back on the path to happiness and things are going well and just a simple comment or expression sends you back into the deep dark pit you were climbing out and notice you were never out, just hallucinating from the lack of blood you’ve lost trying to climb up

Worked suuuucked, damn delivery van wouldn’t start and was stuck in the heat, glad I was able to get it back to the shop when it did start

I wonder if one can actually make friends on here and have regular conversations instead of thinking it is and then BAM wanna buy my content or I’ll go over to fuck you if you pay like damn I was just talking about the weather lol

So far I have 8 days to sticking with my diet, gonna try to lose all this god damn weight and get healthy again. It sucks looking at old pictures of being thin and happy from just 2 years ago to being obese and depressed, can’t let these fake relationships and friends keep me from being happy and forget who I was.