no te puedo olvidar | rafe cameron
rafe cameron x latina!reader
summary: Rafe reflects on his past love and the life he could have had, while finding contentment in his present with Sofia and their children
author note: te quiero muchissimo PR (i’ve never been there
genre: angst
I opened my eyes and stared at the vastness in front of me. The blue sea shimmered, and the gentle breeze brought a refreshing sense of coolness. The idyllic scene was even more perfect with my family enjoying that sunny day on our boat. Leo, Isabella, and Sebastian were playing in the water while Sofia stretched out in the sun, soaking in each ray with a lazy smile. Their cousin Lily, Sarah and John B’s daughter, was with them, and that particular moment brought a wave of nostalgia.
Not nostalgia for my sister, no. She was doing well, taking care of her two kids and her women’s clothing store with the same determination as always. The nostalgia I felt was more complex, like a distant echo of a path that could have been different but never materialized.
Every now and then, I catch myself thinking about the “what ifs”... What would my life have been if I hadn’t forgiven Sofia? If I hadn’t married her, if my children hadn’t come from that love? What if I had held on to my hatred for Sarah and kept my distance? What if I had been braver, changed in time, and not lost the great love of my life?
These are the questions that sometimes haunt us, no matter how hard we try to move on. But life is like this, a tangle of choices that take us down unexpected paths, and that’s why, when I look at my present, I can’t help but feel grateful.
I am happy, I tell myself this every day. But sometimes, my mind wanders, imagining a different “me” who would have built a future beside her, beside another love. Not Sofia. No, that story is different. It was her... the woman I dreamed of growing old with, the one I imagined seeing our children play on places like this, growing up, building a life together. But she’s gone now. And now, she only lives in my memories.
“Dad, don’t you want to come in? The water’s really nice.” Isabella’s sweet voice interrupts my thoughts, pulling me back to the present. She looks at me with her blue eyes, so much like mine but with a touch of her mother’s. Isabella, my precious daughter. Her existence was like a new beginning for me. And, ironically, her name had been chosen many years ago, in another life, with a woman who doesn’t even know about my daughter, but who lives in my memory. Our daughter would have been Bella too, "the most beautiful of all," as we used to dream.
“This old man isn’t quite in the mood to get in, but enjoy it for me. And don’t forget to use the floaties.” I smile, trying not to show the whirlwind of thoughts that’s still forming inside me.
She’s my carbon copy, what more could I ask for? She’s my greatest accomplishment. From the moment I found out she existed, I changed completely to be worthy of her love.
Sebastian, our youngest, is 11 and as stubborn as they come. His sun-bleached blond hair and his passion for surfing remind me of how I was when I was younger. He has Sofia’s lightness and smile, but the stubbornness... ah, that he got from me. Then there’s Leo, our Alexander, better known as Leo. 17. He’s the most introspective of the three. With his always-messy hair and nerdy demeanor, he loves the sea, water, the ocean. He’s the reason we are visiting Puerto Rico. Leo reminds me of Wheezy, the way he expresses himself and gets lost in his own thoughts.
In a way, I love them more than I can explain. They are the best parts of me, everything I’ve always dreamed of having. And even though the past still haunts me, even though I can’t let go of the image of a woman I’ll never see again, what I lived with Sofia, the children we have together... that gives me a sense of purpose that keeps me grounded.
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“Rafe, it’s time to go!” Kelce’s voice pulls me from my thoughts. I roll my eyes and take another sip of beer. The heat was unbearable, and I had no idea who the genius was who let the drink get warm.
It was a party night, the kind where you don’t really know why you’re there, but you end up going just because. Kelce and Top were excited, and of course, I was tagging along. Someone had to keep those two in check, as always.
The music was loud, the heat annoying as fuck, and the party’s vibe was tepid at best. Until she arrived. She, who would turn the night into something completely different. The most beautiful, the most fascinating. The mermaid of the seas of Latin America, with her slender body and smile that could melt any resistance. She had something in her presence that destabilized everything around her, and, as always, I found myself lost in her orbit.
