I can't be chill for the life of me

Sucks being part of a niche/kinda dead fandom.. almost everyone knows everyone and I’m just sitting in the corner by myself because I’m too nervous to talk to people online (for some fucking reason 🫩) and I’ve only really spoken to like 1-2 people who are part of the fandom too… sigh, I gotta like take more chances to talk to people and thats no one’s fault but my own.. mostly I’m just frustrated with myself