*procrastinating*

but when dazai tries to advance, one hand slipping to chuuya's waist, chuuya cuts his trajectory short, pushing his hand away. his eyes are cold. it isn't that he doesn't want dazai, it's that he won't let himself have him. he won't let dazai have chuuya.

dazai says, "chuuya, i'm not going anywhere this time."

chuuya shakes his head. "how can i trust that again? i trusted that once, and you breached that trust."

"there was nothing else i could've done," dazai tries. and it's true. chuuya knows this, he knows. chuuya, no matter how much he hates dazai's departure, he wouldn't try dragging him back.

even so, "you said nothing to me," chuuya says. "can you really prove that won't happen again?"

@vannitag did the other half of my little open collab thing ^^ it looks so good bro

First, in the past four years, Dazai had left WITHOUT telling a single word to Chuuya. That alone changes everything what “celebration” even means. that night, Chuuya was really worried. Asagiri spelled it out that Dazai hasn’t been found. CHUUYA WAS LOOKING FOR HIM, he literally SEARCHED for him until he was certain that Dazai was dead because of his suicidal tendencies.

Remember when Chuuya didn't know Dazai was the one who blew up his car? normally he would immediately think that it was Dazai, but because he thought he had gone away, he didn't suspect him. He just thought about his “death” and that's what Chuuya thought he wanted, and says he’d celebrated it.

But BONES hadn’t animated his somber expression, which parallels Dazai’s own expression during his farewell and Asagiri has also confirmed uncertainty about whether Chuuya was truly a vampire btw.

Chuuya does call Dazai when drunk, and deseperatly wants him to pick up. So if he was that sick of him and went to drink for celebration, then he probably still tried to call Dazai and wanted him to pick up the call that night, huh? And Chuuya probably only calls dazai his ex-partner not because he’s a traitor but bc he thought he’s dead. dazai is also mentioned being his "ex best friend" :)

Plus, Dazai talks about knowing Chuuya for seven years (they’ve only been partners for 3 years). and out of all the things Chuuya complains about (like how Dazai calls him short, or the constant annoyance). so how did Chuuya celebrate how great it was to not be dazai’s partener anymore when he never rejects the framing of still being called Dazai’s partner and knowing each-others for seven years???