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𝐂𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐑𝐔𝐈𝐍 ; @vancreux

                𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗶𝗿  𝗺𝗲𝗲𝘁𝘂𝗽𝘀  𝗵𝗮𝗱  𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲  𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲  𝗳𝗿𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝗻𝘁  𝗮𝘀  𝗼𝗳  𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗲  ,  gentle  words  &  reassurance  turning  into  rough  ,  back  arching  intimacy.  at  first  he  was  hesitant  ,  always  thinking  about  the  tribune  &  the  consequences  of  his  actions  for  even  so  much  as  entertaining  the  idea  of  continuing  to  give  himself  to  ace.  after  all  ,  he  did  say  intimacy  betwixt  them  would  never  happen  again  after  the  first  time  they  had  become  one.

ah  ,  but  he  had  become  a  liar.  however  ,  in  his  defense  ,  the  ice  reaper  had  grown  distant.  his  first  guess  what  that  it  was  due  to  the  red  haired  woman  ——  the  one  that  apparently  had  a  thing  for  ace.  it  would  make  sense  ,  &  due  to  that  ,  he  himself  had  grown  distant  to  kurasame  for  he  now  felt  the  warmth  ,  love  ,  &  devotion  he  was  being  deprived  of  from  the  golden  boy.

❝  you  touched  me  &  i  swear  i  saw  god  for  a  second.  ❞

the  blond's  words  made  him  release  a  breath  he  didn't  know  he'd  been  holding  in  ,  gentle  hand  still  upon  their  mien.  for  as  long  as  he  could  remember  ,  ace  had  always  been  there  for  him.  a  smile  formed  upon  his  lips  as  he  recalled  the  days  where  he  had  just  come  out  of  his  coma  ,  the  blond  being  the  first  person  to  extend  their  hand  to  him.  ❝  is  that  why  you're  always  so  gentle  with  me  ?  why  your  eyes  are  always  on  me  ?  ❞

sora's new single ; dirty little secret release date ; xxx 842 rg

i'm done playing saint , so honey , don't give me your heart you can't stay the night , so honey , go back to your room didn't even mean for this to ever get this bad dirty little secret , let's just keep it in the dark

STRANGERS / NO ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP ( crushes, rivals, acquaintances, mutual pining, people who technically have no claim over each other )

“it's none of my business... so why does it bother me?”

“who was that you left with?”

“i don't know why i expected you to wait for me.”

“they're clearly interested in you.”

“you looked happy talking to them.”

“i don't get a say in who you spend time with.”

“i keep telling myself i don't care.”

“i shouldn't be jealous. we aren't anything.”

“why am i disappointed?”

“you don't even know i like you.”

“you smiled at them the way i wish you'd smile at me.”

“forget i asked.”

“you probably don't even remember my name.”

“they're better for you than i could ever be.”

“i was going to ask you out... until i saw that.”

“do you always flirt like that?”

“guess i was too late.”

“i hate that i noticed.”

“you're impossible to ignore.”

"maybe i made this all up in my head."

FRIENDS TO SOMETHING ELSE ( close friends, mutual feelings, unresolved tension )

“since when do you keep secrets from me?”

“you've been spending a lot of time with them.”

“i miss when it was just us.”

“you don't laugh with me like that anymore.”

“did they replace me?”

“i'm not asking you to choose.”

“...would you choose them?”

“i didn't realize i could lose you before i even had you.”

“you forgot our plans.”

“you always make time for them.”

“i know we're just friends.”

“so why does this hurt?”

“you don't need me anymore.”

“i hate seeing someone else become your favorite person.”

“i wish you'd notice me first.”

“am i imagining the distance between us?”

“you've changed.”

“or maybe i just finally noticed.”

“i don't want things between us to change.”

"i think they already have."

NEW RELATIONSHIP ( still learning each other, insecurity, uncertainty )

“i know we're together, but...”

“who keeps texting you?”

“you still talk to them?”

“you never mentioned them before.”

“should i be worried?”

“i don't know where i fit into your life yet.”

“i hate feeling this insecure.”

