All or Nothing.

❛  i won't apologize for the way i chose to survive.  ❜ ❛  i won't ask you to love me.  ❜ ❛  i won't be another thing you ruin and walk away from.  ❜ ❛  i won't be here when you finally decide you need me.  ❜ ❛  i won't be the reason for you to stay.  ❜ ❛  i won't be your second choice anymore.  ❜ ❛  i won't forgive you just because you finally feel guilty.  ❜ ❛  i won't hold you back anymore.  ❜ ❛  i won't keep setting myself on fire just to keep you warm.  ❜ ❛  i won't let myself hope for you again.  ❜ ❛  i won't let you do this alone.  ❜ ❛  i won't let you turn this around on me.  ❜ ❛  i won't make it so easy for you this time.  ❜ ❛  i won't tell you when i miss you.  ❜ ❛  i won't wait forever just because you're scared.  ❜ ❛  won't you at least say goodbye this time?  ❜ ❛  won't you be lonely without me?  ❜ ❛  won't you be sorry for once?  ❜ ❛  won't you look for me when i'm gone?  ❜ ❛  won't you miss being loved like that?  ❜ ❛  won't you miss me?  ❜ ❛  won't you regret this when it's too late?  ❜ ❛  won't you remember that i tried?  ❜ ❛  won't you tell me what i did wrong?  ❜ ❛  won't you wish you had said something kinder?  ❜ ❛  won't you wish you had stayed?  ❜ ❛  won't you wonder what could have been?  ❜ ❛  you won't admit that you hurt me because then you'd have to care.  ❜ ❛  you won't be able to fix this so easily.  ❜ ❛  you won't be the reason for me to stay.  ❜ ❛  you won't even look at me anymore.  ❜ ❛  you won't find me waiting for you ever again.  ❜ ❛  you won't get another chance.  ❜ ❛  you won't get to break me twice.  ❜ ❛  you won't have to worry about losing me anymore. you already did.  ❜ ❛  you won't keep using my love against me.  ❜ ❛  you won't know what to do with yourself when i stop needing you.  ❜ ❛  you won't remember this the way i will.  ❜ ❛  you won't say it, but i know you blame me.  ❜ ❛  you won't understand what you lost until i'm gone.  ❜

            A  quiet  sigh  leaves  the  violet  haired  male  and  he  shakes  his  head,  morganite  hues  watching  the  blond  before  him  shrug.  In  this  moment,  the  other  was  being  honest  at  the  very  least.  Not  going  into  full  detail….but  Veritas  never  expected  such  with  him.  The  day  the  other  started  to  just  completely  open  up  entirely…would  be  a  miracle.  Veritas  knew  that.  He  also  knew,  it  more  than  likely  wasn't  anytime  soon.  And  that  was  fine.  He  needed  to  take  his  time.

           ❝  I  suppose  it  does  suffice.  Then  my  next  question  is  this;  Will  you  let  me  be  there  for  you?  ❞

         A  sigh  leaves  him…  He  should  just  give  in.  There  was  no  point  in  denying  there  was  something  wrong  with  him.

                 ❝ I  suppose  there's  no  point  in  fighting  you  on  this.  You  may  be  there  for  me.  I'm  just…  Sorry  I'm  in  such  a  state.  Nightmares  repainting  the  memories  of  the  past  are  such  a  fun  experience  to  relive  through  the  night.  ❞

     Aventurine  –  No.  In  this  moment…  Kakavasha  reaches  out  to  take  the  other's  hand,  lifting  it  to  his  lips  to  kiss  the  back  of  it.