“My future wife is here. I can’t leave her alone.” I said, laughing, already feeling like an idiot but unable to resist. The irony was that Sofia was also at the party, but, at that moment, that woman was the only one who existed for me.
And it was there, at that party, that I found the courage to approach her. It was there that she smiled at me for the first time, her eyes sparkling and a laugh full of promises. She was willing to teach me how to dance salsa because, according to her, anyone who hung out with her had to have rhythm — even white boys like me.
And believe me, it was impossible not to fall for her.
In the following meetings, dancing became our language. I was a complete disaster, with no rhythm at all, but she was incredibly patient. She taught me gently, telling me I was learning fast, when in reality, I could barely keep up with her steps. With each compliment, my heart raced.
But, as with all love that starts strong, it fades when reality pulls us apart. She left the island, in search of what the world had to offer, and I... I stayed behind, with no choice but to cry and let her go, as I always had. The last thing she said to me was: “I’ll come back. I’m leaving my heart here, but I’ll come back to get it, okay?”
It’s been 25 years. She’s probably learned to live without the piece of herself she left with me. I, on the other hand, have never been able to find peace without her.
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The night wore on, and we decided to go to dinner on the island. We docked the boat at the marina, and we got ready for dinner. Sofia looked stunning in a green dress, which made her eyes shine even more. Bella and Lily were gorgeous in their white dresses, and the boys, as always, in linen shirts and pants, both elegant and casual.
The seaside restaurant was cozy, the kind of place that made you feel at home, even if you were a stranger. The soft light, the music in the background, the scent of the sea in the air. The boys decided to play in the game room, and Sofia accompanied them, curious. I sat at the table, observing the surroundings, when a conversation caught my attention.
I heard the voice of a woman with her children. The boy, about 8 years old, seemed to be pleading for a dog, while the mother, patient, explained that he still needed to learn to take care of the pets they already had at home. It was a simple conversation, but it touched me strangely, like an echo of something I already knew. The dynamic felt familiar, and somehow, I felt like a part of that scene.
And then he appeared. The man of the family. She stood up, turned, and I realized. The familiar voice. The smile, that smile. I froze. My body recognized her before my mind did.
It was her. The woman I never managed to let go.
In that moment, all the “what ifs” that haunted me, all the unanswered questions about what could have been, came rushing back. I knew life didn’t offer second chances. And, as much as I tried to ignore it, the truth was simple: she still lived inside of me, like a piece of a story that never ended.
And maybe it never would.
I could stand up, casually say, “Hey, long time no see.” I could walk up to her, haunt her with the weight of what time doesn’t erase. Plant doubts in her feelings, bring to the surface everything we left unresolved, without answers, without closure. The idea of making her question what we were, what could have been, would, in a way, be an act of silent revenge. But instead, I stand up and head toward the game room, where my family is.
My family. They are what I have left.
I could have taken another path, but I chose this one. And, in a way, I feel at peace with this choice. As if, deep down, I know I have to keep living my life, without the “what ifs,” without regrets. I lost my sun, and, as much as that burns inside me, I still have the moon. A moon that glows and keeps me company in the lonely nights when her memory comes back with force. Maybe, in another life, our paths will cross again, and who knows, we’ll be what we couldn’t be here.
Because, deep down, I know I’ll never be able to erase her from me. She will always be a part of what I was, what I am.
Maybe I won’t have the “forever” I imagined, but I have this memory of a love that was whole while it lasted. And even though the pain of her absence stays with me, I will keep living, loving, breathing, dancing. As if, in every movement, in every step I take, she is still with me, in the beat of my heart and in the rhythm of my life.
I know time will heal me, but it won’t erase what we were. I will keep loving, even in silence, even if she doesn’t know. Because I can’t forget you, and maybe I never will. And that’s okay. I know that, even if the path has been lost, what I lived with you will be what I carry with me until the end of my days. Like a song that, even after many years, never stops playing.
Dividers by my dear @tsunami-of-tears
It’s weird the way I write? Because I write in Portuguese and then translate it to English.