“tell me i'm enough.”

“i don't want to be the jealous partner.”

“i just don't want to lose you.”

“you said they were just a friend.”

“can you understand why that looked bad?”

“i'm trying to trust you.”

“please don't give me a reason not to.”

“why didn't you tell me?”

“i would've understood.”

“you don't have to hide people from me.”

“just don't hide the truth.”

“talk to me.”

"don't shut me out."

ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP ( dating, married, long-term partners )

“look at me, not them.”

“i saw the way they looked at you.”

“and you let them.”

“tell me i'm overthinking.”

“you always defend them.”

“you forgot about me tonight.”

“i shouldn't have to compete with anyone.”

“have i become predictable?”

“do i still make your heart race?”

“you're pulling away.”

“don't tell me nothing's wrong.”

“something changed.”

“you used to reach for my hand.”

“now you don't even notice when i'm gone.”

“am i still the person you come home to?”

“you didn't even notice i was upset.”

“tell me we're okay.”

“i need to hear you say it.”

“choose me.”

"please."

EXES ( old feelings, unfinished business, messy reunions )

“so... you're seeing someone.”

“they seem nice.”

“i hate that they're not me.”

“i shouldn't care anymore.”

“apparently i still do.”

“did you ever love me the way you love them?”

“do they know your favorite song?”

“do you tell them the same things you told me?”

“was i really that easy to replace?”

“you moved on faster than i expected.”

“i keep comparing them to myself.”

“i always lose.”

“you look happier now.”

“i'm glad... i think.”

“do you ever miss us?”

“be honest.”

“have you forgotten me already?”

“i haven't figured out how to.”

"i wish i didn't still love you."

ONE-SIDED / UNREQUITED ( loving someone who doesn't love you back )

“you don't even know.”

“you keep talking to me about them.”

“every word feels like another knife.”

“i hope they make you happy.”

“i wish i could be happy for you.”

“i almost told you.”

“now i never will.”

“you're looking at the wrong person.”

“i've been here the whole time.”

“you just never looked.”

“they don't love you like i could.”

“it's pathetic, isn't it?”

“i'm rooting for your happiness.”

“even when it breaks mine.”

“you'll never know how much this hurts.”

“i don't want to resent them.”

“but i do.”

“i hate myself for that.”

“maybe one day i'll stop loving you.”

"today isn't that day."

POSSESSIVE / TOXIC ( intentionally unhealthy dynamics for fictional purposes )

“where were you?”

“answer me.”

“who gave you permission to leave with them?”

“you're avoiding me.”

“don't lie.”

“i know you're hiding something.”

“you're mine.”

“say i'm wrong.”

“why were they touching you?”

“don't make me ask twice.”

“you knew this would upset me.”

“maybe that was the point.”

“i don't like sharing what's mine.”

“look at me when i'm talking to you.”

“tell them to leave.”

“now.”

“you're choosing them over me.”

“remember that.”

“don't test my patience.”

"you're playing a dangerous game."

AFTER THE FIGHT ( regret, reconciliation, vulnerability )

“i'm sorry.”

“i let my jealousy speak for me.”

“i know i crossed a line.”

“can we start over?”

“i was scared.”

“not angry.”

“scared of losing you.”

“i should've trusted you.”

“instead, i pushed you away.”

“do you think we can fix this?”

“i don't want jealousy to be the thing that ruins us.”

“i should've talked to you.”

“instead, i assumed the worst.”

“tell me what you need from me.”

“i'm listening this time.”

“i never wanted to hurt you.”

“i just didn't know how to tell you i was afraid.”

“please don't give up on us.”

