FAR AWAY .

basically i got soap in my eye while i was taking a shower and now i'm angsty so. bon appetit!

" i needed you. i needed you, and you weren't here! so where the HELL were you?! "

" i... i'm so tired... "

" everything's falling apart. "

" i loved you! i l loved you so bad it hurt! and now i'm over you, and you're telling me it wasn't all for nothing?! when it's too late?! "

" how dare you! "

" i'd move all the stars in the sky if i thought it would ever make you happy. "

" please... please, tell me how to fix this. "

" i did this. i ruined everything... "

" don't go. please. i... i don't want to be alone... "

" i tried fixing this. i knelt down and put it all back together, but... it's never going to be like it was before. is it? "

" could... could you just hold me, a while? "

" oh, love... what have you done? "

" i just... don't care anymore. "

" you aren't a monster. "

" you never talk about your past... why? "

" i never want to see you again! "

" you asshole! you asshole, i hate you! i hate you, i hate you, i hate you! "

" why would you DO that?! "

" i don't hate you. god, i could never hate you... "

" i would've done anything for you. but now... i mean, it seems so clear how one-sided this whole relationship was. "

" i think this is where we part ways. "

" for what it's worth... i always liked you. "

" do you have any better ideas? because trust me, i'm all ears! i don't want to do this! but we're literally out of options! "

" if i could take it all back, i would... but i can't. "

" i should've listened to you. why... why the hell didn't i listen to you... "

" you're not your past. "

" you know what? you're on your own. i can't watch you get yourself killed. "

" if you could only see yourself through my eyes... "

" we've all done stupid, terrible things. but it's not about that. not anymore. all that matters is how we proceed now. "

" none of it was real. "

" to me it was real! it felt real! "

" don't do that. don't act like you don't give a damn. "

" we both know there's nothing here for me. not really. but you... you have a whole life here, ready and waiting to be lived. "

" don't be angry. please, don't be angry. i can take it from just about anyone, but not you... "

" i can't let you do this... "

" why are you still here?! why?! i destroy everything i touch! and yet you still stick around! "

" i love you. always have, and always will. i... i need you to remember that for me. please. "

" this is what your plan is? hiding? disappearing and running away when the going gets tough? fuck you. "

" they've/you've taken EVERYTHING from me! "

" i trusted you! "

" i lied. "

" i'm sorry. "

" you/they don't get to walk away! you/they don't get to act like nothing ever happened! "

" i forgive you. "

" i'm not angry. anger is a luxury i afford for the people i love and care about. but you... well. i'm just resigned to it, i guess. "

" we're done. "

" i don't love you anymore. "

" you don't get to be mad at me! "

" don't touch me. "

" please... say something. "

Quotes from the book ‘The Song of Achilles’ by Madeline Miller! Feel free to adjust as needed

“And perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone.”

“Name one hero who was happy.“

“They never let you be famous AND happy.”

“He is half of my soul, as the poets say.”

“When he died, all things soft and beautiful and bright would be buried with him.”

“We were like gods at the dawning of the world, & our joy was so bright we could see nothing else but the other.”

“I am made of memories.”

“He waits for you.”

“He smiled, and his face was like the sun.”

“There are no bargains between lion and men. I will kill you and eat you raw.”

“He is a weapon, a killer. Do not forget it. You can use a spear as a walking stick, but that will not change its nature.”

“I will never leave him. It will be this, always, for as long as he will let me.”

“But what if he is your friend?”

“You ask a question that philosophers argue over”

“And perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone. Do you think?”

“I wish he had let you all die.”

“Will you come with me?”

“We are all there, goddess and mortal and the boy who was both.”

“When I am dead, I charge you to mingle our ashes and bury us together.”

“It is right to seek peace for the dead. You and I both know there is no peace for those who live after.”

“I am air and thought and can do nothing.”

“I would know him in death, at the end of the world.”

“She wants you to be a god"

“He is more worth to you, perhaps “

“Now I know how to make you follow me everywhere.”

“If you have to go, you know I will go with you.”

“There is no honour in betraying your friends.”

“The sound was pure and sweet as water, bright as lemons.”

SHE IS TIRED ENTERING the house, but it hardly shows. all in a days work. he's awful big on talking all of a sudden , and to be honest she can't help but find it a bit humorous. when john marston speaks up to have more personal moments , it's always over something that they left behind.

" i guess. " she'd say , simply. she is taking a seat with her eyebrow to raise at him. then the how are you question arises and she can no longer stifle her laugh. " you're .. askin' me how i am ? " he sure was funny , full of surprises. they don't check up too much on each other these days , but he does check once in a while to see if she's happy. that was nice. " got too dumb men in my life .. " she'd begin , slow to grin. " couldn't be any happier then i am , john. "

 he  wonders  if  he'll  ever  feel  deserving  of  abigail. she  wasn't  perfect  either,  but  she  deserved  much  more  than  him. she'll  always  deserve  more  than  john  can  ever  give  her. ❝  don't  i  know  it,  ❞  he  responds  to  her  first  statement  with  a  slight  chuckle. out  of  everyone  they  ended  up  with... uncle  was  last  person  john  was  expecting.