I Just Am

Your ego has to express itself. A trigger is like those wires that spark to hot wire a car. It triggers your ego in fight or flight. That energy has to be expelled in order for your id to be included in the processing once cortisol is burned out of the body. This is why many react and cause damage. When all you’ve been shown is damage it is all the muscles will do. Give it more options to expel the energy which is a chemical reaction within. It has to cycle through before you can think in a balanced way. In a loving way. In a reasonable way. You go up then you level out. It’s important to understand that instead of shaming it. You will use the information given to you at the beginning of bodily responses. Sometimes you say something unloving or do something unloving. This is where accountability comes into play. Humility. The ability to say apologize and commit to a different way of behaving. You won’t always react, you can remove yourself before you do whether someone understands or not. Sometimes you can communicate and sometimes you cannot. That is okay. Either way, your commitment to yourself and your development will be registered by the universe. What you do to right your wrongs will be felt by something bigger than anyone’s judgement. Everything else is noise in that aspect. I’m proud of you.

Even in my low points I know it’s a process to keep me humble. To allow appreciation to be practiced. To refine what is within. To sit with my egos and tuck them in. To not see myself expressed as vibrantly as I am used to challenges me to see what it is I miss within. When I do not look, who goes unheard? That in itself is beautiful.

May the people that align with the vision present upon my alignment.