volcanic heart

We meet there.

Just send me the address. I will be there.

Sure thing, captain. 

We can have dinner one of these days, if you want to.

What do you think? 

Yeah, sure, dinner would be nice. 

Right. 

I could say no, but what’s the point here? Just like you said we were something, I guess, maybe friends. So why not? 

Right. Can we... Can I see you again sometime?

Desculpe, é que… Isso é… Wow.

Ela anda muito estranha e eu tenho certeza que é por causa disso. Minah nunca é distraída ou fica divagando por aí, esses dias eu a peguei encarando o nada com uma interrogação na cara, tem ideia do quão esquisito isso é pra ela? Mas realmente, a parte de sair correndo é bem a cara dela. Por Merlin, ela deve estar absolutamente surtando por causa disso. Surtando em níveis gigantescos. Tenho pena é de quem trabalha pra ela no meio desse surto.

É, eu também não esperava isso da sua irmã, mas vai saber.

If you are saying, I will trust you.

Alright, we can see if this works, but if things go wrong, I’ll blame you.

Yeah, okay, we can work with that.

Maybe.

The only thing I know is that if you were someone else I would have been gone a long time ago, but something about you makes me want to talk to you, hear what you have to say and be with you right now. But where this will lead us… I have no idea. 

It’s not a maybe, it’s the truth. I would never lie to you, Minah. 

I actually had a few drinks, but that’s not why I kissed you. Don’t ask me to explain because I still don’t know why I did it, but I wanted to. God, I wanted to kiss you and I thought you did too. 

And somehow I was right, although that’s not the point. 

What am I trying to avoid? You, Eugene. You do something to me and I don’t know if I like not being in control of my emotions or my body. 

Yeah, you were right, I did want to kiss you too.

Glad for the kiss? 

I just told you that we don’t need to act like teenagers and here I am, acting like one. I’m going to be honest with you, because somehow I like being honest with you, more than usual. So I wanted to kiss you and that’s why I did what I did. 

And I don’t know what I was feeling or thinking, actually I wasn’t thinking about anything, just… It just felt right in that moment and I never felt that. Then I couldn’t look at you because that never happened to me. So It was not your fault and you’re not a fool. Sometimes it’s easier to blame other things than face reality, right?

And these last few days have been hell for me, because…

Eugene… 

Then... you wanted to kiss me? It was not just a thing you did because you had a few drinks? What reality exactly you’re trying to avoid? 

That’s ok. Glad they are ok, don’t worry.

I don’t know if I can explain you what happened to me that day, Eugene. 

And you’re right, It’s not the sort of thing I would do. That’s why I left without explaining, because I didn’t quite know what to say, I still don’t. But if you want to say something, say it now, because I don’t want things to get weird between us. 

Look, Minah, I’ll be honest with you. Yeah, I wasn’t really expecting you to kiss me, I think we both know that and I guess you weren’t expecting to do that as well. Half way there, however, I was just... Glad. Yes, I think glad is a nice word. 

I don’t know what it is about you, I really don’t. Hell, I don’t think anybody knows, but you got me so... God, I couldn’t stop thinking about you after that kiss and you left me there like a complete fool and I couldn’t really decide if I was angry with you or upset or if I was just missing you. And now you just... You said everything that you said and here I am again thinking you just left me alone. 

So yeah, I get it that you don’t to make a big deal out of this and yes, I promise you that I won’t.

Eu só chamo as pessoas velhas de velhas. Você, a Minah, Eventualmente o Bram. Só os velhos da minha vida.

A Minah O QUÊ? Por Merlin, o Q e a Lene vão adorar saber disso. Eu sabia, sabia que tinha algo estranho acontecendo, ela anda muito estranha. Quero dizer, a Minah é sempre estranha, e geralmente tem a ver com “aquele cara que me dá nos nervos” que todos nós sabemos que é você, mas dessa vez ela estava mortalmente silenciosa e até pensamos que algo muito ruim tinha acontecendo. Agora eu entendi tudo. Me conta direito essa história aí.

Pelo amor de Merlin, não grite, estamos num hospital. Por favor não faça um alvoroço por causa disso se não seus irmãos vão aparecer por aqui gritando também. Ela anda estranha? Você acha que é por causa disso?

Had better days? Something happened? Your sister, your grandma, are they ok?

Look, I think you figured it out that day, but I’m not good at this stuff. So, we kissed, I mean, I kissed you and then I left, because I freaked out. But we’re not teenagers, so… We don’t need to pretend anything. We talked a lot that day and we… I probably had a few drinks before we met and it happened. We don’t need to turn this into something big, right? 

No, they’re fine really. I guess I chose the wrong words, I’m sorry.

No, yeah, you’re right. We don’t need to pretend anything. I guess I just wanted to know the reason you did what you did since it’s not very you. But then you left and I couldn’t really say anything and well, you got me really confused for a long time, but since you’re saying all that to me now I think it’s all quite clear. 

You’re right, everyone knows her.

Of course, I’m totally fine. Are you? 

You guys seems to get along pretty well. I know it’s hard to be uncomfortable around her, but I’m glad. 

Porque no fundo você também é dramático. Um velho dramático, no caso. Mas é bom te ver também.

Estou bem, bem. Seguindo com a vida, sabe. E você? Como está nos últimos tempos? Alguma novidade, algo estranho acontecendo e tal, assim sem nada específico, sabe. Algo pra me contar?

Não sei que mania é essa de vocês de sempre chamar as pessoas de velhas, mas tudo bem, vou deixar passar.

Oh, do you know Tomika? She is nice. 

Look, we don’t need… this. I’m really sorry for the last time. 

She’s my sister’s... something, I don’t know. But yeah, I know her, I think everyone knows her. 

E eu não posso vir aqui só pra falar com meu grande amigo? Minha presença de incomoda tanto assim, Jin? Se for assim me avisa que eu sumo e você nunca mais vai ouvir falar de mim.

Eu não sei porque minha vida é cheia de jovens dramáticos. Vamos, Yohan, sente, é bom te ver, de verdade. Faz tempo que não vejo nenhum de vocês, só vi o Quentin de longe. 

Não se preocupe, eu esbarrei em você. 

Não sabia que você frequentava esse local, embora acho que todo mundo deve conhecer, está sempre tão lotado. 

Ah não, eu não venho muito aqui, fico mais recluso ao que servem no hospital. Eu vim só porque a Tomika precisava de ajuda com uma coisa, o que me rendeu um café de graça.

Eu sei que você é um jogador, mas não faz sentido vir sempre aqui, até porque só lembro de te ver machucado uma vez. Você parece bem hoje, então o que foi?