Inside.

Alicia DiGi

coming to terms with the fact

that to be a poet is to

profit from your own suffering.

with that being said, of course i’m attracted to

behaviors, circumstances, & connections that i understand

(from the start) will damage me.

to be a poet is to

gravitate to a darker state of mind—prefer it, even—

& have trouble producing quality work

with positive subject matters.

i write my best when i’m at my worst;

nothing deeper, more passionate, more intricately formulated.

i strongly do believe that my purpose is lain here,

on this dimly lit plane of probable despair

& dried flowers.

utterly cinematic, yes, but tiringly unfortunate.

because to pursue the thing that brings me the most joy

also has the potential to enable the recurrence of progress hinderment.

if i must always channel the darkness within me to do what i love,

will it tie me to the past that made me?