EugeneRolton🔪✨

Just so you understand, I lived with my narcissist mother for 18 years, who caused me a lot of pain along with my ex-stepfather, because of this I tried several times... I don't want to tell you, but I had sh scars. And I'm still holding back from doing these bad things to myself because of recent events. In fact, I have lived 18 years of hell in which I have never been listened to and will never be listened to, it doesn't matter to me. I don't feel safe in this house where I grew up, and I never will, no matter how much everyone tells me that I should be ashamed and that "feel sorry for your mom!!!" This woman is 40+ years old, she protected my abusers, isolated me from the internet for several years, she deceived me and forced me to raise her children (she's just an irresponsible mother)

Then I spent a whole year living with my relative, who agreed to take me in after I was kicked out of the house when they discovered that I had asked my aunt for money to help. Everything was fine until my relative ended up in a wheelchair. It became difficult for me to study, I could hardly find a way out to find time Flfor myself, I became more with drawn and stopped going out. I am now on the verge of dropping out of my college due to the fact that I have not been able to start studying for a long time due to fatigue. I can't go to a therapist because I don't have the money or the moral strength. Everyone says they'll "help me," but in the end, everyone makes empty promises to me again, even when I tell them why I can't work. My father went to war because of debts and I do not know if he will stay alive or not, I am afraid because if he dies, I will be left without parents (I rejected my mother and do not want to have anything to do with her). In fact, I'm all alone and can't trust anyone, because I've been deceived many times, my equipment and passport have been taken away from me. I just want to live a peaceful life without control and judgment. I want to leave, but I'm still scared