(BARKS LOUDLY)

i really hope they'll start the whole medical examination business soon. i'm really hoping to start T in 2013 but that might be too optimistic, i don't know

i am scared though, i mean, hair loss/aging fast/acne, i'm not looking forward to any of those things (to the point that i already researched hair transplants just in case, you know), but maybe it'd be stranger not to be scared

some things though, gosh. someone here on tumblr i especially admire body-wise (not even in a sexual way just, yeah, that seems like a reasonable goal, i'd be really comf looking like that) started T recently and they look so good. fat restribution especially. i mean that alone would make me so much more secure? and not to mention the body/facial hair and the lower voice, fuck, i'm so glad it's getting close now, very scared, but mostly glad

i'm getting way ahead of myself but, i think i will document the medical process, partly to help others and partly because i think it's fascinating as heck. i do have to be careful with that though, maybe, only give the url/youtube channel out to certain people