“can you forgive me?”

now that he had gotten what he wanted, there was no point in continuing this charade. alas, he was never one to be too cruel, but he couldn't quite deduce what path would be the best to take when it came to her. hence, he decided to make his gift a parting one ── a small silver bracelet with multiple different charms attached to it. inside a written note with naught but one line ; i won't be seeing you anymore, sorry.

the thought of asking kurasame to deliver the gift had crossed his mind as he didn't want to deal with the confrontation that would sans a doubt follow. however, in the end, he decided to show up at the 𝐮𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐥 spot, box in hand 'fore placing it 'fore her. ❝ happy birthday. i can't stay, got a mission, but here. goodbye. ❞ tone of indifference & a gentle lie, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 '𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐰 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡. // ace for cross

The day was marked with a few congratulations since early at dawn. The Chancellor of the Dominion had many a quirky habits his niece, Serah, had grown accustomed to ever since he took the child under his care. Khalia was an early riser, on his feet without the first rays of sunlight having made an appearance yet, and the woman of bloodred hair sort of ingrained in herself that routine as well. Today, nevertheless, the Chancellor knocked on her door while she was still in bed.

Indulging in the vicissitudes of a birthday, choosing to remain abed for an extra hour or two, raising from the warm mattress solely to open the door and greet uncle Khalia, who brought good wishes and a present with him; he prayed the blessings of the Vermilion Crystal would reach Crosseyra for yet another year, pressing a kiss to her forehead.

Two hours later, they knocked on her door again. The Ice Reaper delivered a small cake as a birthday present and chose to have breakfast with the former princess before his labors began with Class Zero; his monstrous companion tagged along, as usual. Tea and bread and eggs and milk, with a slice of vanilla cake.

An hour past midday, however, one more visitor showed up at her door. To hide the glint of endearment in those pale-blue eyes of hers was futile for the mere second it lived. Even then, it seemed a waste of efforts to hide those feelings for Crosseyra was sure the cadet had noticed them, however, she reveled in that charade anyway, standing as the only shield that could protect her from the embarrassment.

'Ace'... That was all she managed to spell, cut short by his rushed greetings and goodbyes. The girl blinked twice, tads and bits of confusion washing over her visage, and hands took the small box hesitatingly for she struggled to find any words at all to say. "Tha... Thank you, you should't have..."

Finishing that sentence... was perhaps asking too much of his time, because Ace took his leave almost immediately.

The sigh that abandoned her lips resonated with the click of the door being closed. He remembered, that's what counts, Crosseyra thought, inspecting the wrapped box in delicate fingers. Such a petite thing, much sobriety in the enveloping, had to just pull from one end of the blue lace to have it undone.

Digits caressed the exquisitely forged charms for a very, very, long time; if she rubbed it hard enough, long enough, perhaps it'd grant her a wish, any wish, thought the girl. It took her mind off the note and the pretty handwriting on it. More importantly, off the words and the sense behind them.

She had forgotten her place in this world, yes, however, this was the painful reminder long overdue.

Crosseyra, in her wishful thinking, wanted to take comfort in the small chance their time together was enjoyable for both, a memory he could visit every now and then, if nostalgia or boredom ever allowed it. Deep down, she knew that wasn't the case.

Her eyes followed the chirping of a nightingale in the terrace, singing.

She took a deep breath, deep enough to fill her lungs with life again, and with life she felt the sadness that left her crying alone.

𝐌𝐎 𝐃𝐀𝐎 𝐙𝐔 𝐒𝐇𝐈 ; @vancreux

                𝘁𝗵𝗲  𝘄𝗮𝘆  𝗮𝗰𝗲'𝘀  𝗺𝗶𝗲𝗻  &  𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀  𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗮𝗺𝗲  𝗿𝗲𝗱  𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺  𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗮𝗿𝗿𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁  (  emotional  overload  )  made  sora  burst  out  laughing.  it  was  rare  to  see  the  golden  boy  in  such  a  state  as  the  blond  was  always  so  cool  &  seemingly  aloof.  or  at  least  ,  tried  to  be  whenever  they  were  together. ❝  aww  ,  there's  my  cute  little  aceypoo  !  see  ,  see  !  i  find  this  side  of  you  to  be  the  best  !  my  good  boy  !  ❞

cue  the  baby  talk  &  smothering  of  affection  towards  his  fellow  class  zero  cadet.  there  had  always  been  a  part  of  him  that  saw  ace  as  a  little  golden  retriever  ,  always  happily  wagging  its  tail  ——  a  loyal  puppy  to  its  owner.  ah  ,  if  only  kurasame  had  a  side  like  that.

