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I'm trying to start following a dietitian's plan to help me overcome my underweight condition, but I can't because I'm afraid of gaining weight and consuming a high calorie count, even though I know I need to and want to be healthy. Will it be easier if I break down and start doing this? How can I break down or stop thinking about it?

So basicly I've started boxing 2 years ago and I've fell in love with this sport so I've also changed my diet for healthier which is why I've also lose some weight which is why I'm anemic and underweight now. (I was a bit overweight before) I have to gain weight to be healthy back now. I know i have to do it and I really want to be strong and healthy, but also I'm scared to gain weight and become fat again so I'm still counting my calories so I don't keep my gain weight and I'm A BIT obsessed with burning calories. I really love boxing and it really means a lot for me but I don't think that there is still some hope for me. Am I "sick"? Is this already an eating disorder? Is there something I should do? If there is what is it?