hi guys, i'm back. i've been thinking of this couple for a min now

he was like the kid in the classroom no one liked but, just because we don’t like him it doesn’t mean he’s not invited to the pizza party yk.

also just because is mid doesn’t mean it’s bad I just don’t resonate with it.

I honestly think i’m the definition of lost in translation. Nothing has been the same since late 2022, life hit me with the one two mayweather but if only I dodged it I wonder who’d I be right now where would I be mentally. I’d still be with Alicia that’s for sure, I can still better myself now but, I’d actually have to work to get there if things just went smoothly I would be there by the time I wake up. I try to not look back or compare my different eras but, I end up @ the same spot. I even be thinking about that girls name who shall not be mentioned(treat her name like Voldemort). i think i just need to go and have a conversation with her, there’s a lot of things i left unsaid but, i know she doesn’t want anything to do with me I’ve made multiple attempts to talk to her but blocked right away. I still have 1 way to contact her but, that’s like last resort. I’m ki**ing myself here’s everything I feel, I did, I thought type of situation till then I’ll just try to evolve to that next phase whatever it is. I was so close to being a charizard too:/ I wish I could just break through all the constructs society has build for me(us) and go to a facility away from everyone and just try to get your shit together then come back. the only place that comes to mind is prison but, A- I’m not going to prison tf is that and B- I’m 100% dying, I rather be dead than be someone’s bitch my ego/pride just wouldn’t allow it but other then prison idk if a place like that exists:/ if you know let me know.

I’ve been on a mission to find friends who are more like me or have very similar hobbies/goals. Just being surrounded by that kind of energy could do wonders for both parties but, that’s harder said then done. I brought this up to my FF (fake friends) I told them how I wanted to find people who aline with what I’m doing and funny enough he dropped the hardest quote ever and said “you’ll never find someone like you” there’s some truth to that not to toot my own horn but, I’m literally the kookiest and realest person to walk this earth I’m 1 in 8 billion a lot of the time I feel unappreciated by everyone in my life wether it’s FF or family. I dont have a person who I can talk to about when ever something happens. right now that person is made out of randoms on insta tumblr or my co worker. We’ve been talking for a couple of months now so we each have a good feel for each other but I don’t see us ever being friends friends she’s more like a friend @ work so once we’re out those doors we’re nothing which is a dynamic I don’t mind but there is some people in the outside world who I want to have like a kool connection with but, I guess their friend list is at the max which is sucks. Since these people are people who I’d want to build something with for instance back in 2021 I was in a group with like 8 other people who were on the same page as me. we’d just create art and post it on a website to sell and that’s the shit I’m on right now. although we weren’t doing crazy numbers it was just an amazing experience, we all fell through after some time and became the owner of the website was trying to put us under contract and I can’t fuck with that but, yea that’s a goal I have. just bunch up a lot of creative individuals who are willing to do that and become friends in the process. I’ve been doing that by myself and it’s kool but, sometimes I do think it’s be 100x kooler if I had someone with me….…… maybe I’m just being a bitch, I hope this doesnt come off as sad middle schooler type of energy.

I like how when I start a new album and see all the tracks it don’t even matter to me because I don’t know them but once I do know the songs and get attached to them it trips me out like damn I really gave no fucks about that song and now I love it. it really puts things into perspective there’s gotta be like a handful of songs out there that I haven’t listened to but are PERFECT. like for UN VERANO SIN TI there’s like 6 songs that I hadn’t heard that i now love. favorite song is gotta be OTRO ATARDECER, MUSIC IS THE BEST THING EVER MADE. I’d be dead without music, there’s been days where I’ve checked every box for a perfect day to wowoejncks myself but, I don’t when I feel like that there’s no real emotion in me I just know I don’t want to be here at that particular time but after a while of listening to music it turns my emotions on which then makes me feel sad that I’ll never see my siblings grow up or be able to help them out so shout out to music. that’s the only thing keeping me alive<3 🎶🎶🎶

been feeling pretty lonely these pass weeks, I think this is the chapter the defines if the rest of the book is a good or not. right now all I do is work, 5 days a week and on my weekends do nothing. I go out to the movies and to eat with my “friends” (they don’t give a fuck about me) but, I want something that fulfills my soul, my weekend I feel like I’m just drifting through life. I wanna steer this hoe, my only idea to really get a grasp on my life is indulging in some of my hobbies. I screen print but my set up isn’t the best right now so I want to expand my tool and idk make shit to sell or just for me. although selling something I love doing is what I see my life being. I know I was put on this earth to do what I love not go with the flow and do what I love sometimes.

right now he’s a and the only eye exposed is the one with the sharigan so maybe he never stops being a tree and sarada takes his eye but the tree becomes like a place to mourn her father so she visits him from time to time that’s my guess but I guess we see

she rated it a 9/10. Good rating, I love that song. I don’t judge but I’m lowkey judging lol.

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I once had a dream where I was like 40 percent awake but, in the dream. I really wish there was some kind of something that would allow me to be in that state of freedom for all my dreams. when we dream we kinda just go along with what our minds makes up, we have no real decision on what goes on but, this was different. I was exactly where I wanted to be with the person I wanted to be there was real apparitions all around. it really messed me up when I woke up. I was shedding tears of happiness in my dream that when I woke up, I woke up with a puddle on my face. The emotions in there were affecting me in real time and I really want to experience something that amazing again. imagine having like a dead relative that you love and being able to see them again and do whatever you want with them again in this dream realm. it’s not real but, it feels sooo real that I think it’s be enough to satisfy you. I don’t know if there’s something that’ll let me relive a moment like that again

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this me right now, both my goats are arguing. Well it’s one sided but, they not on the best of terms. I don’t see them making a song together or hanging out soon, which is a shame they always make great things when they crossover. idk why ye is being a cry baby over Carti joking asking for north’s vocals.

what album should I rate next?

What ya’ll think ye going to do?? I don’t think any of us know but, any guesses?

I’ll support everything BUT, that. Carti goated tho, he a real one for this.