sadly  ,  the  ice  reaper  had  always  been  rather  dense  ,  stoic  ,  &  serious  for  as  long  as  he  could  remember.  not  to  mention  ,  the  man  kinda  sucked  at  being  romantic. ❝  as  if  !  like  i'd  warn  you  !  i'd  miss  the  complete  genuine  reaction  if  i  did  !  no  way  !  you're  just  going  to  have  to  deal  with  it  &  fully  embrace  my  love  &  affection  my  cute  little  puppy.  ❞

Linda Pastan, from Insomnia: Poems; “Sex Education”

repost of a meme by moonpiehelps: mentions of panic attacks , vomiting , trauma , self harm , and distressing situations . Feel free to adjust as needed ! ♡ 

( 𝐑𝐔𝐁 ) ; one muse rubs the other’s back to comfort them while in a moment of distress.

( 𝐁𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐓 ) ; one muse grabs a bucket for the other who’s about to throw up. 

( 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐄 ) ; our muses share a bed so the other doesn’t have to be alone. 

( 𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐑 ) ; one muse calls the other a term of endearment to comfort them. 

( 𝐇𝐔𝐆 ) ; one muse holds the other close while they open up / cry.

( 𝐀𝐈𝐃 ) ; one muse runs to the others aid after they were violently hurt. 

( 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 ) ; one muse calls sender late at night in tears and the other comes over to comfort them. 

( 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇 ) ; one muse reaches out to the other after they’ve withdrawn from everyone. 

( 𝐏𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂 ) ; one muse discovers the other during a panic attack. 

( 𝐍𝐔𝐑𝐒𝐄 ) ; one muse takes care of the other while they’re sick.

( 𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse holds the other’s hand while they’re in pain or panicking. 

( 𝐂𝐔𝐃𝐃𝐋𝐄 ) ; one muse offers to cuddle with the other to help them sleep.

( 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐅𝐈𝐃𝐄 ) ; one muse opens up to the other about a traumatic experience. 

( 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄 ) ; one muse guides the other through a breathing technique.

( 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse comes to the other with an injury they’ve been trying to hide that’s beginning to worry them.

( 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 ) ; one muse gently kisses the other while they’re crying.

( 𝐁𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄 ) ; one muse helps the other into a bath/shower after a traumatic event. or they bathe together.

( 𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐁 ) ; our muses instinctively grab each other while they’re scared.

( 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐄 ) ; one muse gives the other a shoulder rub.

( 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 ) ; one muse wipes blood off of the other.

( 𝐕𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐓 ) ; one muse shows up at the other’s doorstep in tears.

( 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse has been missing and finally shows up, dirty and traumatized. the other helps clean them up and tries to get them to talk.

( 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐄 ) ; one muse wakes up the other after having a horrific nightmare.

( 𝐌𝐄𝐀𝐋 ) ; one muse makes the other a warm meal to make them feel better.

( 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄 ) ; one muse has been slowly deteriorating mentally/physically, the other takes it upon themselves to make sure they’re taken care of.

( 𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐄 ) ; one muse takes the other’s face ( cheeks , chin ) when trying to comfort them. 

( 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 ) ; one muse lets the other stay over when their house gets too stressful.

( 𝐃𝐎𝐎𝐑 ) ; one muse sits outside the door to comfort the other who won’t let them in.

( 𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇 ) ; one muse stays over to make sure the other doesn’t hurt themselves.

( 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐊𝐄 ) ; one muse strokes the others hair.

( 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐔𝐌𝐀 ) ; our muses sit together after a traumatic experience. 

( 𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse helps ground the other ( bonus if you specify how ) 

( 𝐈𝐂𝐄 ) ; one muse holds an ice pack to the other’s injury.

( 𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐏 ) ; our muses cry and hold each other after a traumatic experience. 

( 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 ) ; one muse strides up to the other and suddenly embraces them tightly after experiencing something distressing. 

( 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑 ) ; one muse calms the terrified other.