notes app shit

I want a simple and quiet life. I want ordinary things in life like a simple breakfast with my own family. I want a life where home is not just a place to live but instead it's a place where no heartaches, where no-one grieve over people or different things, where no one hurt or fear from anything. I want a house where we all heal and we raise a family that doesn't need to heal. A simple life where we all eat dinner together while laughing over simple things.

that part in normal people where he starts crying to his therapist about how he thought everything would be different in college, a good different, a good life, better friends, but life turned out a lot worse and he doesn’t have any friends and now he can’t even go back to what he thought he could do better than. there’s nothing left to go back to. the most fucked up thing about childhood is how you spent the entirety of it wishing you were older but then you are older and if it’s horrible, you don’t have the security blanket of saying “it’ll be better when i’m older” like you did when you were a kid cause you are older now & it’s not better, you have no real friends and you can’t even go back to being a kid and it’s a horrible horrible realisation